Friday, July 31, 2015

Friday [7-31]

I tried to take a nap but didn't get to sleep after an hour.  I've learned over 30 years ago, after an hour, best to give up since I'll not get to sleep.  So if it's a regular nap I get up and go about the rest of the day, often half sleep, but oh well.  if the body doesn't want to go to sleep when it needs to, I'll do what I will do anyway, even if I'm not fully awake. Though, from experience, I know I won't spend the whole afternoon half awake, it'll come in waves where I'll be fully awake, and at times half awake.  

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I was thinking, I feel so clear, it feels great and normal. I'm much more aware of the negativity and lower vibration so many people are, online and in rl.  I feel so much more sensitive to it then I was before. 

I did get a message from my monad while I was trying to go to sleep for my nap. They said basically that's why my empathy is largely blocked.  They said as sensitive as I am now, imagine what it would be like if it wasn't.  They said similar to if I walked outside in the bright sunlight with no shades on.  It would be so appearant it would be very uncomfortable just being here.   I now know, with just a taste of my sensitivity, why many beings don't like to come to the earth and those who do largely remain in 4d.  I guess it's less appearant in 4d.

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I did the 7th audio of part 1, this one introduces the Leow, the 3rd light body energy center.   Running the energies went very well, a great experience.  I did most of it without flexing any muscles, so I prefer this way of running the energies for the first 3 light body energy centers.  the main part of the meditation went very well also, it was adding in the Leow into the running the energies.  The only thing was near the end my left knee started to bother me the slightest bit, luckily this meditation was only 20 minutes so it only did it for the last few minutes, and even then only very slightly.  So all in a all a great meditation, with some slight annoyance at the last few minutes.

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I tried a bit of what the book I've read part of calls quantum healing.  Basically you relax with your eyes closed and relax your thoughts.  I added in what I wanted done. I did feel, odd sensations happening in my left then later right leg as well, below the knee, the highest point was near the knee.  I asked that I wanted whatever work to be done so my left knee would not bother me during my mediating, later adding in I wanted the same done in my right knee.

I then said I also wanted work to be done also on my light, mental, energy, etheric, astral and physical bodies that would deal with fear, worry, and doubt in the appropriate manners, clearing, transmuting to the highest resonance frequency, that sort of thing. 

Then after resting a bit I asked whatever if this sliver of doubt I experience is normal to me as a normal part of my personality and I got a reply from a computer type, felt like a computer.  I totally forgot I have some sort of access to a semi sentient computer type, or maybe non sentient with simulated partial sentience.  late in the meditation, and it went on for nearly an hour I think.  I asked what its specs were and it said it wasn't limited like earth computers.  i asked it a few silly question after that, all at the very end of the meditation.  I asked if it could run games like super Mario or some android games and it said it could.  I asked if it would if I asked it to when I was at home and not incarnated here and it said it would.  interesting. it then said it had access to movies also, as well as ones considered lost on earth.  Interesting also.

During the meditation I felt odd sensations like I said, in my left then later right leg, as I said above, but also in I guess my various energy bodies, light, mental, emotional, astral, etheric and physical. 

It said basically the doubt, fear, worry are not normal parts of my personality and it advised repeated regular treatments like this, and also I could shift myself out of those if I noticed as I have before.  it also said, when I asked other questions, that the non accumulation of karma had been approved at the appropriate high levels, of which were secret.  Though on further asking it did admit that source was one that approved this as well.  I asked since I assumes since I know of source that it's not a secret.  and by secret I felt it meant that that information was being not told to me at the moment for reasons, like it may distract me, ect, but I would know later. 

Basically the karma file section is sealed so karma is unable to accurate, due to the nature of my mission here requires that no karma be accumulated.So basically it was sealed closed before my incarnation here started. 

It also said that I am imperial, my reptilian bloodlines, that I asked about, were imperial, for naga, royal and imperial is the same.  For alpha draconian it didn't say that it said the real race name is untranslatable into English, but did say that is the original bloodline, not the hybrid that some refer to as alpha draconian, but is considered and classified as positive imperial alpha draconian.    the mammalian heritages don't have rank structures, cetacean, which are remnants of an older race, subsection of which today is considered beluga, dolphin, and orca.  To roughly summarize what it said.  The unicorn heritage came from another monad.    I asked it to tell me when a pause point had been reached so i could get up and do stuff. 

