Saturday, April 25, 2015

Saturday [4-25]

Not much to say this morning.  i had a brief conversation with soul.  He did confirm that I did have some of twin flame's energy from the channeling last night.  The veil is basically gone indeed, a great thing to know.  If there is any left it's just tatters at most.  So regard it as gone, he said.  I did wonder if I'd merge with him or twin first and he said he bets it'll be with twin flame first.  Though I don't want it to be immediate, I'd like to, once I'm over there, do the equivalent of being an individual for a few days at a minimum, and more likely a few weeks or months before i merge with either one of them.  Though soul did say once I do merge with twin flame, I'll never be the same again, even after we do split at times.  And he did confirm what twin flame and he said often before and I do feel within myself, that none of us will remain merged permanently. 

I do feel the love between soul and me is deep.  Twin flame is both deep and intense.  Soul said that is normal and a good sign that we both enjoy the intensity instead of finding it annoying or painful.  It seems to cause no issues to come up within me like it originally did back in December I think it was when I first met her.  or was it early January, one of those. 

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When I lay down to take a nap this morning I did some hugging and kissing with soul.  Soul suggested I try with the collective, or was it that I got the idea and soul approved, I'm not sure which. But I did and the experience was interesting.  The person I did hug and kiss was willing.  It felt like the main collective member that I talk to.  I guess he has experience as a guide or the most experience so is the main spokesperson.  It felt more like he was an equal and not above or more highly evolved then I was.  I also felt love and after a short bit sexual feelings as well. Not sure what that means.  he did mention penty of time for that later after I was with them fully when this incarnation is over, and maybe before.

The collective no longer feel like they are above me, they feel more like we're on an equal level, not sure what that may mean either. 

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I did the 10th meditation for part 3 and running the energies for the first 3 energy centers went at best ok at first then much better later on in the meditation.  I also did the bit about having a body part in my attention as I ran the energies and at first the part did grow slightly warm, then nothing after that.  though the very slight itch did go away.  I may use that for various body parts today as I run the energies for a few minutes here and there, maybe later on pick the entire body.  See if it can improve the over all health or not.  I may also do the other 2 for part 1 and finish, which would put me a day ahead of schedule.  I'll decide what to do with the extra day later.  I also think instead of picking 24 of my favorite meditations I may pick say 30 since some days I may feel like doing an extra meditation.

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Before I started the meditation I not sure why but I had the idea to say to the collective that I surrendered to my monad, the collective.  I felt something inside me shift. I heard the main voice when I talk to when I channel the collective say to me <You have surrendered to yourself.>


I listened to the 11th meditation of part 1.  It is about you are the master.  During it I talked a bit to the collective.  A bit after it started I had someone pop in, not sure who, felt like I knew the person somehow, though I consciously don't, I think it may have been a collective member.  He asked if I meant to surrender to my monad that I know as the collective and i said yes.  Then he said as a reward for surrendering to my monad that I know as the collective, then for 5 or 10 minutes I felt an energy streaming into me, or a feeling at least, of strong love and pleasure intermixed.  After that eventually stopped I felt a sort of inner warmth for the rest of the mediation. 

Running the energies went well as did the meditation. It felt indeed like I was a master and a full equal member of the monad that call themselves the collective.  That that is why they are easy for me to channel now.  The main guy said some stuff to me during the meditation towards the end.  this is the first monad from my point of view, my first step.  There are other monads above this one. 

Over all an interesting and positive experience.

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I did the 12th & last mediation for the 1st awaken the light body course.  this puts me 1 day ahead of schedule.  Not sure if I'll do 3 tomorrow or not.  I'll decide tomorrow.  I may skip doing a receiving a clear channel meditation and instead do a bit of channeling later, I'll decide later.

it went very well overall, running the energies and the mediation itself.  The meditation was basically going to the temple of the masters.  I saw some anthro dolphin type beings there & their energy felt familiar, like they may be part of my soul family or close friends of mine, or a mix of the 2.  We embrased each other, caressing each other as we kept very close to each other.  Most of them called me brother.  One called me sister.  It felt like 1 or a few were gently rubbing my maleslit and one lower down, was rubbing my female slit, so guess I was a herm & didn't know it.  For this part of the guided meditation we stayed very close to each other. 

When they left and I was alone with the master, the master looked like an anthro dolphin, and felt very sexy to me.  he, or she, or was it a herm, not sure, but the master did as was in the guided meditation, greeting me as a fellow master and I did and do feel like a fellow master to him/her/hir.  Before I left I commented that we'd have fun later to which it replied <certainly.> 

Seems like a lot of happenings today.  I am a full equal member of the monad called the collective and also a fellow master, master of light or master and a being of light, or perhaps both, yes, both does feel right.   a fellow master being of light.  :)

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Think I'll put a short line from my channeling here since it involves sex, but no details, just the mention of it. I think once I'm done with the course I'll go back over it a 2nd time. Though I didn't do an episode today, I did a 3rd light body so i could get the 1st part done and thereby put myself a day ahead of schedule.

I start and try to put my channeled stuff in another thread so this one won't get super long and i do plan on channeling daily, once this course is over and I've gone over it a 2nd time. not sure if I'll do it a 3rd time. I may pick out some to do a 3rd time and just do soul then maybe the same ones a 4th to just do twin flame, but not doing the whole course. Though if it seems to be going well I'll just stick with channeling daily. Maybe short sessions instead of a single long one. I'm thinking maybe the collective time or 2 daily, soul maybe once or twice, and twin flame maybe a few times a week. Roughly speaking.

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