Thursday [7-16]

More from Shalamane from last night: As for my brother, he's not into that whole being stalked hunted thing, unlike myself.  I think the 2 of you will rather do that playful wrestling part.

For myself I'd like to try and experience that at least once.  When we practice for the first time we can see how we both like it, but I'm sure I'd like to do that at least once.  Our first child at least, but plenty of time for that.

And I do promise we'll share many pleasures together, much pleasure, as well you and my brother. 

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I had a most unusual dream last night.  I will type it up and put the link into this note here.  I also had a western dragon named Bruce pop up, but I'll mention him in due time.  From the feel of things, I do believe he's interested in courting me, as well as as a friend, but I"ll mention that in due time. 

Link to the dream, but only maybe half of it is typed up as of this post.  I'll type up & post the rest when I get home and haev more time.  http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/showthread.php?t=84080&page=9

I did the 2nd mediation for part 6 for the 1st time today.  Must say as an aside, for some reason Bruce, the feel of his energy does send a sexual type thrill through my female self, or my female essence, or whatever the term is, I wonder why. 

Anyway running the energies went very well.  The primary part of the meditation went well.  I could feel the vee energy very well all around me like a column. 

It was during this that I felt a presence, like it was not really stalking me but staying near the edge of my perceptions, and circling around, like someone curious.  Didn't feel negative, nor neutral either.  Perhaps why my guardians didn't do anything.  I guess the rules and orders of my dragoness mother is if someone positive is circling around to just watch. 

Anyway after this was going on for a bit I sent the being a mental message saying they may as well come on out since I can feel them. The equivalent of what they were doing was like circling around staying in the bushes and very tall grass but keeping an eye on you, out of curiosity. 

Anyway he came out and I saw, in my mind's eye, not to clear of a vision and no colors, but I could make out enough to see he was a western dragon and his energy felt male. 

he said his name was Bruce, I asked if dragons of his type used human names and he said something like shrugging and saying, while he's here why not use a human name.  he said he was doing the human equivalent of out for a casual stroll, only cross out stroll and put in flight instead when he felt this most wonderful energy and had to get a closer look. 

Then he started scanning, I mentioned about my guardian nagas and they had given him any problems but he said no, they had just let him in, but while he was circling around he had felt someone like they were scanning him but he couldn't pin down who or what it was.  I guess some of the stealth guardians i've been told that I have.  Both positive alpha draconians, guardian nagas, and I got a hint from my dragoness soul mother that there may be another species or 2 included with that. 

Anyway Bruce and I talked a bit casually while I did the rest of the mediation, and it was the most sensual pleaure whenever Daben vocalized the Vee and fullonia.  Bruce was feeling of my energy, saw that I wasn't human.  Then I immediately felt a total shift in his energy, some attraction of a perhaps sexual nature.  mentioned, something like, and during this he talked in a sorta upper class British accent, but like some actors use, or using some famous British slant. 

But with the shift of his energy I diffidently felt he was now felt attraction for me and he said after I wasn't human that I was a dragon, a rather attractive dragoness. he then immediately asked if I had a mate.  I did mention I had a dragoness that may be interested in me.  he said he wasn't really into males but since I was a herm, he was willing to make an exception.  he said he'd see the male bits as an extra that he could try to see if he was really into males or would be in my case or not.  I must admit that for some reason my female essence, female inner nature self, aspect, or whatever the term is, does feel a sexual sorta thrill from him and his energy.  He scanned or felt of my energy more, then exclaimed somewhat in amazement, oh, so she is your mother, I never suspected.  I asked and he said he did recognize her energy.  I cautioned him not to say anything about her since here are some things she doesn't want me to know yet.  I was thinking that she most not want me to know for a good reason and if he accidentally told me something my dragoness mother didn't want me to know yet it may mess up something.  i asked if he was interested in perhaps being mates with me and he said he was.  I then said for him to contact and talk with my other mates since they'd have to ok it and then help him with whatever proper channels are the proper ones to go through.  Shalamane, Kerria, she's my kirin mate.  he was surprised I had a kirin mate since he had only met 1 kirin once.  I mentioned some of my other mate names, then as I felt him starting to go I mentioned Shar, he's my aide or something.  Bruce said that Shar was nearby, I said for him to go talk to him and he'd help him through whatever the channels are.  he then left. 

