Wedensday [7-8]

I do have very few, only 1 or 2 really here I can talk to about soul and such matters.  the other few I've tried are not anywhere along the same lines where I am, and that is ok.  And the 2 i can talk to about this are extremely busy so I seldom talk to them, which goes to prove i do indeed have very weak ties here.  I do hope that means I won't be here very long, maybe say til 52 or 54 at the most.  diffidently don't want to live past the mid 50's. 

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Perhaps my development is such that I'm above most of those who are into spiritual and mystic stuff.  maybe the reason I seldom contact any that around where I am is due ot them being spread around the earth and also to keep me with very weak links and ties here so that this incarnation won't live into the 60's, 80's or beyond. 

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I'll just accept that and move on.  Including doing the light body courses I've picked out after I've finished the awaken the light body course.  There are some non light body courses that I may get.  I'll look those over in more detail once I've put aside some for a course that is more then the awaken the light body course.  So maybe next year sometime.  Then I may think of getting the 1 shot and maybe the short ones since they have 8 guided meditations, I figure as an extra I could do the 8 meditations over say 2-3 months, including doing the 2nd pass. Some like the soul love one I'll not look at till I've gotten or done the heart ceremonies of initiation.  and the living in joy one I'll not look over till I've gotten the living in joy LB course since I am wondering if there is enough of an overlap I'll not get the non LB courses.  That would, at the end, leave 1 that I will get, a short 8 meditation one about solar light.  1 on clearing blockages and such, which I may not see the need for since some of the LB courses have meditations about clearing blockages, transmuting to higher energy reflections.  That would leave after the solar light one 2, and those are more pricey. one is on planetary energies, on the big dipper, Sirius, and the Pleiades.  that is the same price as the awaken the light body, though it has only 4 parts.  I may save up and do that as a side course, say each part over 3-4 months or longer, or do it once I've finished the LB courses I picked out or slot it into the main courses.  The last one, transcending ego, I'm not sure I'll have any interest in that one.  That one I'll not look over till I'm almost finished with the LB courses I've picked out since by then I may look the 6 part course over & say either, nay, no need, or I may get just 1 or 2 parts.

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Thinking of the bit about me having mates with as varied species/races as possible I do feel an inner excitement about.  As Shalamane said their aim is for this and for me to have many offspring also.  I guess my mates wil be a mix for development level.  Some higher then I am at present, so they can teach & guide me and they may learn from me a bit.  Some around my level, and maybe some not quite at my level, or maybe all my mates will be either at my level or above it.  Not sure why I feel an inner excitement at this, maybe since it'll be fun and exciting, sharing love/pleasure/sex.  but we'll all be learning from the experience.

Shalamane did tell me the screening process, not sure if I put it down. Basically it is the race has to reproduce sexually, the majority (or everyone) has to still do this and enjoy it.  I have to be capable of having sex with them.  Then they will pick an individual (or maybe more then 1 possibility) and the concept she sent me is hard to translate into English, but translating it as much as I can is: they'll (some of my mates being the active ones, I suspect 1 or both of my soul mothers may be involved too, but don't know) pick an individual (or maybe more then 1 possibilit) that we'll love each other once we meet and or get to know each other so we'll naturally be mates, or at least lovers, and the last one is they have to get along with my current at that time, mates and lovers (if any).  I guess there is some soul or what some call psychic ability, as well as looking at their personality and maybe energy to pick out if this individual will be one that me and them would share a love connection.  As I've mentioned before I feel most will be female, but some may be herms, and or ones who's gender changes based on their mood.  like the star being (being incarnated as a star) who changes the gender based on the mood it's on.  Not sure if I'd have any male mates, but I leave that up to them to pick out.  I know they'll pick the best ones and choices.

The male ones may be either lovers if I already have a female mate of that species.  Since though I'm a herm, ignoring the human body and conditioning, it does feel that though my spiritbody (whatever it is is not important) is a herm, I do feel that I'm more male leaning personality wise.  Though that may change at times say if I'm with some other females having a girl's day or night out I may shift fully into female temporarily. I may be a mother eventually, but even so it'll be very very very seldom I think, if ever.

I also feel excitement about the duties, titles, concerning the royal naga and positive royal alpha draconians that my dragoness soul mother is sharing with me.  I'm sure I'll learn and grow by doing this and likely help others and guide them too. 

I also feel excitement of Gaia's offer of joining her soul group and learning from 1 or more star beings.  I'm sure I'll learn and grow along interesting lines doing this.  and it seems I'll have 1 as a mate also.

Just wanted to spend some time putting down some recent thoughts and feelings before I do the 1st awaken the light body guided meditation for today.  This has gone on a lot longer then I planned but that is ok.  I may do it as 2 posts consecutively since I'm not sure if SF has a limit on how long a post can be.  Think I'll cut this post, including the results of the guided meditation, in half.

also Gaia appearing to me as mainly an earth dolphin, or orca, and more recently as a human woman may mean she'll be in various forms based on her mood and or maybe what I'd like too since I'm sure I could ask her to be a ....  Also once we do have kids it may be with her being in 1 species, maybe varied ones, and or maybe at times closer o her true form since some may end up being planets and or stars, but not all likely. Maybe the same for the star being future mate.

