While I was taking a nap, more of me popped up to integrate into me. The energy this time felt, sorta fuzzy. Hard to describe. Now, a few hours later, I do feel slightly different.
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I did some masturbating this morning, focused on my oversoul self. Felt like we got closer. It said something about it helping to clear me. a bit afterwards I felt like it was happy/excited.
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I was going to stick with doing 2 meditations a day till I get finished with the 6 parts, though this morning I got an idea I may speed ahead and do an extra meditation or 2 some days, and get done early, then I'll go back and do some of my favorite meditations or those I've had a great experience with since I've started saving those in a special folder. I don't label them as coming from this or that part so if I do them, it'll be a surprise, in some cases, which part this one comes from.
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had a bit of a dream fragment I recall. I was finished with what I was doing and was heading back and I had to walk into a somewhat restrictive hallway that had stairs that had a door I had to go through. I seemed to have come in from the expansive outdoors to this and was finished with what I needed to do and was heading back. I heard some sort of sound and knew it was a negative type there mean to cause me fear and I found it a bit annoying and just continued along the stairs going down. Instead of walking down the stairs I did as I do in rl when I'm alone and jump down them so I get down them faster. I awoke as I open the door.
The only thing I can guess what this is is maybe symbolic of if I was out of body doing something and part of me was heading back, the restrictive hallway and stairs could be symbolic of going from wherever I was to the restrictive earth and having to go down to 3d or 4d to where the physical body was, and the negative type that did the sound or voice to try to fool me may have been symbolic of either I have no fear anymore, and or their influence on me isn't there anymore, though they may try. Not sure if it was symbolic of being focused on me or just everyone incarnated on the earth.
I think I'm pretty clear except for some doubts that pop up and slivers of a shadow of a thought that use to bring me slight fear but doesn't anymore. though also I do have to consider some of this may be caused by me picking up the energy or other stuff from other people who live near me, maybe those who walk or drive by. I'll continue doing the various meditations to clear myself of the energy of others, maybe start doing it often through the day.
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I did the 1st guided mediation for part 5 and running the energies was a sensual pleasure, but also the main meditation was a pleasure as well. This one introduced the Fullonia and it was a great sensual pleasure. I could indeed feel it pulsing, to a degree, but also as Daben did his vocalizations, and sent the energy, I could feel the light of the fullonia shining out and covering the whole apartment and beyond. The last time or 2 I could feel it had grown much larger, to the fullonia cocoon.
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I did the 2nd meditation in part 5 and running the energies was a sensual pleasure, especially the Fullonia. I was hit with vertigo again, and in the meditation I went very deep. i was both elsewhere but also doing the guided meditation as well. I don't recall the other places I was, I do recall I was having an idle conversation with someone which I don't recall was to interesting. Then I popped off and came fully back briefly, then part of me was off again. Overall an interesting experience indeed. Maybe a bit more of me teaching me about being multi dimensional maybe, in doing 2 things at once, in being 2 places at once and fully aware of both.
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I did the 3rd meditation of part 5. running the energies was a sensual pleasure like usual. The main meditation introduced the Saha, the 2nd light body center, totally different then the light body energy center. That went very well. I could feel the Saha, including when I moved them, especially then. I went fantastic.
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I did the 4th meditation of part 5. running the energies was a sensual pleasure, for the light body energy centers and the light body centers as well, the first 2 introduced, the 3rd one isn't till part 6.
The main meditation was meeting the planetary logos Gaia. She at first was a glowing vaguely humanoid form, then later a ball of light. We did merge as in the guided meditation, but only partially since she said it would spoil the surprise. I could feel what it was like to be the earth, it as interesting, but I know I would not like to be a planet, or incarnate as one. Not my thing. But that is ok since I learned some things and it as interesting. She gave me some sort of medallion that was gold colored and was shaped like a half circle with rays coming out, like a rising sun. She did say my other mates and lovers are all doing well, but are busy. I could feel her sexual and love attraction towards me, like usual.
All in all an interesting meditation.
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