I did the 1st meditation of part 3. Running the energies went well. I started to see scenery like I was flying somewhere and when I noticed this, after a bit I concentrated on seeing if I could go to where Maribelle was. It seemed to take quite a bit of concentration but for a second or 2 I did see her. Couldn't make out her surroundings. not sure if she was underground or in a forest. maybe it was night or twilight where she was. not sure if that was the bi location thing I heard about or being multi dimensional and one aspect or part of me was flying somewhere where there were no people, just scenery only.
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I did feel some of twin flame's energy while I was at the rpg place. Not sure if she's gotten better at screening more of her energy, if I was distracted or multiple reasons.
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the meditation for the guided meditation went very well. It was running the energies for the first 6 light body energy centers, focusing on the 6th center. I went to a medium , or maybe a bit deeper, meditative state.
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The 3rd meditation for part 3 went very well. I did fell the fully formed renare cocoon. I felt like I was floating, somewhere, hard to describe the experience and what I was feeling. I did try to concentrate on seeing my twin flame and Maribelle and think I got a glimpse of a second or 2, not sure. I wonder what sort of experiences I may get when I redo this when I redo all the awaken the light body courses once I finish part 6.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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10:48 AM
Thought I'd try to channel my twin flame briefly this morning before I left.
how goes things with you? <Pretty well. Just
getting use to my new status and stuff, as you are. Though I'd guess
I'm more aware of it then you may be.>
So do you have the same guide I do, our future self? <Fairly
much yes. It is like you thought, you are tapping into your soul
knowledge very well, and did the mood/emotion shift last night very
well. Since we realized we're say equal aspects or souls to the
collective things changed so now what you call our divine self is the
one teaching and guiding us, along with Orin and Daben, since you are
taking their courses.>
I was wondering, i guess he, my possible future self, reflection of our
divine self, isn't merged with yours since they'd rather it be a
surprise what the combined us will us will be like. <yes indeed. I prefer it that way instead of knowing what it'll be like before hand.>
I didn't know Orin and Daben were teaching you. <not
really very much since I'm at the levels you'll be at when you get back
here so not much need really. Mainly its soul, and now our future
possible selves that are also reflection of our divine self. maybe
confusing to those of earth, but things do work a bit differently here
then there.> That is for sure.
I'm excited that I'll be able to get part 4 of the awaken the light
body. Can't wait to be finished with it then taking the other courses,
but I am trying to be much more relaxed and I do have fun doing those
courses. <that is the best way to do them, not
to be in a hurry and have fun, relax. it's not as needed to be in a
hurry for you as you think. Even the time you have left is plenty of
time.>
That is great to hear. I'll go for now. Great talking to you and
you're getting good at screening out the intensity stuff. <Yes,
but you may feel some of the pleasant aftereffects, and feel free to
talk to us during the day, even if you are not at home.>
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
Wedensday [4-29]
I was thinking about it and it does right to instead of doing the light body courses the way I was going to do them, do it instead based on the new idea I got and talked about yesterday. I think I may get the intuition one after I finish the awaken the light body course and spend a month going back to redo all the awaken the light body courses. That is what I originally planned so that is the same.
I think instead of going to blending with my divine self, I may go with my intuition. Not sure if I'd get then the higher mind and then blending with my divine self or I'd go from intuition straight to the celebrations of initiation of heart, throat, crown, then do the higher mind and blending with my divine self. The intuition one does have where you connect to and blend some with your divine self so that is one I'll get after the month spent redoing the awaken the light body. after the intuition one I'm not sure which order to get the others. I'll use my intuition then, and also perhaps see how things play out as far as finances and how I feel. I may alternate between, intuition, heart, higher mind, throat, blending with divine self, crown. I'll decide later. Plenty of time.
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Think i may do extra meditations today since I do want to do the reeving a clear channel, but I also will do the last 2 of the 2nd course of awakening the light body. I think then I'll do 3 meditations a day Thursday through Sunday to do the 3rd part of the course done over 4 days. I still have 2 receiving clear guidance to do to finish the course. I'll do 1 today and the last one maybe Thursday, Friday, or the weekend, as well as I will try to channel various over the 4 days of Thursday through Sunday. my soul, future self, twin flame, Mirabelle, unicorn mother & perhaps Mirabelle's mother. I'll decide later. Maybe the dolphin guy also. Plenty of time to decide. And who to try channeling also. Not playing at it. using that to improve my channeling with practice and keeping in touch with a few. As well as forming a deeper stronger connection with certain beings like my twin flame, Mirabelle, (or should I call her Maribelle, I may switch back). Soul, future self.
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I did a short meditation on my twin flame. And I guess she felt it or something since she popped in mentally and it wound up being us kissing and caressing each other. Very pleasant, including the feel of our energies intermixing. Some sexual feelings among the other positive feelings, but that is normal between us. I can still feel some of her energy in my energy now.
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I did the 12th guided meditation in receiving clear guidance. Just 1 more and I'll be finished with this course. Think I'll do the other one before to long today, then do the other 2 from the 2nd part of awakening the light body. Then I'll take a day or 2 break from the channeling courses, do 3 a day from part 3 of awakening the light body and try doing short channelings most or each day from Thursday through Sunday.
Think I got a feel that my future self is , or may be, a reflection from my divine self. he is both my future self and what I may grow into, so acting as a guide. Sorta a paradox maybe but also not one. One of those soul things that I think make sense. The dolphin guy I think is a friend of his, who has come back to learn. Didn't get much of a feel from him.
The guided meditation was asking for guidance in various areas. The general suggestion he said was put aside expectations, relax, be my true real self, relax, have fun, don't be in a hurry, have fun. Stuff like that, with some stuff being repeated. Also put aside past expectations and experiences, beliefs.
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I've been thinking. I'm not sure if I have moved past or equal to the collective, or if perhaps this future me that is a reflection of my divine self is a member of the collective and they are aspects & individual souls of my divine self, as it is of their divine self.
Feels like it could be that way. All these souls could be individuals, but also part of a multidimensional being that some may call our divine self.
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I'm doing the 13th and last audio of the receiving clear guidance and choose for what area I wanted to get guidance on (of my divine plan) out was my spiritual and soul development. It's much like what I said before, relax, have fun, trust in myself (my true self), become my true self, relax, have fun, don't try to hurry or rush to fast.
I also got that the collective, future self are connected to the divine self. The collective were, perhaps, helping me to become one with them and my future self, that I earlier felt to be both a future self that I could become, and a reflection of my divine self, is sorta of my personal connection to my divine self, so to speak. Not sure if I phrased it right. so it and the collective are at the same level so to speak, but my future self, which I could either someday become, or may grow into something very similar, is my personal connection to my divine self since I became either 1 with the collective, or got close enough so i can use this and this may be more efficient or my personal connection. Feels either right or pretty close.
Feels like it still goes through soul, maybe my subconscious mind to my conscious mind and soul also really enjoys this process. Or really enjoys something about this. I do feel that.
Feels like I thought before. Fine tuning is fine, but one can find tune forever. Only fine tune if it bugs me or if I feel or see the need, otherwise no need to. It also feels like I have nothing really big I need to clear out.
Feels like I should so ahead and get more courses from Orin & Daben, but not be in a hurry to get them as fast as I can.
think since I have this connection with what feels like maybe my divine self I may casually redo some of the opening to channel and Receiving Clear Guidance to strengthen the connection. Think I'll channel daily, but do some of the above courses from the 2, on a few days a week.
Feels like the new ideas I got of what courses to get in what order is roughly correct. no need, like I said earlier, to plan out all the courses. next year I'll plan out what to get after the 2nd light body course. and overall feels like I may not need as much guidance as before. Though some and to help me with belief in myself, confidence in myself and in my intuition, clear knowing thing. Clear cognizance or however it's spelled. (thanks to firefox spellchecker, it knows how to spell that word).
The next steps are to, as i mentioned before, relax, don't be in to much of a hurry, take my time. Have faith in my self, my true self, become and live as my true self, have faith in my intuition, clear knowing and feeling and other things.
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I did the 11th meditation of part 2, forgiveness. I think it went very well. The first one i did forgive 1 person, the other 2 times Orin said to pick someone from your life or family I instead focused on forgiving everyone everywhere in all time and all spaces, all places and times that exist, and myself as well. maybe overdoing it, but I figure, why not. and I do feel better, lighter, more at peace from doing that.
it also finished with talking to your dna and sending it light and then light to your cells. think I may do this on a regular basis. At least parts of it.
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I did the 12 and last guided meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body, visiting the temple of the masters. it went very well. Though I was distracted by my knee slightly. I went pretty deep, to medium level I'd say in my meditation. It did feel like there was qutie a bit of energy work being done. The guide looked like a sun, or a ball of very bright light.
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I was starting to feel depressed, no idea why. I think I caught it early enough so I could do what is called emotional flow in either the 1st or 2nd part of awaken the light body. Forgot which. It slightly introduces that you can feel what emotion you want to feel. Also I think in 2 or 3 it talks about you can switch an emotion someone is feeling to so it doesn't effect you. I don't fully understand that, but I did decide to try emotional flow to feel happy instead. Not suppress my depression, it's just that I choose to feel happy instead. I did some visualization with some hand movements. Sorta like I was holding a 4-5 inch ball between my hands and I switched my hands so the other hand was on top, while not dropping the imaginary ball. hard to explain but that did help and I successfully changed the emotion I was feeling to happiness. I did hear a mental voice, not sure who from who said that I did that very well.
The tricky thing is recognizing I'm experiencing an emotion then changing it if I want or choose to.
I did ask and I think I got the reply that it was the dolphin guy.
I think instead of going to blending with my divine self, I may go with my intuition. Not sure if I'd get then the higher mind and then blending with my divine self or I'd go from intuition straight to the celebrations of initiation of heart, throat, crown, then do the higher mind and blending with my divine self. The intuition one does have where you connect to and blend some with your divine self so that is one I'll get after the month spent redoing the awaken the light body. after the intuition one I'm not sure which order to get the others. I'll use my intuition then, and also perhaps see how things play out as far as finances and how I feel. I may alternate between, intuition, heart, higher mind, throat, blending with divine self, crown. I'll decide later. Plenty of time.
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Think i may do extra meditations today since I do want to do the reeving a clear channel, but I also will do the last 2 of the 2nd course of awakening the light body. I think then I'll do 3 meditations a day Thursday through Sunday to do the 3rd part of the course done over 4 days. I still have 2 receiving clear guidance to do to finish the course. I'll do 1 today and the last one maybe Thursday, Friday, or the weekend, as well as I will try to channel various over the 4 days of Thursday through Sunday. my soul, future self, twin flame, Mirabelle, unicorn mother & perhaps Mirabelle's mother. I'll decide later. Maybe the dolphin guy also. Plenty of time to decide. And who to try channeling also. Not playing at it. using that to improve my channeling with practice and keeping in touch with a few. As well as forming a deeper stronger connection with certain beings like my twin flame, Mirabelle, (or should I call her Maribelle, I may switch back). Soul, future self.
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I did a short meditation on my twin flame. And I guess she felt it or something since she popped in mentally and it wound up being us kissing and caressing each other. Very pleasant, including the feel of our energies intermixing. Some sexual feelings among the other positive feelings, but that is normal between us. I can still feel some of her energy in my energy now.
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I did the 12th guided meditation in receiving clear guidance. Just 1 more and I'll be finished with this course. Think I'll do the other one before to long today, then do the other 2 from the 2nd part of awakening the light body. Then I'll take a day or 2 break from the channeling courses, do 3 a day from part 3 of awakening the light body and try doing short channelings most or each day from Thursday through Sunday.
Think I got a feel that my future self is , or may be, a reflection from my divine self. he is both my future self and what I may grow into, so acting as a guide. Sorta a paradox maybe but also not one. One of those soul things that I think make sense. The dolphin guy I think is a friend of his, who has come back to learn. Didn't get much of a feel from him.
The guided meditation was asking for guidance in various areas. The general suggestion he said was put aside expectations, relax, be my true real self, relax, have fun, don't be in a hurry, have fun. Stuff like that, with some stuff being repeated. Also put aside past expectations and experiences, beliefs.
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I've been thinking. I'm not sure if I have moved past or equal to the collective, or if perhaps this future me that is a reflection of my divine self is a member of the collective and they are aspects & individual souls of my divine self, as it is of their divine self.
Feels like it could be that way. All these souls could be individuals, but also part of a multidimensional being that some may call our divine self.
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I'm doing the 13th and last audio of the receiving clear guidance and choose for what area I wanted to get guidance on (of my divine plan) out was my spiritual and soul development. It's much like what I said before, relax, have fun, trust in myself (my true self), become my true self, relax, have fun, don't try to hurry or rush to fast.
I also got that the collective, future self are connected to the divine self. The collective were, perhaps, helping me to become one with them and my future self, that I earlier felt to be both a future self that I could become, and a reflection of my divine self, is sorta of my personal connection to my divine self, so to speak. Not sure if I phrased it right. so it and the collective are at the same level so to speak, but my future self, which I could either someday become, or may grow into something very similar, is my personal connection to my divine self since I became either 1 with the collective, or got close enough so i can use this and this may be more efficient or my personal connection. Feels either right or pretty close.
Feels like it still goes through soul, maybe my subconscious mind to my conscious mind and soul also really enjoys this process. Or really enjoys something about this. I do feel that.
Feels like I thought before. Fine tuning is fine, but one can find tune forever. Only fine tune if it bugs me or if I feel or see the need, otherwise no need to. It also feels like I have nothing really big I need to clear out.
Feels like I should so ahead and get more courses from Orin & Daben, but not be in a hurry to get them as fast as I can.
think since I have this connection with what feels like maybe my divine self I may casually redo some of the opening to channel and Receiving Clear Guidance to strengthen the connection. Think I'll channel daily, but do some of the above courses from the 2, on a few days a week.
Feels like the new ideas I got of what courses to get in what order is roughly correct. no need, like I said earlier, to plan out all the courses. next year I'll plan out what to get after the 2nd light body course. and overall feels like I may not need as much guidance as before. Though some and to help me with belief in myself, confidence in myself and in my intuition, clear knowing thing. Clear cognizance or however it's spelled. (thanks to firefox spellchecker, it knows how to spell that word).
The next steps are to, as i mentioned before, relax, don't be in to much of a hurry, take my time. Have faith in my self, my true self, become and live as my true self, have faith in my intuition, clear knowing and feeling and other things.
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I did the 11th meditation of part 2, forgiveness. I think it went very well. The first one i did forgive 1 person, the other 2 times Orin said to pick someone from your life or family I instead focused on forgiving everyone everywhere in all time and all spaces, all places and times that exist, and myself as well. maybe overdoing it, but I figure, why not. and I do feel better, lighter, more at peace from doing that.
it also finished with talking to your dna and sending it light and then light to your cells. think I may do this on a regular basis. At least parts of it.
