I've been thinking it over this morning and it does seem that I have really almost no one I can talk to about my experiences on a regular basis. 1 online friend is to busy and I only can talk to them rarely and they are to busy to read my blog postings. another online friend I see around say twice a week, but they wouldn't understand all the stuff going on with me, only a certain section of it. That is fine. I do these mostly as a conversation with myself and a way to help organize my thoughts, experiences the poof stuff I get. And help me notice stuff I didn't notice at first or when I first experienced it.
Helps to go further in showing my ties here are weak indeed. The ones I talk to the most regular re non incarnates. the only incarnate I talk to is Gaia and I don't do that daily since she is often just erotic and talking about sex. There are others like my reptilian self and some mates, who are around as interested in sex talk stuff or more then just talk.
A few like Alura, my future self, both my soul mothers I can have a conversation with that doesn't include sexual stuff. Not that I mind sexual stuff, but why so often. I guess since I'm a sexual being, but that's fine. At least I have some i can talk to about non sexual stuff. and the sexual stuff is soul sexual stuff not human sexual stuff.
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I did the 9th meditation or part 2 and running the energies went very well indeed. The ranthia one felt especially pleasurable.
The main part of the guided meditation was about compassion and seeing yourself as a master with a master's compassion. I did pick a person for the first one, for the 2nd one I picked 2 initially, then went through, quickly, the Thursday rpg group that I rp with, including ones who are not with the group anymore. Then I picked the intent everyone I've come into contact with, even if it was just sitting near them, and never spoke to them.
During this I was even more aware of the VERY strong desire and urge to go home, instead of being there. I assume this is normal and I'll continue being there till I do go home, whenever that is.
All in all the meditation went great. I was also around medium as far as relaxation and trace dept I'd say.
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I've been thinking. How does this being a multi dimensional being work. is it that the other me's are like clones, carbon copies, all exactly like me. or is it that the other me's can be individuals too. Like my former twin flame strongly prefers being a female dolphin type being, the reptilian me strongly prefers being a reptilian and a male. Whereas I'm more central leaning in that I'm a herm, though perhaps a male leaning herm, and flexable as to what form I'm in.
or are they or me all aspects and that is the way it is, we're all aspects of a soul. or is it that being multi dimensional we'll not be all carbon copies but do develop our own personalities, which really are moods but just that that particular me is in that mood or preference permamantly.
I do hope I figure this out, though I think I may just ask.
I also wonder is it like a hive mind where there is just 1 thought, mind, or do we have our own thoughts and feelings. And if I were back home, would I be aware of what they are doing as they are doing it, or do I have to sort of focus my attention a bit towards say the reptilian me, maybe as easy as turning my head to the left a bit, and for my female dolphin being former twin flame, turn my head a bit to the right. or maybe close my eyes and meditate. Or is it more like I remember what they are up to as they do it, like we have a common memory bank type thing, and our personalities are just shades of the same personality and not that different from each other?
Think I'll re read this entry and ask. I am curious. Not sure who to ask, which me, or Alura.
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running the energies went very well for this, the 10th meditation of part 2. This meditation was about journeying to the dimension of the gas beings. It's another dimension then this one where there is no gravity. I didn't feel like I go the full experiences, but I could feel some stuff. I did hear an occasional sound, I think, in my mind. Didn't really see anything. Blending with them was interesting. I did feel their energy, the master's blending was far more subtle feeling then the other being, the one who sponsored me, as Orin called it. It was a very interesting sensation and experience. I did feel that the being who sponsored me was sorry for the meditation to end and did want me to return. I do hope to return. I did till him that I could during my dreams maybe, though I'd not remember it likely. And once this incarnation is over I'd like to visit so I can get the full experience. and asked him to send me occasional reminders. So if he does, perhaps one of those reminders will be either when I can project again, or once this incarnation is over.
During part of this meditation I also had Alura talk to me. I got a mental image of a reptilian being, no idea how large she was. I did get the feel of her being very reptilian and very female. She and i talked a bit, though briefly, since she picked a time during where Orin was talking about what this meditation was going to be, and the dimension we were going to and the gas beings. I've done the meditation before so no biggie if I missed part of it.
Anyway what Alura wanted to talk to me about was about us being mates. She said if we were it would like 2 halves coming together, similar to twin flame and nagi, mates but not like me and Shalamane being mates. She said it would help me to raise up to her level. I could also hear in my mind her doing some sort of sound with her throat, can't describe it, not a growl really. Some sort of mateship rite or something I think, maybe the start of a mating dance or something prelude to 2 becoming mates or part of the process. I did then experience a short bit of me being relaxed and her going on top of me, us being the same species type of bodies and my penis going into her, though this was an energy thing. I only felt it briefly and lightly, like it was meant to be a taste so I could think of it. it felt like our energy were blending, coming together to blend, and I was being cleared out more, and starting to rise to her level.
I thought it over during my time with the gas beings and I then told Alura I accept. She said it would be similar to me and my twin flame, me and Nagi, but not exactly the same, and we'd be mates, but not in the way that Shalamane and me are. something like a monad level, to halves or selves blending and flowing together.
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