When he discovered who my mother is, dragoness mother, it felt like he was surprised and a bit in awe or something.  Sorta like you meet an attractive young woman, you talk for a bit and you want to go talk to her father about dating her and then you find out her father is president Obama.  Most would be immediate a bit shy and in awe of, oh he's your father?  The rest of the meditation went well.  Not sure if I mentioned it before but he did say that I was a very attractive dragoness.

a short time later, as I was typing up the beginning of this and pausing to do something, Shalamane started talking to me saying a dragon named Bruce had been talking to her and on the immediate examination he is acceptable.  and she'd help him go through the rest of the necessary channels.  I asked her why do I feel a sexual thrill in my female nature self, or whatever it's called, towards him and the feel of his energy and my thoughts about him.  And Shalamane said, and it felt like she was talking girl to girl.  The reason is I have a very strong intuition and I'm feeling the compatibility of our energies, similar to what I feel when I meet and with some humans.  I am sensing that he is a comparable mate and we would be good compatible mates.  She said also that he's a gentleman.  She meant not only in his behavior but also literally I guess since she said he was the human equivalent of a lord, or something along those lines. 

Yea, so it seems now that I have a male dragon interested in courting me.  And he did seem to be very nice, a gentleman in his behavior in the brief time we talked. 

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I had a most unusual dream last night. I don't have much time left and let's see how much I can type up in 10 minutes. I'll post what I have and type the rest later when I get home this evening. somewhat slowed down since I have to translate my messy quick writing. as usual if I can't understand what I write I'll put down a <?> with ? for every word.

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I awoke in a bed in a small room.. Then not sure how I was elsewhere. Like I missed a scene and it was cut out. In <?> room and I said if I were dead and I prayed I wish to know. {skipped or missing scene] Then i was being lead somewhere & <?> a door of the place I <?> the other side. when <?> they <? ?> eat at least at first. We took an elevator. I commented why could I not teleport when I coule remember being able to teleport before. I then remembered I had been hit by a car. think in the dream before i died I had been a small time hood or criminal type and others took credit for killing me when it was a car that hit and killed me, a pure accident and they had nothing to do with it at all. We get into the elevator and I comment I dislike elivators and wish I could teleport.

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 Rest of dream:

Doors open, others exit and it is a cafe or restaurant.  Doors close before some of us can exit, myself and 2 others.  Woman with tries to keep the doors open.  I'm calm but she isn't to much, but isn't to bad as I recall.  Door half closes.  elevator moves but gets stuck half way outside the building we are in.  Door is bent open more.  I try to help.  We manage to get the door been a bit more open.  We use some of our clothes like my suit jacket, to make like a rope.  The others go first, I volunteer to go last. The makeshift rope does not hold when I try to climb down and I fall and am calm as I hit the pavement.  Then I waken in a hospital type room and the first thought is that I need to get word to the other 2 I was with that I'm over here.  Apparently in the dream if you die you wind up in some sort of hospital or something.

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Not sure where this goes:

  I recenty found I was on teh other side and ask about some friends I've known but have not seen in ages, and these were rl friends here.  Or at least some of them were, I don't recall if all the names were, I think they were. The person I ask says they have internet there and can look up my friends to see fi any are there or are still alive.  the person says the internet is better here then what they have on the earth.

<< Like I said not sure where this goes since I remembered it later.  i think it fits early on in the dream but I'm not sure exactly where.

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Notes taken quickly at the place I do the rpg on Thursdays, by the way I did have a lot of fun today.

Shalamane contacted me.  She says Bill found the mateship plan (not sure what else to call it so she used the vague term I came up with since I'm sure if she used the real name it may reveal to much info.)  and he expressed interest in looking up some of my female mates and perspective mates to see if any of them would perhaps be interested in a lover type of relationship.  she said she had intended to have me as the only male she would have sex with since we're mates, but she had never been with a dragon before so was thinking she may be interested.  I said that it was fine with me and that is between the 2 of them if they are interested in that.  Which it is. though on typing it up now, if they do do that I may want to join in in an occupational 3 some.

So I guess Bruce is serious about wanting to court me and us to become mates.  She did say Bruce did want to claim 2 days during the private celebration my mates (and likely others) are having for me once I get back  that includes perspective mates as well as my mates.  he wants 2 days since he wants 1 day to be at my place & 1 to be at his place.  I guess he means home and the areas around each home to show the other around, lounge around in, ect.  I told her that is fine with me.  I do wonder what his place is like.

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Now that I'm home I had my dragoness mother talk to me.  She said he seems a perfect gentleman and she does find him acceptable to court me.  She said she is pretty laid back about that but he did seem a bit nervous meeting her.  I guess she has some sort of high title or something.  She did say that with dragons there is a courtship and not just a, let's be friends.  She also she gave him some tips, that she won't tell me since they were for him, except for 1 and that is since I'm incarnated I don't have access to my full soul memories and knowledge so best take it extra slow and explain if I seem confused or unsure about something. she further said he did express interest in pursuing the traditional courting ... forgot if she said customs, rituals, or something else.  But she did say it is a beautiful and can stretch on for centuries and a smart male continues to court the female even after they are mates since that would insure she knows he still is interested and to keep up the spice and things.  Though his courting may go down a step since they are mates.  And she said he does seem like an intelligent and gentleman that he would continue doing this even after we are mates.  She also mentioned that she did mention that I'm open to sex and the 2 of us having sex doesn't mean that we are mates.  That is a longer process then just having sex.

