Last night as I was laying down to sleep Nagi's twin flame popped up to briefly talk and mostly to share sex with me, first straight with me as the female, then a 2nd session with gay sex with me receiving. The mental image I got of him was human looking from the waist up and snake from the waist down. Not sure if he did that since this is earth, if he's normally like that, or is a variety of naga. Not that the details matter really. Also sounded like he had a pretty deep mental voice. Most of the time when I talk to someone I do hear my mental voice but instinctively know it's not me. I do get distinct mental voices, but not to often. I think now that I think about it, with my mates I get a mix, and sometimes it's half mine and have not my mental voice. I think with my soul parents too it's like a mix. I found him as hot as my other mates including my monad. Karinus also popped up, but like some of my other mates do some nights, it's just to talk a bit and pretend to lay in bed as I try to go to sleep. I doubt they stay long since when I wake up the 1st time they are gone, not that I mind, who would really want to just hang around all night when they don't need to sleep, or if they do it's less and on a different schedule. Likely if they do need to sleep it's whenever they feel tired.
Nagi's twin said that indeed Shalamane had approached him to be lovers with me & he said he technically turned her down so that we could try being mates since as he said, which makes sense, if that works out great, if not we can always switch that to being lovers instead.
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I did the 9th meditation of part 6 of awaken the light body and running energies went well. Very well. The point in this meditation was to journey to the nodes, whatever those are. I've no idea what nodes are, I should read the manual that came with the digital course. Though part of the reason maybe all of it, I didn't experience much was for much of the Vee part my monad talked to me a bit. Though I don't mind. They had stuff to say and likely thought that was an excellent way and I'll recreate their conversation below as well as channeling them too. Overall though it went well except I didn't experience any nodes, unless being able to talk with one's monad is a node.
<Think I"ll put channeling 30 in a separate bit instead of here.>
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The Thursday rpg group went well. Though there was once where for 3 seconds it felt like my monad, and I instinctively knew it was them, was licking my, and I'm a bit shy to mention it, but for around 3 seconds roughly it did feel like they were licking across the entrance to my vagina, the vulva I think it's called. No idea why they did that, maybe a bit of teasing fun. it was a spot where my concentration wasn't needed. it felt fantastic but I was able to not change my expressions at all.
Then later on someone, I suspect either Maribelle or Spitfire, sent me a mildly erotic image. I guess a teasing fun sort of thing. I really do enjoy that and it really is fun. I'm sure none of my mates would do that during a time when I would need to concentrate, or perhaps I could concentrate past it.
It does make me curious what the future may hold and looking forward to going home. And also thinking what they said about there are reasons that I have weak ties to earth. And as for having my monad and what some may call my soul, the part of me not incarnated, as mates, that feels normal to me and not at all odd. same for having Nagi and TF as mates and Nagi's twin flame. Fun looking future, fun, learning, growing, evolving. Very and totally positive.
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I did the 9th meditation for part 6 and running the energies went very well. The main meditation took an interesting turn. i could concentrate on what Daben was saying and was experiencing that, but also it felt like some of my mates were taking turns to tease me sexual, in a fun sexual sensual way, but also another being that I"m to bashful to talk about here. Wonder if it, no idea of it's gender, or maybe it has both. Wants to be mates with me or not, what species it is or if it is sentient, I assume it is. I may try to channel it with my dragoness soul mother or monad to find out what, and maybe may keep that private if it's to embarrassing, but that is ok. Didn't feel like one of my mates shapeshifted, though some of them were doing things also. Hard to put it into English or 3d thinking.
maybe a taste of being dual dimensional, or able to experience both the guided meditation, but also the sensual sexual pleasures 1 or more of my mates were doing to me, a fun thing they were doing. It did feel like I diffidently was in some other state of consciousness, not waking, nor close, but I was fully conscious of the body, or at least Daben's voice and not sure if I was aware of my physical body or not.
Wonder what the state of consciousness I experienced was, maybe 4d, 5d, or 6d, or a taste of that. I'll not fuss over details, though I am curious.
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I do feel that part of my nature or the core essence is say pleasure, sharing love, affection, pleasure. And not just pleasure or sensual but what do I find the most fun, what excites me the most. What would bring me the most pleasure. that feels like being true to my nature. Sex is included in this but really just a small part of it. And not really having sex here, the sex is for back at my homes, not here. Or while I'm her with my non incarnated mates, or Gaia, which is an incarnation, but it's different with her, she's not incarnated as a human as far as I know. Even if she is, our mateship, and sharing is with either her core self or an aspect of hers, or both.
Now I think all souls have this as a basis, it's just for each individual to discover, what do they enjoy doing the most, what brings them the most fun. for some it may be doing math, or other things.
i wonder if this may be one of the reasons
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I wodner if my mates will be different dynamics. Like some may be permanant. SOme may be a cycle thing like they have an incarnation where they are mates with me. But the incarnation will end at some point then I may have to wait for their next incarnation, or we can keep in contact and still be mates.
Others may be where they prefer being monogamous, but love say 2 or 3 folks so they may take turns being mates with each person in turn. So they may be mates with me very other or every 3rd incarnation.
Within the earlier or 2nd ideas I've mentioned. Some may remain in incarnating as mainly 1 species. Others may change species, or be mainly 1 species and try others out. Or stay within a type, like always or mainly reptilian, insectoid, ect.
I may have 1 that is mates with me say for an incarnation, then spends 1 away from me to reach other folks, like be a teacher or doctor for another incarnation, able to reach some they would not as a mate of mine.
Another idea I had is maybe 1 may be mates with me, between incarnations so to speak. So the dynamics of my mates may be different, then all my mates being permanant and static. Though I do hope at least some are permamant. I'd not be surprised if some are not. I may even have 1 that keeps changing species for incarnation, visiting past species maybe.
And I do still think, if my monad and others do wish me to have mates with as many varied species and races as possible. and they want many offspring also. I don't understand this, I do accept it. Though I do think I'll likely be a father 90% of the offspring. Just a guess. it may be above 90%.
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I am happy I reached whatever state of consciousness or dimension or density where I was able to directly experience my monad. I typed up what I could remember right after it before. Now I do remember more. The being and I were sharing all sorts of pleasure, that some may call sex, but was us sharing pleasure and sex based pleasure. And it did say to me <future mate> like I think I mentioned and my monad mentioned.
I was able to also experience my monad and talk to it, sending concepts when Daben would pause. The conversation was very very brief. Mainly I could feel it was happy that I had reached this level, dimension, density, state of consciousness or whatever it was. I did say to it though I'd like to reach this level again I'd not seek it. if it happens great, if not that is ok. I did also feel the monad sent a concept to me that I would, one day, be able to exist at that state, dimension, or whatever, all the time. That one could say that was one of my goals. I'd be equal to the monad, a full member, but an individual also, at the same time. I am already a member, but not fully conscious of being the monad, but also an individual.
As I recall it felt like one day that would be my native level, but I'd continue to also live at sasy 4d or 5d+ and be with my mates, friends, lovers, at those levels and do various hobbies, royal duties, ect. But I could visit that when I wanted and it would be one of my homes.
Not sure if the experience was time compressed. it may have been a 1 for 1 type of time. or maybe it took up 30 minutes and the meditation itself took up, at that point, maybe 18 minutes, so maybe some time compression, or maybe it wasn't. Doesn't really matter.
as Monad said, and it said to me while I was there, at least some of my mates would be native to that level. As well as lower levels. and it'll help them to learn, my mates will learn and grow. They and I'll help others to evolve, grow and learn, ect.
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