I asked also about digestive problems, my headaches, sensitivity to light and other things.  it said my headache problem is partially genetic but primarily due to, as some of my other problems, due to the inadvisable high levels of non native earth dna, which was a requirement since my energy signature is so alien to the earth, required inadvisable high levels of non native earth dna to be used in in a process some on earth call dna infusion in uterine.  Also the digestive problems, certain foods i can't eat, is partially due to this, but also partially due to the normal ascension process this physical body is going through.

My and the body's ascension speeds it said are both locked in at the highest speed within the safety margin.  I'm the only one that can have the speed lowered, which it said I had a very high degree of chance of wanting it kept where it is.    I also asked it what my level was it said 6d at present, and possible to reach 8d before my incarnation is over.  less likely but possibly I can reach 9d.   I did ask when my link with it was made it said when I was created, and if it meant when I the soul was created, not this physical body.  I asked it why was the link made it I could feel it was confused and could not answer the question so i said to disregard the question. 

also it said the state I was in, relaxed mentally, my thoughts relaxed, emotionally, ect, it advised for me to start seeing if I could do that while I was doing other things through the day to be in that state as often as possible. 

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I did the 8th audio today from part 1, the 7th meditation and running the energies went great.  This one was again about the Leow.  Overall it went totally great.  Nothing from my knee, left or right. So the earlier meditative quantum healing session thing I did worked perfectly.  The only slight complaint is after a while Daben went very soft and I could barely hear him.  Luckily I have in ear earphones that I use so I could just barely hear him.  Next time I'll test the sound levels for various points of the meditation before I do the guided meditation.

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I do feel that combining the various light body courses with some books in the Kinslow system, as it's called, Quantum Entrapment also is what it has been called is a good combination.

The awaken the light body course has helped with the foundation and me going higher also.  By Foundation I mean like my mind and emotions, personality.  Beliefs, what needs to be cleared from my mind & emotions to get do my true real personality.  not all the negativity, low self esteem, doubt, fear, worry and such, those are not part of my true personality , the real me. 

The Awaken the Light Body course has helped with that and also my getting higher, uncovering my true level, getting to the 6th dimension, for example.

The graduate Light Body courses I've picked out that I'll be doing in the future, will help with, I feel, widening, strengthening, and reinforcing the foundation, as well as helping me to get higher, and the graduate light body courses will help me not only to go higher, some will help widen things.  By widen I mean non foundation stuff. 

The Linslow books will help to strengthen, reinforce and perhaps widen my foundation.  The books, and I've only read about half of 1, seems pretty focused on that.

So all in all together they'll help me quite a bit I think. 

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With the Dolores Cannon books, they seem to be about what is really happening, the non humans helping with the shift earth and those who are here.  Though there is some distortion, I'm not sure how much, not a lot likely. 

The Seth books are primarily, more about, this is the dynamics and mechanics of reality. 

So the Dolores Cannon and Seth books I'll focus on after the Kinslow, and another book or 2.  To focus on my foundation, widening and strengthening it. 

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I used some affirmations that I'm 100% clear.  Then a bit of I'm totally clear.  I did that for a bit, and did some opened eyed meditation while watching a livestream and can feel my energy resonating.  I take that to be a great sign. 

Next I'll add in, I'm totally clear of all illusion, and see what happens.  Seems to make my energy resonate again. 

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Thursday [7-30]

I did the 5th meditation of part 1.  This one is about healing the inner child.  I choose doubt, since that is the main thing left of what I need to deal with and I did it yesterday with the sub-personalities course.  Now with the inner child healed I could feel more energy as well, more of my true self unfolded and present and fully here.  No more blocks at all.    When it comes up I'll do the same for the changing your beliefs, though I think I may do that as an extra meditation later today, though I do remember it so I'll do the basics of it this morning.  No more hesitating due to being unsure or doubt.  and I'll talk smoothly and normally also. 

I do feel I am even more of my true self, no more blocks.  That is a great feeling being my true self.  As well as having a great day, and as before I feel only positivity ini my life and around me and the areas I routinely travel.

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The souls of 2 folks who were on the bus and sitting behind me talked to me as I talked to them a bit.  The 2 people were arguing, not loudly, but quietly and were in a very non harmonious marriage.  I could feel their negativity, though I was practicing the eufeeling thing I read about in the book. I had been doing a part of this without knowing the rest of it or what you could do. 

