I decided to try something. I sent a mental message of "can you wait till I'm fully back with the pod and this incarnation is over?" I got a female voice saying <yes.> I was surprised, I didn't expect any sort of reply. then thinking maybe they were disappointed, though the voice didn't feel like it was, then said, "Though if I can get fully awake and aware and able to project fully back where the pod is, and if Twin flame is willing I may or would perhaps be willing then. I got <ok.> by fully awake and aware I mean if the pod are 6d, I mean fully 5 or 6d, and able to project fully to where the pod is and if twin is willing. I got a short time later from Chad, <cool, I'll have an older sister.> I guess as a result I can feel the desire there, but it's sorta partially slumbering, if that makes any sense. much less then it was but the feel of being partially slumbering. I guess when certain conditions are met it'll flare back full force.
Makes me wonder. if it's a special experience being the soul child or a soul created by 2 twin flames. and if many pod members were created in a similar way, or just created by other pod members.
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That may be why the desire popped up so strongly. didn't think of that, but we would be triple twin flames. neat idea.
Can't do that now since i can't project there. I wonder if when I finish the awaken the light body course if I'll be able to project, including project where the pod is, if they are 6d. No idea what d the light body is of. I can't astral project so how could I light body project. how does one light body project.
I do get the feeling from my twin that she is willing and wants to like I do, but like me wants to wait till I'm more aware and awake. i guess at least 5d, maybe preferably 6d. & since I can't astral project and have no idea how to light body project, if that is even possible, we'll have to wait till this incarnation is over. No biggie .
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I meditated on it briefly and if my twin flame and I were to create a soul, wither we did so the regular way or did it while/through soul/spirit sex the new soul would be a twin flame to us both, like you mentioned. if the soul choose to recall/keep both of our memories then the new/old soul would be us merged. Though they would start to have their own experiences and would likely change. but the would remain twin flames to us both.
I guess like if say Stan, Dan, and I were to make a soul, it would likely be an external aspect of the soul we're an external aspect of since we are all, and it would be from our energy.
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Wonder what that experience would be like, the 3 of us being twin flames to each other.
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I did the 3rd meditation again. Didn't seem to get as much out of it as the first time. I felt only a very slight resonance on both of the first 2 light body energy centers, and as for feeling the light body or whatever the energy body is, I did feel it, but less so. not sure if I'm less sensitive, or I've grown more use to the way it feels so i feel it less. and as for the slight resonating of the first 2 light body energy centers, that could be due to what whoever did yesterday, maybe its an off day today for me, or other reasons.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. This time I decided to pick 2 sub personalities, my true soul self and inner child. then at the last second I added in a 3rd sub personality, the human self. No idea why that popped in but I decided to go with it. For the circle of personalities I decided to make the circle much larger, taking into account both the soul I was part of sub personalities, aspects, parallel, past lives ect, as well as that of the current soul that I'm part of sub personalities, aspects, past, parallel lives, ect.
I felt very relaxed, very hot, and for most of it like pinpricks or something in in my face. I sorta felt the energy body. I don't feel very different. Maybe i did it wrong, or it'll take time for any change to be noticed to me and to be incorporated, ect. Not sure.
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Triple flames, or triplet flames, I'm sure it's happened before.
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I wonder if I've changed at all in the past week I've been doing this course, though a week may be to soon to tell.
Tomorrow I start the 2nd part of the course. I would guess it focuses on the 3rd light body energy center and likely all 3. No idea what else it'll cover.
As i was laying down to rest a bit ago I noticed part of my abdominal area seemed to be slightly resonating, I think around the first 2 light body energy centers. During the healing the inner child I decided to go for multiple things self confidence, self image and being a smooth communicator (to see if I can help with my minor stuttering). I felt some slight spots of pain, like slashes so to speak. during part of this, and like most of my abdominal was resonating a bit. Then towards the end I felt a spot or 2 of tightness inside. I tried to get the area to relax, send it love and light and that seemed to help it go dissolve or go away. But it may be a sign of something I may need to work on, or just that what I did worked and I'd need time to integrate the change or notice the change in me.
i was feeling a bit lonely, I guess since the Thursday rpg was canceled due to the gm having stuff to do.
on a more light note i was thinking of (and lightly meditating) what would it be like if twin flame and I made a soul and the new or new/old soul would be a twin flame to both of us, a triple flame? that may mean a new experience for everyone, and I think we'd both do it out of our love for each other. Not sure if he was being humorous, serious or a bit of both but Chad did say he'd want to be 2nd.
