36 MONAD [7-23]

I've been feeling since I got home that my monad has wanted to say something to me so I thought I'd go ahead and channel to see what it is.  I suspect since while I was trying to do an awaken the light body meditation earlier they did say some things to me.  I'm sure they'll repeat it and answer some of my questions.  they were so distracting I cut that mediation short, thought it wasn't to productive anyway.  

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Ok, before you say what you want, why is it that the nodes meditation doesn't do anything or me?  <That is because it is just the 1 meditation only and Orin & Daben don't really go into it.  if they had several meditatons it would help and they do in at least 1 future course you do plan on taking.  If you were to do this 1 meditation say on days when you have time to do an extra meditation and can put the time aside it may, in a month or a few months, may start to do something for you.  it is ok if you do not wish to do this.  Put it aside if you wish to think about it.  I'll get it eventually, we do promise you'll understand, but it may feel totally different to you then a node, as they call it.  >

Ok, what was the stuff you wanted to say.  I've felt the leakages and I got some of it, but what is all of it?

<The odd feeling as you express it, that you've had since you fell on your had at the age of 12, just before you turned 13, basically did subtle brain, not quite damage, but basically to not go into over complicated and unnecessary detail, it let your 3d mind see that the earth is within a, what one could call a 4d hologram.  Not quite right, but this is the simplest way to put it, or a template on top of the physicality template, as you have refereed to it in some of your other typing in another thread.  The 'accident' was meant to happen so you would start to see that, feel really, how reality is.  That there is a real reality behind, so to speak, this one.  You can feel that. Many individuals are not like this.  They perceive things from only within the 4d hologram, not really a hologram, but that is a simple term for what it is.  To teach and describe what it really is you'd have to learn some very high level mathematics and physics, and invent some to fit in with it.  SO let's just call it a 4d hologram and leave it at that.

ou can perceive, feel, there is a reality outside this one that is the real one.  though this reality is as real as the physical body is, of course, to that this reality you're in isn't real, which you know.  Not like you're physchophrenic.  and you've not mentioned it to many since the ones in the world who could understand what you mean are very very few.  part of the reason is there is no words to explain the feeling.  it is normal and is more prevalent since your teen years since due to your present development you've reached a level where it is apparent to you.  if you had not had the 'accident' it would be like this but you'd not understand what it meant, whereas you do now.  And also due to the fact you, your energy, our energy, that makes us up, you up, is 100% totally alien to the earth.  You don't know, well don't remember really, the considerable intrauterine dna infusion we have had to do to ensure the pregnancy would continue, also having a bloodline that contained some reptilian, and other, dna as well as alpha draconian.  You could say your alien dna % is considerably high, mostly reptilian, with a slight bit of like mantid.  Though we highly doubt the scientists would detect it, since they don't know what to look for.  Not yet anyway.  But we had to do this since your and our energy that makes us up is so alien to the earth.  Even though part of your soul heritage is cetacean of the Beluga, dolphin, orca, varieties, to use earth terms, these are not anything like the ones on earth, as you know, since the pod is not of earth origin.  The earth cetaceans of beluga, dolphin, and orca are of what you could call a related species, say something similar to Denisovan or neanderthal, maybe chimpanzee, compared to homo sapien sapiens.

Also the difficulty was in your level of being.  you are, to put it frankly, around Gaia's level of being, hard to put into 1 human body, though you are a small percent of your whole being.  The details are unimportant, the exact percentage.  ANd the constriction you feel all the time is part of the incarnation process that most are not aware of.  think of it like, straps, ties, to keep you intermeshed into the human body, until it can not support the soul, which frankly will be like pulling a cork from a bottle, POP, is likely how you'll be, and due to this and the conditions on the earth, when the incarnation does end, which may be within a decade or less for the nearest exit point, you may find yourself feeling a bit tired and needing to sleep when you get home.  A natural process form some some need, especially those the most alien to earth.  Due to the conditions of the earth at this time and incarnating there.  Though you are empathic some of it has been, blunted, so you'd not feel the fullness of what it's like for others, otherwise you'd be able to feel the fear, anger, pain, of all those around you.  Also the light device does this also, as well as releasing light on a timed schedule.  A Sirius device.

Some of the problems you have, cold sensitivity, eyes being so sensitive to light, headaches sensitive to light, and other problems are from, your very high degree of what some would call alien dna, unavoidable due to our and your energy being so alien to the earth this is the only way we could do to let you incarnate there which was, still is, projected and planned to be your last incarnation anywhere since after this you expressed interest in focusing your being, hobbies, ect on strictly non incarnating things.  and there is an infinity of those.

As for Gaia's interest in you, you are basically her level as a being, natively, though not incarnated as a planet.  nearly at her level and her level is not super important since that is looking at the small details and it is not the first planet or stellar being incarnated as a planet or star to have interest in you.  Allura did first, she that is another world, or maybe she's a star, we'll let you discover that.

the reason your full soul memory is not poof available to you is your human brain and 3d matrix, can not hold your full soul memory and knowledge, due to how the human body is constructed and how fragile it is at present.

The shift is progressing wonderfully. Slow though it is due to various factors, unimportant to you to know that, but you've come across some bits of details.  The slowness does give many more time to adjust and though it is not progressing, perhaps, at the speed some may want, such as aliens walking around on earth openly in decade or less, as some want.  That likely will take much longer indeed.  But all things in their own good time.  Though foreseeing the future where the mass is involved is difficult since there are numerous possible futures, due to the actions of certain volunteers, and their names may surprise some who read this, earth has been deflected from the possible dark futures some wished it to go down.  But exactly which positive possible future will manifest, that is difficult to say, so only very general trends can be said.  The shift will continue to what some may call 4d, and so on.

We will talk again, we'll stop here since your forearm muscles are getting tired from all this typing & we have said what we want to say, but yes Gaia referring to you as a planetary stellar being, is right in a way, an over simplification, a being of stellar type light who isn't incarnated as a star.  That is indeed what you are in the beginning stages of, well actually past the beginning stages really but sorta of within them in a certain manner of speaking since your light is shining and present, your stellar type light.  Compared to say earth's sun, you are still in the beginning stages, but we'll stop here except to say you are doing very well and will continue to do so, keep on the path you have chosen, and entertain the thoughts if surprises to happen to suggest a faster more fun path.>    

So that is what they wanted to say.  I'll have to reread it and think about it.  I had to look up how to spell the Denisovan.  And extinct hominid.