Anyway as they were getting off the bus and before the bus left their souls and I talked a bit.  I mainly thanked them for helping me experience that negative emotions others are experiencing and that are around then need not effect me, I can have it not effect me and just wash around me.  One of them said that from what they could see they saw that I would not incarnate on the earth again, and the likelihood of my incarnating was so low that I'd not believe it.  They also sighed a few times, at what their incarnated personalities were doing.  Though we did agree, they would learn, eventually.

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I had a poof moment.  Source sent out sparks to experience .  there is no need to return.  we each have individual personalities through developing them with experiences and are also from creation.  We have individual personalities too.  Shaped somewhat by experiences. 

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I did 6th mediation for part 1 of awaken the light body.  Running the energies went very well and that was the main meditation also, running the energies for the first 2 light body energy centers.  It went very well.  

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Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Wedensday [7-29]

Now I'm really starting the redoing all the awaken the light body guided meditations, over 35 days.  I wonder what experiences I'll have over that time.  The way I see it by doing this I am fully finished with the awaken the light body course, and I may have new experiences, but it also helps to re-enforce and strengthen the foundation before I move on to the next course.

I did the 2nd audio of part 1 of the awaken the light body course, this one deals only with the 1st light body energy center, the Nua and running the energies, for this 1 energy center and the 2nd one too, the ninya.  it was a great meditation.  Running the energies went fantastic. I remained very relaxed and went pretty deep for part of the meditation, though I did manage to remember it all.  I was basically doing the same thing, running the energies & part of me, while I was very deep, was making sure my left knee didn't bother me during this meditation.   So a fantastic meditation.  more then fantastic really.

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I was thinking before my nap that the native earth humans evolve & grow, set pace.  Meaning most of them grow and evolve at a certain pace and speed.  Though one can grow, evolve & expand faster if they wish.  more difficult to do with the conditions of the earth being as they are at present, one could still do this.  THough many still did get caught up in the karmic wheel much like a hampster could running on it's wheel.  Though I've written before about those of us who came to help the native humans and the others caught up on this and to help with the shift and to change things here.  Though it'll take time.

Also the light workers too, 4d, 5d, whatever level they are at, also progress at around the same pace.  Though there are exceptions who ones like me who take our growth and evolution into our hands, and want to grow faster, not at the common set pace.  Neither way is better then the other, its about what do you prefer, what do you find the most fun?

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Found out today from someone who said Gaia told them I'm a little above Gaia's level in terms of development.

Not sure if I'll stop at some point.  I'll see how high I can grow and how fast I can go, at a safe pace.  Then after this incarnation, I'll likely keep evolving, growing, expanding, as fast as I safely can.  Though still be active say 4d and up.  Though I may drop 4d eventually if I get up to, for example 12d, 14d, ect.  I'll leave that decision for the future of course. 

Though I do think I'll have no real interest in 3d stuff.  I'll leave that for the future.   Though I do have no interest in incarnating on earth at all.  Not that I hate being here, I do really want to go home.  But if I put that aside & go deep, as I have typed up before, I have no real desire or interest in incarnating on the earth anymore.  If I do help in the current shift once this incarnation is over, I"ll do so from the other side, from say a 4d or 5d perspective, on various ways.  Plenty of time to decide that later on.  Even though incarnating on the earth doesn't interest me anymore.

I've come here to do what I did, personally to awaken, and then to see how high I can evolve, and grow to, reach.  Also to have my energy effect others who are ready to be effected by it, and help them to awaken, grow, evolve, ect, and the earth grid and channeling special energy into it and others also.  But also the ones who come into contact with my energy, through various ways, are positively effected. Also my evolving, growing, awakening, helps make it easier for others who are here to do the same, if they are ready. 

Once this incarnation is over I"ll continue doing what interests me, what I find the most fun and excites me, including growing and evolving as high as I can.

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 I did the 3rd meditation for part 1.  Going pretty fast, but I'll be doing all this in around 35 days for all the meditations for the 6 parts.