Some of this she is telling me now too.  Courting to the declaration that they are mates is a longer drawn out process among dragons, I'll not give any details to not spoil the fun and discovery and learning.  Sex an be part of it if both parties are willing, but that does not seal the mateship.  She was vague and said he was indeed like a lord or count type, hard to translate his title and such to human terms I'd understand at this point, and doing so would reveal to much of her standing in dragon society, and yes as her son I have much the same, especially since I choose to remember her memories and have access/remember her accumulated wisdom.  yes, she didn't want me to find all this out to soon.  The vague stuff is ok, for certain reasons she doesn't want me to know the full details as of yet.

The dragoness that has expressed interest in me is of a different species of a different custom then Bruce is so I'll not have to court her.  With her kind it's more like they decide there is interest then they start off as let's get to know each other, see if we are compatible, and have it evolve from there.  And she does indeed want sex to be part of that.

She went on to say, yes, due to her age, my dragoness mother, her standing is rather, high, is all she'd say.  and if I keep on the road I'm on, mine will rise pretty quick also.

Bruce wasn't planned, it was one of those great things that just happens and things fall into place.

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I'm curious what the dragon courtship may be like.  I'll find out sooner or later.  This is quite exciting, and a new pleasure I guess. Being courted by a male dragon. Not sure type or the type I am.  But the details are not important. 

Means likely more pleasure and fun when I'm back, with all these mates of mostly female, but some male and herm.  Across a very wide variety of species, pretty exciting too I must say.

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I did the 2nd meditation for part 6 of awaken the light body for the 2nd time today.  Running the energies went great.  The main meditation went great at times and sorta ok to very well at times since I started getting a bit where I wanted it to be over so I could eat & take a nap. Also distracted a bit by Bruce.  Though when he did talk to me it was during the time when either Daben was silent or it was not doing a vocalization.  I also blanked out briefly and was doing Qi Gong or something like it somewhere.  Maybe a momentary dream since I've not had a nap all day.

Bruce did talk to me twice and I talked to him twice. The first time he talked to me was to say my mother had found him acceptable so his courting of me could continue if I was still interested I said I was.  he seemed pleased.  And I can say indeed that my female aspect, inner self, or whatever the term is, does find him attractive and maybe even has what some may call the hots for him. he said he was surprised such an attractive dragoness such as me did not yet have a mate, and I kidding said, luckily for you.  Which he seemed pleased by my saying that.  he then left a bit after that saying he'd let me get back to my meditation.  Also he was always calling me my lady, like it was a title I had or an affectionate remark or both.  I do feel flattered and do like being called that. As for my answer to his courting me I did tell him, let's see where this takes us.  he seemed pleased by this and said something like I'm honored my lady, or I'm pleased my lady, or something along those lines. 

A bit later on I did send a quick message, a kidding one, saying I guess my dragoness mother didn't scare him off, and he said also kidding with some warmth, no my lady.

A bit later on I got a brief mental image from him.  this was during a time when Daben was silent for a while.  he said something like, this is one of the things I do during my visits to earth my lady and I saw him flying pretty fast at a height of just above the level of trees that were lining a road. No idea where it was.  It did feel like a thrill.  Then he switched to fly straight up.  He flew up into and through some clouds then flew for a few seconds above the clouds.  He broke contact saying something like, he'd let me get back to my mediation my lady. 

later  got a puzzling message from him. he said something like, this is my jewel my lady, and in my mind's eye I saw something like tunnel vision, with my vision restricted to a 2 inch area in front of my mind's eye and I saw something like a part of a black stone with what looked like very tiny lines on it.  No idea what it was or what he meant. 

An interesting experience overall. 

I got a mental message from him. I sent him a message saying if I don't contact him for a bit of time, it's not that I don't care about him, but that what is going on, the stuff I do, all the mates and potential mates I may let some things slip and not mean to.  he said he understands and it was explained to him.  and how he wasn't supposed to tell me certain things.  I mentally laughed and told him he likely knows more then I do about what is going on.  He humorously said, "some things yes my lady."  Then after a pause he sent another message, "you are really a very attractive dragoness my lady."

I answered him with thanks, I'm flattered, I'd like to say you're an attractive dragon but I could never see you to well.  And he said, "that is ok my lady, I understand and am honored by your honesty." 


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Bruce said something flattering and sweet to me while I was in the shower, he said, "A rose is a rose but you are far more sweet."  Or worse similar to that. I do recall he did say a rose is a rose, pretty sure it was either but you are far more sweet.  I did tell him I was flattered.

