Saturday [4-11]

I guess we may be faster learners either because we've done this before, and or we may be pretty far along and what we are doing is not really advancing spiritually but returning to where we normally are.

I think I'll stop using the lucid dreaming audio since I tried it for about a week, or it'll be a week as of tonight and I never had any lucid dreams at all.  Guess whatever I have in me isn't capable of lucid dreaming.  not that I'm putting myself down, not everyone can do everything.

I was looking at the more expensive courses and I picked out a few I may get, these are a bit more expensive then some of the light body courses like awakening the light body and some others, but one of them is about becoming your authentic self, which is about becoming your divine self, which is closer to source then soul is.  Interesting.

If you're not sure about the light body you can ask your soul or monad about that.  You may have awakened it already with the other stuff you did, just not by focusing on awakening it.

Felt some pleasure from what soul seemed to be doing.  it felt like mingling energies, or merging energy, along like the edges.  when I focused on the experience a bit it said to continue what I was doing and let this be in the background.  it stopped after a few minutes, or seemed to.  Not sure it's still going on at a level I'm not consciously aware of.  I do feel a stirring in the light body heart center.  Like it may be a bit larger?

I did ask it about the be your authentic self and it liked the idea of me someday getting the course.  No need to hurry, I can do it a bit at a time.  Not sure about 3, though soul did suggest I get it if I could afford it.

Not sure if I'll get the 4th course.  It is about $250 each.  unlike 3 which is $200 each.  4 is about exploring infinite being. Plenty of time to decide that.  Before soul suggested once I finish the awakening the light body course to get the 2nd then 3rd course, then get the side light body courses.  Though when I asked about the 3 courses that deal with the heart, throat and crown centers it said that would be an excellent idea, either to do those 3 right after, or to do 2 then 3.  I get the feeling if I decide to do those 3 and the being your authentic self before the 2nd course that would be as good as going straight into the 2nd then 3rd course.  Soul never mentioned 4.  but plenty of time to decide that later on, after I'e done 2 and I'm finishing up 3.

I was thinking as i do 2 I may save up a bit here and there and get some 3 when I can so by the time I finished 2 and repeat the whole course, I'll have maybe purchased a few of the 3rd course.

Oddly the ceremonies of initiation have in the order, throat, heart then crown, instead of heart, throat, then crown.

Like when I finish the awaken the light body course, I'll repeat that course, doing all 6 at 2 different meditations a day will take about 36 days.  Then I'll pick out what regular meditations I want to do a few times a week or daily, like the light body energy centers and light body centers.  Then if I do celebrations of initiation and becoming your authentic self I'll then repeat those 4 courses again, again at 2 different meditations a day.  With the skipping a month or more I'll use that time to either put money aside for the dentist, or saving up for say buying the 3rd course perhaps.  Once I finish 2, I'll go back and repeat all those again.

I do see at some point I'll stop getting light body courses, or maybe buy them less often.  Once I'm doing 3 I'll decide if I want to get 4 or not.  No need to decide now.  Getting 3 as a side thing, by saving up to get at least the first few parts of 3.  but plenty of time to decide that too.

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As I lay down I had an interesting thing. not really a a dream but a conversation from what I think I call the dragoness. I'll put down what was said as much as I can. As i recall it was mainly me listening. I don't recall exactly how it started or the order of what was said so some stuff will be out of order.

<I am a member of this monad yes. one that you are a member of as well, just not consciously aware of as of yet. Once you grow and awaken into being a full member here you'll understand and see that you give up nothing. Instead you'll be able to see that you have so many more options available to you and that you can see and understand so much more. And yes, you'll still be an individual, as you feel. you'll be able to still visit other places. For example you could manifest in some places, say like the pod is or where certain unicorns, and other beings live. Though some places that isn't really done or allowed due to what certain souls there are doing or wanting to learn or experience. there are places where you can do that. Earth is changing and eventually it'll not be a place set aside as per the original perimeters, but as you found out there will be at least one other place that will be full up and ready to by then.>

I asked my guide and soul if this is really her and a member of the monad thing and they said yes.

During this I felt a lot of love coming in, but like most of it was being screened. I also had the feeling of sexual feelings also, maybe a subtle way to show they of the monad or whatever the group is, are sexual beings or at least the one I'm a member of, but not a conscious awake one yet, is. The feels right, that they are indeed. But she said, <yes, you can feel the screen, to use an expression you've used before, one can say that 99.99% is being screened out from your feeling it since the physical body and your various systems are not yet ready. Continue along the path your on and one day soon you'll feel the fullness unscreened feelings, then you'll be aware of the fact you have been a full member all along, you just didn't really know or realize feel it till then. it'll be a great experience.>

<Yes, you'll really enjoy being here once you fully awaken to the fact you are already a full member here, just that you're not conscious of it as of yet, as everyone else is of their own monads. You may be surprised how quickly you awaken to being a member here. Earth is indeed a place of 1 mission only for you.> a bit after I awoke I got <You're doing very well, continue on the path you're currently on.>

I asked how my being here can help others, besides the anchoring the energy and original soul wanting to experience wakening as a human. <it effects others. Think of it like ripples. as you awaken to more of yourself , who and what you are. to you fullness. awaken and progress spiritually it causes ripples that effects others so they can do so a bit more easily if they so choose as well, in time. Think of it also something like a mirror as well.>

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I did the 6th mediation of the 3rd course of awaken the light body. The first 3 energy centers didn't go to well, but that seems a common pattern most days. often the first one.

