Thursday [8-6]

I did the 7th meditation, running the energies was a sensual pleasure.  The main part of the meditation was about staying neutral even if you are around other people who are say angry and such.  I get more form this now that I've read the Quantum Living book.  it is easy to stay neutral & not be drawn into the emotions another is experiencing.  Their energy and emotion need not effect you. 

The guided meditation was also very relaxing. 

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I still feel lke I do want to go home and not be here, though being here does have certain fun aspects and I don't dislike being here. I do enjoy myself here, though I greatly wish to be home and to go home more then I wish to be here.

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i read a bit where some physicists folks are saying this universe is a hologram and we are inside a computer program.  And there is some evidence to show this.  Interesting since I was around 12 I've been able to feel I was inside a hologram.  Though I didn't know of computers much then.  I can feel this is like a holographic computer program that I'm inside of and true reality is the aliens, me being a multi dimensional being, 6th dimension a present, but with the possibility of being able to grow into the 7th or higher.  me being cetacean, unicorn, and reptilian, instead of human.    But I've written on my soul heritages before.  That feels more real, the more reality then here, though here is real, that is obvious.  this is real, but that, my being of cetacean, unicorn, and reptilian, soul heritages is more real, the more real real reality.  Hard to express what I mean. 

and I do hope I go home soon.  I feel that deep down inside.  Though as i said before i don't hate being here, being here has some fun aspects to it.

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I did the 8th meditation today.  Running the energies went great.  the main part of the meditation I missed consciously since i went so deep into being relaxed that I may have dozed for 10 or so miniutes, though since I've not napped today, that may be the reason why.  The meditation was about setting a healing space for others.  My intent was to set a healing space for 2 individuals, online friends of mine.  Though I'll go along with that since that was my intent that it was set, though I wasn't conscius of doing that.  So I'll go with that the meditation went well.

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On the bus, on the way to the place the rpg takes place I had a sort of pop, of soul stuff, like I've had before.  I could have multiple me's and I could be aware of what they were doing.  Then I heard the reptilian aspect/nature, whatever it is say, "that is how source does it."  Interesting.

While I was at the rpg place I had a, hard to describe it, that feeling again, like I had when I was 12.  This is a hologram, this whole universe, or this world, and it's being run by a sort of computer, not exactly.  I can feel the bolts, ties, or whatever that is keeping me here.  I'm like suspended inside this holographic universe.  Hard to describe how I was feeling. I'll try channeling in a bit to ask about this.

I also noticed, while I was at the rpg, I did some writing and did some things left handed.  I didn't really stutter.  I had a spot or 2 where I didn't really stutter, but paused a moment before I continued, but my speech was pretty much normal.  after a bit I wrote a bit right handed, & my mild stuttering returned.  Not a scientific study, but could my stuttering be caused, in part by my writing right handed.  Think I'll channel my future self to ask him/hir some questions.  Who else would understand me enough to answer.  :)

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