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I did the 12 and last guided meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body, visiting the temple of the masters. it went very well. Though I was distracted by my knee slightly. I went pretty deep, to medium level I'd say in my meditation. It did feel like there was qutie a bit of energy work being done. The guide looked like a sun, or a ball of very bright light.
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I was starting to feel depressed, no idea why. I think I caught it early enough so I could do what is called emotional flow in either the 1st or 2nd part of awaken the light body. Forgot which. It slightly introduces that you can feel what emotion you want to feel. Also I think in 2 or 3 it talks about you can switch an emotion someone is feeling to so it doesn't effect you. I don't fully understand that, but I did decide to try emotional flow to feel happy instead. Not suppress my depression, it's just that I choose to feel happy instead. I did some visualization with some hand movements. Sorta like I was holding a 4-5 inch ball between my hands and I switched my hands so the other hand was on top, while not dropping the imaginary ball. hard to explain but that did help and I successfully changed the emotion I was feeling to happiness. I did hear a mental voice, not sure who from who said that I did that very well.
The tricky thing is recognizing I'm experiencing an emotion then changing it if I want or choose to.
I did ask and I think I got the reply that it was the dolphin guy.
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Tuesday [4-28]
Not sure if it is normal. I assume so. But I've noticed lately that the desire to go home as started to surface again and it does get pretty strong. Though it doesn't leave me depressed or anything. Just a sorta dual feeling. I do want to go home strongly, the urge is strong, but also I know I'm here till the incarnation ends.
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I did the healing the inner child meditation & I do feel like it did something positive. I decided to do this based on a dream I had lass night. I do feel like there may be Less fear, or no fear at all. Some areas feel looser, so to speak. Hard to describe. I was unaware of there being any fear in my sub conscious mind, but perhaps the dream showed me there was some, seemingly a great deal.
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I did the 9th meditation of you are a master compassion. It all went very well. Not sure exactly why, but, when I summoned the master as Orin says to do in the guided meditation I got 2 instead, what looked like a dolphin and other that looked like an orca. Interesting.
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I had been thinking, over say next year, I may get the 2nd light body course, and save up and occasionally get the 3rd course, which is much more expensive then the 2nd course, as a side course. Though now I'm thinking maybe I'll put that off and instead do next year will be for the 2nd course. 2017 may be for the 3rd course and 2018 may be for finishing 3 if I need and doing some of 4, hopefully finishing 4. 2019 may be finishing 4.
Though I'm thinking instead I may, once I finish 2, maybe instead will focus on getting the light body side courses that interest me and are cheaper then the 3rd course. Then once I've gotten all those that interest me, I may then go onto 3 then maybe 4, if those interest me still and if I think the price is not to bad.
I've also been thinking, starting with the 4th part of awakening the light body, instead of doing each course over say 18 days. The first pass is doing each meditation twice a day, then the 2nd pass I do 2 different meditations a day. I may instead just do the 1st pass like normal, then once I finish, I will just repeat the 1st pass as the 2nd pass, thus taking another 12 days to do the meditations again. This means I would have done the meditations 4 times before going on to the next part. And once I finish the awakening the light body and move on to other courses I may do something similar.
This will leave say about a week between the awakening the light body parts, and some future courses that have 12 mediation. I'll spend the week doing some of my favorite meditations from past courses. I should gather together my favorites and put them into a folder. Then do 2 other folders, some meditations I should do as needed, and some I want to do on a regular basis, but not a fixed schedule, not a favorite and not as needed, sorta an in-between one.
I think I may save up and buy the parts of the 3rd course now and then, saving up a bit here and a bit there. So maybe buy a part every say 4-8 months. If I did it this way, it may take a few years to get the side courses that interest me. ignoring course 3 and 4, which would take at least a year or more each, themselves. If I do it this way, I could say over 12 months get not just 12 courses, but if I save up a bit here & a bit there, I could get say around 15, roughly. Not bad.
Plus doing all those side courses after I do the 2nd course may give me an even better foundation overall and build on certain skills. Though I do still think after I do the 4-5 side courses I've picked out, I'll go straight onto the 2nd course, then do the rest of the side courses before I decide if I want do to the 3rd course then the 4th one. I just call the other light body courses side light body courses since there are 5 courses and a bunch that are not part of the numbered courses, so why not call them side light body courses.
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I am curious about the dolphin and orca beings that appeared during the last mediation. I do have some suspicions. But I'll see if they pop up again on the next one. I'm not sure who the dolphin being was, maybe some master or ascended master who maybe was a dolphin type being. The orca being, my first feel was maybe future me. Is the guide going to switch to him? hmm. Just an initial impression. not sure if I a right or wrong about this.
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I had an interesting experience. I was sitting back in my chair and had my eyes closed and was resting, not really meditating, but maybe I was doing a very light meditation without knowing it. When part of me was somewhere else. There was no surroundings, so maybe it was all in my mind or something.
The dolphin and the orca were there again. The orca did move up close to me and we were belly and chest to belly and chest, in a sort of hug type. Initially as best as one can do with flippers. I noticed I was about the same size as the orca and we were partially anthro, from the chest up it seems.
I asked who the dolphin was since I didn't feel like I knew him or his energy, not that he had a gender really. the orca said he was a master or what some may call an ascended master, a sort of friend of his who wanted to come along here. I asked, in a joking manner if he was here to make sure you don't do anything you shouldn't and the orca responded in a similarly non serious manner, <no nothing like that.> The dolphin was not of earth origin, I'm sure of that. But with so many planets I'm sure there are many many who are masters and ascended masters or whatever the term is who are of non earth origin.
I asked about the dolphin and the orca said, <you have not met him yet, you are meeting him a bit out of sequence as it were.> He said he is a sort of
he also asked how I felt about him, the orca. I said I do have sexual feelings, finding him sexy and attractive. I guessed he was acting as a sort of mirror, showing how I feel about myself to which he said basically true yes. it shows how I feel about myself and my various selves feel about me and each other. or he said something like that, not sure of the exact words.
I asked if he were my future self and he said technically he's a possible future self to me, just as I am a possible past self to him. A paradox but also not a paradox. I asked if he were going to be my new guide and he asked, <Do you want me to be?>
Before I answered the dolphin came up close to use and was in a sorta partially anthro form since he had arms and hands, and he started to rub my back with one hand and a bit later I noticed he had been rubbing the orca's back at the same time in the same way.
it had an affectionate feel to it, with some sexualness mixed in, very slight. He asked me how I felt about him, meaning the dolphin and I did use my intuition as best as I could saying I felt he was a being of light, would not intentionally do me any harm, just to help me. He said something about excellent, my intuition was developed to a good level.
he continued the rubbing and it was having a somewhat more sexual feeling and essence to it. I did get aroused, my sexual desire rising. the orca, who seemingly and feels like is my future self then started to kiss me. I could feel energy flowing between us. This went on for a few minutes. Then I broke it off since I wanted to do some stuff asking if we could pick up where we left off here and I got a yes.
I got done what I wanted to get done and lay back listening to some of the free music i got from getting the various courses from Orin and Daben. This lasted around 4 minutes before the dolphin type being said I should go and eat something then we can try again after I lay down to take a nap since I'd be in a better time then.
During the time this lasted I did feel some sort of energy work, or at the very least energy was flowing from me into the orca at the same time. I did my best to relax and surrender to the experience and just to let it happen, and I think I did fairly well, with the dolphin telling me, or reminding me to relax at times. The emotions were fairly strong as I recall, with passion and love, sexual feelings as well. the dolphin seemed to know exactly where to rub on my back to enhance the experience, perhaps he was doing some energy work also.
I'm curious what all this is about, though it has been a very pleasurable experience.
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Was going to do a guided meditation but feels like it's better to not do one and instead just relax since it feels like some energy work is being done mainly in my abdominal area. Feels like quite a bit of energy being done there and a maybe something being removed. Didn't go on to long.
Feels like it started again a bit later. at a lower level.
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after an hour or more feels like they paused. Then started up a bit again. I mentally asked my future self what he was doing. he said <energy work>.
"What sort of energy work? <manipulating some of our energy to have a certain desired effect on you.>
what sort of energy work exactly are you folks doing? <if I were to tell you you'd say ick.>
Hope you are filling the areas with light. <We'll cram in as much light as we can once we finish with certain areas and things.>
Are you going to be my new guide or one of them? <would you like me to be?> I guess you do understand me pretty well, <yes, that goes without saying. >
I guess the dolphin guy is your guide? <He is, among others. More of a friend though then a real guide. Though guides are friends really.>
I think it may be neat to have you for a guide. a future or possible future self, as long as that is who you really are and you are both of the light and some others approve like my soul, twin flame, Maribelle. <sure, those are all met. and the dolphin won't be much of a guide to you currently since though he is what some would call an ascended master he's not had any experience with anyone from the earth. So if you are ok with this, this can be a learning opportunity for him too.> seems ok with me.
So is he really a dolphin? <his soul origins is very similar to ours.>
So are you what Orin & Daben would call my divine self? <not as of yet technically, technically I am. Best to think of me as a possible future self. Far simpler that way, believe me.>
So is, uh, sharing allowed between us? <sure why not. Considering our soul origins, it would be a bit odd if we never did.>
Is it normal for guides to keep changing? <for some, like you who are going through rapid growth, and re-learning to channel and channeling higher and higher beings, yes. if you look at it you've not been re-learning to channel for vary long so some fluctuation and change is not surprising.>
I do hope it'll stabilize. Will you be temporary also? <I may, it is hard to say. Just go with the flow as you have been. Things will go much easier that way.>
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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12:14 AM
Thought I'd try to channel my twin flame again. I'm a bit distracted so it'll be lots of type and stop.
hello <Heeelo lover. just a silly name I thought I'd use for now. What you've been told before is true. Once we do merge for the first time and un-merge things will never be quite the same for us again. As great as both things will be.>
I can imagine. <greater then you can imagine. I've asked some other twin flame couples here.>
<Some of your energy will be with me, and mine with you. Sorta the aftereffects of our channeling. though stronger. Unless our intent is to do a split and my energy only goes with me. Even if we do that, we'll still have the memory of having been merged as 1 being. A great experience they've said. one you can't really put into words. Some merge more then others. Some very seldom, some do it regularly. Not sure which type we'd be. Maybe in the middle somewhere.>
That sounds nice. What sorts of stuff will be be doing once I'm over there? <i'd rather save that for a pleasant surprise. I'll just give a small hint and it'll be only what you enjoy doing, but you've heard that before from other sources. :) >
I don't feel the intensity, just a slight echo of it. You're good at screening. <yes, I'm not there with you so that is helping. but I can't screen it all out since we are primary twin flames so our energies and beings will always react in the same way to each other. This way is more manageable for us both. But just wait till we really get together. ;) >
Sounds like fun. I have enjoyed the feel of the intensity before. <you're no the only one. ;) That is a thing all primary twin flames share. it shows we have nothing to clear between us or work on, it's normal.>
Normal that last time I had nothing purge from being with you? <this is a distant weak connection, but even if I were to pop there real quick you'd not go through any purging. the course you are taking helped with that, as well as the treatments you received on the ship and the few the pod gave you. Not much really left, minor stuff only. The major stuff is done, as far as I can tell.>
Did they do any of that stuff on you? <I never incarnated on earth so no.>
<Yes, I do find connecting with you distracting in a very fun pleasurable way.> I had been thinking of her, feeling her heavily and mentally imagined being with her for a a few or 5 seconds hugging. <not as imaginary as you think.>
<you never know, our energies reacting to each other, and our beings, reacting to each other as they are, may help in certain areas> may, I bet you know. <maaaybe, not exact but i do have some strong suspicions, based on talking to other more experienced souls and twin flame couples.>
<though seriously, as much as I'd love to be with you popping in beside you, and I think I will at times. This is more manageable for both of us.>
Sadly I agree, though I do hope you'll pop in sometimes here, and into some guided meditations. <I will now and then, but this will be the main way. Less distracting for us both. and you are pretty focused on what you are doing, though at least you do remember ot have fun and relax and not be all work.>
Will there be special classes for us primary twin flames? ;) <of course not silly. Just learning the special work we can do, and the special energy work. You've experienced an example of the special energy work, and more will happen in the future as well as fun training, but plenty of time for that. it won't happen tonight and i do guarantee it'll be fun when it does gradually happen. as will be everything we do over here. together and separate. >
So is our natural form balls of bright light like small suns? <as souls yes, that is our natural form, but I prefer what you have refereed to as a dolphin type form. >
is that why when I appear on the ship or use to appear where the pod is or other places in some guided meditations I am in an dolphin type form or an anthro version? <that is your true form apart from the soul ball of light. what you may call your light or luminous body is indeed more dolphin shaped, or what humans would call a dolphin. being a human is a temporary thing for you, like putting on a shirt for a while.>
Meditating on you isn't to distracting for you? <no, it may have some positive effects, but don't just meditate on me. Now and then is ok.> True , many other things to do with meditation.
Luminous body? <think of it as a light body, but a bit farther along, or a higher level>
I see. Like a light body is higher or closer to soul then astral or etheric, or mental? <indeed.> I see, thanks.
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An hour or 2 after the last message. I can say the after effects are the same, and pleasant. I can feel her energy in mine. left over from the channeling, and it gets me to think of her more. Think like I said before, I'll regularly do this, but not daily, maybe once a week or twice maybe.
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I did the healing the inner child meditation & I do feel like it did something positive. I decided to do this based on a dream I had lass night. I do feel like there may be Less fear, or no fear at all. Some areas feel looser, so to speak. Hard to describe. I was unaware of there being any fear in my sub conscious mind, but perhaps the dream showed me there was some, seemingly a great deal.
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I did the 9th meditation of you are a master compassion. It all went very well. Not sure exactly why, but, when I summoned the master as Orin says to do in the guided meditation I got 2 instead, what looked like a dolphin and other that looked like an orca. Interesting.
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I had been thinking, over say next year, I may get the 2nd light body course, and save up and occasionally get the 3rd course, which is much more expensive then the 2nd course, as a side course. Though now I'm thinking maybe I'll put that off and instead do next year will be for the 2nd course. 2017 may be for the 3rd course and 2018 may be for finishing 3 if I need and doing some of 4, hopefully finishing 4. 2019 may be finishing 4.
Though I'm thinking instead I may, once I finish 2, maybe instead will focus on getting the light body side courses that interest me and are cheaper then the 3rd course. Then once I've gotten all those that interest me, I may then go onto 3 then maybe 4, if those interest me still and if I think the price is not to bad.
