Friday (2)  1-16   G rated.

With how I felt felt the need to see if I could go wherever I was able to go.  Used the same past life regression hypnosis video.  was a bit different this time.  During the initial relaxation felt like Soul aspect or someone sorta stepped into this body saying "we'll take over relax." I felt like I was both there and in the body at the same time. This time when they talked to me they didn't use words after the initial sentence but they sent the word in instant pop like that it seems to take a second or maybe 2 for my mind to understand what was sent.  I've experienced that a time or 2 on my visits over there.

There was a flash of green, I think one of them was green color, the others seemed to be in front of me, dark colored but I couldn't see how many there were, 5, 9, more, less?

I felt a sort of tingling that went through my body and felt the 7 chakras in order responding to it more less.  Some responding more then others.  I got the pop "raising vibration."   then another phase started.

It felt like I was gently held in place while also being pushed to one side.  I at first allowed myself to be pushed but I got the pop of "hold position, don't move."  and I held my position.  It felt like a shaft of energy that at first was some ? vibration or dimension I was able to just barely feel then it became more solid the closer it came to me.  It felt like at first like it was vibrating or shaking very fast.  It felt like it went into my head & down to my neck?  Including my neck?     I got the pop of "realigning."  and it felt like while it was there like something was removed from somewhere in my head. No idea what or why.  I then got the pop of "relax." and I found I was fully in my body.  I felt sort odd and lay there with my eyes colored for a short bit of time.    No idea what that was about.

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I'll have to remember to edit the rest of the stuff to be g rated.  that'll be a bit later tonight.

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Guess I've not fully integrated with my shadow yet.  I can't really feel it anymore but when I thought if I had, i felt a hot warmth with a thought of "almost."  I wonder what it'll be like to be fully integrated with one's shadow.  I wonder also how far can I go in this lifetime towards becoming fully awakened and now the 5d being. 

Got bit of dialog from ? no idea who, soul, member of soul family?   but its not fully g rated so I'll leave that out of here.

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Hmm, I found a bit that said the Nommos coming from Sirius B may be a mistranslation and they may have come from Sirius.    I think soul, or someone did a pop and it was "Sirius."  i wonder if soul, soul family or whoever will continue to not use words but to use the faster way souls communicate.  I feel like I prefer this way to using words so i do hope so, but only time will tell.   Or is it that I have that clair thingie  and that was it, or my tapping into soul's knowledge or some cosmic computer or something?

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I had to more of ? treatments or whatever they were, about 2 hours apart.  The first one I sort of slipped into a light trance almost without noticing.    The 2nd time I felt it beginning and relaxed and let it happen. 

Basically it was like some small cylinders, fingers or something that were vibrating were inserted from above.  They were inserted into my head from above.  and were kept there for a short time then removed. No idea what that was about. 

No contact at all, unlike this afternoon.  I wonder why.  No biggie.  Maybe I need a break or to get over something. 

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Find I slipped naturally into ? between thoughts?  feel different in my head.  No idea how to describe it. I've been having this happen off and on since my jr high school days.  No idea what is going in, but I'll accept it as natural, though I've no idea what it is.  Maybe one day I'll understand what this is, if I never do during this life, I may once it's over.

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Was thinking sorta without thinking.  hard to describe.  Think I'll leave the non g rated stuff here, but in the future I'll edit the non g rated stuff out of here.  Perhaps best for her, who also reads this. 

I do wonder if soul or whoever that was, will have any conversations with me like this afternoon, or if that was just a phase thing to get me past being embarrassed to talk to it/them about that and they never will again.

I do wonder if i can get to the 5d being, way of thinking, ect thing.  Also i wonder if i can get to being fully awakened.   Think I'll also not bother capitalizing everything as much.   I'll redo eh spelling but recapitalizing I'll not do.   I do hope I can become a 5d being, thinking, ect as well as become fully awakened, though i do have my doubts.    think i likely always will.  Feels like I'm not in contact with them anymore, been cut off , disconnected.  a need due to what they did to me earlier that I need to be disconnected for a while, or something i'm going through personality wise?  I've not been in any progress in over a week, 2 weeks I think.  it happens. maybe i have gone as far as i can and this is it.  if it is, oh well.  just accept it and be glad of how far i've done so far.  though coming up with silly things to compliment oneself for.  it is fun.