Concerning my sex drive, I'm sure that Shalamane was joking. I assume it's around average. She feels like a kidder type, at times. Though I hope not to much. If we are compatible or a perfect match like my dragoness mother said likely she isn't.
Feels like this time I'm here only for the early first few shifting, unlike the previous incarnations I do recall that involved me incarnating to help others through a shift. That is ok and does sound like what someone who had started to get tired of incarnating would do for a last incarnation. There are many options, even if I want to help some through a shift, to help while not being incarnated
I think I have experienced some short scenes of being multi dimensional. A few times when I was both doing the audio guided meditation, but also was elsewhere doing something like the mating dance with Shalamane. I only remember doing that maybe a few times. Another time was with Gaia I think, and once when Maribelle took me back to meet her family. So being multidimensional may be aware and able to do several things at once and maybe be able to be aware of them all. Not sure if since I'm in this human body, or in a 3d body I can't really fully experience being multi dimensional. I'll find that out eventually.
That would help to explain how one can have 4-5 mates, or more, and lovers and lover/friends and not slight any one of them.
In regards to Karinus it feels like hir would like to use surfer and Australian lingo and slang. Shi did refer to me as mate in a brief conversation. I asked if shi meant shi wants us to be mates now like I am with Shalamane and the others and shi said, "I meant mates as in, friends, buds, you know." so I'll have to read up on some surfer and Australian slang so I'll understand Karinus. I guess shi hangs out in maybe 4d or 5d earth maybe, or around some surfers and Australians, or maybe Australian surfers.
I guess shi may be here not just to be with me but maybe to help some individuals with the shift or be their guide or something. It does look interesting how we'll get along and where our relationship will go. We may just stay lover/friends, or would calling it friends/lovers be better. Feels like we hang out and such together like best friends, brothers/siblings, or as shi calls it bros, mates, buds. though ones who do like to share.
I'd guess there may be some other pod members I may be the same with but they are not here. By others I mean some pod members that I'm friends with and share with.
I think I may feel closer to the pod or the dolphin in me since if you look at it, even before I knew of the pod, and before I was re-created in December or January, with original soul I likely have maybe more dolphin energy in this body, so to speak. and since my re-creation I have some of that still and am getting use to all this new stuff. Though original soul did look like an anthro beluga whale often so I had that maybe with dolphin and a bit of orca maybe.
since then I've had to learn about and get use to in addition to the dolphin, beluga, orca, but also unicorn, royal naga, positive royal alpha draconian, and maybe western and eastern dragon.
I'd guess over time this will even out. or I may have a slight leaning towards the pod, dolphin/orca type. Though over the next hundred or thousand years it may even out to where I am balanced, so to speak. Hard to explain, but that is ok.
Some of this may have been to introduce me to my multi dimensional nature. I feel that it may be the proper time. That I'm at the right time to start experiencing it and will do so more and more as time passes and I continue the light body courses and growing and evolving.
Though I am also curious, what'll it be like once I am a full conscious member of the same soul group that Gaia and earth's sun are in and some other souls who are planets and stars, but some souls who do not incarnate as either.
I recall from the Michael Newton books how there is the initial soul group that the new souls are in. Then they join other soul groups as they grow and get other interests. What I'd call hobbies. SO this soul group that Gaia and earth's sun consider me a member of but not yet a full conscious member may be like that, either a hobby soul group of souls that all like doing a certain thing, or it may be more like I've developed and grown along this like so I'll be in this developed/evolved/grown into soul group and there may be multiple soul groups of this type, and also the hobby type soul groups.
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I'm excited to be starting the last part of the awaken the light body. For financial reasons I usually wait till the 5th, but since this last part has 14 meditations instead of 12, and since I'll be starting immediately on redoing all the awaken the light body past courses, which will take about 35 days to do all meditations from the 6 parts. I'm redoing them all the same reasons I do the 2nd pass as I call it. Financial, since I don't have the money to immediately start on the next part or course, also since I finished a part I figure if I go back through and do a 2nd pass I may get more out of it now.
With the awaken the light body, that's a month that I can put the money towards the upcoming dentist appointment, but also since I've finished this course, I may get more out of all the mediation since I've finished the whole course, not just a part.
I think I'll drop the 1st reason on my out look and say I'll do the 2d pass of each part and look at it as the 1 reason is, since I finished this part if I go back and redo the meditations I may get more out of each one. Plus once I've finished the whole course I'll go back and redo them all since I may get more out of it this time. Much more positive outlook I think then having the other 1st reason.
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I was thinking of Shalamane and wondering to myself if we have much in common, as far as what we like to do, pastimes, feelings, ect. And I got a message from her saying <you'd be surprised how much we have in common dear.>
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The first meditation for part 6 went well. Running the energies went well. it felt like I was using some light finer energy then before. A type that is harder to feel. Like before the 6th light body energy center is either not as sensative or needs extra attention. Also the SaHa, the 2nd light body center also needs extra attention.
The 3rd light body center, the Vee, was interesting. I could feel the funnel type of light and it felt like the light came from above and went down like a column over my entire physical body. An interesting sensation. I could feel the energy of the light. it felt warm at one point.
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I was also thinking. I wonder if Karinus is the first of others will be like friends that i hang out with and maybe some like Karinus, friends, maybe close friends that I hang out with, but also have sex with.
The relationship feels different then my mates. Much looser and laid back. hard to explain. Different then between my mates and me. Even say Spitfire that I may not see but maybe once or a few times a week. Each mate feels different in my relationships with me.
