Had quite the happening this morning. A little after I awoke, I had Karinus say to me if I remember how shi said she wanted kids with me but could wait, no hurry. Well shi said shi's changed hir mind and really wants to have a kid with me now. Shi said shi was surprised by the desire but it has risen up. Shi did confirm that the kids are sent to a school, though the parents are part of the kid's life too. It didn't seem to be like with humans where the kids are with the parents all the time. Though it does make sense the species would have different ways, that and the kids will be aware, not starting at a blank slate like humans do.
I got a mental image of hir rubbing hir belly and sighing a bit, mentioning shi was imagining caring our pup or pups. Shi was open to us having twins if I was. I'll leave that up to hir since I am open to that. Just thought all this would wait till after this incarnation is over. As well as I was not sure I could even father any kids, being still incarnated in a body.
I talked it over with Gaia and she mentioned that the shark collective wants to have kids with me. part of it is my higher inner light and the fact I have so many species as part of my heritage, I have many gifts and if I were to have kids with the shark collective it would help it to evolve and grow and the hybrid children would have gifts that single shark beings may not have or may not realize they have.
Gaia said yes the shark collective is a separate consciousness and being. She said it was hard to describe. it, they, it, since it is both genders and at times sees itself as both 1 being and 2, male & female. She said it's hard to describe a collective being. They sort of exist outside dimensions and densities, but also within. She then said that it would be a diffident advantage having the shark collective on my side. Gaia did say that Karinus's desire to have kids with me is hir own desire, but that has awoken the shark collective to wanting this as well. Gaia did say it's hard to describe a collective, as she has mentioned before.
I tried and did get the shark collective. It felt sentient but a bit primal. I asked and it did say yes it is a subset of source, like I am a subset of source. It kept switching between I and us. It did affirm that yes it wants to have kids with me. But unlike Karinus it is willing to wait, so do not take to long to finish incarnation, maybe I can not wait that long. Then it said it considered me part of it's collective, though I was not really a shark, honorary shark it called me. not sure what that means. Then it finished the conversation with saying part of sealing bargain is having kid with Karinus but it (the collective itself, or the female part of it) wants to have kids with me too, that is part of bargain too.) so stuff I wasn't expecting. Gaia did say that yes Karinus and I can have a kid even though I'm still incarnated.
I guess like Gaia said the shark collective may want to have kids with me since the higher light I have may help it to evolve and grow and the species that are part of my soul heritage the kids would inherit some or all of those. I wonder if that would set up an alliance between the collectives. Then the shark consciousness contacted me as I typed the above to say <you have kid with Karnus seal bargain, shark guardians> I felt it meant if I seal the bargian I seem to have with it by having a kid with Karinus I'll have shark guardians, feral sharks and maybe biped ones, not sure, I felt diffident feral sharks. Guess it really wants to.
I've no idea how I can have any kids with Karinus, I guess its' possible somehow. and i have really no idea how the shark collective consciousness and i can. I guess its' possible somehow. But I think if Karinus really wants to this badly I'll agree since I don't want to deny hir, it is a real desire. and though I'm sure I'd be a terrible father it's not like being a human father. Gaia seems willing and Shalamane is. Maribelle and Spitfire are ok with the idea of me and Karinus & since they are ok with it I do agree. Though I've no idea what'll happen. Doubt I'd have a kid around me all the time as if I were to marry a human and have a kid with her. This feels more like a soul level thing then an earth human level thing. Hard to describe. Still a rather lot of things happening this morning.
Not sure which mate, maybe Spitifre, I got a message from saying <do it.> as far as having a kid with Karinus. I wonder if this'll make my other mates decide they want to have a kid with me now too.
Forgot to say. The shark collective consciousness felt fully sentient, but more primal, if that makes any sense. Felt like certain areas one really can't talk to it about since it wouldn't understand. Not sure if I was getting that right or not.
Also earlier I talked to Karinus about how hir species has kids and shi said shi could just lay an egg similar to how some sharks do, but most of hir species, or at least nearly every herm and female that shi knows prefers to carry the children since it feels more intimate. Shi said it's similar to how the pod females do that and mammals, but not the exact same way.
