I have heard from the gm of what use to be the Thursday group that he moved to Friday nights. And as I suspected the fact I would have to leave an hour and a half would be to disruptive or annoying. he did not say this but was sorry i could not continue playing when I did say that I understand if my having to leave early for every session would be to to annoying or disruptive so i could drop out of the group if he prefers.
I take this to mean it's time for me to move on, rather then staying with the group. So now I don't have a weekly thing I do to get out of my apartment. As I said I'll investigate other options. one is if I want to I can do an organized play of Pathfinder.
I do feel a loss since I do enjoy rping, and this means I'll be a total hermit. I'll investigate finding a group in some other systems like Savage Worlds and 5th edition. Though what I'd really would like is if the Illume Dharma group would meet every month or twice a month instead of around every other month or 2, since they met 2 or 3 times since I joined in late February.
Though as I assume this is a sign it's time to let go of the former Thursday group and move on. Interesting if one look at it, all the releasing and changes.
Seems all of my former mates are not my mates anymore, Spitfire, Maribelle, Shalamane and the others. The Thursday group moving to Friday nights, and I can't remain for the whole session due to the bus system.
Oh well. I guess it's a sign I've grown and time to move on, leaving things behind. I do hope greater things will come into my life, and or that I'll be fully going home very soon. Though who knows if that is possible or not or will happen.
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I do wonder once this incarnation ends, which I feel pulled. most of me wants to go home, but part of me wants to help with the shift. I do hope that doesn't count as unconscious suicide, like what's his name in Astral City. But if I could pick a date when I'd like the incarnation to end. I'd say at the latest, within a year after I finish the Orin & Daben audio courses I plan on taking and doing.
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when I do return home, I wonder if I'll be active only with the misfits or others also. Will I and we do this multi dimensional? Am I and the misfits all oversouls or monads together in a family? Are we personalities that are a family together. Think I may ask this when I channel later today. I seem to be channeling a lot lately.
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Like usual when I awoke I choose to remain laying down and energy started being streamed into me like usual. No idea why it happens, I assume it's my true family, the part of me not incarnated or something else that streams energy into me. It comes in waves. It happens also if I am say watching a stream and relaxed mentally and thoughts, hard to explain. Also if I close my eyes while sitting and do the relaxed thinking type mediation, it happens again. I assume it's for my greater good.
Will the 1 difference today was someone from Scarlett's group popped up and mentally asked if they could stream some energy to me while I was doing that. I mentally shrugged and said sure if you want, since I didn't mind.
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