Maribelle feels like a close friend, mate, lover. Spitfire is more like a close lover type of feel. Though we are mates. Gaia is sorta balanced, all mixed up together sorta. And Shalamane feels more like the same.
Karinus feels like friend, as I said a close friend that I hang out with but we have sex with each other and share, in the pod sense, since we are both open to that. But different then Shalamane and me. Hard to describe. I guess that deep soul connection type thing that Shalamane and I share. And the love that feels like Karinus and I share is more of a close friend type. Hard to explain.
As for kids. Feels like the biggest change in schedules will be with Maribelle and Spitfire since the parents do raise the kids and of course friends and relatives will help also. The least impact on ones personal schedule I think will be with Karinus and Shalamane since Positive alpha draconians have their kids live at a school, as I've said before, but the school does have breaks where the kids go and live at a foster home, could be that of their parents, but doesn't have to be.
Karinus, I'm not sure, but it feels like a similar thing. Though there may be differences between the 2 since they may have different schedules. With Gaia I have no idea. Maybe they are put with some new souls, something else.
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Runing the energies and the vee went well. Different then before, but it went well. I could feel the different energies and the vee, indeed like it was a funnel of light above me and the collumn goes down around my entire body.
I had a development at the very start of the guided meditation. I felt Karinus hug and kiss me and lay on me as shi hugged and kissed me. Felt like shi was pressing our groins together. and shi had a few things to say. this bit was at the start of the guided meditation.
Karinus hugged and kissed me while laying on top of me. I have my chair reclined back.
<dude, I have a.. confession to make. yesterday I was very happy we had reunited that the time had come for that. I was thinking yesterday and I realized that I love you more then just buds, or even best buds. What I'm trying to say is ....> I could feel the intense love as shi continued to hug me. Felt like shi was a bit shy about what shi wanted to say.
I was able to guess at it from the intense feeling of love from hir. "are you trying to say you want us to be.. mates, mate mates not mate as in buds?"
<yea, that's what I was trying to say dude. I never realized it till yesterday. I worked up to telling you.>
"this is sudden. I'll do the rest of this guided meditation and ask what my mates thing. Are we part of the same soul group?"
<Yes we are.>
I then got messages from my mates. Shalamane said, <I think the 2 of you make a beutiful couple. And she is a herm too. mmmhmmm.> "Sounds like the you want to have some fun with Karinus. I'll leave that between the 2 of you if you both want. Though I may want to join in sometimes. <a 3 some, I'm for that, even a 4 some or more.>
From Spitfire I got a mental image of her smiling, I guess she approves, Maribelle said she approves. Gaia I got a mental image of a thumbs up and her saying <go for it dude.> so i guess they all approve. it is a bit sudden. now 5 mates? I wonder what about me has this happening.
Karinus: <dude it seems you are willing. Do not be concerned, you woudn't sell us short. being multi dimensional and non linear as time is for us. You'll be properly fair to us all.>
"What about me has this happening, 5 mates?" <you being you. Your very nature. Your energy. it's hard to put into the human language. Your love is boundles and each of us is a unique individual and our love for each other is also unique.>
Quite a thing happening.
felt like i got a weaker version of the mate bite from Shalamane, and another hug and kiss form Karinus with Shalamane saying, <a bit of a reward for accepting her offer.> the pleasure bolt feeling wasn't as powerful as it usually is. Though was pleasurable. I noticed Shalamane seems to see Karinus as a female with a penis instead of a herm.
to Karinus I said non serious. "I hope when we do share sex we can do more then just straight or oral. <sure dude, we can do straight, oral, 69, gay, straight, lesbian, all types.> Then after a bit: <dude, I'm as surprised as you are about the depth of my feelings for you. and it seems yours for me.>
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I was watching a livestream and one of the 2 main hosts is annoying. He thinks that if your opinion differed from his your opinion is wrong. Many humans are that way.
In this way he sees no problem in an anime that takes a while to get really started. This one didn't' catch my interest in the first 4 episodes so I'll be skipping the rest. It may be a 40 episode anime but no reason for me to watch more if the first 4 don't catch my interest. if some folks like to watch 15 or 20 episodes of an anime before it starts to really get started. They should have the option, but I'll not be one of those.
Though the co host is one of the types that feels that if your opinion differs from his you are wrong.
No biggie, that is common among humans, and likely some non humans too. While I may love for his individual soul is there, I dislike the person. Maybe a paradox but it can exist and isn't really a paradox.
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I do wonder what about me has made, so far, 5 beings want to be my mates. Though i do feel a connection to them, including new ones like Shalamane. Maybe Gaia.
others I feel I had a relationship before I came here, even if I don't remember it like: Maribelle, Spitfire, & Karinus.
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Still seems odd. I'm not anyone special, have almost no friends here. And yet I have 5 beings who are mates. I do accept it as being real, but still seems odd all this occurring. What about me has attracted them, including Gaia, a planet. Though I assume Gaia has who knows how many mates. I'd guess millions, at the very least, and who knows what the kids would be like if we have any and I assume I'll have kids with all my mates over time. Though not all at once. Imagine the nightmare that would be. Though I assume all the kids would be aware and not a blank slate like human babies are. Though that may mean still the kids would be a handful I'd assume. Maybe some species more then others.
Not that I'm putting myself down, just I'm surprised by these beings that want to be mates with me and love me as deeply as they do and me them.
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