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[I put this here since it is so long. ]

Funny thing. I asked her her name and she said "Kulstor." followed by giggles. Names don't really matter. I asked since i was curious what she'd say.

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I've been thinking. Some of my interests have changed recently. I use to listen to podcasts but i've dropped all of them but 1, car talk. Think I may pick up a tiny handful again, maybe.
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I'll see if I can get some answers from her :) I am curious.

"Just what is our relationship, though I do have my suspicions."

her: <your inner feelings are correct. Twin flame is the closest human term but such a term does not even begin to come close. your earlier feeling that you had a twin who had not incarnated is correct. it would have been to huge of a distraction.>

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"I can see that. where did kulstor come from?"

<we had not split then, our energies were still part of the soul you're still part if. long ago by human reckoning on a world not yet known to humans. It may or may not be on another dimension, I'll leave that a bit of a mystery.>

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<yes, that confusing life you partially remembered is confusing since you were remembering it from 3 points of view. We could have split off then , but this mission would be easier if 1 of us did not. part of your feeling not wanting to be there was since you felt the separation on a level that was not yet conscious. Yet the separation had to be till you reached a certain point. You can feel the headache which is why you take so many breaks tying this session, a good thing, our relationship is intense indeed. This was the earliest time we could make contact, when you had gotten to this phase you are currently in. Yes, meditating on the love we share may indeed be a good thing, though love pales by what we truly share. and your memory of the soul choosing the specific energy elements/strands, not the correct term but English has no term exists. other types of meditation also, but you have ideas or already do those.>

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"what is a higher self?"

<an expression of the soul that is stepped down so the physical incarnate expression can communicate with it then with the soul. to simplify it as much as possible. Defining the difference between soul and spirit is a bit more complex we can go into later, or you may "remember" the data."

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'is what I do to get into the whatever that all white place is mental projection?"

<as you read in the book that had Rosicrucian teachings you read ages ago? in part. you can ask another to pull you there when the body is asleep or in a state similar to sleep. as you have experienced. and yes, mental projection is often like being in 2 places at once. You are experiencing a bit of your being a multidimensional being. Though you can experience that also and have, when you had some treatments or met with him, the one Shad calls dolphin dude. The mechanics of how this is done is a bit complex to explain, but you are multidimensional so one part of your being can be here while other parts are still in your body. if the body sleeps or is in a similar state then you may experience being in just 1 place.>

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any way to integrate with Shad faster?

<a more fun way no. the method you 2 are is much more fun and more proper. there are other ways and paths of achieving this but your method is natural for the type of soul that you and we are. as your higher self said. more sexually open then humans are are our way, though some are more of the extreme and some are more like vulcans, though all souls are love, these may be less emotional seeming to outsiders but they are more reserved, less prone to extreme. Others are willing to have what humans call sex with any soul that is of at least passing interest. though we are open we are not of that extreme. one has to be a close friend. a mere friend at the soul level we may intermingle energies a bit, similar to shaking hands. >

<yes, the kundalini does recognize me for what i am an that is why it resonates that and any contact we do we do exchange energies, we just do, for us and others like is it is unavoidable. that is why that time with the other what humans call dolphins in the crystal place, the name would be hard to translate to English so why bother. even just being near to each other we were sharing energy at the slight level, that and you did feel the connection, if one wishes to share that term. Even with the veil in place some soul things will still leak through, especially at the level you are on the path you are on, to use terms and labels.>

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"are you one of the guides for me?"

<as such, in a way. not properly but a guide for certain things, helping you to start to be more aware of yourself, a certain part of yourself. to help with your awakening, though he (the dolphin guy to use your term) will help in certain things that will come to light soon, some things you have seen, like the treatments, the reason for them and if you will have more or not will come to light soon.>

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"What about chakra work?"

<that will take care of itself in time, though you may want to do certain things at certain times, that will come to light if needed or as an option either you thinking of it yourself or another suggesting it to you since you can't do all the work yourself, others help also at times.>

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<be your true self, see past the conditioning and programing. as you progress you help others. >

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"how about the dolphin guy?"

<a guide for this phase and perhaps the next. his 'relationship' is special, not a mere guide only. certain clues are there and if you mess putting them together it will come to fruition and you will know one day, soon or maybe not so soon. >

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"so not going to exactly tell. he may be the soul, oversoul or spirit. once this is over will we merge once I'm an individual soul with soul parent's memories. Sounds like that may sorta complicate our relationship which feels kinda cool to me."

<he is a close thing. and we may merge, I suspect we may at times, and decades or centuries may pass before we unmerge, since as glorious as being 1 will be, being 2 and sharing what we share will be greater. and soul relationships can get complicated indeed. and that does make it more fun for ones such as us. more sexually open and sexual beings, though not to the extreme that some are. any embarrassment and bashfulness is part of the human society conditioning and programming, though that is weakening. it'll weaken and go away over time, just relax, accept and be yourself. your progress will happen naturally and you will merge and awaken fully. it WILL happen regardless, even if you were to totally fight it it would still happen, but would take longer, just go with the flow and it'll be far far more fun. part of being limited to linear time does make one want to do something to make it happen faster. all things will happen in time.>

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"so after this phase you'll remain in contact and such?"

<no certainly not. though waiting was not as hard for me as you since your soul is multidimensional meeting the incarnate you was a hard wait but the wait is over and we'll not be separated again. except for certain missions & then only temporarily like now.>

"think you'd like some fun with Shad?" (asked in a silly joking manner)

<the more primal, shadow aspect of yours, the funny/silly idea of yours does have a certain fun appeal, but no, the 2 of you need to continue merging as you are now. after all if the 2 of you had not merged to the degree you had the day we saw each other we would have to had waited longer till you entered the phase where we could meet.>

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