Saturday 1/17 

I had an unusual experience while I was eating while watching a  Matt video.  For an instant i was somewhere else where someone was speaking the words Matt was saying at the same exact time I heard him saying them in my earphones.   odd , i wonder what was up with that.

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had a brief conversation.  The g rated bits I'll put below as best as I can recall them.  whoever was talking to me felt and sounded just like this me  here typing this. and their responses were in the poof I instantly get the message. I'm trying to not mentally say the words but just know what they said, though it takes a second or 2 before i know what the message was.   guess i'm to low level, low vibrational level  not awake or evolved enough.  it's like I know and can feel I got a reply but i have to wait a second or so before I know what it was.

Why is that that you, whoever you are, sound exactly like me now?   "we are closer together."
How do I know i'm not just making this up? "what do you think?" 

No answer to my asking, what is the deal with the Nommo?
my feeling an attraction to certain creatures? 

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was watching a matt video that I had seen before.  I don't really believe that angels exist.  I've no seen any nor any ascended masters.  Though I do acknowledge that  I may be wrong.  and maybe I have never seen any since I am not important.   After all wherever I go it's always to where everyone is a point of consciousness surrounded by a colored ball of light.   No idea where that is but I seem to go there and easily can.  Still can apparently even after the non abiding awakening.    its always the same place, where there is a group of souls.  I never can see how many exactly.  never have been.   Most of the beings tend to be darker colors as i recall, except for the one that I see now and then that is green.  Now that I think of it I must have some sort of energy field around my point of consciousness since twice before I had an experience that involved my energy field, and earlier that I mentioned above when I was held gently and firmly and there was pressure one one side, like I mentioned above, that was on my energy field.  I wonder what color I am.  I have no idea since i can't see my own energy field.    Though like I mentioned above the 2 procedures were done involving my physical body.  I didn't mention it before but being in 2 places at once felt normal like I had done it before but can't remember.

I do wonder what was removed from inside my head and why.  as I said above I could feel something was removed, but no idea why or what and they would not say.

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I'll try to put the dialog I had here.  I don't recall the order so I'll put it in as I recall.  i got it's answers in the instant poof thing.  the idea I got was to instead of using " I would instead use []

When I awoke and lay in bed.  I tried to go between my thought. I felt love mentally.  then after a bit I felt a mental hug. 

So what was taken out of me? [implants]
what type of implants? [etheric implants]
why were they taken out? [no longer needed.]
so you put them in me? [no, others]
So why the delay when I get something and me knowing what was said? [human mind needs time to translate.  You'll get use to it]  I got the impression or just know that what it mean was also that I'd get better at it over time to where I'd instantly know what was said to me.
   Edit added later:I somehow think I know, maybe the quiet way the poof thing or clair(whatever) thing,  their function, at least in part, was to aid in communication, my being able to receive them and or it translates their messages into words.  Sorta hard to put into words what my knowing told me.  However my knowing works.  Maybe my vibration level or something is closer to theirs so they are not needed or something. Looking back at the conversation I didn't notice it at the time but I think the delay in my getting it's reply & understanding had shorted from a second or 2 to about half a second.  So almost instantly so guess I'm quickly getting use to it.

so do [no, instant] it answered, the rest of my question was going to be, you souls have any delay in understanding what one says to you?

>> so I guess the love will be platonic from now on right? <<
  I felt a mental smile and the mental hug became a fainter hug like yesterday where I could sorta feel warm arms around me, it's chest and abdominal to my back.  my sex drive increased to a bit above the normal peak, got a partial erection, felt the 2nd chakra being stimulated to a higher then usual degree, a mental pleasure (maybe pleasure center of brain was dimly stimulated or did it just send pleasure?) don't recall if the kundalini was stimulated or not. 

so where were you (and me) from? [sirius partially]
so which worlds? [sirius, pleades, ....] got the impression there were other worlds not mentioned.

so where were the nomos from? [sirius]
so you mean sirius b? [no, sirius]

so 2nd wave (meaning why did it choose the 2nd wave to incarnate)? [I could have been first]  i guess meaning the reason it mentioned to be before.  It qualified/could have been first wave but to take some of the brunt off of me choose to be very early 2nd wave.)

