I do wonder if I'll end up at some point operating at 2 or more levels. Like operating at the level of planets & stars, but also the regular individual level like I obviously am, so at that point I may be at 2 levels.
Or will the multi dimensional nature mean I'll be doing 2 or several levels and things at once. If I am doing stuff multidimensional now or then, will I be aware of it equally, or can there be say several me's but this me here can be fully aware of just one of them? That I wonder and no idea when I'll find out
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I do hope my mateships don't change, but over time, as my unicorn mother talked to me about, things may change over time. I'll have to wait and see. I do expect we'll all still remain mates. Just some like Maribelle may get busy where we won't talk or spend time together for periods of time. Plus they may have or get other mates & lovers, as I may, but we'll still be there for each other and still be mates.
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I was thinking of my mateships and how each one is different. I can sort of using 3 words, mate, lover, friends, sorta do a rough label of each mateship relationship, but not exact since its using only 3 words and I'm here. Once I'm no longer here that will likely change everything, for the better I may add.
Maribelle feels like mate with equal parts friend/lover,
Spitfire I'd guess I'd put the feel at: lover, then mate/friend
Gaia I think i'd say lover/mate/ then friend. but as I get to know her better I may label that to lover/mate/friend, not sure.
Shalamane feels like: lover/friend, mate. Sorta feel.
Karinus feels sorta like: friend/lover, mate. Similar to Shalamane but a little different.
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not the same if i try to label say, soul (the part of me not incarnated, Nagi and Twin Flame. I've not talked to twin flame in a while, not sure if i will again. I think likely we'll get together just not as often as before since we are the same being.
I'd have to say the part of me not incarnated, I'd say maybe friend, mate, lover, since we have kissed and embraced but not had sex, unlike original soul.
Twin flame is more like maybe lover, friend.
Nagi feels more like lover/friend or friend/lover, not sure which.
Though some of all that may change once I'm no longer here.
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I seem to have very weak ties here. The closest thing to a soul family member here that I know of is Scarlett, which is a soul cousin type of thing I think. My mates are not incarnated here, except for Gaia, but she's the planet so that may not count. Karninus may be a soul sibling, shi did say yes to if we were members of tme same soul group. Shi I think has been to earth and may hang out here, but isn't incarnated here. So it seems my ties here are weak. 1 soul cousin and some human friends.
Which may lead credence to how I feel. I'm here for 1 mission then I'm out and back home, not part of the first contact, at least not on this side of it, and not on the team to help the whole shift who may continuously incarnate here or may do so repeatedly through the shift.
Feels like I'm here just for this 1 incarnation for the critical part of the shift, and that is it. I may help out on the other side. Since I've incarnated as a human I can teach and explain to some of the others how humans think. They may intellectually know, but that is different then someone who's incarnated in a human body, though I was partially awake since I was 15, and found the idea of aliens contacting earth a neat idea even as a kid. not scary at all, unlike some others who are incarnated here.
I think a better teacher may be someone who either had the veil up their whole life, or a good part of their life and didn't find the idea of aliens & unicorns and such a neat idea that they may be real and the idea of them walking around on the earth openly since that is likely the majority of people incarnated here.
So there seems to be multiple things pointing to the fact that Yes, I'm here for this 1 incarnation and that is it, since if you look at it I don't have strong ties here, except for Scarlett and with her I could either be a sorta part time guide, or just pop back to visit. or visit her soul self is part of that is not incarnated, and talk a bit like friends like we do here. So no real strong ties here at all.
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Running the energies went well and I again was able to run the energies for the first 3 LB energy centers without flexing any muscles so I'll continue doing that. Also my throat LB energy center is as large as my heart one. The same size as my Renawre cocoon it feels like. Not sure about my 6th one, the pieah. I forgot to check to see if the first 3 LB energy centers are the same size as before or are larger. I may try to do that again this afternoon. Also I forgot to check since yesterday or the day before when I ran the energies while Daben did his vocalizations for the 6th LB energy center I focused on my unicorn horn is, or where it was supposed to be, I forgot to do that today. I recall the last time I did that it responded immediately, unlike if I focus on the pieah only. It does feel like, when I do that, that my unicorn horn is connected to the pieah. So I may try that too this afternoon and the next time I do the meditation. Sometime during the meditation, like happened yesterday, I got hit with vertigo, but it wasn't severe, so I just remained relaxed and ignored it, like I did yesterday, and went along with the guided meditation.
Also while I was doing the meditation I was for a few seconds or longer on what seemed to be some sub, this me. Felt like I was a dignitary of some kind and the sub was on a waterworld, not earth. I seemed to just appear and in front of me was the back of some human shaped being using what looked to me like a periscope that subs have that I've seen in videos. I looked around wondering where the heck I was. To me it looked like an enclosed room, sorta resembling a sub control room that I've seen in some videos, movies and such. The funny thing is there were non humans at the various controls, but it didn't even register with me that they were non humans. I stood there looking around trying to figure where I was and how I got there. After a second or 2 the guy at the periscope put it away like they do on subs that I've seen then he noticed me standing there and said, "sir, feel free to use the periscope if you wish." Instead of asking him where I was and how I got here I thought it best to just play along since he seemed to know me or whatever me it was.
