From last night, forgot to post before bed:
I was thinking. maybe I was a member of the pod before, but with one of my fathers maybe mad about stuff, not sure about that. I've noticed that neither of my soul fathers have tried to contact me since January. and today my 14d self said not to try to contact my soul fathers. There is likely some friction there. So maybe since Karinus says we were best buds, could be before since i was a member of the pod with no friction with anyone, I was a friend of the misfits but not a member since I wasn't a full misfit, or maybe a member of half member, not sure.
But I think the reason my 12d, self mentioned the misfits to me is maybe since I have no real 'soul family' for support the misfits may invite me to join them and they'll be a family. My 12d self I think it was said they are close, friends, lovers, family. and he did mention they would grow to be like a family to me. Great and neat. Guess I am a misfit really, whether I am or not doesn't matter. I am looking forward to this and I'm sure there's a reason my 12d self mentioned this to me now.
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I think part of why i feel alone here is there are few that I really resonate with on this world. Something like that. Not sure exactly sure how to describe it. not sure if it the density here, the level most people are at. It's likely a mix of things. maybe part of my sensitivity is I can feel the non resonating I have with most here on this world. and likely that is why I want to go home But what is my home like? No real soul family. Maybe few lovers or mates, not sure about that. I may have like my 12d self said, most of them are content waiting till I get back, going on with their lives till then and the ones who did contact me are having 2nd thoughts, which is fine. my 12d self did say it would eventually work out. The feel I got from him is once I'm back home.
and he did mention the misfits. I put it in my channeling section for today. The feel I get is I may be friends or something with them since. I have watched the misfits of science theme & the music does stir a type of emotional memory. I can't quite consciously remember, but the emotions are there. Very close friends, varied species, close like family, closer then family. we pal around, have fun. No clear conscious memories, but emotional memories with like hints of memory, hard to describe it. I won't push, it may pop up as a poof moment at some point. maybe I was a member before I incarnated here, & maybe I was just a friend, a close friend, to some of them.
I listened to the theme song while doing a relaxed non thinking meditation. more emotional memories like I said before. memories like on the tip of my tongue that I could almost remember. I could feel they were there but not really recall them. Though the term of science struck me as not right, not the proper term. but that could be due to what my 12d self called them, the misfits, and he didn't add anything to that so they may be called The Misfits. That does feel right, The Misfits, as their title for themselves.
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While going to the grocery store and on the way home I talked to Karinus off and on and he talked about stuff. Like he's at present on a small water world, a place we use to go to all the time he said, meaning every decade or century.
He talked about the misfits when I asked about them saying Longbeard is the oldest of the members. They call him that since in many species having a long beard means you are really old. The feel I get is it's a kidding type of nickname and he doesn't mind.
He also said, when I kiddingly asked, are the misfits like a band or something. He said the are an unofficial band. Some members play a musical instrument, some sing, and some think musical notes.
he said that he can't yet extend me the official invitation to join since they have to all agree, but he was very sure they would all agree since I was good friends with them before incarnating here. Then I was pretty much a dolphin, orca, (I felt beluga too though that was not mentioned) and a bit dragon, with being a full pod member, but I've been recreated and that's changed big time.
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a bit after I got home I was writing down some stuff and Karinus told me that they have decided and he came to extend the offer of official joining the misfits which I accepted, he said I'd get along great with all of them. Some of them would wait till I got back home to introduce themselves to me, some I would be meeting slowly over time. Instead of me meeting them all at once.
A bit after that I got a congratulations from both of my soul mothers. both seemed happy that I'm now and official member of the misfits. my dragoness mother saying I'll get along great with them and will fit right in.
I'm excited, though I'm not sure what it really means, perhaps a soul family type relationship. My 12d self did say they would be close friends to me, lovers, family, since they grow to be that to him. Interesting, and exciting.
Just remembered something that Karinus said. Shi said that among their
songs, they took The Misfits of Science theme and did some editing of
it, like to remove the of science & mentions of science lyrics so
you'd not ever know it was there in the first place.
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I'm glad I'm past some purgings I went through over say late last week through Friday or so. Maybe part of why my energy felt so weird Thursday and Friday and felt almost normal Saturday, must have been very deep purging or something I wasn't consciously aware of.
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Think I may try channeling Karinus today.
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I did the 12th and last meditation for part 5 and running the energies was very fast. Orin never gives enough time so I just sorta ran the energies all at the same time, very briefly and then went to the 3 light body centers, even though the Vee isn't introduced till the next part.
This was mainly about connecting with the masters at the temple and then one's fellow students, to create a gridwork of light. First the masters did then they invited me to join then the fellow students and I created one among ourselves that I helped to ensure was linked up with and identical to the one the masters had between them. i found out I had gotten ahead of myself and was doing a latter part of the meditation before I was supposed to but it all worked out.
I also heard from another one who said. he was one of the misfits and there were some others present but I'd not know who they were. I could see at the beginning there were various races there, an avian one, I think some dolphin or orca looking ones, some reptilian ones and other races, none of them humans. i also was in what appeared to be an anthro orca form. I just mentally shrugged a why not and kept that form. The master who worked with me was reptilian, or at least he had reptilian scally and clawed hands.
