WED [1-21]

Had an interesting experience this morning.  I'll try to type up the experience as best as I can recall.  Some of the stuff may be out of order.
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I was laying in bed resting a bit before I got up.  I had an image again of the 2 of us, soul aspect and me, in the bodies like we have before, sorta anthro beluga whales, but not quite, and as before when soul touched the body in the image I could sorta feel it.  Perhaps soul is getting me use to being multidimensional.  Intellectually.  I guess maybe this is getting me use to being multidimensional instead of just knowing intellectually knowing I am.  If this is experiencing what it's like then it can be said to be practical experience.

Soul was hugging me from behind again. 
I started asking soul about some stuff that I can't remember now.  <edit added in later: I do remember 1 thing.  I asked: "So which is true.  I read & heard that ego has to die for me to awaken fully, but in a video I saw last night Matt said ego is just inflamed personality, which is correct?"  Soul answered: [Matt]

I then got the mental image of  silver tray floating into the bouncing slightly up and down.  On it were to fancy pitches of 2 different colors.  One of them lifted as if by some pk and poured an invisible liquid into an invisible cup.  It felt like the invisible cup was put into my hand.  And soul said to me: "drink."

I asked: "but how can I? it's just imaginary, not real."
Soul: "Drink." with a gentle mental poke. I mentally shrug and imagine drinking the liquid.  The odd thing is I could feel the liquid both in the mouth of the image that as me and I could also feel it in the physical body's mouth, like it was some sort of soul energy and when I imagined swallowing it in the image I felt it start to go down my throat for a inch or 2 then wash through my entire energy of my energy in my physical body.   I've never felt that before.   I wonder how that liquid worked, what was it.   I think soul want back to hugging me from the back again, this time resting his left cheek against my right one.  I do have to admit that somehow I do notice I feel better after drinking whatever that stuff was. 

I just enjoy the experience for a while.  Then I ask soul aspect something that I can't remember. It then gently turns me around, it's beak touching the tip of mine.  It's eyes staring deep into mine and into my being. It feels like I'm in a light hypnotic trance.  It then says some stuff to me.  I don't recall all of it.  I think it started off with something like: "relax, accept, enjoy....." the rest I can't recall.

It goes back to hugging and us both enjoying the experience.  I ask: "Will I know what the liquid stuff was?" I ask with mild curiosity. Soul puts its left cheek on my right cheek and we sway a bit side by side.  "someday." he says.

I then ask, "So did you put me in a hypnotic trance?  How did you do that?"

Soul answers: {well, I am telepathic, and you are me so....}   I ask just out of mild curiosity: "doesn't that violate some sort of free will?"

Soul answers: {well you want my help don't you?}    I answer: "Certainly."   then soul rubs my chest in the image with it's right hand and says, {see, no free will violated.}  we go back to enjoying the experience of it hugging me with it's left cheek on my right as we sway a bit side to side.  I wonder if the reason soul is doing these seductive things is so I'll get use to it since we (soul and the immediate family) do this often and soul wants me to get use to this since this is normal for us.   I somehow know this is why soul is doing this, for that reason and so we can just enjoy the experience. Soul then says: {certainly. and some friends do too.}  maybe getting me use to this sorta everyday way we have fun and share enjoyment of being and being seductive before the deeper or further stuff we normally do with each other is introduced to me so I can get use to the next level.  Soul says basically the same as before: {certainly, us and some friends as well.}   We continue to just enjoy this for a bit before the image stops.

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I wonder what the liquid was.  Some sort of multidimensional drink.  I wasn't upset or anything before I drank it, but I do recall I felt better after drinking it.  It makes sense, since apparently they have implants, and tech or a method to put the implants into and take them out.  It makes sense there could be some sort of liquid.  I wonder if the liquid did something to me or not. I don't recall it having any taste.   I did ask soul, "if we can have some of the soul food and liquid later eventually?"   soul did answer: [certainly.] 

A little after I typed this I got the mental image of being kissed and could dimly feel it.  Now that I think about it it's like I am only feeling maybe 10% of it.  Maybe since I'm not fully aware of being multidimensional, or only partially aware?

Then I got the mental image of a small plate with a slice of cake on it floating into my mind's eye, bounding a bit as if it were carried by someone.  It was offered to me.  I recall it smelled delicious and I took 2 bites, it tasting delicious, but but like the kiss it was dim, like I was only getting maybe 10% of the experience?  maybe since I'm not yet fully aware of being multidimensional or I'm not fully awakened or ascended yet?   I did mentally chew a bit but it felt like I don't need to chew it.  So I swallowed it.  I could feel a warm feel like it went down my physical throat or the energy equivalent of my throat and into my stomach.  Then I felt a burst go from the stomach through the energy in my body.   A faint tingling?  but it was diffidently a good feeling that burst from the stomach and wash throughout the energy in this body.  Very interesting experience.  I wonder what it's like if i were getting 100% of the experience, smell and taste.

I find it that i can feel stuff in the mental image body of the experiences.  My idea is I'm being introduced to what it feels like to be multidimensional.  Also interesting how if I drink or eat something in the mental image body I feel it in the energy in this body.  So I guess what I take to be a mental image is real, some other location in one of the planes perhaps?