The meditation focused mainly on the 6th and 7th energy centers, keeping them both in your awareness. An interesting experience. My mind did wonder at times but I did manage to go back and keep those 2 in my awareness I'd say 90% of the time and likely more then 90%. for part of it I stayed sorta in the back of my brain so I could keep them both in sight, mentally. at other times I was like normal and kept them in my awareness. I didn't favor or focus on 1 more then the other, as Daben said some may choose to do, but I instead choose to keep them both equally.

after a certain point I did start seeing odd designs and things. vaguely like hooded figures, not scary or spooky more like some sort of ceremony of a good nature. Vague bat shapes or birds at night or in a cave flying up. seeing some woman or female teen pressed against some sort of clear membrane capable of holding a lot of weight, some sort of tunnel that was turning both clockwise and non clockwise at the same time, with something coming from ahead and shooting past me below me.

No idea what that stuff was about.

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I did the 6th mediation for the 2nd time today and am half way through the 1st pass as i call it.  Running the energies went very well.  I didn't have visions much as before.  I was able to hold onto the experience and maintain my awareness of the 6th and 7th energy centers.  I didn't get any images till at the very end.

I was in a dolphin body, no idea if I was anthro, non anthro or could change.  I had some sort of suit on.  I surfaced inside a ship, taking a quick inhalation of air, that was wrecked and had not started to sink yet.  I did a quick look around and then knew it was starting to sink.  I got out somehow, no idea how.  I was shooting away from the ship at high speed.  Not out of fear but I just wanted to see how fast I could swim away from the sinking ship.  Then a flash later and I'm swimming up to what looks like a beluga whale, a friend of mine and we were going belly to belly and I was starting to enter him, or was it her, when the flash or whatever ended.

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[note from 7-25]  I had deleted some older channeling since I was going through a depression period and purging some stuff or whatever it was.  This morning I got the idea I could copy and paste them to the end of the regular posts of the same day.  Simplest way to put the older posts in. 
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 I decided to hold this one off for today since Saturday and Sunday are wide open. there is a livestream show I like watching on Saturday but they will be going for another hour or 2. This time the guide's energy felt less here, like he had gotten more accurate at how much to integrate into me. and at about 30 minutes I feel only a slight pressure headache around the center of my head. about the same as when I first started to channel after 5 minutes or a bit less. Felt also like my soul was helping less. I guess since my guide has gotten a better feel of how to integrate his energy with mine to communicate with me. it is of the conscious channel type, not the type Jane Roberts or other do where the incarnate is mentally elsewhere.

This was a audio on giving yourself a reading of the future.
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a week from now. I'll be done on the 1st pass of the 3rd part of awakening the light body and will have, perhaps, done my dwarf fighter/cleric for the first time should have worked on evolving my thoughts so they are more positive, more of the true me and I'll be done with the opening to channel course and thinking if i want to get the next course, or if I'm not done with it I'll be close.


<things will indeed flow in a positive manner, surprising you at how positive they will be. a very happy surprise indeed you will get. Though most of the events will be predictable. Keep continuing on the channeling and awakening the light body since these both are helping you to become your true self. let things slide by the wayside as some humans say. This will be natural and you may not notice as somethings slip from your life or you loose interest in things that once you had a lot of interest in. some of these interests will return, perhaps changed, perhaps with greater or less interest then before. things will be more positive, though perhaps you'll be as yet unaware unless you look back, others will notice, even if it is not consciously. You may be less so since it will be more of the true you you will have awakened to.

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a month from now: <You will be surprised at how much progress you'll have made a month from now. if you choose to buy them you'll be at the beginning or slightly past the beginning of the 4th awaken the light body course, maybe even about half way through the first pass and the receiving a clear channel you'll be farther along, well into that course and our connection will be stronger then now. If you start trying to channel your soul daily also, setting aside time to channel us both you'll be surprised at how good the connection is indeed and the progress you've done at awakening to your true self. more progress the a single step.

work on your thoughts and feelings. turning them more positive. these will help you to awaken to your true self. keep on this path. with perhaps slight deviations if they feel like you should try them or they really interest you. You'll be surprised at what the month from now you will be up to, very pleasantly surprised indeed and also at what you know.