Overall a great meditation. Very interesting.
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I did the 1st meditation of part 6 and running the energies was a sensual pleasure. This meditation introduced the Vee, the 3rd and last light body center, different then the light body energy centers.
Daben had me do stuff before he introduced the Vee like hold the Renwaree cocoon and he did the vocalization for the Fullonia a few times. The sensation was similar to when I cross my eyes, but focused elsewhere. though I did feel my Renawre cocoon feel different.
Then he introduced the Vee. During the vocalizations I did feel the light of the Vee fill my Renawre cocoon & the space within with it's light, changing how it feels, Then I had it fill the Fullonia cocoon and the space within and I could feel the different feel of the light from the Vee and the Fullonia cocoon had a different feel to it too.
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Though I put this here Spitfire and I had a brief conversation during this meditation. I thought what Maribelle said, though maybe said in a kidding fashion, was also a bit insulting since she said it in a way to put down another. Saying mares are more intelligent then stallions and another person and I think the universe revolves around us. not that I'm mad it's just the energy from that feels insulting. I do at times try to feel things as energy since in the manuals and meditations Orin & Daben do mention trying to see or experience this or that as energy and I find , when I do think to do so, I often can do that.
I asked Spitfire about what she thought and she agreed. She said though if say it were said just among mares where each could feel the others were just joking and not serious, it's different to say it when a stallion is around and especially one, that she said to put it as nicely as she can, isn't at his full faculties (which is true, my being incarnated here, likely I am not fully aware as I am at home, though I am much closer today say then i was a week ago, and way more then a year ago.
She said she did make it known to Maribelle her views, and I felt a sort of chilly feel to her energy as she said that. She said Maribelle got a bit emotional, she always did tend to be. I mentioned she seems much more mature then when she first popped up and said said that she does have her shy side too (meaning herself). She said it was fine for us, me and her to talk. Though with all the negativity and denseness of earth she does need her breaks. and she is busy at times. She didn't say but I know part of what she does is something like a tour guide to visiting folks. Also I have felt before that she likes to spend time with all her friends, family, and time alone, so if you put all that together, it does keep one pretty busy.
So it seems I do have Karinus, whichever of the misfits will pop up, Spitfire (though I won't talk to her as much and or just for short periods), and of course my 12d self. sometimes my 14d self but I feel he'll make rare and brief appearances.
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I felt Karinus give me a mental type kiss and hugging me close with a mental image of hir putting hir hands on my butt instead of around my back like a more regular hug. I kissed back, felt like some sort of energy bodies of ours were doing this. I kissed back and after a moment's hesitation put my hands on hir butt, on either side of hir tail. Shi said, "there, now you have it. just a bit of something before you get up out of bed." She said. Nice, certainly wasn't expecting it.
I did the 2nd meditation that is part 6 of awaken the light body and running the energies was a sensual pleasure. I felt some energies in my left knee that I thought may be an early sign it would bother me. I did various things like focus on sending energy down my entire back and back of my legs to maybe alleviate that, maybe it worked since my left knee didn't bother me at all.
The main part of the meditation was focused on the vee. I could feel that it was a sensual pleasure also. Felt like floating with a type of light all within and around me. hard to describe it. After the meditation I feel light, a maybe higher light then the fullonia's light, all around my energy, again hard to describe.
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I did the 3rd meditation for the 6th part of awaken the light body and running the energies were a sensual pleasure. The main part of the meditation was similar to the previous one. Though Daben added in a ball that gradually opened up like a flower. I could feel it adding to the vee light frequency, hard to describe. All in all a great experience.
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From one of my online friends I got the idea on to post on how things are since I've been writing mostly with my left hand. My stuttering is basically gone. I do have speech stuff pop up, but it's more like what I hear some normal speakers have. Also not sure if my having been writing left handed for several weeks now was part of why i had that purging that I did. maybe it was that and or maybe it was the various me's merging together. or a mix of things.
Having been writing mostly with my left hand, practicing daily, my writing pretty quick looked about the same as my right. it's just that now several weeks later I seem to be slower writing and doing stuff like playing Dr Who: Legacy tablet game (sorta like bejeweled) is slower then if I use my right. Though I've not yet practiced handwriting. Though for checks and such I did do it right handed.
I'm sure it's just a matter of time. I had been practicing writing with my left hand the sentence, the quick brown fox jumped over the lazy dog. It had gotten boring but I figured since it has all the letters it would be good. lately the past half week I've instead been writing letters like I read in book 2 of the manifesting magic series, and that is more interesting. you write letters to whatever power you believe in, I choose my oversoul, about what you want, your fears concerning that, why you want it, what excites you about it, ect. so it's more interesting, though hard to tell if this will be a long or short letter. i am doing them 1 topic a day, in the same notebook I as doing the practice in. and my writing is still usually about as good as my right, but slower, and sometimes it's extra sloppy, but not often. not sure if its cause this is a right handed notebook, or other reasons. I"m sure it'll just take more practice. After all due to the 1st grade teacher told me that writing with my left hand was wrong and kept at me about it, it's been 40 years, so I am not surprised I'm not equally speedy writing left and right handed. I'm sure I'll increase given time.
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