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I was curious and before I lay down to take a nap I asked soul out of curiosity if there is a liquid that can help me get to sleep quickly.  Not to use as a crutch, just since I'm curious.  I got ready to take a nap and when I lay down I had the mental image or was also wherever I am in that body.  and I had a glass of some liquid in my hand.  I did a sort of mental shrug and took mouthful of whatever it was.  Again it was like I could not taste all of it, just maybe 5 or 10% of it.  It was delicious, but a taste I can't describe since I've never tasted anything even remotely similar.  I took a second mouthful and went to sleep in less then a minute.   Guess that answers that question.

Also as I woke up I was there (and here too) again and found myself opening my mouth.  For a moment I wondered why then heard soul say as I saw one of it's hands with a piece of what looked like cake appear and put it into my mouth.  As it did it said, {don't swallow immediately.}  I held it in my mouth seeing if I could taste it and had the feeling again I wasn't fully tasting it, just a small percent.  It was a delicious sweet type of taste.  then it said [ok]  and when I swallowed I felt a type of tingle and a good feeling erupt from my mouth that rippled through the energy in this body.  Interesting that there is some sort of multidimensional food.

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later I was watching a short video on starseeds and it got to a bit where it said you are here on a mission.  And in a good naturedly joking manner said mentally to soul aspect, "yea, to be seduced by my soul aspect."  I was also partially in that wherever place and it gave me a hug as it said {oooo, that is just a fringe benefit.}  just a bit of good natured joking back and forth.

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Was joking around with soul aspect again asking it humorously: "why are you giving and feeding me all this soul food stuff?  Trying to get me fat?"

It responds in a similar humorous tone to it's voice: "you can't get fat on this kind of food."

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Just as I reread this I remembered something I forgot.  It was as if a part of my mind or me knew soul was going to put me into a light hypnotic trance and decided to accept it, then I forgot that bit until just now.  Still no idea on all that soul said to me while i was in that trance state.  just an impression of the first few words that i said above. 

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Took a short break in typing something for an rp I'm in elsewhere.  I was sitting back in my chair and at the same time I was there, the same place in the same looking body.  This time I found I had a piece of cake in my hand, no plate.  I did a mental type shrug and put it into my mouth, pausing to see if I can taste it.  Again it was like I was getting only 10% of the taste, but it was delicious, but also the tastes were far more complex then the human body can taste.  After I swallowed it I felt the usual burst from the back of the mouth area of this body with a pleasant good feeling wash through this body's energy.  But also a warmth from either my stomach or the 3rd chakra area, not sure which.  I did ask soul aspect why it's giving me all this food but all I get is the impression of a smile that means it won't say, at least not now.  I am curious though.  I would guess the sensations I'm feeling are that the food, or whatever it is, is having some positive effect on me that I'm not aware of, at least not yet.  I am still curious though.

I'm also thinking, is there a reason, an ulterior motive/reason,
silly pondering: or is it some sort of feed the incarnation some of our food day?
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After I took a shower then lay down to rest or nap. I was in 2 places again, like in my posts. In my physical body but also somewhere else in a sorta anthro beluga whale sorta body. Soul and I were hugging and kissing again. Soul went right for that, no talking. Then caressing that body of mine with it's hands. It moved to a more foreplay type thing, I put the mental (no idea if you know this is a specific plane or something?) I put my arms around his body and started to copy what his hands were doing, and then the rubbing of tongues. pressing a leg into each others' groin area. it felt like our energies were starting to intermingle slightly. The it moved to sex. The love we felt was there mixed in.

He had an erection in that and started to thrust into my, apparently the body I had was a hermaphrodite body. No idea of his was too or was male only. His thrusting into my female part caused a constant orgasm with the energy in this body starting to resonate, not to mention I got a physical erection. Still with love mixed in with the orgasm. It was hard to remain in the scene, but to hard. then he started to use a hand to caress my male bit and the constant orgasm grew stronger, the energy in this body grew hot and resonated stronger. Though this made it harder to hold onto the scene. I kept slipping back into being in the physical body only. After a half minute or so he stopped rubbing my male bit, then continued thrusting with the constant orgasm and the energy in this body resonating. The scene ended and it felt like a minute or so but the clock says 5 minutes had past. ever had an experience like this. It was ,wow, I do hope to experience it again. I guess having ? sex? , with one's soul is a good thing? I wonder if this was just for fun, or for other reasons also.

I can honestly say i'd like to experience it again. if doing this with ones soul aspect is like this, I wonder if what it would be like with one of one's guides or immediate soul family. that is if some guides do that or immediate soul family does. Ever heard of anything like this?  Though for now I think I'd prefer to keep it just between me and either my soul aspect or another aspect of myself.    I wonder if and when we, soul aspect and I, will share this again.   I did ask if we can do that again sometimes and it did say [certainly].  I think it best to not try for it or want it every time. Perhaps best to let soul decide when is best since it can see the larger picture and see more then I can.

Someone mentioned there may be some connection or association that ties me to to this particular version of me? The only thing I can think of maybe is maybe some sort of past live me? Since soul did say I would have the choice if I want to re merge with it or not. The key word here is re-merge which one can mean that I can guess that this me did have a past life of some sort and choose to re-merge with soul for some reason. Maybe it was a life that I fully awakened in it. and or soul may have incarnated twice to do a twin flame thing, or maybe soul and it were lovers. No idea if any known alien race looks like that I see. Though soul may be just taking images from who knows where.