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I did the 2nd meditation for part 6 of the awaken the light body course. Running the energies went well. Forgot to mention that the gm sent me a text that the rp for today was canceled due to not enough players. Running the energies I noticed that I don't need to flex a certain muscle that I was doing. Not sure if I never needed to or I've gotten good enough at running the energies that I don't need to anymore. Think I"ll keep doing this to see if I develop better skill at doing it this way. I had noticed that vocalizing and mentally vocalizing the sounds for each light body energy center and light body center is not needed.
It also diffidently felt like the heart, throat light body energy centers are at least the size of my renawre cocoon. maybe the 6th LB energy center too. Think I may do a short running the energies to test these out. If more LB energy centers are the size of my renawre cocoon and any LB centers as well as any how well not flexing the muscles goes for the first 3.
In the rest of the meditation I could feel the energy and warmth of the Vee, the 3rd LB center, like a funnel or cone of light above my head forming a column of light that went down and around my body and within it. With the vocalization Daben was doing I felt like I was floating on the light with light all around me, warm light.
During part of it where Daben was talking and not vocalizing I had I guess Future Karinus send me a message that the birth went well and the babies are doing well. Then a bit after that the daughter I guess she is, sent me a message saying that Karina I think it was. I didn't expect any of that. I told her mentally that I loved her too and she should return to the future and I'd have the pleasure of meeting her for the first time in my future.
overall it went well and unexpected things happened.
Almost forgot that during part of it the current Karinus was saying, 3 days ago shi never would have thought shi'd be like this. Shi said 3 days ago shi was excited since it was almost time, time was approaching for hir to reunite with hir best bud. They'd be together again, or as much as they could be with 1 of them incarnated here. That it was going to be radical. Shi never suspected then that in just 3 days that would happen and shi'd want to be mates with me let along wanting to have children with me and be carrying them. A rather radical big turn of events, shi said. Shi also commented that shi could feel the higher inner light that I have, that the 2 kids she's carrying have inherited that as well. Shi seemed to switch between the 80's, surfer, Australian slang/terms/expressions and non slang/terms/expression.
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I was thinking about it. I think the way the race work is say someone was born as a pleiadan, then with some or many after say 300 years or however many years, they may start to get bored and think they want to be a lyran for a while. Some may just stay a pleidian and change their hobbies. Some would let the body die, which I think will just dissipate and I think most races are not a set exit points like humans have here (yuk with that, having to wait) but they can just pick. I'm bored with being a pleidian now and let the body die and dissipate. then they may go on to be a lyran.
Part of it also is one can be an en-souled being and manifest a body for themselves. So it does make things a bit more complected and blurred the issue too.
Another part of my having so many soul heritages I think is not just that other species may benefit by being able to inherit some or all of them, and I have various gifts, that I don't consciously know of yet. But if I say get bored or want a break from my positive royal alpha draconian life, I don't have to let any body die, I can just say, for a week I'll go and live as a pod member as a dolphin. Then I can decide, I'll go and live as a royal naga for a few days. then I could go on to something else or go back to being a positive royal alpha draconian.
Though I suspect I may still have guards of some sort around during this. Maybe dolphin or orca guards or they may be super stealthy and remain mostly unseen and undetected unless needed to act.
I wonder if I'll have my own palaces, do the nagas and positive alpha draconians even have palaces for their royalty, or is it whatever sort of house you want. Guess I'll find out sooner or later. it may be that I'd just have as a part of my home a few rooms or a suite or floor of my dragoness mother's place.
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Almost forgot to put down that Karinus had told me an hour or 2 ago that when shi got back home, a short time after that some official popped up to give hir official congratulations on the successful conception. Shi said shi was surprised and not expecting anything like that. I feel the same. Also forgot to put down that shi said she could feel that the conception happened a second or so after I felt a huge surge of energy and a bolt of pleasure, though it did feel like my senses were still dulled, likely by being in a body that is so dense like this. I do wonder how an official, and what sort of official, would now and pop up to give hir congratulations. No biggie I guess.
