Saturday 2 [2-21]

Lay down to take a nap but didn't go to sleep so instead I did a sort of relaxing meditation. I did feel a very strong resonating going on with my entire abdominal area, and groin area that included the first chakra, and my heart chakra slightly. it also felt like the rest of the energy body was very slightly resonating as well. I did try to do a link between the very strong resonating and the heart charka, figured it couldn't do any harm and who knows the positive effects it may have. maybe ones I won't even be conscious of.

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I thought about some things i really want. I'd like to get a group of friends, or a smallish group, that are into the spiritual things I'm into and interest me, and of course some of their own things. Sahaja Yoga isn't it. While free, it doesn't seem to do anything for me. maybe it's effects are more subtle and take longer to be noticed, but the things that seem to do something for me are some guided meditations, and Qi Gong. Though not all guided meditations, noting involving astral projection works.

The Orin & Daben awaken your light body, seem to be doing something, not sure if it's really doing anything or not. The courses are very very very expensive. I do wish they were at least half their price.

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Did the meditation a 2nd time. My abdominal was resonating, tingling and like the first time I could feel a tingling or resonating at certain points of the guided meditation as I guess energy entered that area. Felt like I could feel some sort of energy body inside the physical body. He didn't say so, don't remember if it was Orin or Daben. I went ahead and imaged a link or channel between the abdominal area and the heart chakra since I'm not sure if the chakras that he was covering could handle all the resonating. I also hooked it up with the end of the spine so the kundalini could handle it also.

Though they are not chakras but vibrational centers of the light body. never heard of that before, but I know very little of the light body. maybe it was a mistake to hook those 2 chakras up, but to late now.

also I saw a mental image though my eyes were closed. it was maybe slightly bigger then the postage stamp of before. it was still a black and white image and not to distinct. These were all still images, and they changed unlike the 1 still image from yesterday. at first it looked like some sort of mostly or partly cloudy sky. Then either some sort of sci-fi gas type being or a galaxy shaped like that. Then some sci-fi type designs. 1 looked like a sorta oval within an oval with some images at certain points i could not clearly see. Some sort of star ship or machine diagrams.

Think I may copy this and my previous experience onto a notepad so i can have them in the folder where the course is. Since i can't write in a pdf, or don't have the software to do so.


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my main concerns right now. (it's in the pdf manual thing so thought why not type up here & they copy paste it in the special folder I'll be making for all this.

Physical concerns: this distortion in my left eye, being intolerant to so many foods. my stuttering, though it comes and goes and could be much worst so that is 2 good points. My eyes being so light sensitive, sensitive to the fact certain areas, ,music, ect has bad vibrations, or it feels bad to me. I'd say correcting my near sightedness, but that is very slight.

Deeper issues; wanting this to be my last incarnation. Evolving as far as i can, embody as much of my true soul self as i can in the time I have left. Learn as much of soul and other stuff as i can, tap into my soul knowledge and memories.

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positive changes I would like to see in my life:

Spiritual growth: embody as much of my soul self as i can. Evolve as far as I can in the time this body has left. Be able to know as much of my soul memories and knowledge as possible. Learn more of soul stuff and spiritual stuff.

Financial: it would be nice to have more money on a regular bases.

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