Did the 4th mediation (5). Not sure why
these always leave me feeling thirsty afterwards, even if I do drink
water before I do the meditation. This one was on healing the inner
child. I may need to listen to this one and the previous one often over
the next few or 6 months or so. I picked an incident with how my
grandmother, who raised me, would act at times. I did look back at that
and how she'd act a month or so ago and then, like now, I assume it was
her shadow aspect controlling her at times, and or fighting her. I
may try to listen to that mediation twice more today, if not i will
listen to it again tomorrow and maybe Wednesday, to get the groundwork
done. I can think of 2 incidents maybe that may be ok to do.
I did feel slight tightness in the abdominal area. I think it was slight since the sub-personality I picked first in yesterday in the previous mediation affected the inner child. Healed it to a good extent and this was more like fine tuning, focusing on a certain thing & that was general overall.
When she said to send light from the higher self into the area to fill it with light now that that was cleared it did feel like some of the minor knots loosened and were dissolved. Like maybe there are a few even fainter ones left. I may visualize doing the bit from yesterday and send the circle of sub personalities light from an ascended master and love from me as well and see if that will help.
I didn't get a very good look at my higher self in this mediation. i did try to look outside myself since she did go silent for periods of time so one could do inner dialog and feel out how this felt. It did hug me from behind. As I recall the body I had, looked androgynous. Couldn't see it to well either. The higher self did have what looked like a dorsal fin. Not sure if was a dolphin's or an orcas, though orcas are large dolphins. though it did have slit eyes, though the feel wasn't reptilian type slit but dragon like. if that makes any sense. I think the iris maybe had a slight glow to it maybe?
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I did the meditation again. Still feeling thirsty afterwards though I drank water before it. During this I started to get very hot, like a summer's day here. after a while I also could not fully relax due to how my right knee felt so crossed my legs and for part of it just let my right leg kick forward a bit in a steady motion. Guess that is where I felt it. This time I picked the way kids would pick on me a huge amount at school, and some other incidents that tied into that. anger, bad self image, bits of sadness too I think. During most of this I could feel my abdominal resonating pretty strongly and the energy body, I guess the light body, resonating less so. This time when the higher self was to fill me with light energy I felt it like a sorta coolish liquid, a very fine sort of fluid, that had a pleasure feel to it. higher self this time looked like a mix of dragon, dolphin and bits of orca, sorta shifting around. a bit unstable or unset, or not trying to have a set appearance or I'm not integrated enough to see it, or know the various other aspects, or a mix of this and other things?
I do recall her saying I may notice over the next week week, but I've ? birthed a new me? person? or something like that, don't recall her exact words.
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Sounds like a lot. And as I do I'll get to know myself. Maybe before a realization I'll have an inkling.
this is a very interesting process indeed. And this course I got, though expensive, does seem to be doing a lot of good pretty fast. Though I guess one good thing of the expense is I can't be tempted to go to fast. though I do know this first part is setting or building a foundation. That is needed before any more work can be done.
The next part of the 6 part course of awaken the light body, deals only with the heart. But that is maybe next month, no hurry. this first one deals with just the first 3.
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Did it again. The 4th mediation (5). This time I decided to focus on worry, and some on bad self image as well. I think Tomorrow I'll pick confidence to focus on as well. it's enough for 1 day and I dont' want ot miss the brony show, though I may try to do the mediation without listening to the mp3.
This time I felt like some energy was being pumped into an energy body, I guess maybe the light body. Pretty strong pumping, the resonance came in rhythmic pulses and it was a pleasant feeling. My abdominal was resonating pretty strongly too , and still is. it felt like tendrils or something or of resonance was dissolving a large block or blocks, wall or something. Guess I'll see over the next week if this is doing good.
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I did the meditation again, though this time not listening to the mp3. I did both self confidence and math since i thought those went hand in hand. Tomorrow and maybe Wednesday if i don't get to do both tomorrow I'll do self confidence tomorrow and math the day after if I don't' get both tomorrow.
it felt like my abdominal area was resonating pretty strongly and feeling a bit sore in the central spot, not muscular sore but non muscular. Plus it felt like the resonance reached deep into the abdominal area. It feels both a bit sore, but also getting stronger? during this it felt like my higher self's hands were over my abdominal area.
My higher self looked sorta anthro shark like, with a mischievous look to his face, though i couldn't see him to well, still blurry. he did hug me from behind, wrapping his arms around me in a hug, his arms felt like they were under my arms. I think he choose this look for a reason.
