Had a bit of a morbid dream last night. In the dream I was in a largish room with sofas and across from me was a friend and to my left on another sofa type was another friend. the 3 of us had been friends for decades. though here in rl I don't recognize any of them. We were in our 60's or 70's, and we got to talking about not to be morbid but one of us will go first. and the 2 left would still have each other as friends, it would eventually get down to just 1 of us, and then life would be likely sad for the 1 left. Though we do have other friends, it's nothing like the 3 of us share.
No idea if the dream as any message or if its one of those fantasy things that has no meaning.
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While waiting for the bus to go home, I could have walked home, but for a quarter I could wait and not walk 30 minutes in the heat of summer.
While waiting I thought it over and think I may prefer a shoulder bag instead of a backpack, for stuff like going to the Thursday rpg.
Though the backpack I has an external bit where I can put the hoodie part way through it so I can take it with me and be hands free since it won't fit in the backpack. I have to take it since many places, like dlair are feel like they are freezing since I'm VERY sensitive to the cold.
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I also talked to Alura a bit. It seems she either downloaded or I recall some of the memories she had mentioned before and now.
She said and I got memories of, in another universe there was a race that was created. Sorta, like Alura said earlier, from elements of what some would nowadays call, Naga, and western & eastern dragon. Now I'm not sure if this reptilian race came first and maybe they used elements of this race to create the nagas, western and eastern dragons.
but there was an avian race that tok some dna and created what is today called the alpha draconians.
This original race did come to this universe in the very early days to help with some things like creating and mentoring some of the youngest races of this universe, then they ascended, or something, back to the higher dimensions, and I guess some may have returned. This was so long ago this universe may have largely forgotten this race.
Alura also said that the race name isn't translatable into English. And by now the vast majority of the race has ascended & evolved into the upper dimensions/densities. She could be considered maybe one of the lower since there are some that are way above where she is. though she does temporarily lower a part of herself to more easily converse and talk with me. this race is ancient indeed, by the reconing of this universe.
Then she talked a bit about what is an uncle since from a soul point of view, he's a sibling of my dragoness mother. He did test me earlier, during part 5 maybe of the awaken the light body. And judged me worthy of being protected by him. Alura said he has more of a mentality of a positive alpha draconian as a natural part of his soul personality. So though I could have done better overall I did very well. She thinks I did fantastic, though no matter how well someone does, there is always room for improvement, and also considering where I am I don't have full access to my full self, memories ect.
Then he came into the conversation. Saying he did indeed take into considering where I am, and that I don't have access to my full memories and such, and how humans, and others, program and condition from birth humans incarnated here and taking everything into account I did do very well and am worthy of being protected by him. he said he's one of the stealth guardians. Alura said to me then that he could teach masters about stealth.
I asked him if he could help teach me about my true inner strength and power, uncovering this conditioning, that I feel I don't have much left, but if he could help with all that as well as about my true inner strength and power and he said he would. He said he'd come up with a name for me to call him later.
I suggested how about Uncle since he is my uncle, soul wise. he agreed and said to add in p.a.d. so Uncle P.a.d. to Uncle pad, so I don't need to keep adding in the periods since they stand for Uncle Positive Alpha Draconian. Humorously I asked if he'd want to be mates, since others have, just joking around with him, and he said no, if I was willing we would more likely be lovers or friends with benefits type of thing. Which I'm willing. he said though at a soul point of view he is my uncle, he's incarnated and genetically we're not related in the positive alpha draconian way.
A bit later I thought it over and asked Alura, if that older reptilian race counted as a 10th soul heritage and she sorta of shrugged saying, elements of it were already in my soul heritages of naga, wester, eastern dragon and alpha draconian. I asked if those could be combined and any missing elements from her be added to give me a 10th soul heritage, that reptilian race and she said sure. I felt like a shift of something happen inside me, something indeed happened, and she said later she'll teach me of the ancient heritage. i think later she means after I've done the light body audio guided meditation, the kindle books I plan on reading, the few, if any, non light body courses. Which my dragoness soul mother & Alura have both said that stuff combined, if I do it while I'm incarnated here will provide an excellent foundation for what they, and others, will teach me later, about being a stellar being (though not needing to incarnate as a star), being a monad, and now the heritage of this ancient reptilian race from another universe. And I guess other stuff like crown prince stuff.
Uncle pad said, not sure why he mentioned it, but it's like he is an incarnation, a fully 100% aware one, but I could take up the crown prince duties and not be incarnated since i am, a child, directly if her (my dragoness soul mother) wither I incarnate as a child of her's or not, either way is fine, so i can be an ensouled being and still be a crown prince.
I've been told away from here, Earth, with say the pod, unicorns, and I guess the nagas, positive alpha draconian, ect, one can be an ensouled being or incarnated. Neither one is better then another, and it's all about personal choice and preference, since either one offers certain advantages the other lacks.
I'll stop here. I'm surprised this went on for this long. i thought it would be a short thing.