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I did the 8th meditation for part 6 and running the energies went fantastic. 

The main meditation was about building a cord upward to the soul, then from the soul down to the personality incarnated on the earth plane.  Then to the monad, what they (Orin and Daben) called your soul's soul.

It took a very very sexual turn.  When my soul appeared it was an anthro sorta form but quickly formed into an anthro beluga form.  we were at first kissing with it's (not sure if my soul or monad's gender, I'll go with a neutral it) hands on both of my breasts that I never noticed my anthro spirit form having, but perhaps did for this meditation.  We kissed very deeply. After a bit we stopped kissing and my soul them moved down and seemed to have to heads since I could feel a head licking then sucking on each nipple as the breasts were still massaged or kneaded. Then it had 2 more hands, 1 on my maleslit and the other on my femslit, rubbing both.  after a time it turned to us having sex.  I could feel the energy connection thing that Orin was talking about, but also as we had sex, kissed, and it sicking on both my breasts, I could feel an energy exchange going on there too.

Then when orin brought in the monad to form a cord from the monad to my soul, then to me, the monad started doing the same as my soul originally did.  Though my monad in my mind's eye looked very anthro dragon, complete with wings.  I put my hands around it and felt like it had scales, so an anthro dragon.  As we kissed our whisker things that eastern dragons have briefly entwined around each other.  Then it also moved down to suck on my breasts then started to have sex, I could feel an energy exchange also going on, but a harder to feel, finer energy.

as Daben came back to guide me back since the meditation was ending I could feel the energy connection thing like Orin was describing, but also I could feel my monad doing what felt like rubbing around my navel.  I asked what it as doing and it said that it was forming another connection and I felt a connection on my navel and energy being exchanged, going both ways.  It said, "think of it as a symbolic type connection and the meditation ended.

so, WOW.  I did NOT expect to have full out kissing, foreplay and sex with my soul nor monad.  Interesting how my soul was like an anthro beluga and my monad was anthro dragon type, complete with wings, scales, and the whisker things that eastern dragons have.  My monad did feel very light like I could barely feel it. My soul I could feel as it was on me, but it was very light, nowhere near that of a human.  My monad though did feel much much lighter where I could barely feel it.  I guess I was feeling their weight and everything else with my clair whatever senses.  I guess that goes to prove that I am a very sexual being, not at just the soul, but also the monad level.  And that my spirit body (or whatever it is) is a herm.  wow, I certainly do hope I can share with my soul and monad again like that in the future, on a regular basis.

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I asked my soul since our monad wanted to be mates with me, do you as well? I felt the part of me not incarnated here that some would call soul say yes.  I mentally shrugged and said ok.  To which I felt it was very happy with my response.  Not surprised.  I was surprised that my monad would want to be mates with me, part of itself, but since it did and I agreed to that.  I am not surprised that my soul, the part of me not incarnated here, would want to be mates with me too. 

Who knows, maybe since I am by nature a sexual being, a sensual sexual being perhaps too, that may be normal, or maybe very good for the present level of development & growth I'm at, or just normal for the type of being that I am.  I'll not question it, it feels right and that it'll lead to pleasant things, and I'm sure I'll grow and learn, as well as enjoy it.  So I'll accept it since it does feel right.

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I read a few pages that comprises today's chapter of a book I'm reading called being magic, I got the kindle edition.  It mentioned buying a journal that looks like it's made of good quality and every morning list 3 things you are grateful for and at night list 3 things you are grateful for.  I may go past that and do a half page at least or a whole page a day.  Adding in the afternoon too.  This first volume is about the necessity to work on yourself so you are ready to manifest and get successful at manifesting.  It was inexpensive so I thought why not give it a try so I think I'll try this as well the next time I purchase stuff from Amazon. 

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I did the 8th meditation for part 6 of awaken the light body for the 2nd time and running the energies went fantstic again.  The weakest was the SaHa, but that is ok.

The main meditation started much as before, except that my soul didn't kiss me nor lick or suck on the breasts of my lightbody, spirit body or whatever it was.  It did massage and kneed them though as it rubbed my maleslit and then took the penis into it's femslit.  This continued while I did the meditation.  Not like my soul was having full sex with me like before.  It felt more like a mix of sex and sensual pleasure we were sharing. My soul looked, in my mind's eye like an anthro dolphin,

With my monad did similar, but this time it seemed to be focused fully on us sharing sensual pleasure and no sex.  Though it did take my penis into it self it mainly just held it there inside it and did some thrusting now and then.  My breasts it kneaded like my soul did, though it did lick as well. 

I did feel the higher light energy of my soul and later my monad enter from above and enter into my mental, emotional, energy physical and physical body.  felt like ti came from above, but also in through the groin area and also every time my breasts were kneaded by my soul and later my monad, also from my monad it felt like some also came in through the navel.  So overall a successful meditation. Forgot to add in that my monad was like before, looked like an anthro dragon including with wings on the back.

I did feel all of this higher light energy from my soul and monad and entering into me and my mental, emotional, physical and physical energy bodies, though I'm sure its for a good reason, my continued growth and evolution and I'll accept it.  I don't really need the details.

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