Wednesday   1-14-2015

Seems I'm merging with a shadow part of me.  Never hear of the term before.  So I learned a few new things today.  A part of me I never knew existed before and it's merging with me. and the initial start was rather... pleasant.  I wonder if I'll have more of that in the future.  I diffidently do hope so, with not just the shadow aspect part but also the soul aspect part.  I would assume the other parts of me agree.  :)   on wanting to merge and that it be pleasurable.  :)

Not sure how long the process will take for the shadow part of me to merge with this part of me.  . I guess it's happening at the rate within the safety margin for this body.  i would guess between the soul and shadow parts of me, this me in the human body is physically the most fragile not the word I want to use but I can't find how to spell the word I want to use so fragile will have to do).   I guess if all of the shadow were to merge with this me at once that would cause some sort of physical problem, overload something or something, so a gradual merging is needed, to stay within a safety margin.  i do wonder if it'll take hours, days weeks?   guess i'll find out eventually.  :)  and I won't be so embarrassed or bashful next time if the next merging part is like this one.    :)

 first incarnation on earth but not new soul?  An old soul that has had incarnations on other worlds.  Came here to help with what is going on here, was excited by the idea.  Also a chance to experience fully awakening as a human.   Not from earth, but not from any one world.  Had lives on other worlds.  Sirius, pleades?  Perhaps more?  Maybe more of a traveler soul, or ? higher up not restricting itself to just 1 world or system but far more, galaxies or more?

Part of very early 2nd wave, but did quality for 1st wave?  choose very early 2nd to take some brunt off of this part of me since being a 1st timer and 1st wave may have been a bit overwhelming.  early 2nd wave and 1st time on earth maybe would be a bit less so, and I'd have help at the appropriate time or times if I didn't do it myself?

Been watching a video an online friend linked me to last week. Almost finished with it.  what he says does feel true and right?  to my intuition.   hmm, and wow.  energy update 2015.  Felt a type of ? tingling, something diffidently, separate from  what I feel within myself that pertains to the merging with my shadow me with this me.

Much happier then I was a few days ago.  That me feels like almost a past life or something.  A huge change a few days can make in 1 person.

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? earth and the souls of the humans ? and other lifeforms here?  knew of the shift and wanted it to happen and asked for our help on a soul level and we came here lovingly to help them through this?

? Souls don't have rank but if I were to be a separate soul identity to the soul I'm part of now then I'd be equal and have the same rank, if souls had ranks which they don't.  Since I'd have it's level of experiences and knowledge and such.
a fully awakened incarnation who's life had ended naturally/normally would be a prime time to choose to do this?
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thought if that meant I'd then still be able to have soul sex with the soul I'm part of now, ? soul? asked what do I think,and I thought it over and thought it does mean we diffidently could.  ? someone, another of soul family whispered in head ?  "there you have it"

silly pondering: does that mean souls have fun orgy parties at times, and due to what I'm doing here, if I am a separate soul at one point, does that mean I'd still get an invitation to the best soul parties and orgies?  hmm.  Soul doesn't answer but If this is true, I prefer it to be a pleasant surprise.  :)  :)

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