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While I was reclined back in my chair before my nap I had Gaia come, surprisingly in a human form. She gave me a hug and a kiss, which I could distinctly feel. we talked a bit in only a half serious fashion. She did joke that maybe she would't wait a million years to have a kid with me.
Then Karinus started talking. Shi talked about how shi was very horny and hir mother had warned hir about that. That shi may have the same problem hir mother did. from what Karinus said hir mother has that problem, being very horny and the only solution is to have sex with her mate, the father of the child or children she's carrying. I visualized having sex with Karinus in my anthro dolphin form. Felt like shi orgasmed 3 times. once or twice felt like I could feel hir clamping on my penis. I do recall once i could physically feel it. then shi said that I had manged to quench the fire within hir. Shi then gave me oral. I could feel quite a bit of energy at my groin, like energy was going back and forth. After shi was done it felt like my sexual desire was fully satisfied, and I had more energy then before we started doing this.
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I was thinking a bit while pacing in my apartment. I wonder if any of the guardian nagas follow me around or just position themselves so they can watch me as I pace. Anyway I was thinking and I think I got some more soul knowledge in.
I think the way it works is let's say if Joe is a Lyran. I've no idea of the lifespan. But let's say after 600 or whatever years as a lyran doctor Joe gets tired, lets the body die, the body dissipates like some on star wars. Then he may take a vacation, then decide he wants to be a Arcturian engineer. And so on, changing species. Either among all of them or he may decide, he likes these 3 or 5 species.
Another soul, say Jim, may stay with just 1 species, say Treb's race. But each one may be different. This one may be say a doctor. The next one may be as an engineer. but always within 1 species.
I also feel, maybe this is only available at higher densities. Maybe only 6+, 5+, I've no idea. But someone else could stick with just 1 body. Say me. I could say be tired of being a royal naga/positive royal alpha draconian, and i can just go and live as a pod member for a while. A unicorn, orca, dolphin, ect for a while. Then come back. Still progress through spiritual growth, going down to lower densities to help others, and growing myself, ect, but not switching lives.
I think some friends may do the same. Others may switch species with each livespan. So say I may have a friend Joe, and he is a pleidian for now, but he was a Lyran before, and he's thinking of being a arcturian next. So that may complicate things.
I honestly doubt I'd switch like some do. I do feel and know that if you want you can keep a body alive, like in the 20's, effectively forever. Not sure if this is available at 4+, 5+, or only at certain densities or dimensions and up.
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I felt an influx of love from some other source. I'd guess maybe my soul family, mates, maybe friends I don't recall, Nagi, soul, ect.
I got a mental message from first Shalamane and then my unicorn mother. The basic message was they do want me back there, but they and I have to wait. Though I think it was my unicorn mother who said within 10 years, though maybe she should not have said that.
My unicorn mother and I further talked a bit and my current mates may remain with me forever. But also 1 or more of them may incarnate as other races, changing from time to time. or we may grow apart since forever is a long time. Though She did say all of them may remain with me forever, or some may. or it may be that we are mates now and maybe would be more like lovers later.
I did mention that if any did drift apart and we changed over time, I'd get new mates and lovers and she said yes. I do agree, forever is a very long time. Change will happen. a million years from now I may have all the same mates, some different mates or even totally different mates. or more then i have now.
Then I talked to Shalamane a bit. She was saying she could increase her lifespan indifferently and with me around she would consider it. with us together she would use the techniques available to her to increase her lifespan indifferently, maybe even forever. Healing, energy work, and other things. She was a bit vague. i guess there are either many ways and or she didn't want to go into details.
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Some more of my soul knowledge/memories. They do indicate I'm here just for this 1 time for this part of the shift. Since extra help was needed. I disliked the idea of coming here (not counting the original timeline where I had no say really), but the help was needed. I don't think I'll incarnate on any-world similar to earth, nor incarnate at all.
I think I"ll just do what excites me and is fun. Doing the duties and responsibilities, whatever they may be, that my dragoness mother is sharing with me. Being a royal naga and positive royal alpha draconian. And being a pod member and the others, being with my mates, friends, lovers, children.
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