will full awakening just happen to me or will you help with that?

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Dryad mentioned I wasn't aligned with the earth, that she said: "I pointed that out to your soul that it needs to align Itself with you and the earth to be stable here."

makes me wonder, is this my first incarnation on the earth?  Is this my first incarnation overall?  Either idea feels cool to me.  I really would like to know which.  Soul part isn't saying.  Wonder if it would if I kept bugging it, though I do want to know. '

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Almost forgot an incident this morning.  When I awoke I lay in bed for a bit.  It felt like the area from the top of my head down to somewhere, couldn't tell where it stopped, throat level? Below?  Had a very dense energy.  My energy but very dense, and more energy was coming in through the middle area?  I felt a bit of love for a moment when I noticed this and was sorta feeling around the area mentally. 

as I type this I can feel some sort of energy again. Like a warmth, pouring in from ? above, through my head and down into my chest area. 

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makes me wonder, if soul didn't know to align with the earth and with me, would that be a sign this could be my first incarnation overall?  Not that I'd think more or less of myself if I found out this was my first incarnation ever or just my first on earth.  Just curious. 

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had a ? flash?  I wasn't here, I was ? elsewhere, somewhere white? 

I either could see only white for a few seconds, or was the place was different shades of white?, but could hear what this human aspect/part was listening to, a silly youtube video.   I was like there and here at the same time, or part of me was there and part was here too.  but i could only see what was there.

could be allowed to come here to help with what folks here are going through.  being first incarnation would help in certain ways that others would find harder to do with all the incarnations behind them, even ones from other worlds.  easier time accessing soul stuff?  could have been helping out on other worlds & places, even though not incarnating.  Didn't like certian aspects of incarnating.  viel of forgefulness one aspect strong dislike,  but did on earth due to what is happening, will happen here?  ? can/could  put up with since it would be temporary here?  ? some things may be harder?  ? help would be found here in for certain areas?


Fall on head slighlty weaken it?  one corner? 
? not into incarnating,

Not sure of any of that, got most of that as the few second flash and I could see only white. was I elsewhere,  downloading something?  the bit about falling on my head was a speculation and not part of whatever that flash seeing all white was.  Or if whatever I got, through whatever that seeing all white, or was somewhere, if some of that got mixed in with what I was thinking/pondering.

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did a mediation of " I am one." then shorted it to "one." got the impression I was excited about coming here to earth.  Something about this specific time was part of the reason for the incarnation.

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curious of the mix.  am I a new soul.  is this just my first time incarnating on earth, or incarnating period.  am I a new soul, or not a young soul but maybe young adult, adult or matuere or older soul.  Or working with older souls have I picked up some of their traits before i normally would or has my not incarnating made certain things faster to learn but other things not as fast. 

why the exitment of incarnating on earth. is it due to this being my first incarnation on this world, my first ever, something about what is going on here at this time, a mix of those things? 

I feel deep within me, not just the human part, certain aspects of incarnating I dislike.  I'm willing to help those who have incarnated, but don't like certain characteristics of incarnating myself.  my true feelings or just the feelings of a young soul, or one never incarnated before.    also have the sorta feeling maybe 1 incarnation and maybe that is it, since there are many ways to help and learn as well as do stuff. 

Incarnate here for special reasons but ? incarnating not for me overall, not as someone incarnating?  feelings all young souls have, or my true feelings even if i had a thousand incarnations behind me.  ? more interest in soul realms stuff then being incarnate?  earth at this time a special case ? 

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tried to set up a blogspot since I already have a google acount, but it seems one has to have already baught your own domain.  I figured I could set up a blog easy since I already have a google account, but I guess not.  I'll look into it and see if all blogs require you own your own domain.  no idea how expensive that is. 

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? coming to incarnate on earth a special case.  exited about incarnating on earth due ot first incarnation here, first incarnation anywhere,due to special time what earth is going through here.   To share some knowledge of soul realms stuff with those here, but spend the rest of soul life in soul realms.  ? maybe need to incarnate once to get to do something I want as one of the passstime hobbies there?   in soul realms everything one does is more like play and hobbies.  no have to work like here. 

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Tried looking up guides on how to set up your own blog.  The beginner ones are to complicated for me. I give up. if the universe or the one wants me to have a blog they'll have to figure out a way for me to get one since i've no idea how to get one or set one up myself. i give up.

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Got info popped into my mind from ? soul ? someone else?  before I was in the shower, said mental thanks in the shower.   Had an experience that I'll not put down here.

But it does work.  I'll likely take a few days to get the hang of the blogspot thing, and try a few different templates.


Hmm, it seems a part of me is in the process of re merging with me.  That sounds cool, awesome even. 

(silly question.  when the re-merge is complete, can I claim a large piece of cake?  )

I guess if that was the shadow part of me that asked that.  Since we are all part of the same soul identity, it knew what my answer would be, but free will being what it is I suspect I had to say yes, though as I mention, we are all parts of the same soul it knew what my answer would be.  Just had to keep gently nudging me to get me to answer.  

Hmm, seems souls may be naturally sexual beings.    Makes sense now that I think about it that they would be sexually open.  That feels right, that they are what we'd call sexually open, to them that is normal so nothing unusual about that.

Was contemplating & thinking of my age.  How do I feel?    Hmm.  a first timer to earth, but not a first timer to incarnating perhaps.  maybe incarnated on other worlds? that sounds right.  Worlds without the karma and the viel of forgetfulness that exists here?    maybe.  feels right or at right in many aspects.  is here the only place with karma?  how about the veil of forgetfulness?  

That feels right.  Not sure if I have incarnated on other worlds or just helped behind the scenes, or a mix of the 2.  Could that be why I'm attracted to certain animals more then others, or does that have nothing to do with it?  Hmm.

listed alphabetically: Dolphins, Dragons, Nagas (full reptilian not half human), Orcas.    Hmm.    2nd I'd say lizards and snakes.