Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Wedensday [4-29]

I was thinking about it and it does right to instead of doing the light body courses the way I was going to do them, do it instead based on the new idea I got and talked about yesterday.  I think I may get the intuition one after I finish the awaken the light body course and spend a month going back to redo all the awaken the light body courses. That is what I originally planned so that is the same.

I think instead of going to blending with my divine self, I may go with my intuition.  Not sure if I'd get then the higher mind and then blending with my divine self or I'd go from intuition straight to the celebrations of initiation of heart, throat, crown, then do the higher mind and blending with my divine self.  The intuition one does have where you connect to and blend some with your divine self so that is one I'll get after the month spent redoing the awaken the light body.  after the intuition one I'm not sure which order to get the others.  I'll use my intuition then, and also perhaps see how things play out as far as finances and how I feel. I may alternate between, intuition,  heart, higher mind, throat, blending with divine self, crown.  I'll decide later. Plenty of time.

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Think i may do extra meditations today since I do want to do the reeving a clear channel, but I also will do the last 2 of the 2nd course of awakening the light body.  I think then I'll do 3 meditations a day Thursday through Sunday to do the 3rd part of the course done over 4 days.  I still have 2 receiving clear guidance to do to finish the course.  I'll do 1 today and the last one maybe Thursday, Friday, or the weekend, as well as I will try to channel various over the 4 days of Thursday through Sunday.  my soul, future self, twin flame, Mirabelle, unicorn mother & perhaps Mirabelle's mother. I'll decide later. Maybe the dolphin guy also.  Plenty of time to decide.  And who to try channeling also.  Not playing at it. using that to improve my channeling with practice and keeping in touch with a few.  As well as forming a deeper stronger connection with certain beings like my twin flame, Mirabelle, (or should I call her Maribelle, I may switch back).  Soul, future self.

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I did a short meditation on my twin flame.  And I guess she felt it or something since she popped in mentally and it wound up being us kissing and caressing each other.  Very pleasant, including the feel of our energies intermixing.  Some sexual feelings among the other positive feelings, but that is  normal between us.  I can still feel some of her energy in my energy now.

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I did the 12th guided meditation in receiving clear guidance.  Just 1 more and I'll be finished with this course.  Think I'll do the other one before to long today, then do the other 2 from the 2nd part of awakening the light body.  Then I'll take a day or 2 break from the channeling courses, do 3 a day from part 3 of awakening the light body and try doing short channelings most or each day from Thursday through Sunday.

Think I got a feel that my future self is , or may be, a reflection from my divine self.  he is both my future self and what I may grow into, so acting as a guide.  Sorta a paradox maybe but also not one.  One of those soul things that I think make sense.  The dolphin guy I think is a friend of his, who has come back to learn.  Didn't get much of a feel from him. 

The guided meditation was asking for guidance in various areas.  The general suggestion he said was put aside expectations, relax, be my true real self, relax, have fun, don't be in a hurry, have fun. Stuff like that, with some stuff being repeated.  Also put aside past expectations and experiences, beliefs. 

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I've been thinking. I'm not sure if I have moved past or equal to the collective, or if perhaps this future me that is a reflection of my divine self is a member of the collective and they are aspects & individual souls of my divine self, as it is of their divine self.

Feels like it could be that way. All these souls could be individuals, but also part of a multidimensional being that some may call our divine self.

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I'm doing the 13th and last audio of the receiving clear guidance and choose for what area I wanted to get guidance on (of my divine plan) out was my spiritual and soul development. It's much like what I said before, relax, have fun, trust in myself (my true self), become my true self, relax, have fun, don't try to hurry or rush to fast.

I also got that the collective, future self are connected to the divine self. The collective were, perhaps, helping me to become one with them and my future self, that I earlier felt to be both a future self that I could become, and a reflection of my divine self, is sorta of my personal connection to my divine self, so to speak. Not sure if I phrased it right. so it and the collective are at the same level so to speak, but my future self, which I could either someday become, or may grow into something very similar, is my personal connection to my divine self since I became either 1 with the collective, or got close enough so i can use this and this may be more efficient or my personal connection. Feels either right or pretty close.

Feels like it still goes through soul, maybe my subconscious mind to my conscious mind and soul also really enjoys this process. Or really enjoys something about this. I do feel that.

Feels like I thought before. Fine tuning is fine, but one can find tune forever. Only fine tune if it bugs me or if I feel or see the need, otherwise no need to. It also feels like I have nothing really big I need to clear out.

Feels like I should so ahead and get more courses from Orin & Daben, but not be in a hurry to get them as fast as I can.

think since I have this connection with what feels like maybe my divine self I may casually redo some of the opening to channel and Receiving Clear Guidance to strengthen the connection. Think I'll channel daily, but do some of the above courses from the 2, on a few days a week.

Feels like the new ideas I got of what courses to get in what order is roughly correct. no need, like I said earlier, to plan out all the courses. next year I'll plan out what to get after the 2nd light body course. and overall feels like I may not need as much guidance as before. Though some and to help me with belief in myself, confidence in myself and in my intuition, clear knowing thing. Clear cognizance or however it's spelled. (thanks to firefox spellchecker, it knows how to spell that word).


The next steps are to, as i mentioned before, relax, don't be in to much of a hurry, take my time. Have faith in my self, my true self, become and live as my true self, have faith in my intuition, clear knowing and feeling and other things.

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I did the 11th meditation of part 2, forgiveness.  I think it went very well.  The first one i did forgive 1 person, the other 2 times Orin said to pick someone from your life or family I instead focused on forgiving everyone everywhere in all time and all spaces, all places and times that exist, and myself as well.  maybe overdoing it, but I figure, why not.  and I do feel better, lighter, more at peace from doing that. 

it also finished with talking to your dna and sending it light and then light to your cells.  think I may do this on a regular basis.  At least parts of it.

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I did the 12 and last guided meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body, visiting the temple of the masters.  it went very well.  Though I was distracted by my knee slightly.  I went pretty deep, to medium level I'd say in my meditation.  It did feel like there was qutie a bit of energy work being done.  The guide looked like a sun, or a ball of very bright light. 

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I was starting to feel depressed, no idea why. I think I caught it early enough so I could do what is called emotional flow in either the 1st or 2nd part of awaken the light body.  Forgot which.  It slightly introduces that you can feel what emotion you want to feel.  Also I think in 2 or 3 it talks about you can switch an emotion someone is feeling to so it doesn't effect you.  I don't fully understand that, but I did decide to try emotional flow to feel happy instead.  Not suppress my depression, it's just that I choose to feel happy instead.  I did some visualization with some hand movements.  Sorta like I was holding a 4-5 inch ball between my hands and I switched my hands so the other hand was on top, while not dropping the imaginary ball.  hard to explain but that did help and I successfully changed the emotion I was feeling to happiness.  I did hear a mental voice, not sure who from who said that I did that very well.

The tricky thing is recognizing I'm experiencing an emotion then changing it if I want or choose to.

I did ask and I think I got the reply that it was the dolphin guy. 

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