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Decided after playing plants vs zombies 2 that I'll delete it. While it does have it's fun aspects and moments, overal it is to brutal and isn't overall fun.  I'll give the mlp game a try, the one from gameloft, say for a week or 2 to see what that one is like.  I've not played it yet.

I feel if a game isn't early 100% fun I'll not keep it.  I don't mind, like Dr Who Legacy, if it has some sections that are annoying or brutal, if you can just not go to those sections, but remain in the main game or the other sections and those are still very fun. 

plants vs zombies 1 is a fun game.  it had a few spots that were hard that i had to redo, but overall a fun game so it qualifies as a keeper.  Dr legacy overall does. I'll give the mlp:fim gameloft game a try. 

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I still assume I may see some mates more then others, when this is all over.  Though i do wonder if my being multi dimensional and non linear if that may help as well.  I do like the idea of the huge variety of species as mates.  pretty wild that it is happening to me. 

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Still a new sensation, experience, this new femaleness, though I'm getting use to it.  I do like it.  having the male and female elements or whatever the term is, at what feels like equal, does feel normal and right. 

and it does feel this new me, with the male and female elements or whatever being qual, does have a higher sex drive.  I guess this may be due to my spirit body being a herm naturally so either that is why and or maybe another reason or reasons.

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Had an unusual thing happen.  I like to pace at times in my apartment while thinking or talking to myself.  This time I stopped and was talking to myself and I got the hair rising on the back of my neck and a spooky feeling and saw the figure & could feel and see it.  It looked like a white human, but since i saw it from the corner of my mind I couldn't see it to clearly.

I did talk to my dragoness soul mother and if I channeled her right or got the message right it was one of the guards who was feeling a bit mischievous and was wondering how I would react, not a thing that is supposed to be done here due to the memorandum, though she'd not say what she meant by that or the memorandum and she'd talk with him.  I have a slight headache.  Not sure if it was from that, or not drinking enough water, due to the heat here, or some other reason, it is pretty minor. 

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I really am excited by all this.  A very wide variety of mates, the love, affection, pleasures we'll be sharing.  though maybe some of the perspective mates may not work out, time will tell and with forever, there is plenty of time. 

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Shalamane:  it as indeed a bit of mischievous fun, not something I would do or condone, under the circumstances since you lack full awareness or your soul memories and knowledge.  Some may see it as sort of playing a prank on a child type of thing.  and seeing how one will react. 

Though the way you reacted in the short term was good, you were spooked, who would not be, and were not scared.  Then you got a bit unsure but went to the right ones, your dragoness mother, being one of the prime ones and asking one of the naga guards, who did say it was one of the guards and an off duty one and a mischievous feeling one.  Though I've spoken to your dragoness mother, she carries considerable more weight then I do and what they did may have been funny to them but isn't really funny.  what you did as right I think all things considered .  and i do understand you don't like pranks, they are not my thing either.  But lets go on to something positive.

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Shalamane: Things will be so much more positive once you are here.  Mostly because you'll be here and I'll be able to really get my claws on you, in a pleasant shared pleasure sort of way, sharing in the pod kind of way.  I do foresee a lot of sex in your future once you get back here, especially with me, my brother and your other mates ad perspective mates.  Especially in the short term due to the private celebration we have planned. Plenty of time to spend with us and for us all to get to know each other, including your perspective mates. 

Gar has indeed decided you are virtually likely to be the mate he would really like.  He knows your personality far better then you do his.  Though this is understandable. And i do promise we'll all get along.  Though we may not agree in everything, and often will have different opinions on some things.  We can still talk and be together as well as sharing a lot of sex.  And we'll be all mates, the 2 of us, you and Gar and others. 

You'll have plenty of time to get to know those you don't know.  And for those you do, it'll be a fun time of being together again.  A fun time all around. 

and your mates will be very varied, a fun thing for you I'm sure.  Though you'll, as you guessed, may see some of us more often then others, you must remember you are also a multi dimensional being and non linear also.  more so then some of us.  Though we'll all be sharing considerable pleasures as well as love, and affection.  Things will only increase and improve over time.  So  you'll not overlook or not be with a mate less then you should and we'll all help you in that indeed.  part of why one of the screening process is we have to all get along. Not that we al have to be close friends or lovers to each other, acquaintances is good enough for the screening process. 

We all do love you a great deal.  your soul parents, and those of us who are your mates.  your perspective mates also.  Though time will reveal if you'll be compatible enough to be mates, though I do think we've picked very well, taking into account everything we can. 

As for Gar you and him will get along well, as will you and Bruce.  he does seem a romantic. a softie some may say.  I must say the feeling I get is the 2 of you will make great mates indeed.  He gets well along with those of us he has met, though I talked to you about that earlier.  And to be frank, he really is smitten with you.  A beautiful dragoness, and you are indeed.  Though you are really a herm dragon, that does include being a dragoness as well as a male dragon,  Herms being what they are.