Woke up early this morning feeling awful, like I was going to pass out, maybe not enough blood pressure going to my brain, but also like I had a fever and no energy. No idea what was going on, and those feelings persisted. So I ate a bit of some trail mix i had, drank some water and went back to sleep. Awoke feeling much better, but still faintly of some of the feelings, no more of the feeling like I was going to faint, but the other things did persist faintly, but gradually went away. No idea what that was about.
Think I will get the Receiving Clear Guidance some time this week and start on that.
Feeling inside I feel faintly something, not sure. maybe some sort of energy purging or some aftereffects of what I was doing yesterday spirit wise. All I did spiritually wise on the meditations was to change more negative thoughts to positive, smooth out the mental body gridwork, I added in the emotional body also, changing some more negative thoughts to positive thougths, in some cases 1 negative got turned into several positive. or the physical feelings may be unrelated and have some other cause.
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as I lay down to rest i did get a visit from twin flame. as usual she
was in a female dolphin type being and i was as well. She pressed her
chest and belly to mine, not in a sexual way but for closeness and to
ask certain questions ot help me get the answers for questions I asked.
She often asked me to feel her energy as she asked a question.
To summarize what I remember I felt that she is my twin an not souls.
we are 3 but also 1. 3 beings and souls, but 1 also. her energy does
diffidently feel female. I do feel a desire to merge with her that is
turned off or asleep for now, but I could feel it off for now.
She did mention that I've put myself on the fast track and have been
doing a lot of progress. She didn't say but I got the feel that she
meant the awakening the light body and opening to channel courses. So
to keep even she's been doing the same so that we'll remain equal in the
development level. Not that she was upset or anything. just that I
had started doing that so she did also. I diffidently felt the sexual
desires, soul level not physical, but those are, temporarily, put aside
so to speak. Plenty of time later for that. like between soul and me.
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I did the 8th meditation of part 3 and running the energies went well.
The meditation was going to meet some beings of some sort of energy
grid. I saw and heard nothing. I could feel some energy being
exchanged, but could not feel them nor feel their presence at all. Just
the exchange of energy that was done at certain spots of the guided
meditation. So overall I'd say it went Meh.
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I asked guide briefly about my feelings this morning and the faint echo
of the feelings that has returned and he said something about energy
adjustment and transformation. I've been moving very fast, making quite
a bit of progress. and due to the energy adjustment and
transformation/exchange, unfortunately some side effects did happen. I
don't understand it but that is what I got.
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I did the 8th mediation of part 3 of awaken the light body for the 2nd time. It went well, very well. Running the energies and the visiting the gridwork beings. Orin mentioned something about the gridwork of the universal mind. No idea what that is, but I'm sure it'll be brought up later, or if not later when I buy the course on awakening your higher mind, later on.
The beings had me transmit love into the gridwork the first time I did the meditation, this time it was love, understanding, acceptance. I did my best. They did some work on me, the master that is. I did feel better and had an interesting experience being the master, feeling more expansive, larger? Not the right words but close enough. it was an interesting experience. as a result of his work on the gridwork of my mental body I do feel more energized, smoother, calmer, Something like that. a bit more expansive. towards the very end he helped me to feel more expansive myself, larger then this physical body. Interesting.
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I was doing some Qi Gong I modified for sitting while watching a bit of the Brony Show livestream channel. I could feel a lot of excitement coming from soul. i asked it what it was excited about. With Qi Gong I've gotten where moving very very very slow feels normal, I move so slow i have to breath more normal instead of one breath for the whole movement.
Anyway soul said it was excited about my development and progress. and that our monad contacted me. He didn't think I , we, were that close. He said I've really have made a lot of progress. and it said that the fact the monad contacted me is a big deal.
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I personally don't see or understand the big deal. Is it really a big deal? Is it cause 3 monad members contacted me? and have I made a lot of progress? it doesn't feel like I have. and why is it a big deal if 3 monad members contact you like they did me to say what I've put in the yourspace in previous posts. I use Monad since that is the term they used for themselves.
and is it a big deal if 3 monad members basically say I'll be a member before to long or soon, or sooner then I think. I wonder if I do channel 1 of them or more then one of them if that'll be a big deal,
Maybe odd of me but I don't see how it's a big deal or that I've made much progress, some progress yes, but a lot of progress? I don't' see it.
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