I've also been thinking, starting with the 4th part of awakening the light body, instead of doing each course over say 18 days. The first pass is doing each meditation twice a day, then the 2nd pass I do 2 different meditations a day. I may instead just do the 1st pass like normal, then once I finish, I will just repeat the 1st pass as the 2nd pass, thus taking another 12 days to do the meditations again. This means I would have done the meditations 4 times before going on to the next part. And once I finish the awakening the light body and move on to other courses I may do something similar.
This will leave say about a week between the awakening the light body parts, and some future courses that have 12 mediation. I'll spend the week doing some of my favorite meditations from past courses. I should gather together my favorites and put them into a folder. Then do 2 other folders, some meditations I should do as needed, and some I want to do on a regular basis, but not a fixed schedule, not a favorite and not as needed, sorta an in-between one.
I think I may save up and buy the parts of the 3rd course now and then, saving up a bit here and a bit there. So maybe buy a part every say 4-8 months. If I did it this way, it may take a few years to get the side courses that interest me. ignoring course 3 and 4, which would take at least a year or more each, themselves. If I do it this way, I could say over 12 months get not just 12 courses, but if I save up a bit here & a bit there, I could get say around 15, roughly. Not bad.
Plus doing all those side courses after I do the 2nd course may give me an even better foundation overall and build on certain skills. Though I do still think after I do the 4-5 side courses I've picked out, I'll go straight onto the 2nd course, then do the rest of the side courses before I decide if I want do to the 3rd course then the 4th one. I just call the other light body courses side light body courses since there are 5 courses and a bunch that are not part of the numbered courses, so why not call them side light body courses.
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I am curious about the dolphin and orca beings that appeared during the last mediation. I do have some suspicions. But I'll see if they pop up again on the next one. I'm not sure who the dolphin being was, maybe some master or ascended master who maybe was a dolphin type being. The orca being, my first feel was maybe future me. Is the guide going to switch to him? hmm. Just an initial impression. not sure if I a right or wrong about this.
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I had an interesting experience. I was sitting back in my chair and had my eyes closed and was resting, not really meditating, but maybe I was doing a very light meditation without knowing it. When part of me was somewhere else. There was no surroundings, so maybe it was all in my mind or something.
The dolphin and the orca were there again. The orca did move up close to me and we were belly and chest to belly and chest, in a sort of hug type. Initially as best as one can do with flippers. I noticed I was about the same size as the orca and we were partially anthro, from the chest up it seems.
I asked who the dolphin was since I didn't feel like I knew him or his energy, not that he had a gender really. the orca said he was a master or what some may call an ascended master, a sort of friend of his who wanted to come along here. I asked, in a joking manner if he was here to make sure you don't do anything you shouldn't and the orca responded in a similarly non serious manner, <no nothing like that.> The dolphin was not of earth origin, I'm sure of that. But with so many planets I'm sure there are many many who are masters and ascended masters or whatever the term is who are of non earth origin.
I asked about the dolphin and the orca said, <you have not met him yet, you are meeting him a bit out of sequence as it were.> He said he is a sort of
he also asked how I felt about him, the orca. I said I do have sexual feelings, finding him sexy and attractive. I guessed he was acting as a sort of mirror, showing how I feel about myself to which he said basically true yes. it shows how I feel about myself and my various selves feel about me and each other. or he said something like that, not sure of the exact words.
I asked if he were my future self and he said technically he's a possible future self to me, just as I am a possible past self to him. A paradox but also not a paradox. I asked if he were going to be my new guide and he asked, <Do you want me to be?>
Before I answered the dolphin came up close to use and was in a sorta partially anthro form since he had arms and hands, and he started to rub my back with one hand and a bit later I noticed he had been rubbing the orca's back at the same time in the same way.
it had an affectionate feel to it, with some sexualness mixed in, very slight. He asked me how I felt about him, meaning the dolphin and I did use my intuition as best as I could saying I felt he was a being of light, would not intentionally do me any harm, just to help me. He said something about excellent, my intuition was developed to a good level.
he continued the rubbing and it was having a somewhat more sexual feeling and essence to it. I did get aroused, my sexual desire rising. the orca, who seemingly and feels like is my future self then started to kiss me. I could feel energy flowing between us. This went on for a few minutes. Then I broke it off since I wanted to do some stuff asking if we could pick up where we left off here and I got a yes.
I got done what I wanted to get done and lay back listening to some of the free music i got from getting the various courses from Orin and Daben. This lasted around 4 minutes before the dolphin type being said I should go and eat something then we can try again after I lay down to take a nap since I'd be in a better time then.
During the time this lasted I did feel some sort of energy work, or at the very least energy was flowing from me into the orca at the same time. I did my best to relax and surrender to the experience and just to let it happen, and I think I did fairly well, with the dolphin telling me, or reminding me to relax at times. The emotions were fairly strong as I recall, with passion and love, sexual feelings as well. the dolphin seemed to know exactly where to rub on my back to enhance the experience, perhaps he was doing some energy work also.
I'm curious what all this is about, though it has been a very pleasurable experience.
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Was going to do a guided meditation but feels like it's better to not do one and instead just relax since it feels like some energy work is being done mainly in my abdominal area. Feels like quite a bit of energy being done there and a maybe something being removed. Didn't go on to long.
Feels like it started again a bit later. at a lower level.
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after an hour or more feels like they paused. Then started up a bit again. I mentally asked my future self what he was doing. he said <energy work>.
"What sort of energy work? <manipulating some of our energy to have a certain desired effect on you.>
what sort of energy work exactly are you folks doing? <if I were to tell you you'd say ick.>
Hope you are filling the areas with light. <We'll cram in as much light as we can once we finish with certain areas and things.>
Are you going to be my new guide or one of them? <would you like me to be?> I guess you do understand me pretty well, <yes, that goes without saying. >
I guess the dolphin guy is your guide? <He is, among others. More of a friend though then a real guide. Though guides are friends really.>
I think it may be neat to have you for a guide. a future or possible future self, as long as that is who you really are and you are both of the light and some others approve like my soul, twin flame, Maribelle. <sure, those are all met. and the dolphin won't be much of a guide to you currently since though he is what some would call an ascended master he's not had any experience with anyone from the earth. So if you are ok with this, this can be a learning opportunity for him too.> seems ok with me.
So is he really a dolphin? <his soul origins is very similar to ours.>
So are you what Orin & Daben would call my divine self? <not as of yet technically, technically I am. Best to think of me as a possible future self. Far simpler that way, believe me.>
So is, uh, sharing allowed between us? <sure why not. Considering our soul origins, it would be a bit odd if we never did.>
Is it normal for guides to keep changing? <for some, like you who are going through rapid growth, and re-learning to channel and channeling higher and higher beings, yes. if you look at it you've not been re-learning to channel for vary long so some fluctuation and change is not surprising.>
I do hope it'll stabilize. Will you be temporary also? <I may, it is hard to say. Just go with the flow as you have been. Things will go much easier that way.>
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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12:14 AM
Thought I'd try to channel my twin flame again. I'm a bit distracted so it'll be lots of type and stop.
hello <Heeelo lover. just a silly name I thought I'd use for now. What you've been told before is true. Once we do merge for the first time and un-merge things will never be quite the same for us again. As great as both things will be.>
I can imagine. <greater then you can imagine. I've asked some other twin flame couples here.>
<Some of your energy will be with me, and mine with you. Sorta the aftereffects of our channeling. though stronger. Unless our intent is to do a split and my energy only goes with me. Even if we do that, we'll still have the memory of having been merged as 1 being. A great experience they've said. one you can't really put into words. Some merge more then others. Some very seldom, some do it regularly. Not sure which type we'd be. Maybe in the middle somewhere.>
That sounds nice. What sorts of stuff will be be doing once I'm over there? <i'd rather save that for a pleasant surprise. I'll just give a small hint and it'll be only what you enjoy doing, but you've heard that before from other sources. :) >
I don't feel the intensity, just a slight echo of it. You're good at screening. <yes, I'm not there with you so that is helping. but I can't screen it all out since we are primary twin flames so our energies and beings will always react in the same way to each other. This way is more manageable for us both. But just wait till we really get together. ;) >
Sounds like fun. I have enjoyed the feel of the intensity before. <you're no the only one. ;) That is a thing all primary twin flames share. it shows we have nothing to clear between us or work on, it's normal.>
Normal that last time I had nothing purge from being with you? <this is a distant weak connection, but even if I were to pop there real quick you'd not go through any purging. the course you are taking helped with that, as well as the treatments you received on the ship and the few the pod gave you. Not much really left, minor stuff only. The major stuff is done, as far as I can tell.>
Did they do any of that stuff on you? <I never incarnated on earth so no.>
<Yes, I do find connecting with you distracting in a very fun pleasurable way.> I had been thinking of her, feeling her heavily and mentally imagined being with her for a a few or 5 seconds hugging. <not as imaginary as you think.>
<you never know, our energies reacting to each other, and our beings, reacting to each other as they are, may help in certain areas> may, I bet you know. <maaaybe, not exact but i do have some strong suspicions, based on talking to other more experienced souls and twin flame couples.>
<though seriously, as much as I'd love to be with you popping in beside you, and I think I will at times. This is more manageable for both of us.>
Sadly I agree, though I do hope you'll pop in sometimes here, and into some guided meditations. <I will now and then, but this will be the main way. Less distracting for us both. and you are pretty focused on what you are doing, though at least you do remember ot have fun and relax and not be all work.>
Will there be special classes for us primary twin flames? ;) <of course not silly. Just learning the special work we can do, and the special energy work. You've experienced an example of the special energy work, and more will happen in the future as well as fun training, but plenty of time for that. it won't happen tonight and i do guarantee it'll be fun when it does gradually happen. as will be everything we do over here. together and separate. >
So is our natural form balls of bright light like small suns? <as souls yes, that is our natural form, but I prefer what you have refereed to as a dolphin type form. >
is that why when I appear on the ship or use to appear where the pod is or other places in some guided meditations I am in an dolphin type form or an anthro version? <that is your true form apart from the soul ball of light. what you may call your light or luminous body is indeed more dolphin shaped, or what humans would call a dolphin. being a human is a temporary thing for you, like putting on a shirt for a while.>
Meditating on you isn't to distracting for you? <no, it may have some positive effects, but don't just meditate on me. Now and then is ok.> True , many other things to do with meditation.
Luminous body? <think of it as a light body, but a bit farther along, or a higher level>
I see. Like a light body is higher or closer to soul then astral or etheric, or mental? <indeed.> I see, thanks.
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An hour or 2 after the last message. I can say the after effects are the same, and pleasant. I can feel her energy in mine. left over from the channeling, and it gets me to think of her more. Think like I said before, I'll regularly do this, but not daily, maybe once a week or twice maybe.
Monday, April 27, 2015
Monday [4-27]
I did the 11th receiving clear guidance. it went sorta ok. It was about playing with time. getting guidance from your guide about something you wanted guidance for and looking at the future of some area you wanted guidance with and looking at some steps. I did the area of either being my monad or being my true self or divine self as Orin and Daben call it.
I got a few things. trust myself, relax a bit. trust that I am a master being of light.
Also the feel that the current guide may not be a permanent guide and I may get another. my future self? that would be different. Not sure.
Over all sorta meh, but it may be something that in a bit if I redo it, say a week or a few weeks, I may get far better results. Like with some of the awaken the light body meditations.
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I got a few things. trust myself, relax a bit. trust that I am a master being of light.
Also the feel that the current guide may not be a permanent guide and I may get another. my future self? that would be different. Not sure.
Over all sorta meh, but it may be something that in a bit if I redo it, say a week or a few weeks, I may get far better results. Like with some of the awaken the light body meditations.
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Sunday, April 26, 2015
Sunday [4-26]
I did the 5th meditation for the 2nd part
of awaken the light body. It deals with awakening the inner healer.
Overall I think it went decent to ok. Think I"ll do 6 later, and not do
a 3rd from the awakening the light body, instead I think I'll do one
from receiving a clear channel. I may also try to do some short
channelings later. maybe twin flame, the collective, maybe Mirabelle
and unicorn mother, if they are willing and I can and they are not to
busy.
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I did the 6th and overall it went well. I talked to Mirabelle a bit at the very beginning and she went silent after a bit so I could focus on this. Though i went very deep at one point and consciously don't recall the middle part of the meditation, that is ok. Mirabelle did comment she was surprised how fast time flows for me. She had not realized it's been this much time passed for me, unlike for her. Before soul did mention that hours for her are days for me.
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I did the 6th and overall it went well. I talked to Mirabelle a bit at the very beginning and she went silent after a bit so I could focus on this. Though i went very deep at one point and consciously don't recall the middle part of the meditation, that is ok. Mirabelle did comment she was surprised how fast time flows for me. She had not realized it's been this much time passed for me, unlike for her. Before soul did mention that hours for her are days for me.
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I did part 10 for receiving clear guidance. It is about looking into certain areas and getting more detail. It wasn't words but soul knowledge that I got, so perhaps not true channeling which is why I won't put this message there.
What I got ini my soul knowledge was the next step was that I had become 1 with the monad, the collective. The next step is for me to realize that everyone in the monad is reflections of me as I am of them. We are all, each of us, the monad, but we are individuals as well. Instead of me being a member of the monad, I am the monad, along with everyone else who is also the monad, all at the same time. Maybe it sounds confusing to those reading this, but I think I do understand. Not sure why this came across as soul knowledge and not someting the collective of my soul told me. No biggie overall though.
<Here (earth) is but transitory. I'll be returning home before long. before I know it, well within 10 years perhaps, I"ll be returning home. Here is not the true reality, but only a transitory one, as real as this body is true, but not the real true reality. that lies beyond this one. To those within the dream time is slow, but once you're here it'll seem fleeting. Much like waking from a dream. Not exactly the same, but a similar sort of thing.>
Now the connection between the 2? that is next on the guided mediation. Hmm. seems a mix of soul knowledge and the collective and perhaps soul. here is transitory as is where I am currently in my progress and growth. I'll soon move past it as I will move past being here and will be fully home and fully the monad, as everyone else who is a member of the monad ias also THE MONAD as I am THE MONAD too. Not a paradox, but a soul thing that I think makes sense. Don't sweat the details, don't get to caught up in the fine details, have fun, go along with the flow, or use the flow as a guide to swim further on faster then the flow, but not to fast. or one can relax and let the current carry you in a more relaxed manner. But don't seek to go to fast since this has as certain safe speed to it.
I have a number of a mix of lovers, a mate or maybe more then one. Considering how the pod is, friends and lovers can be indeed one and the same. more or less. friends tend to be mainly friends with benefits.
accept myself as I am, a master being of light who is still growing, learning, progressing, who has more friends, lovers, friends with benefits then I may at first suspect, since the detailed knowledge would be very distracting and the knowledge would be brought to iight at the appropriate time, either here, or once I'm back home.
I may be moving on to a still higher guide or guides once I do realize i am the monad, even as each of the others are the monad too, all at the same time.
