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I was watching a video that said it was from someone called asket of the league of light. Wonder if they are tied into the galactic federation of light or a rebel group or a subgroup. She did mention a thing I disagree with, that earth is the home of those here. To me it feels like it's not my home, that I'm just here for a mission. my real home feels, elsewhere, or I may have more then one. perhaps where those dolphins are where there are those crystalline structures that sorta sing, but one quickly gets use to it where they can't here it anymore. or that may be one of several permanent homes I live at for various lengths of time. There may be a mission home I hang out at during a mission, or the soul or higher self/spirit, whatever and I may visit and stay at the dolphin crystal place for various lengths of time.

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think I'll just not bother to go back to capitalize something that should be if I missed it. I'll correct typos and misspellings, but not missed capitalization if I miss then the first time, to much of a bother.
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I did mentally say to shad and the dolphins and the dolphin guy if any of them wanted time with me to talk or something it would be ok.
had 2 interesting encounters in the white buffer space thing. is that an aspect of me, some sort of inner space somewhere, or something else? I don't know what or where it is. It is all white and I can make stuff appear there. Though the furniture is always white, never did try to change it's color. Food has color. gravity also only effects me as much as I want. i can lay back on nothing and remain in place. neat.

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the 2 encounters I had there were interesting. the first was shad, like happened before, was already there before I got there. We mainly had sex, speaking a bit. though it still felt a bit different. Like for him it was a bit more spiritual also and not physical, or maybe I'm becoming more aware of things. Though at some point I went to sleep so maybe it was for the first time I was able to experience being fully there instead of 10% there and 90% in this body.

First he looked like an anthro dolphin, then switched to a shark, then for the 3rd time back to a dolphin. Then he went off some distance saying he needed to rest and I could see him seemingly go to sleep in the distance.

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after this the female dolphin appeared and I don't think we said a single thing to each other. it was as if we didn't need to. Though looking back at it later I did get the impression she was thinking something like, the wait is over, now is the first proper time in a while, something along those lines.

We shared our being, in a more soul/spirit sharing type sex. At the time it felt like we had done this very often, we were close enough to not need to talk all the time. Almost as if a lot of time had passed, but also no time at all, since we were last together. She was a dolphin looking form at first, switching to an anthro looking dolphin after a while. I switched to a dolphin form like she had after a bit. No idea how long this lasted that we shared our being, in what some may call a soul/spiritual type sex. it seemed to go on for a timeless amount of time. I did feel the kudalini responding and the usual type experience when souls share some of their very essence. hard to describe.

later after I awoke and had been awake for an hour or so i did send a question to her hoping we could do that again in the future, more then once and when she responded with a (certainly/yes). for some reason i felt, from the mental contact message she sent for some reason sent a wave of pleasure through my body and my kundalini started to resonate for a while.

Then a short time after this i had a 2nd question i sent to her. I asked her that when I am a separate soul with all (I was going to finish saying, of my soul parent's memories what would our relationship be, if it would change) but she interrupted with a: (then I'll have another.) with the same wave of pleasure wash through me from her message and my kundalini responding, for some reason. i got the same when I then kidding and half serious said to her, maybe then we can do a 3 some. I meant her, my soul aspect and myself once I'm a separate soul. I got the impression of her giggling at this, liking the idea and the same wash of pleasure and my kundalini responding. i do wonder why I get these 2 reactions when she contacted me those times.

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I got an idea, not sure if it occurred to me or someone sent me the idea. Perhaps I'll learn more yoga postures and maybe study a bit of tai chi. I do have a small yoga book, and I'm sure I can find some good educational tai chi videos on youtube.

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watching a video and felt like the energy they were sending were a sort of fussy warm love type feel to it.

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How to describe what the experience with her was like, the being that looks usually like a type of female dolphin. Sharing one's very being, which is what we did, sharing our very being with each other. Saying what we did was sharing soul/spirit sex isn't close, using the term that my immediate family call sharing is closer, sharing, intermingling energies, that is pleasurable, but the experience with her went far deeper. We didn't merge, wasn't our intent so that didn't happen, but we did share our being.

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got a fragment of a memory, don't recall if I was anthro, non anthro dolphin, or a humanoid. Maybe they can change the way they look. I was talking to 2 others, a female and male dolphin. the sky i didn't pay much attention to in the memory, but it didn't look like earth's sky. the water was maybe multi colored I think. I do remember various colors either the water, sky or both. maybe the sky was a darker color then earth, violet or something maybe. Not sure. i was focused on talking to the 2 and didn't fully look at the sky during the conversation.

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I was thinking about her. Was she that soul i merged with that one time when I was over wherever that place is that I've projected to all those times? Also did she use to be a part of the same soul that I'm part of but choose to to be a separate soul with all of it's memories?

I also wonder about that dolphin guy. he would not admit to much. We are both aspects of the same oversoul, he is one of my guides for this next phase I'm in, whatever the next phase is, no one's telling me what it is. he did say I'm very close when i asked if he's my higher self, soul, or oversoul.

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