Forgot but before or after this i briefly did mediate on hugging Chad and us sharing love.
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Also did masturbate briefly, i say briefly since with the erotic thoughts and images my twin started sending me it didn't' last long.
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I am looking forward to starting the 2nd half of the first part of the awaken your light body course. not sure if I've benefited, I think i have. not sure if any have noted any changes, though as I said before a week may not be enough time. I wonder what it'll be like by march 15, when I've finished and done certain meditations a number of times since I'll be fully finished with the course on Wednesday. My plan is to pick out certain meditations to repeat and redo them till around the 15th then maybe buy the next course. Then pick some meditations from this 1st part that I may do a few times over the time I'm doing the 2nd part of the 6 part course.
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I do wonder if my whole reasons to be here is to fully awaken as a human to my full soul self, or as much as i can in the time I have left. And to anchor the energies for the new indigo. As well as dealing with the issues I need to deal with to help with my awakening and being more of my true self.
Is there other reasons I came here, or was that sorta messed up when i became a hybrid and switched to becoming an external aspect of the current soul I am of?
And what is my soul heritage and such. Being part cetacean type of being, maybe dragon and reptilian or other things as well, or is some of that past/parallel lives original soul and maybe current soul had/have?
I feel I get lonely at times since, unless I'm wrong, at the soul level I'm not so use to being totally alone when I'm with the soul family. i do spend time alone there maybe, or old soul did. maybe more then average, but not totally.
at the soul level am I use to more of companionship and such then here on earth. Though feel sorta odd saying being a new/old soul since I've never lived at the pod place, but it's my home. sorta neat, but odd being a new/old soul.
Will I be allowed to not incarnate if I don't want to. Not sure if I'm deluded, or tapping into my soul self but this me doesn't feel like it wants to incarnate anymore. Old soul did for specific missions. But this new/old me feels like incarnating isn't really my thing. is that at the soul level or not?
once I'm with the pod, once this incarnation is over, will it feel like home, will I remember places, or will it be a new place that I have to get use to, or both?
why are there dolphin and orca like beings that live in a higher dimension, when there are dolphins and orcas on earth?
Why did higher self look like an anthro shark that one time, though fuzzy and indistinct, and why the mischievous look, or I felt he had a mischievous look to him,though I couldn't see him very well, being indistinct.
I wonder of current soul as more then 3 aspects, counting me. I wonder what adjustments it had to do when it suddenly acquired a new external aspect. and what it thinks of the whole thing.
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I saw a video, black and white, that had Jane Roberts in it, and she was channeling Seth, neat.
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why at the soul core, if that is what it is, do i feel, love, happiness (or is it joy), sexual feelings, pleasure, needing to be alone at times, but also companionship and affection too. Sharing sex, but not with just anyone, just those one is close to, or feels close to and are open to it. that is if I did touch the soul core.
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I did the 3rd meditation again. Didn't seem to get as much out of it as the first time. I felt only a very slight resonance on both of the first 2 light body energy centers, and as for feeling the light body or whatever the energy body is, I did feel it, but less so. not sure if I'm less sensitive, or I've grown more use to the way it feels so i feel it less. and as for the slight resonating of the first 2 light body energy centers, that could be due to what whoever did yesterday, maybe its an off day today for me, or other reasons.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. This time I decided to pick 2 sub personalities, my true soul self and inner child. then at the last second I added in a 3rd sub personality, the human self. No idea why that popped in but I decided to go with it. For the circle of personalities I decided to make the circle much larger, taking into account both the soul I was part of sub personalities, aspects, parallel, past lives ect, as well as that of the current soul that I'm part of sub personalities, aspects, past, parallel lives, ect.
I felt very relaxed, very hot, and for most of it like pinpricks or something in in my face. I sorta felt the energy body. I don't feel very different. Maybe i did it wrong, or it'll take time for any change to be noticed to me and to be incorporated, ect. Not sure.