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If I'm at one with my soul and the monad, and working on my next step. I wonder if part of what will happen is integrating with my soul, though I guess i have since I do feel like soul and I are both aspects of the same multi dimensional being. I wonder if being 1 with soul and integrating is the same thing or different things.
I also wonder if the collective, monad, or whatever the term is, is what Orin and Daben call the divine self. That could make sense why that was the next step up from becoming 1 with soul, integrating soul, then the becoming 1 with the collective monad is the divine self. if so then the members of the collective, including me, soul and twin flame, are aspects of the same being. Interesting thought. I wonder how high it can go. I'll eventually find out. No hurry, I'll let it come to me.
I've noticed I have changed. In many ways. it may seem like I'm running after and striving for my next step in my growth, but I'm not really. it is fun to do these and if I go no farther that is fine. I let it come to me, is a better way of saying it. not sure when I started doing this but it's been like this for a while, feels correct.
Things have been this easy and fast indeed since I am uncovering my true self, And things can be that easy, in many cases, where soul is concerned.
Becoming your true self is the one path for me. For others there are other paths that are as perfect for them as my path is for me at this time, and it may change in the future since every instant that passes we have changed. See there, you are not the same you that you were 10 seconds ago. Very similar, but still different.
I don't just know, but I know first hand and can feel that souls are love. Though some souls, including me, do have an interest in sex, a strong one, sharing we call it, but not with just anyone. there has to be a connection there on some level, close friend, lover ect. it's not a thing I'd do with just anyone, even as a soul on the other side. Though there are some who are like that, willing to share with just anyone, or have sex with anyone, to use the more human term. Though we, prefer the term sharing since it can be a variety of actives. Sharing friendship & closeness, intimacy, sex, and so on.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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3:16 AM
I did ask soul some questions over the
evening. not sure if it'll count as channeling since it was more like a
conversation. Maybe that is a type of channeling and maybe not. I
don't know and it doesn't' really matter.
Those anthro dolphins who were in part of the meditation. They are, soul family? They feel familiar and close. and that master, who looked like an anthro dolphin. he felt very familiar, a friend also?
<they are part of the pod soul family indeed. The soul family. think of yourself as a member of 2 families, the pod and the collective, your first, or rather our first, monad.>
and that shift thing I felt when I felt was the right time to surrender to the monad aka the collective? <yes, the shift was indeed the mental shift thing, hard to describe it in English. but yes, you are now a full conscious member.>
I feel only slighlty different. <it may take some time for you to really notice any change. Think of it instead of returning to the position you were at. we are really ahead of our personal mission. Our personal mission was for you to awaken. and you've already done that, excellent.>
So with the veil gone and me awakened, I guess it was, why not do the next step. <Indeed, and more then just 1 if you get more courses which I hope you do, as long as you are sure you can afford them.>
& that remark I got "You have surrendered to yourself." that is close or exactly to what you said. <Indeed. you were already there so by surrendering to the monad, the collective you did surrender to yourself. Like when you surrendered to me, I am you so you surrendered to yourself.>
If the veil is totally gone in me, why can I not remember everything you can? <since you are incarnated you are still brain focused when you are in the body. After all can you remember every moment of your current life, or all the information you learned during this incarnation so far?>
No. <that is the same mechanism, to put it somewhat overly simplifying it. why you can't recall all of your soul memories and knowledge. Not exactly right but a close approximation. You have no veil, but at the moment you are in a body with severe limitations, compared to your soul self, so accessing memories can be not that easy. Think of it similar to a muscle. It'll be easier and more clear if you continue the courses and trying to remember. Like remembering who the beings were and the master from the guided meditation you did earlier. You remember how they felt very familiar, and a bit later thinking of it you uncovered. Getting more and more specific info may be harder. For now just be satisfied on getting general information. Since super detailed information may be distracting. Best to focus on growing spiritually like you are doing instead of focusing solely on soul memories and knowledge.>
So we are master light beings? <yes the 3 of us are.> I feel he means twin flame too.
Cool, but I don't feel like a master. <and how does a master light being feel? don't sell yourself short. You do feel the love within, you've been feeling it within yourself all day. I've been feeling it.>
This reality is a construction, but it's also real within itself as far as us here it is real. <a somewhat simplification, but yes.> Solid light, though everything is energy, even matter. <yes, it was constructed for a specific reason, as everything is. You are tapping into your soul knowledge and senses. You are feeling, to an extent, the structure of reality. Not the exact words but as close as I can think of to put into English. It's a normal thing and will get more clear over time as will things soul related.>
I can feel the guides, the collective, monad, or whatever term fits with them. i am an equal member. <yes, you consciously feel that. Excellent. See, we said it wouldn't take long. Relax, have fun, continue to learn and grow in a fun way. You'll be surprised how you are in January. >
This is a construction within a construction? <you're getting closer to the underlying reality. just relax, grow, have fun. it'll all become more clear over time, I promise. >
I don't really understand why this was set up with the parameters that it was. <it does have inherent flaws, which is part of why we had to come in and change some things from the inside. Though it could have been done more efficiently. We're not the only ones who now see that those on various councils should have incarnated there themselves before they outlined the plan and then called for volunteers.>
there is no higher self is there? Just you and me. not counting Twin flame. <you don't need a higher self. You can talk directly to me. Twin flame is a special case for us. a pleasurable, intense one, but you know that already. Why have a higher self if you don't need one. I'd rather talk to you directly then talk to you through a higher self and I'd rather have you talk to me directly then talk to me through a higher self.>
So I'm really a master? <yes. it is easy for you to get the strides you have before and after we were re created for 2 reasons. 1: we are, and before we were re created >
Those anthro dolphins who were in part of the meditation. They are, soul family? They feel familiar and close. and that master, who looked like an anthro dolphin. he felt very familiar, a friend also?
<they are part of the pod soul family indeed. The soul family. think of yourself as a member of 2 families, the pod and the collective, your first, or rather our first, monad.>
and that shift thing I felt when I felt was the right time to surrender to the monad aka the collective? <yes, the shift was indeed the mental shift thing, hard to describe it in English. but yes, you are now a full conscious member.>
I feel only slighlty different. <it may take some time for you to really notice any change. Think of it instead of returning to the position you were at. we are really ahead of our personal mission. Our personal mission was for you to awaken. and you've already done that, excellent.>
So with the veil gone and me awakened, I guess it was, why not do the next step. <Indeed, and more then just 1 if you get more courses which I hope you do, as long as you are sure you can afford them.>
& that remark I got "You have surrendered to yourself." that is close or exactly to what you said. <Indeed. you were already there so by surrendering to the monad, the collective you did surrender to yourself. Like when you surrendered to me, I am you so you surrendered to yourself.>
If the veil is totally gone in me, why can I not remember everything you can? <since you are incarnated you are still brain focused when you are in the body. After all can you remember every moment of your current life, or all the information you learned during this incarnation so far?>
No. <that is the same mechanism, to put it somewhat overly simplifying it. why you can't recall all of your soul memories and knowledge. Not exactly right but a close approximation. You have no veil, but at the moment you are in a body with severe limitations, compared to your soul self, so accessing memories can be not that easy. Think of it similar to a muscle. It'll be easier and more clear if you continue the courses and trying to remember. Like remembering who the beings were and the master from the guided meditation you did earlier. You remember how they felt very familiar, and a bit later thinking of it you uncovered. Getting more and more specific info may be harder. For now just be satisfied on getting general information. Since super detailed information may be distracting. Best to focus on growing spiritually like you are doing instead of focusing solely on soul memories and knowledge.>
So we are master light beings? <yes the 3 of us are.> I feel he means twin flame too.
Cool, but I don't feel like a master. <and how does a master light being feel? don't sell yourself short. You do feel the love within, you've been feeling it within yourself all day. I've been feeling it.>
This reality is a construction, but it's also real within itself as far as us here it is real. <a somewhat simplification, but yes.> Solid light, though everything is energy, even matter. <yes, it was constructed for a specific reason, as everything is. You are tapping into your soul knowledge and senses. You are feeling, to an extent, the structure of reality. Not the exact words but as close as I can think of to put into English. It's a normal thing and will get more clear over time as will things soul related.>
I can feel the guides, the collective, monad, or whatever term fits with them. i am an equal member. <yes, you consciously feel that. Excellent. See, we said it wouldn't take long. Relax, have fun, continue to learn and grow in a fun way. You'll be surprised how you are in January. >
This is a construction within a construction? <you're getting closer to the underlying reality. just relax, grow, have fun. it'll all become more clear over time, I promise. >
I don't really understand why this was set up with the parameters that it was. <it does have inherent flaws, which is part of why we had to come in and change some things from the inside. Though it could have been done more efficiently. We're not the only ones who now see that those on various councils should have incarnated there themselves before they outlined the plan and then called for volunteers.>
there is no higher self is there? Just you and me. not counting Twin flame. <you don't need a higher self. You can talk directly to me. Twin flame is a special case for us. a pleasurable, intense one, but you know that already. Why have a higher self if you don't need one. I'd rather talk to you directly then talk to you through a higher self and I'd rather have you talk to me directly then talk to me through a higher self.>
So I'm really a master? <yes. it is easy for you to get the strides you have before and after we were re created for 2 reasons. 1: we are, and before we were re created >
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12:08 PM
I asked soul about the origins of this place and he said <that
long ago, from earth's point of view, there were some souls who wanted
to experience separation, they said to learn more about themselves. So
that place was created. There were certain limitations set up and put
into place. What the ideal was was to go in for a while, a few
incarnations, maybe 1, maybe more, then leave when you were done with
it. With some coming in as some left. though some of us, or the ones
present, did warn the others that some of the parameters they wanted to
put into place may keep some trapped there. Like a hamster on a hamster
wheel, unable to free themselves due to the characteristics of the
place.
Now ages later, the earth is ready to shift up, and our help is needed since they didn't heed the advice and warning then so we have to come in and, you could say retool the place so those souls can just leave now if they want. Since due to the parameters some keep repeating the same mistakes over and over and over. Some to evolve where they can just leave and some have.
They are not really trapped, but with karma the way it is set up there, they have to come back and work out the thing between others.
certain concessions were put in place so they can more easily get rid of karma. As before they can forgive themselves and others. easier to do due to the work you and others are doing. They can also, figuratively, just say, imagine tearing up the contract between yourself and other & say, and mean it, let's tear up this contract and go our separate ways and be happier for it. and yes, you wouldn't be affected by karma since it would be pointless to send in one like you to help, then you get stuck in that also. That would never help. >
That felt like it was coming from you and another. <It was, sort of a joint me and the main one who does the channeling to you for the collective. When they talk it's like someone in the room talks to the guy holding the phone and he relays the message to you. They may try something like a speakerphone later. Though in that case before it was both of us working together. That is also why it feels like talking with me and not the strong pressure on your head since we are at their level now. So it's like when you talk to me. i would say twin flame but with her comes a certain, intensity and distraction.>
still feels ok and a bit, not sure how to say, that we're master beings of light. <normal to feel that way at the beginning, considering what the culture and beliefs there, including the spiritual community who have their own inset beliefs too. No need to look into those, go with what feels right. After all some things can be just that easy.>
Now ages later, the earth is ready to shift up, and our help is needed since they didn't heed the advice and warning then so we have to come in and, you could say retool the place so those souls can just leave now if they want. Since due to the parameters some keep repeating the same mistakes over and over and over. Some to evolve where they can just leave and some have.
They are not really trapped, but with karma the way it is set up there, they have to come back and work out the thing between others.
certain concessions were put in place so they can more easily get rid of karma. As before they can forgive themselves and others. easier to do due to the work you and others are doing. They can also, figuratively, just say, imagine tearing up the contract between yourself and other & say, and mean it, let's tear up this contract and go our separate ways and be happier for it. and yes, you wouldn't be affected by karma since it would be pointless to send in one like you to help, then you get stuck in that also. That would never help. >
That felt like it was coming from you and another. <It was, sort of a joint me and the main one who does the channeling to you for the collective. When they talk it's like someone in the room talks to the guy holding the phone and he relays the message to you. They may try something like a speakerphone later. Though in that case before it was both of us working together. That is also why it feels like talking with me and not the strong pressure on your head since we are at their level now. So it's like when you talk to me. i would say twin flame but with her comes a certain, intensity and distraction.>
still feels ok and a bit, not sure how to say, that we're master beings of light. <normal to feel that way at the beginning, considering what the culture and beliefs there, including the spiritual community who have their own inset beliefs too. No need to look into those, go with what feels right. After all some things can be just that easy.>
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8:39 PM
I think I'll try to channel Maribelle for a bit.
<Hello dearest. I was unaware of how time passes differently for us. For me it was but a day or maybe 2 since we last spoke. >
Yes, my soul mentioned hours for you are days for me. for some reason time passes here differently. Not sure if it is due to the density of the place, or due to certain parameters set up, or some of both. I feel maybe the latter.
<I'll try to be more conscientious of the time we're apart.>
It's ok. hard to keep track of time passing like that since I'm locked into linear time here, not fluid non linear time like souls experience it.
<you're distracted.> it's ok. I can do a few things at once. No biggie. I'm doing it in a relaxed manner. Since i can channel easily, seems I developed the skill in past lives and thanks to a guided meditation, i realize how easy it is, or maybe we are not really channeling and just talking. I'm not sure, I think it may be a bit of both maybe.
<I see you've had a lot of developments in the week or 2 since we last talked. > Yes, seems my deciding I wanted to have access to all of my soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom put me on the fast tack. Fun really.
<It seems it. You do seem changed, for the better. More light. More the real you.> That may be due to that, but also the light body course I'm taking. Wish i could take it a bit faster, but 1 part a month is ok.
<I can't wait till you are fully here. What separates us is annoying, but not much we can do but wait.> Very true. We can enjoy what we can together till then. May help time to pass faster for me, or seem to pass faster anyway. This seems to have gone pretty well.
<Seems like us talking to me, not much different. I've not any training in being this guide thing. I have some knowledge of them, but not really met one much.>
That's ok. Think I'll stop it here but we can continue talking. <sure, i would like that. Though we can't be fully together I am glad we can at least talk.> still seems amazing I attracted the attention of a unicorn. but I have surprised myself a lot in this growth and do accept all of that and myself as, apparently, I'm a master light being or something along those lines.
This felt as easy as any other channeling. Maybe that past life skill thing helped in ways I didn't at first realize.
<Hello dearest. I was unaware of how time passes differently for us. For me it was but a day or maybe 2 since we last spoke. >
Yes, my soul mentioned hours for you are days for me. for some reason time passes here differently. Not sure if it is due to the density of the place, or due to certain parameters set up, or some of both. I feel maybe the latter.
