Tuesday [2-24]

Had a similar experience. I guess this time, and maybe last night, was higher self. This time it felt like from behind it reached around to put a hand on the middle of my chest. I had the impression of it/him smiling. I had the feelings of love/contentment/pleasure. While I was eating. Then it felt like it took the hand off for a bit Then it put the hand back on my chest. this time I stopped eating to put the food down to experience the experience, give in to the experience.

It felt like before, love/contentment/pleasure/and sexual pleasure, but this was to a lesser extent. It also felt like I was resonating. The resonating was all over the energy body, I guess the light body. It also felt like the resonating was stronger on the 2nd chakra, and the first light body energy center, and to a lesser extent the 2nd light body energy center. then as i was typing the above I got the impression/feeling of him/her standing right behind me peering over my shoulder as a hand was placed on the shoulder of whatever energy body and similar feelings came through me. It feels like the feelings either are all through me or maybe they come from somewhere in my chest, or it could be both. Maybe the heart center, not sure if it is heart chakra, heart center of the light body, or both. Though I've not been working on the light body energy center, that is not till the 2nd course of awakening your light body. I'm still on the 1st course.

the feelings did feel fantastic.

I got the impression just now that maybe it as stimulating both the chakra and light body heart centers. I did ask if this would count as sharing, soul or spirit sex. it said no, think of this as a bit of a taste or hint of what it will be like later on when we do, if we do. though smiling from him/it. It's sure we'll both decide to when the time comes to choose, and afterwords of course we can choose to do so regularly.

Still could not see it clearly. Though it was anthro. And the aftereffects do feel fantastic, down to the core of my being. Hard to describe. diffidently the right thing we did. there is the lingering great feeling, love and pleasure. I'm quite sure at the soul level if this wasn't right I'd not be feeling like this at this point, or during it. The feelings did grow stronger when I, surrendered to the experience and enjoyed, experienced it.

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I did the next mediation 6. I looked in the pdf manual and it says to wait till I've done all the meditations at least once and week has passed, which would be Thursday i think. But I think I'll wait till Friday to start 7. Tomorrow and Thursday I'll pick from the previous 6 and maybe do 3-4 of them over the next 2 days. I'll do 7 on Friday. if I do 1 a day that way I should finish a week from tomorrow. Then I'll do a week or 2 where I'll do them again. If I do 1 or 2 meditations a day I'll do a different one each time and go through the meditations once or twice before I think of getting the next part.

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I did feel some tingling as I did the guided meditations, though not as much as before. maybe it's an off day, and or what higher self, or whoever that is, did may have done some work in those 2 areas again last night a bit and more this morning. Though it seems it bypassed the 3rd energy center, doing the first 2 and the heart.

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I did the 6th mediation a 2nd time.  This time I felt more tingling and resonance, especially towards the end.  It was more then just in the first 2 energy centers of the light body towards the very end.  Towards the very end it was my whole abdominal area, including what I guess is the area of the 1st energy center and to a slightly lesser extent the whole energy body.  My guess is even if I got the location wrong, the energy knows where to go, or the energy body knows what to do, or both and it goes to the right place, as is my intent, even if I visualize the wrong spot. 


Felt like towards the end the meditative trance was medium or deep.

Almost forgot to put in here, that towards the end and now, I feel different somehow, like something in me has changed somehow. For the better, but not sure what has changed.    I am curious what it is.

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I'm still not sure what has changed about me.  Something positive is changed but I'm not sure what. 

I was doing a meditation earlier, a brief relaxing one.  Felt like my abdominal area was resonating  Then it felt like someone started pumping energy into that area as well as the heart energy center, and also the energy body. 

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I wonder if the reason I have a higher self now is the soul I'm part of now, an external aspect of, and me have gone past the initial assimilation or adjustment process of our new relationship.

I curiously asked new higher self if he'd be interested in sharing at any point and he said yes, once we're both equals. Then we can share and have fun of the sex spiritual soul sex type regularly if we both still want to and he's sure we'll both still want to.

I asked not because I was in the mood, but just out of curiosity to see what he'd say.

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I asked Chad if he is ok being an internal aspect of mine as I meditated on hugging him earlier today, and he said he can go external for short periods of time. I guess due to my development level in some area.

I don't blame him for going external at times. if he can at times, why not. Not sure where he hangs out. upper astral maybe, or with the pod maybe? I think he went to visit Dan since it felt like yesterday or the day before that he was talking to me and beside me, went into me I guess then dan briefly was here and left, or something.

Not putting myself down, or feeling bad about myself, but if he can go external for short periods of time and visit the upper astral, Dan or the pod, why not. That is if i understand what he means by what he said.   Not sure how often he does this, maybe not to often.  Think he said not often.   As I recall he looked somewhere anthro dolphin like.

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