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Triple flames, or triplet flames, I'm sure it's happened before.
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I wonder if I've changed at all in the past week I've been doing this course, though a week may be to soon to tell.
Tomorrow I start the 2nd part of the course. I would guess it focuses on the 3rd light body energy center and likely all 3. No idea what else it'll cover.
As i was laying down to rest a bit ago I noticed part of my abdominal area seemed to be slightly resonating, I think around the first 2 light body energy centers. During the healing the inner child I decided to go for multiple things self confidence, self image and being a smooth communicator (to see if I can help with my minor stuttering). I felt some slight spots of pain, like slashes so to speak. during part of this, and like most of my abdominal was resonating a bit. Then towards the end I felt a spot or 2 of tightness inside. I tried to get the area to relax, send it love and light and that seemed to help it go dissolve or go away. But it may be a sign of something I may need to work on, or just that what I did worked and I'd need time to integrate the change or notice the change in me.
i was feeling a bit lonely, I guess since the Thursday rpg was canceled due to the gm having stuff to do.
on a more light note i was thinking of (and lightly meditating) what would it be like if twin flame and I made a soul and the new or new/old soul would be a twin flame to both of us, a triple flame? that may mean a new experience for everyone, and I think we'd both do it out of our love for each other. Not sure if he was being humorous, serious or a bit of both but Chad did say he'd want to be 2nd.
Forgot but before or after this i briefly did mediate on hugging Chad and us sharing love.
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Also did masturbate briefly, i say briefly since with the erotic thoughts and images my twin started sending me it didn't' last long.
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I am looking forward to starting the 2nd half of the first part of the awaken your light body course. not sure if I've benefited, I think i have. not sure if any have noted any changes, though as I said before a week may not be enough time. I wonder what it'll be like by march 15, when I've finished and done certain meditations a number of times since I'll be fully finished with the course on Wednesday. My plan is to pick out certain meditations to repeat and redo them till around the 15th then maybe buy the next course. Then pick some meditations from this 1st part that I may do a few times over the time I'm doing the 2nd part of the 6 part course.
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I do wonder if my whole reasons to be here is to fully awaken as a human to my full soul self, or as much as i can in the time I have left. And to anchor the energies for the new indigo. As well as dealing with the issues I need to deal with to help with my awakening and being more of my true self.
Is there other reasons I came here, or was that sorta messed up when i became a hybrid and switched to becoming an external aspect of the current soul I am of?
And what is my soul heritage and such. Being part cetacean type of being, maybe dragon and reptilian or other things as well, or is some of that past/parallel lives original soul and maybe current soul had/have?
I feel I get lonely at times since, unless I'm wrong, at the soul level I'm not so use to being totally alone when I'm with the soul family. i do spend time alone there maybe, or old soul did. maybe more then average, but not totally.
at the soul level am I use to more of companionship and such then here on earth. Though feel sorta odd saying being a new/old soul since I've never lived at the pod place, but it's my home. sorta neat, but odd being a new/old soul.
Will I be allowed to not incarnate if I don't want to. Not sure if I'm deluded, or tapping into my soul self but this me doesn't feel like it wants to incarnate anymore. Old soul did for specific missions. But this new/old me feels like incarnating isn't really my thing. is that at the soul level or not?
once I'm with the pod, once this incarnation is over, will it feel like home, will I remember places, or will it be a new place that I have to get use to, or both?
why are there dolphin and orca like beings that live in a higher dimension, when there are dolphins and orcas on earth?
Why did higher self look like an anthro shark that one time, though fuzzy and indistinct, and why the mischievous look, or I felt he had a mischievous look to him,though I couldn't see him very well, being indistinct.
I wonder of current soul as more then 3 aspects, counting me. I wonder what adjustments it had to do when it suddenly acquired a new external aspect. and what it thinks of the whole thing.
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I saw a video, black and white, that had Jane Roberts in it, and she was channeling Seth, neat.
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why at the soul core, if that is what it is, do i feel, love, happiness (or is it joy), sexual feelings, pleasure, needing to be alone at times, but also companionship and affection too. Sharing sex, but not with just anyone, just those one is close to, or feels close to and are open to it. that is if I did touch the soul core.
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