I recall 2 dreams from last night.
the first one I recall, I recall having 3 large filled trash-bags in my apartment and they were tied up and closed. i recall thinking tomorrow morning I need to take those bags and toss them out.
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the other one was a bit odder. I recall a herm dolphin was complaining. something about they are not ready, I think meaning humans on earth are not ready for the shift, to release their negativity, to awaken, or a mix of those. Hir also something like I'm (this me typing this) is here to help with ??/ (I think the next bit was talking about some sort of energy that is around me that can help them, and the earth also. but they are not ready yet, though it so easy for them to release the negativity they are holding onto and awaken and move on.
Shi was frustrated and ready to just give up on the earth humans and just say whatever, they can have their darkness and negativity since they prefer that, others will be here to help them but I'm moving on. I've done my mission and others will take up similar missions in the future, or something like that. Shi then swam around in the floor like it was water, swam around pretty fast then did a jump like you see some dolphins do and when shi came down it was at my abdominal area with hir rostrum hitting first, followed by the rest of hir. i awoke when after shi had hit, and there was no pain or anything. i awoke around when shi was half way in the body. Hard to describe.
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Think maybe due to the meditation I did today, not sure why it would do this, or maybe it hapened on it's own, but I may be more balanced in my male/female selves, or whatever you call it. It is a new feeling that I'm getting use to. More use to it then I was this morning
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I did the 14th meditation for part 6 for the 1st time today. Starting tomorrow I'll be doing the 2nd pass then once I finish that I'll be redoing the meditations for the entire awaken the light body course over 35 days. Interesting and sorta exciting too. Then I"ll do the intuition course. Wonder what that'll teach & how I'll change & grow & evolve.
I ran the energies and it went well, though Daben didn't cover all the LB energy centers. He did the 1st one, then jumped to the 4th one and went through all the 7th, to the fullonia. He skipped the 2nd & 3rd LB energy centers as well as the mummin and the 2nd and 3rd light body centers too.
This dealt with the sphere of light structure that I felt yesterday and Daben mentioned. He called it the light body cocoon in this meditation. It went well. I could feel, like yesterday, that it had layers to it, as well as the whole space within the sphere was filled with light and there was the column or shaft of light where my spine is going up to the top of the light body cocoon out the bottom of my spine to the bottom of the light body cocoon.
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I guess my mates and whoever else has a hand in me having mates across as wide a variety of species/races as possible likely will do each will be a female or herm, with the male mates being an extra thing I think. Still not sure of all the reasons they are doing this but that is ok.
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Looking back over the awaken the light body course, and I've not fully finished it to me. To me I'll not have finished it really till I've done the 2nd pass and then gone and redone all the meditations again for all 6 parts.
Though even with that being the case, I have changed and grown a lot, maybe in ways I'm not sure of as of yet.
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I called my dsl provider to get a few things cleared up I wasn't sure about and through talking to them found out about a service that would give me internet at the same speed but would be cheaper, especially for the first year. after that when it goes back to it's normal speed it would be still around a dollar cheaper per month, so overall a nice savings.
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I do agree with the earlier thoughts that my mates may be mainly female and herms. It makes sense, if they want me to have offspring with them it is faster to have me have primarily have say 1 female or herm mate consisting of the various species & races they wish me to have offspring with. With males being more of an extra if they have a female already with that species.
I'm still getting use to this i'm balanced in my being in touch with both my female and male inner natures. before, think i said this, i was more like a male with a vagina, though my spirit or whatever body was a herm, I was still primarily male inside. Though I had a herm spirit body. Now with the same spirit body (or whatever it''s called, maybe a light body after I do some more light body courses) inside I'm both male and female. not sure if it'll remain that inside, so to speak, I'll have both male and female, or if those 2 will merge into a herm or androgynous nature. Guess I'll find that out in time.
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I think with this savings I may go for a more pricy light body course then the one I had planned to buy in August and start in September.
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I wonder if part if this may be due to my being, by my nature, a sensual, sexual being, at the soul level, as well as love being involved, & sharing love, pleasure, sort of thing. It also feels like, currently, my sex desire may be higher, though this may be the fact this is its true nature since it seems I'm in touch with both my male and female inner natures. Not sure if I'm phrasing that right or not, but its' the only way I can think to describe & phrase it.
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I did the 14th meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and running the energies went, though Daben left out the 2nd, 3rd, 5th and the 2nd and 3rd light body. It went great like before. This time I could not only feel all the light within the light body cocoon, I could really feel it and it felt like a new type of pleasurable sensation, as well as I could see it in my mind's eye, so overall it went great.
This marks the end. and I'm done with the first pass awaken the light body course. Starting tomorrow I start the 2nd pass of part 6. pretty exciting really.
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Things are going great for me in general and specific.
Also I am curious if this higher sexual drive and urge & desire is the real normal level since I'm in touch with my male and female inner selves, or whatever the term is. Or if that may change, if they do merge into a herm or androgynous inner self, or if they'll remain as male and female.
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With the extra money I may have this month. I think I may get the more pricy light body course I was planning on getting since the Radiance: self exciting, building the light body, course is the most pricy of the light body courses I plan on getting. Then I'll get a suggested non light body course of solar light , then the expanded version of the self exciting. I may also get the awaken the light body expanded course since that one doesnt' fit in anywhere. That would take about 4.5 months roughly to do all of this, including going back to redo it all over again, like I'll be doing with the awaken the light body over 35 days.
After that I think I may take my plan, intuition, higher mind, blending with my divine self courses. Those are not parts of a course officially, but those 3 do fit together and each does mention the other 2. Then the heart, throat, crown course, ect.
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It does seem that Maribelle is diffident trying to hook me up with her parents as potential mates. She said stuff like her mother has a very high sex drive, she is a very skilled lover, she taught her father how to properly pleasure a mare. She'll teach me all her special spots and I'll not be aware she's doing that.
She also mentioned her father and he's a good lover also.
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Shalamane (a positive royal alpha draconian mate) is also trying to hook me up with a relative of hers, her brother in this case. Saying he's a hunk, she wishes he was not her brother. His tongue is legendary. His lovers have told her that he hits all the right spots inside them. But he has no mates nor any children. She said she calls him Gar.
He then talked to me. he said I had a hot file. I didn't know there was a file on me. He then said said we'd have beautiful children together. NO hurry for us to have children since he wasn't in a hurry himself. Then he got a bit more erotic, saying he'd get to know my body, find all my spots so then he could alter a certain part of his body (he used the word but I'll not here) so it would hit my spots perfectly. He said he'd not been with a herm, and maybe a herm is what he was waiting for in a mate.
Guess it means more want to be mates with me.
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Kerria, my kirin mate, female mate, then was telling me and an online friend of mine that she has a relative that is a hot kirin stallion and she'd like to introduce him. She said he was a skilled lover and could pleasure me in all the right spots.
Interesting and it seems another perspective mate.
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I've not heard from Bill in a while. I tried to talk to him and he didn't respond. I tried talking to the tentacled being and he said Bill didn't wish to be my companion any more. Seems the impression thing didn't work out. Something about me being unique and changing and evolving a lot. He said we could try again later but till then he could fill the spot. and though he doesn't like to alter his shape or tentacles he would be willing to in this case.
Oh well, I guess that happens and he said it's rare, but it does happen.
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Though it didn't work out with bill, the rest of it went very well and I'm excited at the possibilities and changes today.
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