<I'll try to be more conscientious of the time we're apart.>
It's ok. hard to keep track of time passing like that since I'm locked into linear time here, not fluid non linear time like souls experience it.
<you're distracted.> it's ok. I can do a few things at once. No biggie. I'm doing it in a relaxed manner. Since i can channel easily, seems I developed the skill in past lives and thanks to a guided meditation, i realize how easy it is, or maybe we are not really channeling and just talking. I'm not sure, I think it may be a bit of both maybe.
<I see you've had a lot of developments in the week or 2 since we last talked. > Yes, seems my deciding I wanted to have access to all of my soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom put me on the fast tack. Fun really.
<It seems it. You do seem changed, for the better. More light. More the real you.> That may be due to that, but also the light body course I'm taking. Wish i could take it a bit faster, but 1 part a month is ok.
<I can't wait till you are fully here. What separates us is annoying, but not much we can do but wait.> Very true. We can enjoy what we can together till then. May help time to pass faster for me, or seem to pass faster anyway. This seems to have gone pretty well.
<Seems like us talking to me, not much different. I've not any training in being this guide thing. I have some knowledge of them, but not really met one much.>
That's ok. Think I'll stop it here but we can continue talking. <sure, i would like that. Though we can't be fully together I am glad we can at least talk.> still seems amazing I attracted the attention of a unicorn. but I have surprised myself a lot in this growth and do accept all of that and myself as, apparently, I'm a master light being or something along those lines.
This felt as easy as any other channeling. Maybe that past life skill thing helped in ways I didn't at first realize.
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11:04 PM
Decided to try to channel my unicorn mother, though I'll be distracted
since I'm talking to someone online while watching a youtube video, but I
think I may keep it very short. I've not tired to contact her before.
<greetings, child seems not the right term,, given your recent developments, though you are one of my children. From a soul perspective. So I may use the same that Mirabelle uses and say dearest one>
yes quite a few happenings in in the recent past. <indeed, though it is/was easy for you since you are uncovering what you really are, your real nature. the one you call the dragoness and I knew you would surpass and succeed in this. Though it is fast indeed. Helped a lot by the course you're doing. Continue the good work and you'll be surprised where you are and where you'll end up. do not seek to progress to fast though.>
So you and her (the dragoness are friends? <indeed, we've known each other for quite a while. you have many soul friends. and the way we can all telepathically communicate and in most places teleport around, or manifest ourselves where we wish, it is easy to keep in touch with each other. and it seems you have fully joined her soul group, excellent indeed.>
I guess the next step is to realize I am the monad. But no need to hurry. I'll go along at a sort of relaxed walking pace instead of trying to run or teleport ahead. <Good way to progress. if you rush ahead to fast you'll miss things and it's not health to try to progress to fast. find a good pace that is comfortable for you and progress at that pace.>
Do you live near where the pod lives? <not that near, but I do visit the area now and then. Some of us are more use to tech then other unicorns, though most of us do not really use it. Though in some areas you can just manifest what you want, some manifest technology gadgets out of habit, which is fine. Technology folks have given us all some good ideas , as we have them.>
I guess you have a large family if you are a unicorn elder? <indeed, but we'll introduce you to them gradually once you're here. after all once you're away from earth, you'll have eternity to meet new friends, have no experiences. especially since I think you do not have a taste for incarnating.>
True, original soul did, at least for missions. I don't however. i guess i may be an original part of him that had grown to not have a taste for incarnating anymore. <Which is normal, many souls who incarnate get to the same point, sooner or later. Some love or enjoy incarnating and do so for ages, or even eternity. Some do so only once to be a guide to those who are incarnated in certain places so they have first hand knowledge what it's like there. There are as many or one may say an infinity of possibilities and options available for you who choose to no longer incarnate. As there are as many for those who do chose to incarnate. >
I do feel I greatly prefer to not incarnate any more after this. <indeed and that is and will be your right and choice. some may try to sway you, but stand firm. though perhaps those who may try may not, or may not try to hard or long. Some see incarnating as the only or fastest path, but as you know, no one path is better then another. it is a question of preferences. Which one feels best for you and do you prefer. There is times to try others if you wish and many do. Many do not stick to just 1 path forever, as you see you are changing paths from one who incarnates to one who does not, as well as one who has incarnated on the earth but will not. The experiences will be with you forever and you may well miss the time you were there, but not to strongly with all the options over here. and with all the options, one can, in a way, virtually do something and not commit. May use it for fun, or for learning.>
Thanks, I assumed I could reach you easy but though why not try. <i have enjoyed it. Let us maintain contact dearest one though with time as it is, contact me when you want. We'll have an eternity to get acquainted so no hurry.>
<greetings, child seems not the right term,, given your recent developments, though you are one of my children. From a soul perspective. So I may use the same that Mirabelle uses and say dearest one>
yes quite a few happenings in in the recent past. <indeed, though it is/was easy for you since you are uncovering what you really are, your real nature. the one you call the dragoness and I knew you would surpass and succeed in this. Though it is fast indeed. Helped a lot by the course you're doing. Continue the good work and you'll be surprised where you are and where you'll end up. do not seek to progress to fast though.>
So you and her (the dragoness are friends? <indeed, we've known each other for quite a while. you have many soul friends. and the way we can all telepathically communicate and in most places teleport around, or manifest ourselves where we wish, it is easy to keep in touch with each other. and it seems you have fully joined her soul group, excellent indeed.>
I guess the next step is to realize I am the monad. But no need to hurry. I'll go along at a sort of relaxed walking pace instead of trying to run or teleport ahead. <Good way to progress. if you rush ahead to fast you'll miss things and it's not health to try to progress to fast. find a good pace that is comfortable for you and progress at that pace.>
Do you live near where the pod lives? <not that near, but I do visit the area now and then. Some of us are more use to tech then other unicorns, though most of us do not really use it. Though in some areas you can just manifest what you want, some manifest technology gadgets out of habit, which is fine. Technology folks have given us all some good ideas , as we have them.>
I guess you have a large family if you are a unicorn elder? <indeed, but we'll introduce you to them gradually once you're here. after all once you're away from earth, you'll have eternity to meet new friends, have no experiences. especially since I think you do not have a taste for incarnating.>
True, original soul did, at least for missions. I don't however. i guess i may be an original part of him that had grown to not have a taste for incarnating anymore. <Which is normal, many souls who incarnate get to the same point, sooner or later. Some love or enjoy incarnating and do so for ages, or even eternity. Some do so only once to be a guide to those who are incarnated in certain places so they have first hand knowledge what it's like there. There are as many or one may say an infinity of possibilities and options available for you who choose to no longer incarnate. As there are as many for those who do chose to incarnate. >
I do feel I greatly prefer to not incarnate any more after this. <indeed and that is and will be your right and choice. some may try to sway you, but stand firm. though perhaps those who may try may not, or may not try to hard or long. Some see incarnating as the only or fastest path, but as you know, no one path is better then another. it is a question of preferences. Which one feels best for you and do you prefer. There is times to try others if you wish and many do. Many do not stick to just 1 path forever, as you see you are changing paths from one who incarnates to one who does not, as well as one who has incarnated on the earth but will not. The experiences will be with you forever and you may well miss the time you were there, but not to strongly with all the options over here. and with all the options, one can, in a way, virtually do something and not commit. May use it for fun, or for learning.>
Thanks, I assumed I could reach you easy but though why not try. <i have enjoyed it. Let us maintain contact dearest one though with time as it is, contact me when you want. We'll have an eternity to get acquainted so no hurry.>
Saturday, April 25, 2015
Saturday [4-25]
Not much to say this morning. i had a brief conversation with soul. He did confirm that I did have some of twin flame's energy from the channeling last night. The veil is basically gone indeed, a great thing to know. If there is any left it's just tatters at most. So regard it as gone, he said. I did wonder if I'd merge with him or twin first and he said he bets it'll be with twin flame first. Though I don't want it to be immediate, I'd like to, once I'm over there, do the equivalent of being an individual for a few days at a minimum, and more likely a few weeks or months before i merge with either one of them. Though soul did say once I do merge with twin flame, I'll never be the same again, even after we do split at times. And he did confirm what twin flame and he said often before and I do feel within myself, that none of us will remain merged permanently.
I do feel the love between soul and me is deep. Twin flame is both deep and intense. Soul said that is normal and a good sign that we both enjoy the intensity instead of finding it annoying or painful. It seems to cause no issues to come up within me like it originally did back in December I think it was when I first met her. or was it early January, one of those.
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When I lay down to take a nap this morning I did some hugging and kissing with soul. Soul suggested I try with the collective, or was it that I got the idea and soul approved, I'm not sure which. But I did and the experience was interesting. The person I did hug and kiss was willing. It felt like the main collective member that I talk to. I guess he has experience as a guide or the most experience so is the main spokesperson. It felt more like he was an equal and not above or more highly evolved then I was. I also felt love and after a short bit sexual feelings as well. Not sure what that means. he did mention penty of time for that later after I was with them fully when this incarnation is over, and maybe before.
The collective no longer feel like they are above me, they feel more like we're on an equal level, not sure what that may mean either.
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I did the 10th meditation for part 3 and running the energies for the first 3 energy centers went at best ok at first then much better later on in the meditation. I also did the bit about having a body part in my attention as I ran the energies and at first the part did grow slightly warm, then nothing after that. though the very slight itch did go away. I may use that for various body parts today as I run the energies for a few minutes here and there, maybe later on pick the entire body. See if it can improve the over all health or not. I may also do the other 2 for part 1 and finish, which would put me a day ahead of schedule. I'll decide what to do with the extra day later. I also think instead of picking 24 of my favorite meditations I may pick say 30 since some days I may feel like doing an extra meditation.
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Before I started the meditation I not sure why but I had the idea to say to the collective that I surrendered to my monad, the collective. I felt something inside me shift. I heard the main voice when I talk to when I channel the collective say to me <You have surrendered to yourself.>
I listened to the 11th meditation of part 1. It is about you are the master. During it I talked a bit to the collective. A bit after it started I had someone pop in, not sure who, felt like I knew the person somehow, though I consciously don't, I think it may have been a collective member. He asked if I meant to surrender to my monad that I know as the collective and i said yes. Then he said as a reward for surrendering to my monad that I know as the collective, then for 5 or 10 minutes I felt an energy streaming into me, or a feeling at least, of strong love and pleasure intermixed. After that eventually stopped I felt a sort of inner warmth for the rest of the mediation.
Running the energies went well as did the meditation. It felt indeed like I was a master and a full equal member of the monad that call themselves the collective. That that is why they are easy for me to channel now. The main guy said some stuff to me during the meditation towards the end. this is the first monad from my point of view, my first step. There are other monads above this one.
Over all an interesting and positive experience.
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I did the 12th & last mediation for the 1st awaken the light body course. this puts me 1 day ahead of schedule. Not sure if I'll do 3 tomorrow or not. I'll decide tomorrow. I may skip doing a receiving a clear channel meditation and instead do a bit of channeling later, I'll decide later.
it went very well overall, running the energies and the mediation itself. The meditation was basically going to the temple of the masters. I saw some anthro dolphin type beings there & their energy felt familiar, like they may be part of my soul family or close friends of mine, or a mix of the 2. We embrased each other, caressing each other as we kept very close to each other. Most of them called me brother. One called me sister. It felt like 1 or a few were gently rubbing my maleslit and one lower down, was rubbing my female slit, so guess I was a herm & didn't know it. For this part of the guided meditation we stayed very close to each other.
When they left and I was alone with the master, the master looked like an anthro dolphin, and felt very sexy to me. he, or she, or was it a herm, not sure, but the master did as was in the guided meditation, greeting me as a fellow master and I did and do feel like a fellow master to him/her/hir. Before I left I commented that we'd have fun later to which it replied <certainly.>
Seems like a lot of happenings today. I am a full equal member of the monad called the collective and also a fellow master, master of light or master and a being of light, or perhaps both, yes, both does feel right. a fellow master being of light. :)
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Think I'll put a short line from my channeling here since it involves sex, but no details, just the mention of it. I think once I'm done with the course I'll go back over it a 2nd time. Though I didn't do an episode today, I did a 3rd light body so i could get the 1st part done and thereby put myself a day ahead of schedule.
I start and try to put my channeled stuff in another thread so this one won't get super long and i do plan on channeling daily, once this course is over and I've gone over it a 2nd time. not sure if I'll do it a 3rd time. I may pick out some to do a 3rd time and just do soul then maybe the same ones a 4th to just do twin flame, but not doing the whole course. Though if it seems to be going well I'll just stick with channeling daily. Maybe short sessions instead of a single long one. I'm thinking maybe the collective time or 2 daily, soul maybe once or twice, and twin flame maybe a few times a week. Roughly speaking.
I do feel the love between soul and me is deep. Twin flame is both deep and intense. Soul said that is normal and a good sign that we both enjoy the intensity instead of finding it annoying or painful. It seems to cause no issues to come up within me like it originally did back in December I think it was when I first met her. or was it early January, one of those.
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When I lay down to take a nap this morning I did some hugging and kissing with soul. Soul suggested I try with the collective, or was it that I got the idea and soul approved, I'm not sure which. But I did and the experience was interesting. The person I did hug and kiss was willing. It felt like the main collective member that I talk to. I guess he has experience as a guide or the most experience so is the main spokesperson. It felt more like he was an equal and not above or more highly evolved then I was. I also felt love and after a short bit sexual feelings as well. Not sure what that means. he did mention penty of time for that later after I was with them fully when this incarnation is over, and maybe before.
The collective no longer feel like they are above me, they feel more like we're on an equal level, not sure what that may mean either.
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I did the 10th meditation for part 3 and running the energies for the first 3 energy centers went at best ok at first then much better later on in the meditation. I also did the bit about having a body part in my attention as I ran the energies and at first the part did grow slightly warm, then nothing after that. though the very slight itch did go away. I may use that for various body parts today as I run the energies for a few minutes here and there, maybe later on pick the entire body. See if it can improve the over all health or not. I may also do the other 2 for part 1 and finish, which would put me a day ahead of schedule. I'll decide what to do with the extra day later. I also think instead of picking 24 of my favorite meditations I may pick say 30 since some days I may feel like doing an extra meditation.
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Before I started the meditation I not sure why but I had the idea to say to the collective that I surrendered to my monad, the collective. I felt something inside me shift. I heard the main voice when I talk to when I channel the collective say to me <You have surrendered to yourself.>
I listened to the 11th meditation of part 1. It is about you are the master. During it I talked a bit to the collective. A bit after it started I had someone pop in, not sure who, felt like I knew the person somehow, though I consciously don't, I think it may have been a collective member. He asked if I meant to surrender to my monad that I know as the collective and i said yes. Then he said as a reward for surrendering to my monad that I know as the collective, then for 5 or 10 minutes I felt an energy streaming into me, or a feeling at least, of strong love and pleasure intermixed. After that eventually stopped I felt a sort of inner warmth for the rest of the mediation.