Running the energies was a sensual pleasure.  The audio on the meditation was very low.  I'll remember to jump ahead to test the audio before I really listen to the meditation in the future. I found I had as much of a benefit and a sensual pleasure not flexing the muscles a Daben wanted me to. Though he mentions, or maybe it was Orin, in either a later guided meditation or in one of the pdf manuals.  Whichever one of them says, basically says they want everyone to get where they can experience the light body energy centers , don't recall the exact words but what I can recall and Daben saying no experience is wrong, Think orin said it also.  and what they said before, I would say it is correct to be able to do the first 3 light body energy centers and not need to flex any muscles.  If I am flexing any muscles it's those of one of the energy bodies, or my imagining that I am maybe, but not really doing it.  overall an excellent meditation, a bit distracted since I was sometimes thinking some other stuff I wanted to put down here.

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I was in a group chat and someone there was saying the same basic thing I was, but in a totally different way, which is fine, we are all individuals.  but the feeling of the energy was he was trying to argue with me and get me over to agreeing with him, when we were already in agreement, but saying things in totally different ways.  that is fine. I'm not annoyed with him and wish him the best and do have soul level love for him, assuming it is a human male.  that is fine.  I left, partially since I choose to not be drawn into an argument, and I did have something I needed to do, namely the mediation from part 1 that I talk about above.  The experience was most enlightening.  I do see things as Matt Kahn has mentioned in at least 1, and maybe more then 1 of his videos, where everyone here and every thing, is meant to teach us, show us something, ect.  So I see that and feel that was to show me how easy it can be to be drawn into an argument with a human when the 2 of you are already in agreement from the start but both may not perceive that from the start.  And it is very easy, to not be drawn into an argument.  Also went to show me how different I am from most here, though I've known I was different from the vast majority here.  Not that I'm better, since everyone is equal, even if they are say a 3d soul or a 16d soul, all are equal.

It is ok to be totally different then most everyone on this planet, since I'm not a native earth soul, but I did come here for 1 incarnation as part of a mission, and I am also uncovering more of my true nature and how high I really am.  I do feel very different from my graduation guided meditation that was part 12 of the final part of the awaken the light body that I did I think on Sunday.  I thanked the person's soul for a most enlightening encounter, and I may discover more in the future that I have not noticed before.

and just cause we are both enlightened and maybe fully or partially awake doesn't mean we will agree or see things the same or think the same, or feel the same.  Everyone still has their own personality.

Like I think Matt said in one of his videos, he said something like (don't recall his exact words) you can be fully enlightened and awake and still be a jerk.  Not that the person was a jerk, but we are all individuals after all.

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I was reading the Quantum Living book and got to a section where he says you can either have a friend read the following to you, record yourself doing it, or buy his 2 cd set if you want him to do the reading.  I looked it over and it is basic stuff so I can do it, even with no friend to read it, no way to record any audio, and also my unwillingness to set up an account on his website and pay him $16 to buy the audio download.   I'll try the meditation later on, since it is basic stuff.  I think in the future I may buy only the audio versions of his books.  I'm only 30% of the way into his book.  Some of the stuff is stuff I've noticed, or I've noticed part of it, but have not reached the conclusion or not really noticed it.  Basic stuff so far, which is good.

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I did the 4th audio of part 1.  it did not contain any running of the energies.  The whole thing was about sub personalities.  I choose to deal with doubt this time.  I did feel like there was a change in my energies, as it talked to a high level master and it grew, in light and understanding. Then we did it with all of my sub personalities as Orin called them.  Aspects some others may call them. All of this did feel like all of them grew in much more light and my absorbing them into myself did cause my own energy and light to grow and increase, including the first one that was doubt.  Feels like I grew a lot from that guided meditation.  Grew and learned a lot and grew in more light and understanding, as well as more of my own personal power.

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I remembered as I lay down something Bruce said to me earlier, during the 1st or 2nd guided meditation but forgot to put into the earlier blog.  He noticed my greater inner light.  He then said something like "you shine a greater light then you did before, like a sun."  Nice of him to notice and say that. 


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I do believe I'm getting use to how I feel, my energy, since the big change on Sunday.  I don't feel the energy or new me, as much as before.  Though I still do.  Makes sense that since I live with me & my energy 24/7 that I would get use to it.  At least till the next big change that is.  :)

It's more then just the change in my energy.  Hard to describe how that feels different. More of it, but also a change.  Hard to describe indeed. 