Though as you know the future is fluid, much like water, though certain trends are more likely to happen if the majority or mass wish for a future, even if they are not fully conscious of it. >

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9:06 PM

3 months from now: <you'll be finishing or towards the end, perhaps, based on how fast you go through, of the awaken the light body course, much progress you'll be making with awakening to your true self that you are underneath the human shell or skin. you'll be much more experienced at channeling, if you keep to it regularly, and will be much stronger at connecting to your soul and perhaps myself as well. depending if you keep at it and your intent over the next few months, also you may start to connect to one that some may call one from your monad as well, soul group or other labels some use for this. you may well be surprised when the first connection and message continues. continue to channel regularly, even if just for 10 minutes a day, most days of the week. Your body will be healthier, with the regular exercise and if you add some walking as well, even better. You'll be surprised at what stage you'll be 3 months from now in July. perhaps you've been done some more creative pursuits. continue on this path and do not stop either of the tings you are doing, or other things that feel right to the inner you.

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6 months from today: <the awakening the light body course is long since fished and gone over a 2nd time. your connections are stronger that you have been connecting to to channel with your soul and monad. things will progress in a much more positive light and manner. some things you do now you will have stopped by then, some without even noticing and some old things you have stopped you'll pick up again, in varying ways. things will progress positively along a great rate of speed, surprising to you, but not those of us here keeping an eye and helping you. You may indeed have touched your true full self or be well in touch with it. the true you that is within you and you are awakening to as you peel away and dissolve the layers between it and you. more creative pursuits you may have picked up between then and now.

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unknown future date, a year, several, or more: you've long sense stopped getting new light body courses and repeat your favorites, doing most of the meditations from time to time, some for old time's sake or nostalgia. you are in regular contact with your monad and are aware, on some conscious level, of being a full member already. the ones you help knowingly and unknowingly will surprise this you indeed. Some you may not know about till you have returned to your true real home. things will continue to grow in progress in a positive manner. You'll be your true self and positive. Surprising you could even have had severe or strong doubts. The truth of things that really manner you'll see or know. new friends you'll have, very good or fantastic friends you are not yet aware of.

keep on the path you are on. work on becoming as positive and your true self as you can, shedding the skin like a snake, shell, awakening to the true you within, have faint that you can and do not give up, converting your feelings and thoughts to more positive ends and elements. Expanding the ego to encompass. it is already expanded and by this time it will have expanded to encompass all. Surprising this you perhaps at how positive and great you'll be at awakening to your true self. We'll all be very happy here indeed, we are already at your progress and will be at your continued progress. You'll do great indeed and already have. opportunities that would surprise this you will make themselves known and will be opened to you over this time. You will be surprised indeed at what you'll be doing at this time.

and what a homecoming you'll have. ;)

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 11:41 PM


I decided to try a short channeling instead of waiting.

So what is a monad?

<it is a soul that , to use a human term, is more evolved, more aware, then we are at present. Like the 3 of us they are souls who are, one could say, 1 soul, but many separate identities and consciousnesses>

Like the 3 of us are, the 2 of us, and twin flame? <very similar yes indeed. With the 3 of us working together we will become a conscious member soon. You may be surprised at how soon. As long as we work together like we have been doing. it is an exciting time, such glorious great change.>

is that why she (dragoness) has taken an interest in me, and i guess us? <partially. she, like any soul, does and is willing to help and teach others. But we are of her lineage and she sees that we are close so has taken a special interest in us. easier for 1 member, 1 conscious member of a monad to be doing this. Better then half of them doing that.> I feel soul said this in a somewhat humorous intent.

so we can get there by working together? <yes, us 3. the way what some would call past or parallel lives can affect each other, what you do helps and effects us, me and twin, equally. as you become aware of being me, but your own self, your own consciousness. As you grow into this awareness it raises all of us. and humans also. the humans would be surprised at how developed spiritually they really are. but they'll all find out in their own time. We'll ascend together whether we are merged or not. Though I suspect we may prefer to experience it together instead of being merged.>

and we'll do that together, the 3 of us? <certainly, we are tied together. You raise up and develop as you are doing, and it effects us all, we raise too. Soon we'll be joining them.>

So put simply a monad is a group of souls who are also 1 soul. Separate identities of one soul, but their own souls too? <yes, it may seem more complicated or confusing if one thinks of it to much, but that is ok. Think on it, but not to deeply, it'll make perfect sense.> i think I do understand, in a way.

Dragoness told me this morning while I was asleep but not asleep that everyone is a member of a monad but most are not aware of it. <yes, that is true. One can experience that for short periods of time, but one has to awaken, ascend, grow into, mature, or whatever term you prefer to use, to be a full conscious member, which we will be sooner then you think. and they are as sexual beings as we are.> since they are like us and we are like them. Makes sense. <indeed.>