Running the energies went well as did the meditation. It felt indeed like I was a master and a full equal member of the monad that call themselves the collective. That that is why they are easy for me to channel now. The main guy said some stuff to me during the meditation towards the end. this is the first monad from my point of view, my first step. There are other monads above this one.
Over all an interesting and positive experience.
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I did the 12th & last mediation for the 1st awaken the light body course. this puts me 1 day ahead of schedule. Not sure if I'll do 3 tomorrow or not. I'll decide tomorrow. I may skip doing a receiving a clear channel meditation and instead do a bit of channeling later, I'll decide later.
it went very well overall, running the energies and the mediation itself. The meditation was basically going to the temple of the masters. I saw some anthro dolphin type beings there & their energy felt familiar, like they may be part of my soul family or close friends of mine, or a mix of the 2. We embrased each other, caressing each other as we kept very close to each other. Most of them called me brother. One called me sister. It felt like 1 or a few were gently rubbing my maleslit and one lower down, was rubbing my female slit, so guess I was a herm & didn't know it. For this part of the guided meditation we stayed very close to each other.
When they left and I was alone with the master, the master looked like an anthro dolphin, and felt very sexy to me. he, or she, or was it a herm, not sure, but the master did as was in the guided meditation, greeting me as a fellow master and I did and do feel like a fellow master to him/her/hir. Before I left I commented that we'd have fun later to which it replied <certainly.>
Seems like a lot of happenings today. I am a full equal member of the monad called the collective and also a fellow master, master of light or master and a being of light, or perhaps both, yes, both does feel right. a fellow master being of light. :)
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Think I'll put a short line from my channeling here since it involves sex, but no details, just the mention of it. I think once I'm done with the course I'll go back over it a 2nd time. Though I didn't do an episode today, I did a 3rd light body so i could get the 1st part done and thereby put myself a day ahead of schedule.
I start and try to put my channeled stuff in another thread so this one won't get super long and i do plan on channeling daily, once this course is over and I've gone over it a 2nd time. not sure if I'll do it a 3rd time. I may pick out some to do a 3rd time and just do soul then maybe the same ones a 4th to just do twin flame, but not doing the whole course. Though if it seems to be going well I'll just stick with channeling daily. Maybe short sessions instead of a single long one. I'm thinking maybe the collective time or 2 daily, soul maybe once or twice, and twin flame maybe a few times a week. Roughly speaking.
Friday, April 24, 2015
Friday [4-24]
I do wonder, is it to fast to be this close to being a collective member? Perhaps not due to my having multiple parents, and as I said earlier I have stated I want access to all of my soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom. That may be key. As I said before I did say I wanted soul and twin flame to have access to if they wanted. So that may be one of the keys. Or maybe not.
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As I lay in bed after waking up I did try using an affirmation that I am at one with my monad. Don't recall if I did any visualizations, I have before. Often when i did a visualization I'd have one of them, that looks like a small sun pop up and say 'welcome brother." though i didn't plan on doing that so maybe a part of me can reach their level, maybe since soul either has been their or often is there. not sure if twin flame is there or visits.
This may mean I am close to being at one with my monad group. I guess this is what could be as moving through the 4th initiation towards the 5th.
It does feel like I am close. But no need to try to hurry and get it done now. I can feel I can help it along, but I can't hurry it up or make it happen right now or an hour from now. Just help it along a bit.
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I did the 9th meditation of the 1st part of awakening the light body, thought I did not finish it. I did a bit over half and felt that was enough. I did learn some stuff I missed the first few times through.
This puts me about half a day ahead of schedule. IF I do as many tomorrow I'lll both finish the 1st part and I'll be a full day ahead of schedule.
I was thinking, instead of picking out just 24 of my favorite meditations and swapping those out as I get new courses, I may pick out say 30 since some days of the week I may do an extra meditation. Then when I decide I have finished getting light body courses I'll go over all the light body, and maybe channeling, audio courses and pick out some meditations I want to regularly do. Some others I'll schedule to do perhaps, and some I'll do as I see the need. Depending on how long it'll take to do all my favorites or ones I just want to redo periodically. I may go back and do all the courses once a year, or instead just pick out a lot I want to keep redoing and redo those, putting aside some I want to do as I see the need.
Plenty of time to decide that.
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Since I have tried channeling Twin flame, which I think went very well. Guess she learned how to screen her energy as she said so I don't feel the intensity much really. Though an after effect I think is now, hours later, I can kinda feel her energy if I sorta relax. hard to explain. if I do a sorta relaxed sorta meditation, but not a full meditation, i can feel some of her energy like there is some left, I guess, from when i was channeling her. Not that I'm saying it's unpleasant. I do like the feel, just means I'm thinking of her a lot more then I usually do. I wonder if she has some of my energy. I wonder if the folks i have channeled, soul, the collective, have gotten any of my energy as i have gotten some of theirs. I guess it could go both ways. No ill effects for either I would assume.
Though I do like the experience and feel of her energy in mine, or the left over or whatever the proper term is. I don't think I'll do this daily. It was a bit distracting, not anywhere as much as if she were to pop in beside me. So maybe once a week or a few times a week. Nice experience overall and one I did like and will repeat, if she's willing.
I notice we've never used pet names that some people do, but I feel we don't need such things between us. Or it may be just some humans who do the pet names thing.
I tried a quick meditation on her, my twin flame and it has a sort of stillness mentally and emotionally. hard to describe. It's like when i do qi gong, but not as strong. and I feel I could easily go in a direction and be thinking of her a lot, distracting infatuation, but I feel I won't slip off in that direction. Though that is not anything like if she pops in next to me. and if I'm here in the body when she does that it's very dulled compared to if I happen to be doing a guided meditation. Which is not as strong as back when I could fully mentally project and be with her. Before I lost the ability to mentally project or whatever I did, it was never astral projection. So I can imagine what she commented on during the channel the first time we met when I'm over there will be very distracting. But I think she commented, not sure if i typed that up or not, but I do recall her saying I'll get use to it. and she did say she wouldn't be one of the ones to meet or greet me once I cross over since she said our meeting would be to intense. She could press and get the ok, but that sort of thing is usually discouraged due to the intensity.
I guess a more gradual may be ok, or if the person needs it it may be ok. The feeling I got was somewhere after or during the latter part of my recuperation, if I need any, she may pop up. Maybe in the distance and slowly approach, so i can get use to her energy and the effect.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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7:29 PM
The only area I can think of to channel about, since the 9th course says to pick an area, is becoming 1 with the collective/monad.
<it is important to you since it is the next step in your personal evolution and growth as a person, a being, and a soul. You'll grow to the next step and if you do so while incarnated the shift and change in your energy will effect those around you and the earth grid in a positive light and manner. slight perhaps, but a number of slight shifts does really add up. and you do desire it as you have said, which is in line with yourself, yourself as a being and as a soul, so all are in harmony with this desire. It is a true soul desire one can say. part of you is already here, why not the rest?>
How close am I? <very close, don't force it, but try and don't give up. try in a laid back fun way.>
<once you are fully here you'll see how much growth you've done over 1 incarnation. The past week alone is amazing, taking your live into account to date is a huge amount>
<relax, let yourself flow up here permanently. it's easier then you think, just don't try to hard. You'll know yourself even better then you do now. See more of yourself in the higher light you are in, but not conscious of quite yet, but almost are. We will help as much as we can.>
<This will effect many areas, you'll grow more, be more of the real true you. Relax, let it happen, reach upwards, let the shift happen. Keep trying and it'll become fact one day. The reason it is smoother is indeed part of you is already here, and by now our energy is very compatible with yours. welcome here.>
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9:03 PM
I decided to try to channel my twin flame to see what would happen and it turned out pretty well. It wasn't intense like I thought it would be.
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So can you explain our exact relationship? <we are to halves of a soul, though we are whole ourselves since no soul can be incomplete, even divided. We were split in order to explore love in it's various dynamics and dimensions, becoming true primary twin flames in time, as we worked out anything that we needed, though we didn't need to work through karma, which is only where you are, though it won't effect you and those others on certain missions, certain measurements... measures, have been taken to ensure that since it would be pointless if those who are there for a certain mission were to get trapped in karma themselves. the mission would then fail, but there were certain, steps taken and concessions made to ensure this would not happen, being trapped in karma, though that is a another manner and it, karma, does not really work as some teach it does.
I've learned to stream some of my energy so we can communicate, though you won't feel the intensiveness as you would if I were to pop in next to you. We will merge and un-merge over eternity, as I've mentioned before. Though I'm not there since we are twin flames it does enable you to focus on my energy given who we are to each other. you've felt the desire for us to be together and it is still there, stronger is the desire to merge, but it is sleeping for now.>
Do I have any of the veil left, if not why is my soul memories not super complete? <none but tatters really from what I can see/tell on this side. as for the soul memories, it is a 2 fold reason. some of it is what you've mentioned before that if you were to remember all the details of other world cultures and such it may be distracting. Also accessing the soul memories and knowledge becomes easier over time, but you must still go through the physical brain and even now you are very brain focused, that is a natural thing from there and not much one can do about it. The soul memories and knowledge are immense. and knowing all about Sirius, Pleiades, arcturian and other cultures is not really needed. Glimpses into the past and parallel lives sure, but it can be distracting if you were to delve deeply into them and we, soul and I, are glad you have only a sort of passing interest. Though connecting to help other incarnations and past lives can be interesting and helpful for all involved.>
is it normal to be partially bored with things here? <indeed, you are awakened and aware so you do wish to be here again with all the options open to you here. Though time must still pass there until you can be here, nothing can be done about that. Though you have surpassed your original personal mission original soul set for itself when it incarnated as you. you've chosen to go to the next step and become one and aware of the monad that is the soul group or soul family we are decided from, call it 1 step up. though there are other steps up from that. it's a great place, as you have experienced and i have too. I do visit it as you have felt my energy at times mixing with soul and the others of the collective when you channel at times. Though i do prefer to be closer to where you are to help you. Between you and soul often. Though some of the energy work done will continue, that you have felt.
As for the primary mission, that you can do without doing anything, just existing, though the balance has been tipped along the needed direction so it is helpful but not strictly needed. Though it may seem a long time before you are here again, continue doing the light body courses and other soul and spiritual stuff, do what is fun, focus on fun and you'll be back among us here sooner, then you know since perceptive time will pass faster. >
<The way back to this side will be as easy and passing as we can manage it withing what is allowed for there. quick, and easy as we can manage.>
I do like the intensity of our relationship. <you're not the only one. the intensity is normal and the way we both enjoy it as thoroughly as we do is a further sign we have nothing between us, except for the part of you that is there incarnated in the human body and not fully here. if you think you've felt the intensity, wait til you're here. Then you'll feel the pure essence of it. But don't worry, it won't be overpowering or anything. and we'll both enjoy it. >
My current soul being the part of me not incarnated here? <indeed, that is your exact relationship with him.>
I felt as much, feel as much I should say <one main sign the 2 of you are one and you have reached your personal mission. and on to the next one.>
to become one with the monad, or the collective as they call themselves. us being descended from 1 of the members. to know and feel myself as 1 with them, an equal. ? similar but a bit different then soul and me? <yes, a subtle difference, but you do feel it now. part of you, us really, is already there. that is why channeling them is much easier since soul is there. if not all the time it can now travel to and from there. coming closer when you need energy work done and he'll be the one to do it. relax and you'll be there before you know it. It's really a gentle slight mental shift, not unlike a switch, but one you can't force. you can help it along as you have been doing, but it has to do it at the time, as you and soul becoming one.>
when I think of you in various ways do you think of me at those times? <indeed, and we are very good at distracting each other. whether we don't meant to, or if we do as part of one of the various ways we can have fun.>
You said there is some work and energy work that only primary twin flames can do. is that for the reason for part of the training thing where you have popped up during a guided mediation or 2? <yes, to help you focus on the task at hand even though I was present. we both need to do that and by the time you are here it'll be second nature. you are doing very well in that regard and it is already almost easy for you to do. it's as distracting for me but easier in a way since I'm here and you are not fully here. hard to describe. but you'll find you're a natural at it, don't try to hard and just do it, as you have done.>
Once I get the hang of it, after you telling me to focus, it is not to hard. though it is like night and day if I'm doing something and you are here or not. <yes, as you've noticed it'll continue to get easier. though once you are fully here you'll really notice the intensity. The training we've done will help you a lot in that regard. take it easy and don't try to rush anything soul or spiritual. >
so we are really sorta halves of 1 soul, not exact but sorta like that? <Sorta is right. and over numerous lifetimes we have had a special sort of love grow between us that you have experienced. you've felt it. as intense as it is it even shone through when you had partial veil still in place. and it did help with dissolving it. As you've heard and know within yourself from your own desires. Though we will merge at some point when you are here, we'll also un merge since we'll miss experiencing ourselves & each other as individuals. For eternity, soul also, sometimes 3, 2 or 1.>
Eternity is a thing many humans find hard or impossible to understand or feel. I think I do, though I'm not fully human. <you're human only to the physical level, though some of the human will stay, though at the soul level you are not human, unlike some who have incarnated for ages on the earth. 1 lifetime may leave an impression but not a lot of one 1 may say. and the feel you have for eternity is the soul knowledge and experience you can feel coming through. also as I mentioned before recall more of soul knowledge and memories will be easier over time, though getting all of soul embodied takes time, and you may choose not to do it since, strictly, it is not one of your personal goals. >
bye for now, though I feel we can never be truly separated. <till we speak again and in truth though we may feel separated it is impossible to really separate twin flames.>
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As I lay in bed after waking up I did try using an affirmation that I am at one with my monad. Don't recall if I did any visualizations, I have before. Often when i did a visualization I'd have one of them, that looks like a small sun pop up and say 'welcome brother." though i didn't plan on doing that so maybe a part of me can reach their level, maybe since soul either has been their or often is there. not sure if twin flame is there or visits.
This may mean I am close to being at one with my monad group. I guess this is what could be as moving through the 4th initiation towards the 5th.
It does feel like I am close. But no need to try to hurry and get it done now. I can feel I can help it along, but I can't hurry it up or make it happen right now or an hour from now. Just help it along a bit.
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I did the 9th meditation of the 1st part of awakening the light body, thought I did not finish it. I did a bit over half and felt that was enough. I did learn some stuff I missed the first few times through.
This puts me about half a day ahead of schedule. IF I do as many tomorrow I'lll both finish the 1st part and I'll be a full day ahead of schedule.