so were we ever a nommo before? here I got the mental impression of a smile while I got the physical hug similar to above, with partial erection, sex drive increased to around peak & love

so why does your mental voice sound like me?  [i am you]
I asked the question again at a later point this time i got [we are closer]
why do the others from the group sound like me? [all are you]
 I guess meaning the all are one thing. 
So those souls in the room that did the procedure, are we like subservient to them or something?  (a sort of test question, i thought I knew what the answer would be) [no equal]

so does that mean once i'm there the love, sex, pleasure thing will be all intermixed? [certainly]
more fun like yesterday in the future while i'm still incarnate [certainly, and more]

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Had an interesting conversation and thoughts.  I left to do some stuff.  I'll try to put down the conversation as best as I can recall. 

also I somehow know there are other types of implants for various purposes. For example one can have one put in to enable it to be easier for the incarnate to communicate with a specific say guide or several souls like one's soul family. 

I also wonder when soul said all are me if it was meaning that all are one, that I'm sure everyone has heard or knows, or if it meant the immediate soul family, including soul and me, are part of a specific oversoul.  I think I may be since when i tried to go between thoughts with that odd mental feeling, like a lock or mental switch being flicked, i tried to step an additional step back.  interesting sensation.  I felt like i was in the body but also farther away then usual when i step back.  So maybe I am part of an oversoul of some sort.  it didn't contact me or anything.  Doubt it minded me doing that.  Why would it mind a part of itself, another aspect stepping back like that.  Especially since I'm partially awake at present.  I noticed as a teen when I'm in this sorta flick or mental lock, whatever it is, I'm sorta in a light trance, but not really. i can also think without words.  just the meaning or concepts.  Interesting and thinking that way is very fast but i keep slipping back into using words again and loose it.  but onto the conversation and an interesting memory. 

about the veil...<sigh, a bother, but local rules.> diffident feeling it doesn't like the veil <but the rules do have parameters like it can be temporarily removed for ones like on a path like we are on.  also dissolving it is allowed for certain paths.  and yes proper resonance frequency dissolves it.  yours is at present being dissolved.>  

feels like I can instantly know it's sent dialog.  maybe the intent behind the message that Scarlett said so no need to send any words, just sending the intent behind the words is far faster.  I have the feeling or knowing that


I jokingly asked "so what planet is matt from." again in a joking not serious at all. and I got was [ask him.]  yea, like he'd answer an email from an unknown from me. if I was Obama, maybe.  But I don't really care, I just asked the question to be a bit silly. 

[you won't believe the welcome you'll get once you are here.]  Not sure why I was sent that pop but I guess it gives me something to look forward to. 

I have a sorta memory from when i was very young, no idea, maybe 3-5.  and I was thinking of it while I went to throw some trash out and it was like I remembered more of the memory.  part of the memory had a sort of spacer put in and I knew something was there but couldn't remember.  I'll put the memory below and the spacer with my remembering. 

i was way above the house i lived in at the time.  I seem to be  being pulled somewhere.  thinking something like , "cool." at how much I could see from where I was.  I'm then in a dark room with some others, no idea how many. I was totaly calm during this and some inner part of me knew what was going on and was either expecting it or knew them or both.  @@  usually my memory is then of my coming down from somewhere sort of high up, another plane? no idea, to the neighborhood and the memory ends.  Though it was like the spacer in the memory, where in this case i put the @@ opened up and i remembered a brief scene:

1 of more of the whatever they were asking me something like : "are you ready to receive the implants?"

Me saying something like: "yes, now is the proper time." 

then some procedure is done and something is put into my head and i'm sent back to earth.  not sure if this was happening on some etheric, astral, or other plane. 

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non g rated conversation bit about the celebration thing once this life is over.