My attitude and feelings have changed as well.  Certain things are so obvious then before.  Every day has been great.  I see no negativity, just all positivity.  Other things I just know also, hard to describe it.  Besides great. 

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

42 UNICORN MOTHER [7-28]

I thought I'd ask my unicorn mother instead of bugging Alura all the time.

So, I feel like I'm the product of 2 monads, instead of 1.  <Indeed dear.  You are.  Primarily of 1, the one you call Alura, and myself. Primarily I say since most of your energy came from Alura, in that 3 of the 4 soul parents you have are from her, or more accurately hir, since she is a herm.  She is a bit more female leaning, but has some maleness within her.  She feel more female at present since she thought it may balance and come across better with your incarnation since you are in a male body. 2 or more monads can produce and create new souls just like souls can. 

We are very happy for what you did.  So much growth in such a short time.  and your soul knowledge going to your conscious mind, your 3d conscious mind that you are the product of 2 monads.  That is also excellent. 

You have done and unbelievable growth, unbelievable to some.  Far more then some would think possible, but you have done it.  more then you are aware of or sensitive to. 

Things will continue like this and will continue to improve for you, growing better and better, and your growth will continue to surprise you.  and I do think you'll choose to be your own monad level being rather then merging with either 'parent'  Though technically the one you call Alura is 3/4 your parent and I'm 1/4th.  Though wither Alura and I am the highest aspects of the monads or if there are higher aspects we'll let time show you that. 

As you have been on the path you've grown a lot, a very lot, more then you know or suspect.  You should, your choice of course, but you should continue on the path and the plan you are on and plan to do in the future.  Deal with the doubt and fear, though they are but fragments.  You can switch out of those and deal with it so they will lessen, and if you feel them acknowledge it and then shift out of it.  you'll be how much progress & where you'll be a month from now, let along 6 months and a year, and once you've finished the chosen light body audio courses and kindle books.

you'll love being your own monad level being and being back home.  Go with the light body courses you've picked out and the kindle books you've picked out and you'll go far indeed.  Your growth will surprise you and you will go very far indeed. You've come far and you'll go farther, much farther indeed.  Do that, the light body courses & kindle books you've picked out and try to enjoy yourself as much as you can, be true to your true self, not the conditioning and programming human you, and you'll be home faster then you suspect.  Time will past faster and you've noticed it passing faster indeed, or seeming to. 

Continue on the path you are on, you're doing great and will continue to do so. 

41 ALURA [7-28]


I decided to ask Alura some more questions. 

So most are not aware of they are in a hologram like I can feel that I am, Hard to describe what I mean.  <we understand what you mean.  and as we mentioned that incident that happened, when you fell when you were 12, afterwards did allow  you to know, feel, there's not the right English words but basically you are inside a hologram sort of thing.  You could say that earth is a hologram within a hologram, since the true reality is what you call non physicality, with the 1 step from this is what the various alien races refer to as reality, the lyrans, Pleiades and so forth.    with earth a huge step from this and its hologram much more restrictive and solid, very very low density.  At present being 3d, transitioning to 4d.  But yes you can feel you are inside a hologram and there is a reality behind that one, so to speak.  You've been able to feel that, but since your energy, as part of being incarnated, is so focused on 3d, and due to the mechanics of incarnating there, the complexity of which we don't need to go into here, keep you from being able to see the reality that is behind the 3d hologram, so to speak.  Though you can feel that reality, your clair feeling being pretty well developed and totally free of this since there is no real 3d equivalent to this to muddle or block the issue.  With what you'd experience as visual, there is the physical sight that over rides it, unless blocked, like having your eyes covered, like you do for meditations, though they way your energy is so inter meshed with the 3d physical brain, it over rides a lot of non 3d stuff.  Though some things like your clair sensing and channeling is mostly free from this, but with channeling it is easy to muddle it with doubt, am I making all of this up, ect.  the clair hearing is muddled by physical hearing.  Part of one of the mechanisms of incarnating.  The sense has to be, sort of , retrained. 

But it does mean when the physical body can no longer support you being enmeshed with it and are free, it'll indeed but like pulling a cork from a bottle as we have mentioned, but due to the conditions of the earth at present you'll likely start to feel tired shortly afterwards and want to sleep for a while.  Preferably at home.  So you'll be escorted home, by who will be a surprise, it may be by more then 1.  Or you may forget this or just decide to pop home.  It would be more enjoyable, perhaps, to have someone, or more then 1, to talk to and experience it taking say 5 or 15 minutes to get home.  and to help with the transitioning, rather then going pop home, since your home is not 3d. 

