Wed [2-4]

<she finally overcame her shyness, and she was curious. You have built up a bit of a repuation.>

So have you been spying on me, I ask humorously <of course. all the more senior mebers & some of the more curious ones.>

have I seen all the pod members? <no.>
if I asked for the number of pod members would you tell me? <no.>

I'm sure I'll continue to have treatments <yes> will some be like the one I had today <yes>

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Had an encounter with the soul I'm part of. Guess it did the next part of stage of part of whatever I'm going through. It did put 2 things into me. 1 was some sort of chip it said was to help monitor the process. The other was sort of an artificial uterus or container it paused then said something about, it accepted it's imprinting.

It wanted me to surrender to it totally. Suggested i do go to the qi gong class. I guess part of what it did was fill the lower chakras with some sort of what felt like a very light warm fluid. It also pumped what felt like the same type of fluid, and alternately what felt like eggs, into my belly area. Not sure why it was doing that. the last bit was an odd one. It filled the artificial container or artificial uterus, or whatever it was. no idea why it said "this will make you artificially pregnant." an odd phrase. and it filled the whatever it was with some sort of very light warm fluid. I could feel, whatever it was, filling. When I mentioned if you put it in why can I feel it filling and it said it's already been integrated into my system. it said those 2 that it put into me would be absorbed by my body when they have served their purposes, unless they were removed. It also said that certain beings, like the pod, would find me more attractive now. but it wouldn't say why or what it meant.

maybe odd, not sure if I'm feeling slightly bashful or embarrassed to put this here, but I have left out some details. an unusual thing to happen. it also suggested for me to go to the qi gong class.

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Had an interesting experience that started after I lay down and continued into when I went to sleep.

I seemed to be in an Orca laying on some sort of examination type table. I asked why I'm in an orca form and the person in the room with me said that everything is bigger, makes it easier to examine. I commented I feel like I'm in 2 places again. Wouldn't it be better for you to pull the rest of me here, and she said that that wasn't necessary.

I asked if I could remain like this and she sorta shrugged, and said something like, why not, some of your pod are. Wonder if I have some orcas in the pod or if the pod can look like an orca type being if they want. I'd guess the latter, being able to look like however you want.


I said I guess its part of whatever process I'm going through. She did say that what i call my higher self put in a request and what I call my oversoul aknowldged it & approved it, I'd not believe how high that came from.


Looking at her with one eye she looked like some sort of light blue skinned humanoid type. Not sure why I said the next bits, their not stuff I'd say, especially to someone I don't know. I said she's a sirian type, which she said so soul has shared that much with you. She then said it's a relief to be working with someone who's at least partially aware. Unlike the totally unware who get scared, as her what sort of monter is she, and other things. No idea why I said that and then made a cross half serious pass saying she looked sexy, how about you and I have some fun after this is over. She half serious said not during business hours and then patted or caressed my side saying my reputation preceeded me, but don't worry it's nothing bad. I guess she means soul's repuation. makes me curious what that reputation is.

The examination proceeded. I did get some odd feeings here and there both in my orca and human body. Usually she kept saying that after each proceedure that that is within parameters. Except for once when she did something with some sort of energy to cause both my bodies to have an erection and I think maybe a slight response from kundalini, for that she said that is above parameters.

I wonder what was up with that and why I said those things to her, more of the soul or higher self comming through?   Since i wouldn't say stuff like that.

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I'll be going to leave in about 20 minutes to the Qi gong class. Wonder what it'll be like.

I wonder if my going out to a few regular things and talking to some people will help with my throat chakra.

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I went to the Qi Gong class. It was a lot of fun. Though there we only 2 of us & the teacher. The good thing was we both got there pretty early so we had a chance to talk for close to 30 minutes, lots of fun.

Though afterwards I did have a slight pain in my lower back. Not sure if that is normal, a sign of some sort of blockage, or just I need to do some more excercises focusing on my back, or a mix of those.

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I think I may just practice the breath of fire for a day or 2. For say 10 breaths or a minute each time. Then I can practice it a lot over the course of a day or 2 to get it down. Then on say Friday I'll go slow, maybe only do the 3 or 5 postures that one video I downloaded has. I did the breath of fire and feel some odd sensation in my belly area? blocks, or something else? I have practiced it some, but only a short time each time, less then a minute. the odd feelings are only brief each time.

the qi gong I'll continue for the other 5 lessons. In-between and after I'll use a video series I found on youtube. No hurry

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i tried to see if I could get a reply from my oversoul, asking it stuff like, hey, can we have some fun sometime, including sharing, more then once. It seemed very faint hard to hear. Not sure if it's due to my not being aware enough, it has to concentrate a lot to contact me, it was busy or distracted while I was contacting it. It seemed willing, I also, to make it a surprise to me, i also asked it for those fun sharing times to be a surprise, when it picks and not telling me beforehand. I was either expecting no reply, a no, since I'd think that the oversoul would see me, an aspect of i guess one of it's aspects, as to low down or a kid, relativity speaking.

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I do wonder what sort of reputation the soul I'm part of has.

I had a brief mediation and went to the white buffer. Higher self was there and we both were female anthro orcas.

I did ask what sort of reputation does you and soul have, it said that I would see Same answer to if I have a reputation or not. Not worried, was just curious.

The higher self can be distracting when it wants to be.

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I asked higher self if it is doing to me like I did with Shad and before it got distracting it said, "no, the opposite." i guess it meant we're already one, but I'm not fully aware of that yet. and eventually I"ll be a seperate soul with all of it's memories. So yes, the opposite.

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watching matt's latest video. Interesting. I think I was heading that way without knowing it. it as so natural I was not aware of it. I'll keep that as being aware of it. Nothing to work on, it'll be handled and will handle itself.

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Hmm, had an interesting idea I want to try, 2 ideas in fact. Some fun with shad, me, & the higher self. i look forward to that. Also I think oversoul agreed to at least occasionally when we'll be having fun to pull me up to where it usually hangs out.