This morning I did some masturbation since it felt like more of me wanted to merge into me.
While I took a nap I had a dream or experience where Maribelle came to me and congratulated me on becoming an 8d being and she was curious what it may be like to merge with me temporarily so I said ok and we merged through us sharing sex with each other. We remained merged temporarily then unmerged with a sort of pop, instant like.
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I did the first guided meditation for part 4 of awaken the light body. Running the energies was a very sexual sensual pleasure as was a good part of the main meditation which was about running the energies for the Traeo, 5th light body energy center, where the throat is, but mine felt much larger then that, larger then my body, and the 2nd light body energy center.
It felt like the rest of me used this opportunity to merge with me more. It felt like a sort of slow soul sex type of experience, a very sexual sensual pleasure, hard to describe, as well as the feeling of more of me coming or setting into me. Then at a point Maribelle popped up to say she'd really enjoyed merging with me and would like to so again for a while since it would help with the shift. I said something like ok, but it may be a while before you unmerge or manifest a body for yourself. By that I meant I don't know how long this incarnation will last or how long till I can go home and she can unmerge or manifest a body for herself. Felt like this was taking our relationship to the next level maybe. I felt some of her energy being sent into me to merge with me. Part of me did think I would sorta miss having her as a separate being we could talk with together, but she said she's still here silly. Not sure if she meant she's not fully merged, but just sent some of her energy, and or she's not fully merged with, if it'll take time, or what she meant, but most of me is that yea, but she could manifest a body for herself anytime she wanted since she'd likely not be locked in this body like I am till this incarnation ends.
Over all an interesting experience. not what I thought would happen.
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I've been thinking about some stuff. it does indeed feel like I'm what's called a precursor. Anchoring in the energies of higher dimensions (maybe other types too) to help with the shift, and also to make it easier for others to come in like the various terms, crystal children, rainbow, ect, who need some folks who are like me to anchor the energies so they can come in and they would do the next step.
I do indeed feel like I'm wrapping things up. Feels even more so with all this merging I've been doing. Though i don't feel to different and feel much the same as i did a month ago, with some changes. I'm sure I'm not as aware of all the changes I've gone through very recently.
It also feels normal that I'm not forming and never have formed very strong ties here on earth with anyone. it feels normal, not since I hate humans or have some mental or emotional reason, which i may, due to genetics or just being so alien to the earth. but it feels hand in hand with my wrapping up, not forming very strong ties here, staying way in the back, with helping with this shift, instead of being up front, in the public like Matt kahn, or the guy who channels Bashar and others who channel other beings, or doing other things, and also why I don't have a bunch of friends.
i do feel the overall feeling of wrapping up and this time going home for good. if I do merge more and get up to say 9d or wherever the group soul, oversoul or monad is. it feels like I'd not be lonely since I could still be mates & lovers with many other beings and souls across a wide variety of dimensions. say maybe 4-7d or some thing like that. though I wouldn't incarnate, nor have any aspect of me incarnate, unless that aspect really wanted to. I feel what I would do is do the multi dimensional thing. Sort of like multi tasking, where I could be in several places at once. I could have a me, with a manifested body, where the pod is. that me may live there, so to speak, or he may teleport around between a few locations. I may have a me who stays with Maribelle and her family, with Spitfire, in that glory. Another me with Shalamane and Gar. So I could have a few me's who live, more or less, all the time in 1 or a few locations. Not incarnated and not aspects, but me's in different locations at once, and I'd be able to be fully aware, since they are all me, in different locations. And or I may have 1 me who popps around a lot, and does stuff non linearly. I don't feel I'd be the type to have 10 or 15 selves doing stuff in different locations. Some may like that. i think I'd have maybe a few, or maybe just 1 or 2, and popping around non linearly.
Also though I may end up being mates with say 10 or 30, it may boil down to they are aspects, individual personalities, souls, of say 3-4 oversouls or monads. Just mostly thinking and typing stuff I thought of before.
it does indeed feel like also some are nudging me towards becoming my own oversoul or monad. I do recall having the feeling I'd have some mates, lovers, & friends who are below where I am, equal to where I am (more or less) and some who are above where I am.
So I think I'd mainly have maybe 1 or a few me's. a few me's who may live, more or less, in 1 spot, do some popping around and being back at home. with 1 me who zips around non linearly and may have say 60-100 hour days. just pretending there are hours and each hour is exactly like on the earth.
Not sure if I'd have just 1 me or a few me's, but I'll decide that later. I think I do sorta understand being multi dimensional since I think I've experienced it once in a while now. First time was back in january. and during the past few months I think I've experienced it a few times, maybe more then a few. Though a few over the past 2 months or 3 does feel right.
hard to exactly explain the experience. it was like part of me was off doing something, and another part of me was in this body listening and doing the guided meditation, and each part of me was fully aware of the other part and what the other me was doing.
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I did the 2nd guided meditation that is part 4 of awaken the light body. I do feel excitement to start the next course Radiance: Self Exciting, building the light body. But I'm gong to hold to my idea of going over the whole awaken the light body course one last time since I finished the whole course, before I start the next course.
I ran the energies and it was a sensual pleasure, even the main part of the guided meditation which focused on the 4th (heart light body energy center) and the 7th light body energy center. I experienced them both in the renawre cocoon.
Also early on in the meditation I got the diffident feeling some others not sure if it's my soul parents, guides and or others too do want me to become my own monad, oversoul, or whatever the term is, and are preparing and guiding, nudging me in that direction and I did feel a huge inner excitement at that, a strong excitement as well as the same excitement at experiencing being multi dimensional and having a number of mates, lovers, friends. Not incarnating, but being multi dimensional to be with them, and I'd guess non linear also.
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I was thinking this afternoon. My soul knowledge seems to say a few things. one is that I'm now 8d. not sure what that means. Not sure if monad or over soul or group soul is 8d or 9d. I'll find out sooner or later. Also i do feel my main interest is not earth focused but focused back home and at higher dimensions. I think maybe 4d or 5d, and up. I don't think I'd be active across just the upper dimensions, but across a wide array of them. like 4, 5 or 6d and up to whatever my native dimension is, with maybe, if I can, visits to higher dimensions.
For the lower dimensions I may use my multi dimension nature and or be non linear, and create a body for myself if I need to when I visit certain places.
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not sure if the 8th dimension is one of group souls, monad, oversoul. I'm also not sure if these are all different things, or different terms for the same thing.
I do feel like I've had several selves merge into me. Like I am me, and some other me's merged. hard to explain.
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