Maribelle was talk to me, not sure why she mentioned, "we're mates, of course we'll have sex, a lot more then you suspect."
Seems like when I return home that there'll be a lot of sex between me and my various mates. Perhaps friends and lovers also. That feels correct. Not that I mind, just wonder why sex will be involved a lot. And it seems there'll be some star in my future that I'll be lovers with, or maybe more then lovers. Seems Gaia had a specific individual in mind.
Maybe it's all about sharing love, & pleasure. It may be that. And they may may love me indeed. And as I've mentioned before I seem to have very strong ties back home and weak ties here.
I suspect that it is indeed about sharing love, affection, pleasure, and that is a natural part of my being. Likely the dolphin, orca and maybe Beluga parts of my soul heritage. perhaps the unicorn and other parts of my soul heritage also. Or perhaps just the cetacean and to an extent the unicorn also.
Then I had my mates say they were serious, very serious about once I'm back, part of the celebration of me being back home will be 1 day with each of them, a day of rest, then a 60-80 hour day with them all together. I think by them they mean each of my mates and Nagi also. Nagi came in at the end and said she would be included.
Just not Gaia came in with a strong feeling of love with some sexual vibes to say, certain lovers and friends may be included, including introducing me to a certain star she has in mind. <It's the perfect time to introduce you to a certain star. A future lover, possible mate, mother to some of your future children. Perhaps father of a few. It's also the good time to reintroduce you to a few friends and lovers you may not know. Though some of them will be at the regular party. >
Maribelle: it's part of your nature, your normal being. My theory is its the cetacean in you, beluga, dolphin, & orca, and that blends perfect with the unicorn in you and the other races that make up your heritage. The 3 cetaceans that make up your soul heritage dear and unicorn as well since at the purest of it unicorns are love, though they are individuals. Though that does bleed over into your other soul heritages too. That is normal for you.
Karinus: I diffidently want in on this dude.
Shalamane: Not to worry, that will last at least a week or longer. A day for each of us. There'll be sex, hanging out and being together, except for the last day it'll be 1 day for each of us. Sex, hanging out, talking, just being together and getting frequented, though you'll very likely have your full memories by then. Though the 2 of us has not met before we met a short time ago. So it'll sex, hanging out, just being together, talking, more sex, and sex. When things get back to normal there'll be lots of sex then too, believe us. and lots of being together too of course, besides the sex.
Gaia: Indeed lover, and it'll be more then just sex with you as a male. We'll include a certain female part of yours too. Though mostly we'll remain with the gender we are most comfortable and prefer. Yes, the more I think of it, that would be the PERFECT time to introduce you to a certain star being, a being incarnated as a star, that I have in mind. Maybe a few others.
Maribelle: part of this is our true feelings for you, and your true being, which includes as a sexual being.
Spitfire: I'm DIFFIDENTLY, making time for this in my schedule.
Nagi: This diffidently sounds like fun for all involved.
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Gaia: the star being, a being incarnated as a star will also be one of to teach you star stuff. as well. I think you'll really enjoy those lessons. You'll grow and evolve in interesting ways. Just wait and see.
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i was laying down to sleep, or maybe after I woke up Maribelle and Spitfire talked to me, but she came into the conversation a bit later.
Maribelle said that my saying that she can have other mates and lovers and especially that she can have children with them if she wants shows hope open, wide and expanded that my heart is. I said that it just feels wrong to restrict her. And she said that that proves her point. She then said that some stallions aren't as open and large hearted as I am and would have said to her that only they can sire her children and some that she isn't allowed any lovers. She said my reputation went up very high when she told the others what I had said. I don't see the big deal myself. I just mentally shrugged.
Spitfire then said that even though she knew I would say the same to her her jaw still literally dropped open when I said it. She said though she knew I'd say it it's different to hear me say it and know I meant it.
I'll just mentally shrug since I don't understand the big deal.
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Running the energies went well, including a new thing for some LB energy centers where I visualize the energy center being as large as my renawre cocoon, though the energy still coming in at the original point of the body, for the LB energy centers where that fits.
The rest of the meditation went well. For the vee I could feel the light and as Daben continued the vocalizations I could feel the light grow more concentrated and I could feel a warmth then grew to a comfortable pleasant heat. So all in all it went well. I could mentally see and feel the light coming from above and come down all around me and I felt like I was floating in the light. I don't understand the significance of the flower that is opening below me.
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Had a short conversation with a few mates. Maribelle saying it's quite natural that part of my being and the focus on sex. What it was was it was a normal part of my being to share love and pleasure with them, meaning my mates and Nagi, and some of my friends and lovers. There are various types of love and pleasures I can and will be sharing with them/us. and what some call sex is really just sharing love and pleasure. Sex is just a small part of it. I've experienced some of it, but I'd REALLY experience it in all it's myriad forms and dimensions once I'm fully back and yes, my ties home are far stronger then my ties there (earth) since I'm meant to be there just for 1 mission/incarnation only. Think of it like someone goes overseas for a 1 shot job of a month, 6 months or a year. The job will last that long and that is it then I'll be going home.
