Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Wedensday [4-22]

Had an interesting experience as I lay down to take a nap.  Soul popped up and we had a brief conversation.  I mentioned if we are one then I guess the next step would be me, or us, becoming one with the collective, monad, which it said yes, that would be the next step.  Then I started to feel energy coming into me from soul.  This energy felt like it was a lot of light and love, with other feels to it I can't describe.  I asked soul if this was the monad and his energy.  And he said yes.  Then i felt a more, primal, hard to describe the feel of some of the energy that felt, diffidently like twin flame.  I asked if she had joined this and he said yes, she had decided to add her energy to this as well.

I asked shouldn't I see myself as the monad with the others as reflections of me and I of them, but I am the monad as they are, and soul said I was getting ahead of myself.  I needed to do the first step of seeing, feeling and knowing myself as a full monad member first.  There is no skipping over steps, he said with a humorous smile.

Soul then talked to me about seeing myself as a monad member.  I ws able to easily see the 3 of us as monad members, or members of the collective, or whatever the term would be. 

Then it asked me how I felt about the various monad members.   I saw the 3 of us as equals with each of the other monad members, we all got along.  Some I felt closer to, like my soul and twin flame.  others I may find  a bit annoying, but there were none I felt I didn't get along with.  I did feel this way and could see it in my mind's eye, though I don't consciously know any of the collective, except for a few I've sort of talked to.

Soul seemed very happy at the end of this, saying I had made and done a very important first step.

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I did part 12 of the 3rd part of awakening the light body. This is about rewriting your past so you are born a master with your parents being fully aware. The first time I did this I let whatever images pop up and it was all pretty much anthro dolphins. Not sure if stuff from a past life was or were leaking in, but as I said I mentally shrugged and went with it. the 2nd time i did it I had this life, but I fictionalized a lot of stuff. I think this time I'll keep the events that happened to me the same, as happened, with a bit of some fiction here and there, with some changes so I still was a born a fully aware master with no veil in place at all. And the fact i was raised by my grandmother will be the same, but I'll put a more positive somewhat fictional spin to it, but closer to what happened. The next time I do this I may do a mix of all 3, adding some further ideas.

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Running the energies went meh, but that is ok. it often happens for the first time. And the meh was mainly with the first 3 energy centers. the upper 4 went decent to very good I think.

For the re-writing my birth, childhood and life up till now I kept most of the events mostly the same with some fictionalization. I kept thing bit I was a master before and was born a master and had full recall, memories, awareness, no veil. My grandparent I did as members of my monad who were to help guide me into becoming a full conscious member of the monad. My grandfather dieing early like he did since he's not really a teacher nor a guide. and up to today where I saw and felt myself to be a full monad member, conscious and all, while I'm here to help some of those who are incarnated here, while I'm here.

I feel like before I have very good recall of why I'm here and the reasons for being here, perhaps perfect recall. Though of past lives I do have some ideas, but not much recall. Perhaps soul is saying details of past lives are not important, only this current one. Despite past lives may be interesting, but they are not important. Which I do agree with.
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 I think to save time I'll do the next meditation, 12, again without listening to the audio.  It is a bit over 30 minutes so I can save a lot of time doing that.  I'll also be able to do a retcon and say I consciously did want to come here.

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I did that. and I think it went very well.  Doing a retcon on I did want to be here.  Primary was to help the earth.  I'd also have incidents to make me be more inwardly focused. which is normal for the soul me.  Also after a certain point a tipping point will have been reached and I could go from focusing on clearing the collective mass here,to focusing solely, or mainly, on my reason to be here, not just to remain fully awake and aware, but to become one with the monad I'm presently a member of and embody that as much as I can here.

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(wanted to do dotted lines but since I kept getting 00 i mentally shrugged & thought I'll leave it as is.

I think or feel that fully embodying the soul, maybe fully may or may not be possible, but it may take time, due to the nature of the delicacy of the human form given the parameters of this location.  But one can also embody being 1 with one's monad as well, or even move up a step.  How this works is the multi dimensional part of you can become a full member, or in the case of the soul, become aware that it is equal to the soul, they are 1, but also individuals at the same time.  Parts of a multi dimensional self. and one can also become one with, in my case, being 1 with the collective, monad or whatever.

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I lay down to take a nap and I had a pleasant conversation with my soul.  I can feel now that we are different aspects of the same being.  Maybe the same multi dimensional being.  Not sure if it is that or not.  It also seems that the collective thought this would be an excellent time to pour energy into me.  They, or was it soul, not sure.  one of those 2 said it would help me to be more at 1 with them.  To embody being 1 with them.  I was surprised, towards the end, at how much energy they were pouring into me.  Though they were pausing at times.  One of them said, i have been awakening my light body and learning to channel, so I would be surprised at how much energy I could handle now.  Though my energy systems were still delicate compared to theirs.

it was a pleasant experience.  One of them did say in a humorous manner, it's not as pleasurable as sharing (meaning soul type sex) but it is pleasant.  Just wait till we share.

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