[and especially when you are back here among us.]  meaning the immediate soul family.  with the meaning of pleasuresexlove type thing.  I think I'm looking forward to that.  Some sort of soul orgy celebration with my immediate soul family, who I don't really remember but guess I will then or when I'm fully awake?  Count me in.  ;)

just got a pop message from them of sexualLovepleasure.  I guess to remind me they are there, or they care for, love me, or a mix of those. Nice I sent them a thanks.  The side effect of their message is the body's sex drive urge thing feels like it was temporarily raised to the max.  Still, nice to get a brief pop message from them from time to time to let us know they care about is.  I feel like I'm past the embarrassment of this.  Though I never suspected any of this.   No biggie, guess I'll discover more stuff.  maybe that I'm some high fallotin general or king or something.  ;)  as if.   ;)
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bit of sillyness: can't be a king.  If I were a king where's my butler, my chauffeur and  my flying stretch limo that doubles as a personal starship?   ;)
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Had an interesting experience as I lay down to take a nap.  A frontal hug from, not sure if was soul aspect, immediate soul family, or someone else.  I'd guess soul or a member of my immediate soul family but I may be wrong.  They did feel warm with their arms also wrapped around me.  And it felt like a kiss was included.  I noticed that it also stimulated the first 3 chakras at the same time.  I did feel to see if the heart was also and I got a [later].  Again sent instantly like all the messages are currently.  I also got a mental image of the figure not being human but a phin type.  wild.    I wonder why did the first 3 either get stimulated or were effected by this, though I did enjoy the soul hug.

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While taking a shower I briefly paused and thought since they had done it with me I should try sending a bit of ? sexual energy, pleasure and love up through my head to them. Just a slight amount.  They didn't reply but I got the feeling they enjoyed that.

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While laying down to take a nap I decided to see if I could project back wherever there is.  I seemed to be able to but kept slipping back and forth.  And when I was there I seemed to be in 2 places at the same time.  One of them said I was trying to hard and when I asked for a bit of help one of them held me in place for a moment.  Sort of like using 2 hands, one on either side of my energy field, and like usual I was a point of consciousness with a ball of energy around me.  No idea of my color.  They looked all dark colored.  I think one had a greenish color or some green.  Still no idea of the number.  For some reason I never can see how many there are, or I never can remember. 

They arranged themselves so we were in a ring and for a few minutes just shared energy.  That is like intermingling energy with love  mixed in.  It seemed low level, one of them did mention they were keeping it low level to not overwhealm me.  I think I know what they meant is if we had done it full level I'd pop back into my body.  Also in this unedited version I can add in that there was pleasure mixed in with the love.  Diffidently a fun and pleasurable experience.

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 Had an idea, half serious half not. If I do become a separate soul identity.  Would that mean the soul I'm part of now would be like my older twin brother or sibling?  Not sure if I have that term right, but I think it is a neat idea.   So I can go, "hey bro how's it going?" or , "hey sib wanna hang out?" 

:wink:   :tongue:

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I also forgot to mention, while I was on the bus coming home I decided to try saying something matt said to see what would happen.  I mentally said with the intent to go to everyone, "I acknowledge your pain."  and the ? air ? did feel lighter.

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Had an interesting bit of soul knowledge pop into my head.  mainly about the immediate soul family. 

They are always in a main meeting hang out area.  The way time is fluid for souls they can pop back there an instant after they left.  So for example lets say I leave that area, go out on a "work day." afterwards hang out with some friends, go out and do some other solitary stuff, rest in a private area.  Maybe spend some time with co-worker friends.  Then say for me a few days or less or more later I will pop back to where my immediate soul family are an instant after I left.  So to them they'd see me flicker or blink.  As during my time hanging out with them I see them blink as they do the same.  Not sure if it makes sense, it does to me.  So that is how they can always be there whenever I go there, just as I and the others are always there when one of them pops back. 

This can extend to other soul friends and groups too.  It can get pretty complicated if one thinks about it, but that is normal for souls who get use to it.  though some prefer a very linear thing.  I feel I'm not one of the linear types, or if I use to be that was a while ago and I've not been that for a while. 

I guess immediate can be exchanged for primary so immediate soul family and primary soul family.  I think I kinda like the term immediate soul family better.