I was thinking, instead of picking out just 24 of my favorite meditations and swapping those out as I get new courses, I may pick out say 30 since some days of the week I may do an extra meditation. Then when I decide I have finished getting light body courses I'll go over all the light body, and maybe channeling, audio courses and pick out some meditations I want to regularly do. Some others I'll schedule to do perhaps, and some I'll do as I see the need. Depending on how long it'll take to do all my favorites or ones I just want to redo periodically. I may go back and do all the courses once a year, or instead just pick out a lot I want to keep redoing and redo those, putting aside some I want to do as I see the need.
Plenty of time to decide that.
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Since I have tried channeling Twin flame, which I think went very well. Guess she learned how to screen her energy as she said so I don't feel the intensity much really. Though an after effect I think is now, hours later, I can kinda feel her energy if I sorta relax. hard to explain. if I do a sorta relaxed sorta meditation, but not a full meditation, i can feel some of her energy like there is some left, I guess, from when i was channeling her. Not that I'm saying it's unpleasant. I do like the feel, just means I'm thinking of her a lot more then I usually do. I wonder if she has some of my energy. I wonder if the folks i have channeled, soul, the collective, have gotten any of my energy as i have gotten some of theirs. I guess it could go both ways. No ill effects for either I would assume.
Though I do like the experience and feel of her energy in mine, or the left over or whatever the proper term is. I don't think I'll do this daily. It was a bit distracting, not anywhere as much as if she were to pop in beside me. So maybe once a week or a few times a week. Nice experience overall and one I did like and will repeat, if she's willing.
I notice we've never used pet names that some people do, but I feel we don't need such things between us. Or it may be just some humans who do the pet names thing.
I tried a quick meditation on her, my twin flame and it has a sort of stillness mentally and emotionally. hard to describe. It's like when i do qi gong, but not as strong. and I feel I could easily go in a direction and be thinking of her a lot, distracting infatuation, but I feel I won't slip off in that direction. Though that is not anything like if she pops in next to me. and if I'm here in the body when she does that it's very dulled compared to if I happen to be doing a guided meditation. Which is not as strong as back when I could fully mentally project and be with her. Before I lost the ability to mentally project or whatever I did, it was never astral projection. So I can imagine what she commented on during the channel the first time we met when I'm over there will be very distracting. But I think she commented, not sure if i typed that up or not, but I do recall her saying I'll get use to it. and she did say she wouldn't be one of the ones to meet or greet me once I cross over since she said our meeting would be to intense. She could press and get the ok, but that sort of thing is usually discouraged due to the intensity.
I guess a more gradual may be ok, or if the person needs it it may be ok. The feeling I got was somewhere after or during the latter part of my recuperation, if I need any, she may pop up. Maybe in the distance and slowly approach, so i can get use to her energy and the effect.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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7:29 PM
The only area I can think of to channel about, since the 9th course says to pick an area, is becoming 1 with the collective/monad.
<it is important to you since it is the next step in your personal evolution and growth as a person, a being, and a soul. You'll grow to the next step and if you do so while incarnated the shift and change in your energy will effect those around you and the earth grid in a positive light and manner. slight perhaps, but a number of slight shifts does really add up. and you do desire it as you have said, which is in line with yourself, yourself as a being and as a soul, so all are in harmony with this desire. It is a true soul desire one can say. part of you is already here, why not the rest?>
How close am I? <very close, don't force it, but try and don't give up. try in a laid back fun way.>
<once you are fully here you'll see how much growth you've done over 1 incarnation. The past week alone is amazing, taking your live into account to date is a huge amount>
<relax, let yourself flow up here permanently. it's easier then you think, just don't try to hard. You'll know yourself even better then you do now. See more of yourself in the higher light you are in, but not conscious of quite yet, but almost are. We will help as much as we can.>
<This will effect many areas, you'll grow more, be more of the real true you. Relax, let it happen, reach upwards, let the shift happen. Keep trying and it'll become fact one day. The reason it is smoother is indeed part of you is already here, and by now our energy is very compatible with yours. welcome here.>
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9:03 PM
I decided to try to channel my twin flame to see what would happen and it turned out pretty well. It wasn't intense like I thought it would be.
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So can you explain our exact relationship? <we are to halves of a soul, though we are whole ourselves since no soul can be incomplete, even divided. We were split in order to explore love in it's various dynamics and dimensions, becoming true primary twin flames in time, as we worked out anything that we needed, though we didn't need to work through karma, which is only where you are, though it won't effect you and those others on certain missions, certain measurements... measures, have been taken to ensure that since it would be pointless if those who are there for a certain mission were to get trapped in karma themselves. the mission would then fail, but there were certain, steps taken and concessions made to ensure this would not happen, being trapped in karma, though that is a another manner and it, karma, does not really work as some teach it does.
I've learned to stream some of my energy so we can communicate, though you won't feel the intensiveness as you would if I were to pop in next to you. We will merge and un-merge over eternity, as I've mentioned before. Though I'm not there since we are twin flames it does enable you to focus on my energy given who we are to each other. you've felt the desire for us to be together and it is still there, stronger is the desire to merge, but it is sleeping for now.>
Do I have any of the veil left, if not why is my soul memories not super complete? <none but tatters really from what I can see/tell on this side. as for the soul memories, it is a 2 fold reason. some of it is what you've mentioned before that if you were to remember all the details of other world cultures and such it may be distracting. Also accessing the soul memories and knowledge becomes easier over time, but you must still go through the physical brain and even now you are very brain focused, that is a natural thing from there and not much one can do about it. The soul memories and knowledge are immense. and knowing all about Sirius, Pleiades, arcturian and other cultures is not really needed. Glimpses into the past and parallel lives sure, but it can be distracting if you were to delve deeply into them and we, soul and I, are glad you have only a sort of passing interest. Though connecting to help other incarnations and past lives can be interesting and helpful for all involved.>
is it normal to be partially bored with things here? <indeed, you are awakened and aware so you do wish to be here again with all the options open to you here. Though time must still pass there until you can be here, nothing can be done about that. Though you have surpassed your original personal mission original soul set for itself when it incarnated as you. you've chosen to go to the next step and become one and aware of the monad that is the soul group or soul family we are decided from, call it 1 step up. though there are other steps up from that. it's a great place, as you have experienced and i have too. I do visit it as you have felt my energy at times mixing with soul and the others of the collective when you channel at times. Though i do prefer to be closer to where you are to help you. Between you and soul often. Though some of the energy work done will continue, that you have felt.
As for the primary mission, that you can do without doing anything, just existing, though the balance has been tipped along the needed direction so it is helpful but not strictly needed. Though it may seem a long time before you are here again, continue doing the light body courses and other soul and spiritual stuff, do what is fun, focus on fun and you'll be back among us here sooner, then you know since perceptive time will pass faster. >
<The way back to this side will be as easy and passing as we can manage it withing what is allowed for there. quick, and easy as we can manage.>
I do like the intensity of our relationship. <you're not the only one. the intensity is normal and the way we both enjoy it as thoroughly as we do is a further sign we have nothing between us, except for the part of you that is there incarnated in the human body and not fully here. if you think you've felt the intensity, wait til you're here. Then you'll feel the pure essence of it. But don't worry, it won't be overpowering or anything. and we'll both enjoy it. >
My current soul being the part of me not incarnated here? <indeed, that is your exact relationship with him.>
I felt as much, feel as much I should say <one main sign the 2 of you are one and you have reached your personal mission. and on to the next one.>
to become one with the monad, or the collective as they call themselves. us being descended from 1 of the members. to know and feel myself as 1 with them, an equal. ? similar but a bit different then soul and me? <yes, a subtle difference, but you do feel it now. part of you, us really, is already there. that is why channeling them is much easier since soul is there. if not all the time it can now travel to and from there. coming closer when you need energy work done and he'll be the one to do it. relax and you'll be there before you know it. It's really a gentle slight mental shift, not unlike a switch, but one you can't force. you can help it along as you have been doing, but it has to do it at the time, as you and soul becoming one.>
when I think of you in various ways do you think of me at those times? <indeed, and we are very good at distracting each other. whether we don't meant to, or if we do as part of one of the various ways we can have fun.>
You said there is some work and energy work that only primary twin flames can do. is that for the reason for part of the training thing where you have popped up during a guided mediation or 2? <yes, to help you focus on the task at hand even though I was present. we both need to do that and by the time you are here it'll be second nature. you are doing very well in that regard and it is already almost easy for you to do. it's as distracting for me but easier in a way since I'm here and you are not fully here. hard to describe. but you'll find you're a natural at it, don't try to hard and just do it, as you have done.>
Once I get the hang of it, after you telling me to focus, it is not to hard. though it is like night and day if I'm doing something and you are here or not. <yes, as you've noticed it'll continue to get easier. though once you are fully here you'll really notice the intensity. The training we've done will help you a lot in that regard. take it easy and don't try to rush anything soul or spiritual. >
so we are really sorta halves of 1 soul, not exact but sorta like that? <Sorta is right. and over numerous lifetimes we have had a special sort of love grow between us that you have experienced. you've felt it. as intense as it is it even shone through when you had partial veil still in place. and it did help with dissolving it. As you've heard and know within yourself from your own desires. Though we will merge at some point when you are here, we'll also un merge since we'll miss experiencing ourselves & each other as individuals. For eternity, soul also, sometimes 3, 2 or 1.>
Eternity is a thing many humans find hard or impossible to understand or feel. I think I do, though I'm not fully human. <you're human only to the physical level, though some of the human will stay, though at the soul level you are not human, unlike some who have incarnated for ages on the earth. 1 lifetime may leave an impression but not a lot of one 1 may say. and the feel you have for eternity is the soul knowledge and experience you can feel coming through. also as I mentioned before recall more of soul knowledge and memories will be easier over time, though getting all of soul embodied takes time, and you may choose not to do it since, strictly, it is not one of your personal goals. >
bye for now, though I feel we can never be truly separated. <till we speak again and in truth though we may feel separated it is impossible to really separate twin flames.>
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Thursday [4-23]
I did the 5th meditation form the 1st part, part of my doing 24
meditations till I can move on to part 4. This was healing the inner
child. I decided to do fear & nervousness, thinking some may be in
there still. And at the last minute I tossed in anger also, though most
of the anger was taken care of with the sub personalities, there may be
some non normal anger there still. It felt like it went very well.
I figure if I do 8 meditations for the first 3 parts. I may as well do it the easy way and just do the last 8 meditations, instead of picking out 8 from each. Once I have finished part 4 for the 2nd time then I'll pick out around 4 from each guided meditations since I'll add in opening to channel and receiving clear guidance. I would have finished doing a 2nd pass of some opening to channel and all of the receiving clear guidance by then.
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I did the 6th meditation of part 1 of awaken the light body. it went very well. Better then when I first did it a few months ago, and better.
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The 7th channeling guided mediation went easy, it felt to easy. But maybe I'm really am able to progress very fast. I think for now I'll go along with and believing I can proceed and progress very fast. That already I can easily channel the collective as easily as I can my soul. It may be because my soul can raise up to their level, or they raise it up temporarily. though it may be permanent. I'm not sure or clear on that. But based on what they said I think I"ll do numerous short little meditations where I'll see myself as an equal to them, imaging the collective as having me as an equal member, along with my soul, twin flame, and the other collective members. many of them looking like small suns, and a few humanoidish shapes and such.
perhaps I can already be an equal member at at one with them. If soul is already there, and twin flame can be raised to that level, I can see how that would raise me to that level, this me I mean, if other parts of me are already there. Why couldn't this me be already there too. it may be that easy. maybe in part since i did say before, forgot when, weeks ago maybe, that I said to myself and the intent to say it to the universe or source that if I do have more then 1 soul parent I want full access to all of their memories and accumulated wisdom and I want my soul and twin flame to have equal access to all of them as well. Even if i can't consciously remember or recall, or be aware of it.
I do wonder if my saying and meaning that, has some impact on this or has affected it or changed my progress timetable. Hmm.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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1:06 AM
o was that voice I heard one of you?
<yes indeed. She was a bit excited for your development so far so wanted to say that to you. what you call your soul, another aspect of you really, relayed the message.>
She said you want me to become an ascended master. Isn't that a very rare thing? <not really no. Everyone who isn't yet an ascended master will be, it's just a matter of time.>
So it's not a exclusive club type thing? <by no means. they are more common then you think. Just most don't deal with earth. not out of any disinterest or anything. they have their own interests and areas of interests. And considering how earth is they would have a different appearance. imagine if a human saw a dinosaur type, a snake being or something non human saying they were here to help. Not a thing to inspire calmness.>
So what are the typical ascended master like, not the stodgy types? <by no means. Some are quite known as.... the earth expression would be, party animals. Surprising perhaps, but they are individuals like any other, and quite a few do know how to have a good time. Some specialize in that. helping others to have fun and learn the value and options of having a good time.>
So I'm on the road to be one? <Everyone is. just a matter of how far along. You could reach it faster then you think, but you will eventually, it's a matter of time, as it is for anyone and everyone. after all, look how far you've come in less then a year. I'm willing to bet you'll reach it faster then you think. Either there or here. You'll enjoy it. Don't be in a hurry, just continue at your normal pace and it'll happen when it happens.>
Will I know when it happens? <Likely not. It's not like a little bell rings when you become an ascended master, nor does an angel pop up to shake your hand and hand you a diploma saying ascended master. You'll likely become one and not notice for a while. Till some start mentioning you are one, which'll be a while after you are one. Some ascended masters have a sorta private bet, just for fun, how long till he finds out he is one. Just meant all in fun though. >
are there many on earth currently? <oh quite a few. The person who sits next to you on the bus or the cafe, may be an ascended master, helping many in very subtle ways, ways that you may never notice.>
What was the point of all that energy I felt streaming into me earlier? <you were resting and it was an excellent time since you were resting and not doing anything that took your attention. That was some energy work, the side effect is it brings your resonance closer to ours and us more alike. Since you wish to join us, and we wish you to join us. it is one easy method to help this process along and since you've been awakening your light body and learning to channel your energy systems and bodies, including your physical, can handle much more light then before, say a year ago. You'll be surprised how much you can handle a year from now.>
thanks, bye for now. <keep up the good work. You've progressed far in a little time, even the past few months.>
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9:11 PM
about becoming 1 with you, the collective. <just imagine yourself as one of us, among us as an equal. You already are one of us, you just are not aware consciously of this yet. just takes a light mental shift. Don't force it, just see yourself as one of us, one with the collective. >
Seems to easy. <that is preconceived notions, though weak at present in yourself. You are wiser then you think. Put these preconceived thoughts aside. Accept the true you for who and what you are. Just imagine yourself as and it will be easier and easier then you think. just a slight shift is all it'll take. There is also no need to keep working on yourself as much as you think. Just a little sight fine tuning here and there. >
Ok, I'll try doing that. <good, just do some relaxed imagination, and it'll help more then you know. It should be a telltale sign that you can channel us easily now, easier then you could before. Beside the fact that your soul is raised to our level during this session. The way he is raised to our level means a part of you is already here since your soul is another aspect of you, another you, as you are another aspect or part of your soul. Though not aspect in regards to your separate aspects, that is another matter. You and your soul are the same, 2 different parts of the same multi dimensional being. Since part of the multi dimensional being is here already at present, it means part of you is here already and can bring the rest up to here if you'll allow and believe it. it is as simple as that. believe and allow.>
ok. I'll try that. <great. let's see how this goes over tonight and tomorrow. don't feel to bad about fine tuning, also look if you need to fine tune since some of these could be parts of a normal personality, a normal part of you. Though fine tuning now and then is fine and can be useful. it may be as simple as looking at the thought and feeling and purposely shift it mentally.>
Thanks, bye for now. <we'll be celebrating all the progress you've been making. just allow yourself to grow and progress. it can really be that easy for you, put aside the notion it seems to easy. You may be how surprised at how fast you can grow and proceed.>
I figure if I do 8 meditations for the first 3 parts. I may as well do it the easy way and just do the last 8 meditations, instead of picking out 8 from each. Once I have finished part 4 for the 2nd time then I'll pick out around 4 from each guided meditations since I'll add in opening to channel and receiving clear guidance. I would have finished doing a 2nd pass of some opening to channel and all of the receiving clear guidance by then.