Didn't see any colors but I do recall the person who talked to me seemed pretty human looking. As for getting the periscope down I just used some sort of pk power thing and willed it to come down, as if I did that sort of thing every day. and I looked through the periscope once it was down.
Though we were deep in the water I could see pretty well. From what I recall that I saw, it diffidently wasn't the earth. The life forms and structures and natural formations I saw, and I don't recall much since i was only able to look through the periscope for a second or 2 before I popped back into my body. Seemed the sub was taking me somewhere to some meeting and I recall I had a dolphin type rostrum since I recall being glad that I could use the periscope, it was shaped so I could use it despite my having a rostrum. I was able to look through the periscope for a second or a few before I was back in this body again.
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After the meditation was over I felt Karinus hug me and somehow I was someplace else, but also sort of in this body too. Shi hugged me and was snuggling with hir head on my chest saying how we are best buds, but shi'd never have thought we'd be doing this. I put my arms around hir to hug hir back and to reassure hir I said we're still best buds, to which shi said "dude, of course we're best buds, look what we've done." shi said humorously. I guess meaning we became mates and shi's expecting. Shi then went on to say that my using herm pronouns like is used for herms in furry circles is correct since shi is pretty balanced between the genders, but shi said though I'm a herm also I lean towards male somewhat strongly. Then shi took a finger and lightly traced the finger across my female vulva that the spirit,light, or whatever body I was in had and said something like, "but you're not only a male dude." shi said and slid the finger an inch or perhaps more in. Wow, what pleasure that caused including the finger slipping in. More proof either we've known each other or shi is very skilled, or maybe more likely both. Since shi knew exactly what to do with hir finger. Wow.
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Running the energies went well again. Each center has a sorta different feel to it. The throat and heart centers are the same size as the Renawra cocoon. I did remember about the pieah, the 6th center and it seems to work better if I focus on my unicorn horn for the energy while Daben is vocalizing instead of my pituitary or whatever is that is at the center of my head. I may go back and forth and test it in the future till I reach a final decision.
The Vee, the 3rd and last light body center, again I could feel the light. I changed the way it looked till it was a straight very large in diameter of light that started somewhere above me and stretches down past my feet.
During part of the meditation I again felt vertigo like usual. Think it's around the point Daben starts vocalizing the Vee or has been doing it for a while. This time I was in some stone place. It was a place made of all stone or maybe underground. I seemed to be heading somewhere. I was able to stop and look around a bit. Not a lot to see since most of it was a hallway it seemed. I seemed to be in a naga body. Not sure if it was Nagi or if I was some other aspect or some other aspect or me that exists elsewhere.
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As I was laying down to meditate/rest Gaia had a short conversation with me. The usual calling me studfin and such and that we'd have many kids together and such in the future, but no hurry.
She said that yes, I was a member of her soul group, that contains some beings that are incarnated as planets and stars, and some that are not incarnated at all, but that I'm just not a full conscious participating member of yet. She said she could teach me the basic rudiments but since I'd be happier and more content and have a nack with the star stuff, she had a particular star in mind to teach me after her basic lessons were over. And that the light body courses I'm taking and plan on taking form a very good basic & a very good foundation and that's why she's not started teaching or guiding me yet. That would wait till after this incarnation was over. She then hinted at that particular star, saying she had a particular one in mind that we'd be very good friends, close friends and lovers, perhaps, have kids together. Yes a high degree chance of that, she said, in a humorous fun teasing way. Also stressing that we'd be together forever. I do feel that those lessons and such won't interfere with what I'll be doing as a royal naga and Positive royal alpha draconian, and other stuff, and being with my mates.
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Thought I'd ask my mates a few questions like why they wanted to be mates with me.
Maribelle: your heart, the openness of it, your energy, the higher inner light you have, your personality, and you do have a nice looking ass as well, that is a diffident plus.
Spitfire: your personality and heart. you get me to laugh and your looks and energy. diffidently like your unicorn body, , one certain part of it diffidently feels great. all put together what a hunk.
Gaia: the entire package. Looks, personality, everything. believe me I've seen a lot and you're diffidently one of the keepers. Diffidently mate material. We have the rest of eternity to explore each other and the fun we can have.
Shalamane: Your personality, you get me to laugh often. Your energy, inner light. Your bod, my what a hunk. I diffidently do look forward to us getting to know our bodies better, you mine and mine yours. also the fact we have so much in common. Your dragoness mother worked through certain channels of some sort so I could observe you for a few days. Nothing spy like, since many on earth are being watched and do not know it, by those of us who are not incarnated there. Diffidently like what I saw. Your dragoness mother, as you call her, was right. We do have a lot in common. mm, mmm, mmm, diffidently a lot to like there.
Karinus: we're best buds, we did a lot of fun things together, sometimes just talking and hanging out. We use to do so much together. Then we had to separate for a bit while you were incarnated. Though we did get together a times, while you were sleeping, don't think you remembered that. We use to have all sorts of fun together, and I don't just mean the sharing, to use the pod, your pod's term. I never suspected the depth that our love till a few days ago. Took me by surprise dude. how did I not notice, snuck up on me I guess. I guess if you can't be mates with your best bud then who should you be mates with. and now it's grown even more. < I get the mental image of hir rubbing hir belly briefly> dude, I never thought 3 days would bring on such changes, radical.
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