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Felt a similar experience. the feeling was toned down or weaker but still there. Though instead of just a hug from behind it was also caressing my chest, with at least 1 of it's hands. new sensation being able to feel that. Though as i said the feeling of love, relaxation, pleasure, contentment, was weaker or toned down. what was not is certain spots from the abdominal down was resonating very strongly , and all over the energy body was resonating also, though to less of a degree. i just, enjoyed the experience. Not sure who did it or why. It didn't last to long, like last time. Still watching the brony show.
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I did feel slight tightness in the abdominal area. I think it was slight since the sub-personality I picked first in yesterday in the previous mediation affected the inner child. Healed it to a good extent and this was more like fine tuning, focusing on a certain thing & that was general overall.
When she said to send light from the higher self into the area to fill it with light now that that was cleared it did feel like some of the minor knots loosened and were dissolved. Like maybe there are a few even fainter ones left. I may visualize doing the bit from yesterday and send the circle of sub personalities light from an ascended master and love from me as well and see if that will help.
I didn't get a very good look at my higher self in this mediation. i did try to look outside myself since she did go silent for periods of time so one could do inner dialog and feel out how this felt. It did hug me from behind. As I recall the body I had, looked androgynous. Couldn't see it to well either. The higher self did have what looked like a dorsal fin. Not sure if was a dolphin's or an orcas, though orcas are large dolphins. though it did have slit eyes, though the feel wasn't reptilian type slit but dragon like. if that makes any sense. I think the iris maybe had a slight glow to it maybe?
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I did the meditation again. Still feeling thirsty afterwards though I drank water before it. During this I started to get very hot, like a summer's day here. after a while I also could not fully relax due to how my right knee felt so crossed my legs and for part of it just let my right leg kick forward a bit in a steady motion. Guess that is where I felt it. This time I picked the way kids would pick on me a huge amount at school, and some other incidents that tied into that. anger, bad self image, bits of sadness too I think. During most of this I could feel my abdominal resonating pretty strongly and the energy body, I guess the light body, resonating less so. This time when the higher self was to fill me with light energy I felt it like a sorta coolish liquid, a very fine sort of fluid, that had a pleasure feel to it. higher self this time looked like a mix of dragon, dolphin and bits of orca, sorta shifting around. a bit unstable or unset, or not trying to have a set appearance or I'm not integrated enough to see it, or know the various other aspects, or a mix of this and other things?
I do recall her saying I may notice over the next week week, but I've ? birthed a new me? person? or something like that, don't recall her exact words.
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Sounds like a lot. And as I do I'll get to know myself. Maybe before a realization I'll have an inkling.
this is a very interesting process indeed. And this course I got, though expensive, does seem to be doing a lot of good pretty fast. Though I guess one good thing of the expense is I can't be tempted to go to fast. though I do know this first part is setting or building a foundation. That is needed before any more work can be done.
The next part of the 6 part course of awaken the light body, deals only with the heart. But that is maybe next month, no hurry. this first one deals with just the first 3.
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Did it again. The 4th mediation (5). This time I decided to focus on worry, and some on bad self image as well. I think Tomorrow I'll pick confidence to focus on as well. it's enough for 1 day and I dont' want ot miss the brony show, though I may try to do the mediation without listening to the mp3.
This time I felt like some energy was being pumped into an energy body, I guess maybe the light body. Pretty strong pumping, the resonance came in rhythmic pulses and it was a pleasant feeling. My abdominal was resonating pretty strongly too , and still is. it felt like tendrils or something or of resonance was dissolving a large block or blocks, wall or something. Guess I'll see over the next week if this is doing good.
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I did the meditation again, though this time not listening to the mp3. I did both self confidence and math since i thought those went hand in hand. Tomorrow and maybe Wednesday if i don't get to do both tomorrow I'll do self confidence tomorrow and math the day after if I don't' get both tomorrow.
it felt like my abdominal area was resonating pretty strongly and feeling a bit sore in the central spot, not muscular sore but non muscular. Plus it felt like the resonance reached deep into the abdominal area. It feels both a bit sore, but also getting stronger? during this it felt like my higher self's hands were over my abdominal area.
My higher self looked sorta anthro shark like, with a mischievous look to his face, though i couldn't see him to well, still blurry. he did hug me from behind, wrapping his arms around me in a hug, his arms felt like they were under my arms. I think he choose this look for a reason.
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Felt a similar experience. the feeling was toned down or weaker but still there. Though instead of just a hug from behind it was also caressing my chest, with at least 1 of it's hands. new sensation being able to feel that. Though as i said the feeling of love, relaxation, pleasure, contentment, was weaker or toned down. what was not is certain spots from the abdominal down was resonating very strongly , and all over the energy body was resonating also, though to less of a degree. i just, enjoyed the experience. Not sure who did it or why. It didn't last to long, like last time. Still watching the brony show.
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