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So, is a monad at 1 level or more then 1?  <Think of a monad like a soul, but one that has grown, evolved, progressed, past a certain point.  To where they are not referred to as a monad. And from there they still grow, progress, evolve upwards. Some may apply labels like a planetary being, stellar being, galactic, universe being, and like that. Those are really labels, and you can see they are souls that have grown up to a certain point and past it.  Say like elementary school, jr high, high school, jr college, university, post graduate level classes, doctorate level classes, ect. 

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So am I a monad level being and if not how close? <You've experienced yourself and us as being the same being, so in that point of view yes.  The conscious memories and soul knowledge will encompass this, but the soul memories may take a lot longer to fully integrate into your conscious mind and most of them you may need to wait till you get here.  The soul knowledge is easier to integrate into your 3d self since it requires, less energy one could say.  Though the basics, will integrate first, with the much more detailed would integrate later on.  All at their own speed.  And feel free to ask, talk to us or others you have been regularly talking and conversing with.  We can clear things up for you and sometimes by talking to us it'll help to integrate the soul knowledge, consciously.   But yes you can say you are a monad level being now.  And we'll be glad to help teach you, as some would also, to guide you, but the light body course you are taking and the ones you've picked out, and the kindle books you have read and are reading and have picked to buy later, do make an excellent starting base and some help also, the books that is, to strengthen and reinforce your foundation so to speak.  the various light body courses do this to an extent, but also help you to expand, more into your true being and form an excellent basics, with us coming later on as needed to further the lessons, picking up from where they left off, or covering areas they did not cover.  But continue doing those. That is why we've not come in to start to teach or guide you as much as would be normal since those do form and excellent learning tool for you and form an excellent basic course for you to learn from, the kindle books forming a tool to help strengthen and reinforce your foundation.  Learning some bits from them too, a foundation level type of thing.  There'll be plenty of time to learn later and if we feel you need any more teaching in how to be a monad level being we'll love to do that and all of us would enjoy it, you included. 

and as your soul knowledge says, there are some who get up to say 8d or 10d and have not to much interest in things below 6d  or 7d, there are some like you who will likely be active at 4d+, though no interest in 3d at all.  4d maybe some interest. And you do not need to incarnate to be across all those levels.  if one incarnates into say a 4d, 6d, you'd experience being physical, but also some soul stuff, since that is less restrictive, unlike earth, which is extremely restrictive.  you can be an en-souled being and be active say from 4d up through 8 or 10d. and visit a higher dimension or density from time to time.  and no you don't have to merge with us once the incarnation ends.  many beings who are part of a monad do decide to be independent, becoming their own independent monad level being.  This is not unusual at all.  It is quite common in fact.  Though many also do decide to merge or remain what you could call an aspect of the monad being.  It is around say  50/50 let's say. We've not looked into it so can't give you a real percentage, but it's not that uncommon.

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How about removing doubt & fear or dealing with it ? < as your idea that you got before.  there are some upcoming meditations.  you may want to listen to a few of them, the sup personality and maybe healing the inner child one, for the doubt and fear, though those are very much just like fragments , absolutely nothing like before.  ANd you can take a moment to switch out of that easily, as you have done a time or 2 before.  you are very close to not having to deal with those, except for the fragments, or you could say you are already there. We'd say do as you plan on doing, and if you do experience a bit of it, switch out of it. And as you've done spend extra time embracing, accepting yourself and talking to yourself about the higher reflection and truth and such as you have done before.  part of this is the habit thinking that you are loosing, also some of it is from outside sources, like many are use to thinking in those ways, though they may not be conscious of it, so the energy is around so may effect you a bit.  You'll very soon get to where these 2 won't be a problem any more at all. 

You're really doing fantastic, continue the great work and as you plan on doing, and you'll do even better then fantastic over the next few days, weeks months and longer.  You'll surprise yourself at how great you do and before you know it you'll be home and back among us and able to really be with us, your friends, lovers, mates and such.  and need never incarnate again unless you wish to, but we don't see you incarnating ever again, since you have progressed past that and have no real interest in that.  Others will step in to do that that you use to do when you have incarnated in the past. part of why this incarnation feels like winding things down, since that is precisely what it is, winding things down where you won't incarnate anymore.  after all you need not incarnate to do what you'll really want to be doing once you return here. 