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I did the first meditation for part 2 and running the energies went well. The ranthia was a mild sensual pleasure, the first 3 light body energy centers were less so, but still to an extent. So overall this went well.
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I also remembered some stuff that I may be asking Alura about later. As I recall, there were some races that in the early days of this universe, came into it to help create and then mentor the first sentient races. After a certain point they, for the most part, left the universe. Though some individuals did remain as guides to some of these from this universe. As time went on, that wasn't needed as much. Though some of the beings, or aspects of them, or something, not sure exactly what label to use, did choose to incarnate or to have experiences in this new universe.
There are many universes, some centered around say 1 theme or idea. Maybe 1 being, let's call it Bill, and all bill's aspects and aspects of aspects. Another may be on the idea of gas beings, no gravity, 1 couple and their descendants, or a few couples and their descendants, or 1 group that are all mates to each other, or other ideas.
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I also did ask Alura, that since I seem to remember some of her memories, or maybe she downloaded some to me, not sure how it works, but the exact details don't really matter. and i use she since though she is a herm or has male and female energy, she does feel primarily female, at least at this time. Anyway I did ask her if my deciding to remember all of my soul parent's memories included her since she's a higher reflection of the monad I was able to reach and converse with, or I could also call her my monad's monad, if it would include her, and she said did I want it to. I thought it over and said yes. Since I may gain more wisdom and such that way.
Not sure what it'll lead to, but I'm sure it'll be interesting and fun.
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I was thinking about frustration. it's not really anger, but it could lead to anger. In me at least it's a mechanism, or something, that is showing me, this is not fun, do I really want to keep doing this. If it's something I fully control, like say a video game. I can just stop playing it. Since if a game is frustrating, it's not really fun and I don't have to deal with things that are not fun. Frustration can mess you up emotionally, give you headaches and such. So is not harmonious or positive, beneficial. There are some that I can't control, like in an rpg system like I play on Thursdays, those I have to try to feel unemotional about it, not let that bug me or frustrate me, though I can still think certain rules are stupid.
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I did the 2nd meditation for part 2 of awaken the light body. Running the energies & overall the main meditation, which was feeling the ecstasy of the Ranthia, all went well and it was a sensual pleasure, for each light body energy center and overall.
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During the meditation, at spots where Daben was silent or talking a bit, but not really very distracting, Uncle Pad talked to me. he's the positive alpha draconian who's one of the stealth guardians and at the soul level my uncle since he's a sibling of my dragoness soul mother.
he was comparing the 'so called elites' that think they control this world to 6 year old who claim they control a neighborhood when they really only control those 3-4 year olds who are either to scared not to do what the orders, or don't know any better. The control goes away for the 4-6 year olds who look around and learn the truth. And the adults of the neighborhood see him as a sometimes annoying, but very nieve 6 year old child that he is & smile at some of his claims and beliefs.
he said he's been in many of the so called secure bases of the elites. and has made a study of humans, so understands them better then most who have never incarnated on the earth.
he also overlayed his energy a bit with mine. I could feel his energy, very dominant and very male. he said he greatly prefers to be male, & to incorporate some of his energy. So I could feel his domanance, since though He knows I'm not into the dominance submissive thing, I'll need to be dominant sometimes. it was an interesting experience, feeling that. hard to explain what it was. Incorporating some of his energy, feeling the dominant male, dominant herm type since my spirit body, or whatever it is, is a herm. Uncle Pad did say though I'm a herm, I'm like 55-60% male leaning, so say 55-60 male and 45-50% female. That doesn't add up to 100%, but I think he means my mood may shift a bit more towards being a female at times, or being a balanced herm, but it's usually more male leaning, and at times balanced. So sorta mixed, but that is ok.
I also tried to see if I could feel where he was and could feel a presence like his to my back and right. Which he congratulated me on, feeling where he was.
he then gave me a short guided meditation during Daben's, saying it was possible to be effected by other's energy, especially here. and some may unknowingly put some negativity upon you.
he said was to imagine a shower or rain of white light. it falling around and through my energy, and my physical body, my very being, a wash of white light. As it falls it either washes out all the negative energy I have unknowingly picked up or others unknowingly put on me. imagine it washing it down into the earth where Gaia takes it and transforms it to a higher frequency, leaving behind in my own energy light and higher frequency energy, free and being my true self.
Think I'll do that one regularly. i feel great after doing it and it is short, and easy to remember. I'll remember to color it since that is nearly word for word what he said.
Also remembered Uncle Pad also said that Chad, my former shadow aspect, is one of my guardians. he can manifest external for me, but doesn't like to stay to far for very long. Nice.
Also remembered that I had some odd feelings, parts of my skin felt, odd, hard to say what sensation it was, prickly maybe, and I felt hot, not in a hot summer, but a hot energy also, around me. Uncle Pad said it was or 2 reasons. One was due to the shift the earth and some on it are going through, up to 4d, but also due to the fact that I've gone up a step or 2 myself, doing the awaken the light body course, having some revelations and such, my own evolution and shift is also effecting me, so those are the 2 reasons. interesting.
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