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I did the 6th meditation of part 1 of awaken the light body. it went very well. Better then when I first did it a few months ago, and better.
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The 7th channeling guided mediation went easy, it felt to easy. But maybe I'm really am able to progress very fast. I think for now I'll go along with and believing I can proceed and progress very fast. That already I can easily channel the collective as easily as I can my soul. It may be because my soul can raise up to their level, or they raise it up temporarily. though it may be permanent. I'm not sure or clear on that. But based on what they said I think I"ll do numerous short little meditations where I'll see myself as an equal to them, imaging the collective as having me as an equal member, along with my soul, twin flame, and the other collective members. many of them looking like small suns, and a few humanoidish shapes and such.
perhaps I can already be an equal member at at one with them. If soul is already there, and twin flame can be raised to that level, I can see how that would raise me to that level, this me I mean, if other parts of me are already there. Why couldn't this me be already there too. it may be that easy. maybe in part since i did say before, forgot when, weeks ago maybe, that I said to myself and the intent to say it to the universe or source that if I do have more then 1 soul parent I want full access to all of their memories and accumulated wisdom and I want my soul and twin flame to have equal access to all of them as well. Even if i can't consciously remember or recall, or be aware of it.
I do wonder if my saying and meaning that, has some impact on this or has affected it or changed my progress timetable. Hmm.
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[note from 7-25] I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was. This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day. Simplest way to put the older posts in.
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1:06 AM
o was that voice I heard one of you?
<yes indeed. She was a bit excited for your development so far so wanted to say that to you. what you call your soul, another aspect of you really, relayed the message.>
She said you want me to become an ascended master. Isn't that a very rare thing? <not really no. Everyone who isn't yet an ascended master will be, it's just a matter of time.>
So it's not a exclusive club type thing? <by no means. they are more common then you think. Just most don't deal with earth. not out of any disinterest or anything. they have their own interests and areas of interests. And considering how earth is they would have a different appearance. imagine if a human saw a dinosaur type, a snake being or something non human saying they were here to help. Not a thing to inspire calmness.>
So what are the typical ascended master like, not the stodgy types? <by no means. Some are quite known as.... the earth expression would be, party animals. Surprising perhaps, but they are individuals like any other, and quite a few do know how to have a good time. Some specialize in that. helping others to have fun and learn the value and options of having a good time.>
So I'm on the road to be one? <Everyone is. just a matter of how far along. You could reach it faster then you think, but you will eventually, it's a matter of time, as it is for anyone and everyone. after all, look how far you've come in less then a year. I'm willing to bet you'll reach it faster then you think. Either there or here. You'll enjoy it. Don't be in a hurry, just continue at your normal pace and it'll happen when it happens.>
Will I know when it happens? <Likely not. It's not like a little bell rings when you become an ascended master, nor does an angel pop up to shake your hand and hand you a diploma saying ascended master. You'll likely become one and not notice for a while. Till some start mentioning you are one, which'll be a while after you are one. Some ascended masters have a sorta private bet, just for fun, how long till he finds out he is one. Just meant all in fun though. >
are there many on earth currently? <oh quite a few. The person who sits next to you on the bus or the cafe, may be an ascended master, helping many in very subtle ways, ways that you may never notice.>
What was the point of all that energy I felt streaming into me earlier? <you were resting and it was an excellent time since you were resting and not doing anything that took your attention. That was some energy work, the side effect is it brings your resonance closer to ours and us more alike. Since you wish to join us, and we wish you to join us. it is one easy method to help this process along and since you've been awakening your light body and learning to channel your energy systems and bodies, including your physical, can handle much more light then before, say a year ago. You'll be surprised how much you can handle a year from now.>
thanks, bye for now. <keep up the good work. You've progressed far in a little time, even the past few months.>
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9:11 PM
about becoming 1 with you, the collective. <just imagine yourself as one of us, among us as an equal. You already are one of us, you just are not aware consciously of this yet. just takes a light mental shift. Don't force it, just see yourself as one of us, one with the collective. >
Seems to easy. <that is preconceived notions, though weak at present in yourself. You are wiser then you think. Put these preconceived thoughts aside. Accept the true you for who and what you are. Just imagine yourself as and it will be easier and easier then you think. just a slight shift is all it'll take. There is also no need to keep working on yourself as much as you think. Just a little sight fine tuning here and there. >
Ok, I'll try doing that. <good, just do some relaxed imagination, and it'll help more then you know. It should be a telltale sign that you can channel us easily now, easier then you could before. Beside the fact that your soul is raised to our level during this session. The way he is raised to our level means a part of you is already here since your soul is another aspect of you, another you, as you are another aspect or part of your soul. Though not aspect in regards to your separate aspects, that is another matter. You and your soul are the same, 2 different parts of the same multi dimensional being. Since part of the multi dimensional being is here already at present, it means part of you is here already and can bring the rest up to here if you'll allow and believe it. it is as simple as that. believe and allow.>
ok. I'll try that. <great. let's see how this goes over tonight and tomorrow. don't feel to bad about fine tuning, also look if you need to fine tune since some of these could be parts of a normal personality, a normal part of you. Though fine tuning now and then is fine and can be useful. it may be as simple as looking at the thought and feeling and purposely shift it mentally.>
Thanks, bye for now. <we'll be celebrating all the progress you've been making. just allow yourself to grow and progress. it can really be that easy for you, put aside the notion it seems to easy. You may be how surprised at how fast you can grow and proceed.>
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Wedensday [4-22]
Had an interesting experience as I lay down to take a nap. Soul popped up and we had a brief conversation. I mentioned if we are one then I guess the next step would be me, or us, becoming one with the collective, monad, which it said yes, that would be the next step. Then I started to feel energy coming into me from soul. This energy felt like it was a lot of light and love, with other feels to it I can't describe. I asked soul if this was the monad and his energy. And he said yes. Then i felt a more, primal, hard to describe the feel of some of the energy that felt, diffidently like twin flame. I asked if she had joined this and he said yes, she had decided to add her energy to this as well.
I asked shouldn't I see myself as the monad with the others as reflections of me and I of them, but I am the monad as they are, and soul said I was getting ahead of myself. I needed to do the first step of seeing, feeling and knowing myself as a full monad member first. There is no skipping over steps, he said with a humorous smile.
Soul then talked to me about seeing myself as a monad member. I ws able to easily see the 3 of us as monad members, or members of the collective, or whatever the term would be.
Then it asked me how I felt about the various monad members. I saw the 3 of us as equals with each of the other monad members, we all got along. Some I felt closer to, like my soul and twin flame. others I may find a bit annoying, but there were none I felt I didn't get along with. I did feel this way and could see it in my mind's eye, though I don't consciously know any of the collective, except for a few I've sort of talked to.
Soul seemed very happy at the end of this, saying I had made and done a very important first step.
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I asked shouldn't I see myself as the monad with the others as reflections of me and I of them, but I am the monad as they are, and soul said I was getting ahead of myself. I needed to do the first step of seeing, feeling and knowing myself as a full monad member first. There is no skipping over steps, he said with a humorous smile.
Soul then talked to me about seeing myself as a monad member. I ws able to easily see the 3 of us as monad members, or members of the collective, or whatever the term would be.
Then it asked me how I felt about the various monad members. I saw the 3 of us as equals with each of the other monad members, we all got along. Some I felt closer to, like my soul and twin flame. others I may find a bit annoying, but there were none I felt I didn't get along with. I did feel this way and could see it in my mind's eye, though I don't consciously know any of the collective, except for a few I've sort of talked to.
Soul seemed very happy at the end of this, saying I had made and done a very important first step.
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I did part 12 of the 3rd part of
awakening the light body. This is about rewriting your past so you are
born a master with your parents being fully aware. The first time I did
this I let whatever images pop up and it was all pretty much anthro
dolphins. Not sure if stuff from a past life was or were leaking in,
but as I said I mentally shrugged and went with it. the 2nd time i did
it I had this life, but I fictionalized a lot of stuff. I think this
time I'll keep the events that happened to me the same, as happened,
with a bit of some fiction here and there, with some changes so I still
was a born a fully aware master with no veil in place at all. And the
fact i was raised by my grandmother will be the same, but I'll put a
more positive somewhat fictional spin to it, but closer to what
happened. The next time I do this I may do a mix of all 3, adding some
further ideas.
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Running the energies went meh, but that is ok. it often happens for the first time. And the meh was mainly with the first 3 energy centers. the upper 4 went decent to very good I think.
For the re-writing my birth, childhood and life up till now I kept most of the events mostly the same with some fictionalization. I kept thing bit I was a master before and was born a master and had full recall, memories, awareness, no veil. My grandparent I did as members of my monad who were to help guide me into becoming a full conscious member of the monad. My grandfather dieing early like he did since he's not really a teacher nor a guide. and up to today where I saw and felt myself to be a full monad member, conscious and all, while I'm here to help some of those who are incarnated here, while I'm here.
I feel like before I have very good recall of why I'm here and the reasons for being here, perhaps perfect recall. Though of past lives I do have some ideas, but not much recall. Perhaps soul is saying details of past lives are not important, only this current one. Despite past lives may be interesting, but they are not important. Which I do agree with.
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Running the energies went meh, but that is ok. it often happens for the first time. And the meh was mainly with the first 3 energy centers. the upper 4 went decent to very good I think.
For the re-writing my birth, childhood and life up till now I kept most of the events mostly the same with some fictionalization. I kept thing bit I was a master before and was born a master and had full recall, memories, awareness, no veil. My grandparent I did as members of my monad who were to help guide me into becoming a full conscious member of the monad. My grandfather dieing early like he did since he's not really a teacher nor a guide. and up to today where I saw and felt myself to be a full monad member, conscious and all, while I'm here to help some of those who are incarnated here, while I'm here.
I feel like before I have very good recall of why I'm here and the reasons for being here, perhaps perfect recall. Though of past lives I do have some ideas, but not much recall. Perhaps soul is saying details of past lives are not important, only this current one. Despite past lives may be interesting, but they are not important. Which I do agree with.
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I think to save time I'll do the next meditation, 12, again without listening to the audio. It is a bit over 30 minutes so I can save a lot of time doing that. I'll also be able to do a retcon and say I consciously did want to come here.
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I did that. and I think it went very well. Doing a retcon on I did want to be here. Primary was to help the earth. I'd also have incidents to make me be more inwardly focused. which is normal for the soul me. Also after a certain point a tipping point will have been reached and I could go from focusing on clearing the collective mass here,to focusing solely, or mainly, on my reason to be here, not just to remain fully awake and aware, but to become one with the monad I'm presently a member of and embody that as much as I can here.
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(wanted to do dotted lines but since I kept getting 00 i mentally shrugged & thought I'll leave it as is.
I think or feel that fully embodying the soul, maybe fully may or may not be possible, but it may take time, due to the nature of the delicacy of the human form given the parameters of this location. But one can also embody being 1 with one's monad as well, or even move up a step. How this works is the multi dimensional part of you can become a full member, or in the case of the soul, become aware that it is equal to the soul, they are 1, but also individuals at the same time. Parts of a multi dimensional self. and one can also become one with, in my case, being 1 with the collective, monad or whatever.
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I lay down to take a nap and I had a pleasant conversation with my soul. I can feel now that we are different aspects of the same being. Maybe the same multi dimensional being. Not sure if it is that or not. It also seems that the collective thought this would be an excellent time to pour energy into me. They, or was it soul, not sure. one of those 2 said it would help me to be more at 1 with them. To embody being 1 with them. I was surprised, towards the end, at how much energy they were pouring into me. Though they were pausing at times. One of them said, i have been awakening my light body and learning to channel, so I would be surprised at how much energy I could handle now. Though my energy systems were still delicate compared to theirs.
it was a pleasant experience. One of them did say in a humorous manner, it's not as pleasurable as sharing (meaning soul type sex) but it is pleasant. Just wait till we share.
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I did that. and I think it went very well. Doing a retcon on I did want to be here. Primary was to help the earth. I'd also have incidents to make me be more inwardly focused. which is normal for the soul me. Also after a certain point a tipping point will have been reached and I could go from focusing on clearing the collective mass here,to focusing solely, or mainly, on my reason to be here, not just to remain fully awake and aware, but to become one with the monad I'm presently a member of and embody that as much as I can here.
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(wanted to do dotted lines but since I kept getting 00 i mentally shrugged & thought I'll leave it as is.
I think or feel that fully embodying the soul, maybe fully may or may not be possible, but it may take time, due to the nature of the delicacy of the human form given the parameters of this location. But one can also embody being 1 with one's monad as well, or even move up a step. How this works is the multi dimensional part of you can become a full member, or in the case of the soul, become aware that it is equal to the soul, they are 1, but also individuals at the same time. Parts of a multi dimensional self. and one can also become one with, in my case, being 1 with the collective, monad or whatever.
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I lay down to take a nap and I had a pleasant conversation with my soul. I can feel now that we are different aspects of the same being. Maybe the same multi dimensional being. Not sure if it is that or not. It also seems that the collective thought this would be an excellent time to pour energy into me. They, or was it soul, not sure. one of those 2 said it would help me to be more at 1 with them. To embody being 1 with them. I was surprised, towards the end, at how much energy they were pouring into me. Though they were pausing at times. One of them said, i have been awakening my light body and learning to channel, so I would be surprised at how much energy I could handle now. Though my energy systems were still delicate compared to theirs.
it was a pleasant experience. One of them did say in a humorous manner, it's not as pleasurable as sharing (meaning soul type sex) but it is pleasant. Just wait till we share.
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