Dream I had last night: I was in my house. A tiny dog like a chihuahua was barking a lot. I patted her on the head to tell & reassure her she is doing a good job. I go to check the other room she had been barking in , maybe it was a bed room, not sure. It had a sliding door that was open and there was a gy on a ladder. Says he is here from my internet company to do some minor repairs. i ask something like "oh yea, my new Coleman DSL", and he agrees, but I made up the company and then knew he is lieing. I say this, admitting I made up the company name and I don't have DSL but other type of high speed internet, Then there is no ladder and he is standing before me. I say something like I'm going too fight him, forgot ifi I mentioned the police or not. He took out a knife and I say that doesn't change anything and i'll still fight you, but you can leave now and i'll not say anything. he said it would be a crime of not reporting a crime in a few minutes after he left. I do say I can't run more then a block so if he goes over the back fence even if I do follow and chase you after a block I'll have to stop since I can't run past that. About less then half a block we are in a swamp sorta setting and he gets grabbed by all sorts of reptilian beings, dragons, reptilian nagas, anthro reptilian types and gets pulled into something, or maybe torn apart. I do find his lower half that is still twitching. This entire dream I was totally calm about everything happening.
No idea what the dream could mean. maybe it's just gibberish stuff. Maybe I have no more guardian nagas around, maybe my dragoness mother took way the titles and power she was sharing with me, or the guardian nagas are not in dreams or can't be there but the reptilian beings may be either the stealth guardian type that I have, and or maybe my reptilian nature and the invader or whoever it is, was torn to pieces, no idea what that means.
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In other dream, a fragment, I was having anal sex with some guy that I knew in the dream but have no idea who he was, also don't recall what races or species we were. I seem to be the one who was giving, the top or whatever the term is, not the one receiving. No idea what it could mean unless I projected somewhere and did that while the body slept.
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the 11th meditation of part 6 for the first time today as part of the 2nd pass. Running the energies went very well. The main part of the meditation went ok. It was supposed to be connecting to source and I did feel very large but ti felt much like just me , but with a more expansive energy very relaxed, very expansive energy and being. So I did have an experience, and likely learned from it, but not what Orin was describing. Could be some folks have some off days or off meditations. maybe this is all I needed to experience this time. eh. overall ok. Relaxing, and feeling myself as a being with an expansive energy.
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I did the 11th meditation for the 2nd time today and running the energies went great. The main part of the meditation at first was going great, but all the distractions lowered it to good. The distractions were my left knee, felt some sort of heat or odd energy there, no idea what is up with my left knee sometimes To get a brief respite I have to jerk it hard at times. Towards the end this resulted in me hitting the table with my upper shin. No idea why my left knee gets like this at times. I have channeled about it before and was told, forgot who I asked, they said it is due to excessive energy settling in my left knee. No idea if it is that or what it exactly means. Also feels like I have a headache again. I seem very sensitive to getting mild headaches at times and it spreads over several days to a half week. But that is noting compared to if I wasn't taking ginkgo everyday. Before I started the headaches got so bad the only way to get any pain reduction was to lay down and keep my eyes covered so I was in total darkness and take 4 or 8 aspirin at once to get a very very slight dent on my headache. Now as long as I take ginkgo when i do get a headache, that may be just for 1 day or off and on for several days its' just at the level or an ordinary headache. Likely light sensitive. Well I can't live in total darkness all the time. if my 3rd eye was operational I would do that and not mind.
Not sure if I mentioned it but my mouth and throat felt about as dry as sandpaper, part way through the mediation.
Despite the distractions I was able to experience some of what Orin was talking about. Being a limitless being, being source, or all that is/god as Orin called it. infinite energy, infinite love, infinite connections to other souls, that I saw for half a second as balls of light. So I was able to experience being source for brief periods of time, not enough time to relax back into the experience and deepen my relaxation and trance before my left knee would require me to jerk my left leg hard again to relieve the distraction for 5, or if i was lucky 10 seconds, roughly. Despite that the main meditation needed up good. but I could tell if my left knee was behaving it would have been a GREAT meditation and it the main part of the meditation did start off like that before my left knee started to act up.
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Forgot to mention, in the above meditation I was a herm orca for part of the meditation, before my left knee started to act up.
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