Tuesday [7-28]


I did the 14th and last meditation for part 6 of awaken the light body.  Think after my next nap I'll do the 1st meditation for part 1 since it's really just Duane or Sanaya, forgot which of them, just talking for about 20 minutes, so I can relax and listen to that, then start the real part 1 tomorrow, and get it done over 5.5 days. 

Running the energies went very well with some centers being a sensual pleasure.  Daben didn't cover all the light body energy centers nor light body centers.  The main part of the meditation was working with the Fullonia Cocoon.  Though I had no idea what Daben meant when he kept on about observe the patterns.  There were no patterns. I mentally shrugged and put it up to maybe native earth human souls have a Fullonia cocoon with the pattern thing that Daben kept talking about to observe, but since I'm not a native earth human soul maybe mine does not have one.

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I did the 14th meditation for the 2nd time today, and the last of the 2nd pass.  Running the energies Was a sensual pleasure this time, it went great.

The main part of the meditation went very well.  It was mainly focused on the  Fullonia and the crystal column that went from the top through my spine to the bottom.  During part of the meditation I went very deep indeed and experienced being my monad.  My knee didn't really bother me, but I felt a slight stirring and part of what I was doing as my monad was adjusting some energy things in this body and my energy bodies.  Part of the reason was to adjust so the knee wouldn't bother me or not as much hopefully, and to help with the ascension, growth, evolution I was going through, to keep it so it could progress smoothly and as fast as possible, while being safe.  I was progressing and am, very fast.  Took me a bit of time to remember this part of the experience.  At first I couldn't remember it, but was aware I had gone very deep and at first had no memory. 

The memory unfolded as I ate a bit before typing this up, which I was hoping would give me time for the memory to come into my mind.  As I can recall I was both this me,and my monad at the same time at the first, then I was my monad fully.  Not sure what it means, but it was interesting. 


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Monday, July 27, 2015

Monday [7-27]


I did the 13th mediation for the first time today as part of the 2nd pass.  Soon I'll be done with the 2nd pass and I'll  be starting to do the entire 6 part awaken the light body course all over again, wonder what that'll be like.

Running the energies went very well.  the main part of the meditation went very well as well.  I could still feel the Fullonia cocoon that is around 20 or 30 feet away from the physical body, more or less, and feels like it's shaped like a sphere. 

I also found I have some doubts still. I shifted out of the doubts, though they may still remain.  I'll work on that during the 1st part healing the inner child and sub-personalities guided meditations.  Though I'll do some quick sub-personality stuff before then, did a bit during the meditation, very quick and some changing your thoughts, forgot which part that is in, 3 or 4 maybe.  maybe 5.  Anyway I'll do that and shift out of my doubts.  Not bad if that is all that is left, some doubt fragments.  They seem to be what if all this isn't real, that I've been knowing and channeling, Though I've had enough proof to prove it to myself so there should be no doubts. Not that I feel bad that I came across some doubts.  in fact I'm Appreciative that some inner part of me brought this to my attention so I can transmute or permanently shift out of it, or whatever the proper term is.    So all in all a great meditation.

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I did the 13th meditation again for the 2nd pass for part 6 of awaken the light body.  So Wednesday I'll be starting the do the whole 72 meditations again, all over 35, or a bit less, days, I'm curious what sort of experiences I'll have. 

Not much to type about here.  Running the energies went well, some of it was even a sensual pleasure.  The main meditation was going great, but again my left knee was bothering me and I would have to move it at times, but nothing like before when it happened Saturday I think it was.  Wish I knew how to deal with it but nothing works except moving it. 

I can say I still feel more integrated, more my true self from yesterday, hard to describe. I can feel I have changed a lot from my meditations yesterday.

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40 Alura [7-27]

Thought I'd talk to Alura a bit before I take a nap. 