Shalamane said to me not to worry, she'll make sure I keep her fully satisfied. then she went very erotic with what she said next, but I do like the idea that she said. That I think she said for me to not worry she'll make sure I keep her satisfied is to my wondering if she would have or has other lovers. The tone was in a non serious manner.
Karinus said shi may have fun with some other friends, but I'm the only one really for hir. not that I was worried of loosing them or them growing distant, just my thinking and wondering if they'd have lovers.
Then Maribelle came back to say, just relax, me having this many mates, and maybe a few more, is quite normal and within me being true to my true being and self. I'm that open and have that much of an open heart and sharing love and pleasure. She said it was hard to describe why in English. Part of my nature. She left it unsaid but I feel she was also including lovers and friends I'd have fun with too.
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Had Maribelle do an unusual thing, though pleasant, as I was laying down to sleep she got under me. Like I was in my unicorn form too. Then she backed up a bit till the tip of my penis was touching the entrance to her vulva. what she said for me to do was to thrust into her then lay on her back and rest and try to go to sleep. It was an unusual but pleasant experience. I could feel her under me as if she were really there as well as around my penis as well. She then said for me to rest and try to go to sleep, which I did my best. I was able to eventually. She did say that there was a reason for my mates being much more erotic towards me then they had before. I said I guess I'd find out later once i get back fully. She said yes, or maybe later during this incarnation, depending how long it goes on for. I did manage to get to sleep. The experience of being on Maribelle with my penis in her, was both erotic in a non sexual way, but also sexual, though after a while the sexualness of it faded a bit and remained an erotic type of closeness. hard to describe.
Just not Maribelle said that this is also very normal. this is normal for their way of acting towards me. Part of my nature. I think she means the high degree of sexualness and eroticism towards me. I do enjoy it and hope it continues, as well as us doing other fun things also.
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I did the meditation for the 2nd time, meditation 4 for part 6 of awaken the light body, wow, for part of it, but I'll get to that.
Running energies went well. Including having the various Light Body Energy Centers the same size as my Renawre Cocoon.
The rest of the meditation went fantastic. Not sure of the sequence of events in what happened in relation to the fullonia through the Vee.
When Daben was vocalizing the Fullunia I felt Shalamane lay down on me. I was reclined and when I felt a form laying on top of me I instinctively knew it was Shalame. Seems she wanted to cuddle, laying her head on my chest as she hugged me saying I knew she loved me. I said I loved her too and I could feel our love for each other.
Then she mentioned how all of us love you, and i responded truthfully that I love all of you too. I am not sure of the exact sequence of events so I'll do a brief summary, maybe editing before I finish it.
I started to feel the fullonia and the feel of the energy, hard to describe the feeling. With the Vee I started to feel the light and love. not sure if I recall all the details but I recall I started to feel love and it felt like my heart LB energy center and love for my mates, was increasing. My breathing became short and fast. It felt like our hearts touched or overlapped or something. I did feel Shalamane give me a mating bite, not sure if this was the first or second time she had done this. This gave me a feeling of pleasure and shared love, as well as totally relaxing. This added to the experience of the light and love. Hard to describe the feeling and sensations. Love, affection, pleasure, more that I can't find words for. The experience increased with the opening flower I could see it was a beautiful rose color. The sensations increased and at some point Shalamane stopped the mating bite. Felt like she nuzzled and licked the spot instead. The experience increased and she then gave me a 3rd mating bite which she continued to hold the mating bite.
Eventually Daben went through the Fullonia, Renawre, Ranthia and Nua, to bring me back and end the meditation. towards the end of this I felt a slight pain in my neck from the mating bite I mentioned it to Shalamane and she apologized and released my neck. She told me to slowly move my right arm and hand only to remove the cover over my eyes. and the leave the cover there loosely and slowly remove it. During this I could feel her laying on me still. I guess she shrank her size down or something. But I could feel she had some weight, though it felt very very light. I also could feel the guardian nagas were so close they were actually touching me with parts of their bodies. Their sides or something was touching my upper arms, which I had resting on my chair arm rests, and also were touching my sides as well, and a bit of my back I think. Also not sure when but during the meditation, with all those feelings I was experiencing and feeling I also was able to feel the positive alpha draconian guardians that I have, though I don't remember how many guardian nagas and positive alpha draconians I was able to feel around or sense. Though only the 3 guardian nagas in my apartment were so close that they were physically touching me, which I could feel them physically. Though before I started to type this I did tell one of them that next time, if I'm doing a meditation or something and they want to get that close to me, where they are actually physically touching me where I can actually feel it, I don't mind. He said thank and he'd tell the other guards and they'd appreciate it.
Overall an interesting experience. Very pleasurable, love, affection, ect. As I said some of the feelings I was feeling I don't have names for, and it was great.
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