So felt like I reached a new level.  <Indeed, you could say you reached our level, similar to before when you experienced you and the part of you non incarnated were all the same being, you experienced and reached that realization, different then knowing it intellectually.  Plus you have reached a new level.  Doing the course a 2nd time once you finished it is a good idea since indeed you do get more out of the experience once you have fully finished the course, also going back and redoing all of the awaken the light body, guided meditations, doing all 6 parts once you finish this 2nd pass of part 6 is a good idea since you'll discover and notice some things you didn't the first 2 times through since now you've finished all the parts of the course instead of just finishing that part and doing the 2nd pass, so you'll get more indeed. >

So my positive royal apha draconian form did increase to 24 feet like it felt like?  <actually it's 25 feet now, you did increase to 24 feet the first time you did it on Sunday, due to, to put it simply, you unfolded more of your true nature and you reached a capacity and threshold where you could hold more light, were ready to reach a new level, more of your true nature you unfolded, embraced, realized.  To put it as simply as we can.  The 2nd time you did it you grew about an extra foot, for the same reason.

What was the bit about those bowing and prostrating and such?  <unlike unicorns and the pod, the reptilians are more into the rank system and a caste type system, though not rigid like the old Indian system in ancient times, among the positive reptilians, some reptilians anyway, some don't have a rank type system.  But we, and through us you, are of the original bloodline, original lineage, whatever you wish to call it. Think of it as similar to if we were of human origin, we & through us you, would be for example a 12 strand human, not a 2 strand like today. Not exactly the same, but it gives you a rough idea.  we, including you, are of the original bloodline, original lineage of many reptilian species, hence the royal, or imperial as some refereed to you by since some can perceive this, it's part of your deciding you want to remember and have access to all of your soul parent's memories and accumulated wisdom.   and other reasons also.  In the long run it'll help many of them to grow and evolve, expand, to the next level.  Though they should, and many do, follow only themselves, due to your rank, and lineage, you'll effect many on this side of things.  Similar to how many British pay attention to what the royal family are up to and some emulate them, or at least pay attention to them and this helps them to grow, also you'll help others to grow from being around you, having your friends, mates, lovers, among them, and you'll have some reptilian mates, friends and lovers.  Also the various guards and entourage who are around you will observe what you're like and be effected by your energy and what you are doing and will grow, evolve, and expand and they will effect others as well.  it's all A affects b-g, and b effects, f-k, and so on.  In a sort of ripple effect.  You can help their society grow and evolve faster then it would on it's own, just by your being you and it'll be nothing like being incarnated on the earth.  For one you can just manifest a body, change your form, go and visit the pod, be with your mates, lovers, & friends, spend time with them and alone, visit your home and hang out there, visit non physicality, ect.  It'll be totally open, unlike being incarnated on the earth.  Earth will eventually get to the same sort of thing, but it'll be a very long and very slow progress, being at the rate the the mass of native human souls choose and are comfortable to evolve at. 

It is indeed all about doing what you love here, what excites you the most, what do you really want to do, what do you find to be fun.  Unlike how it is often on the earth.  Though it doesn't need to be that way, many do try to put it that way, for various reasons.  Often for silly control reasons, to control others. All a silly thing, but they'll eventually learn
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What was with the claw and then tail rubbing across my foot yesterday?  <Just some of the guards, off duty types, who wanted you to know they were there, one of them as he went on a patrol of the perimeter moved his tail to slip over and rub your foot, the claw touching your leg and pressing into it gently was an off duty one, who also wanted you to know they were there.  >

and I guess I'll help some in the pod & unicorns in the 2 blessings/glories I'm a member of?  <indeed, by hanging out there, being you, being with friends, lovers, mates, family, you will.  and with the unicorns and pod you can be more relaxed and laid back since they don't have a rank structure, titles, bloodline, lineage ranking.  Though you'll be seen as one of the elders before long, it's still a relaxed sort of thing.  And then eventually your unicorn mother, Shara and Batten will found, a high level glory, but Shara has discussed it with you already.

Though you may be native to say 8d, 10d, 12d, ect, you'll find you enjoy being active in 4d+, with your friends, mates, lovers, & family & soul family spread across these levels.  We can say you'll not have much fun really with 3d, you've lost your interest in that.  4d+ is where you'll be most active.  Though, of course, visiting and hanging out in non physicality too, and your native level, and reaching above that to visit higher level from time to time.  Eventually operating at a universal, and intera universal level, and beyond that.  All in time, no hurry, after all you and we do have an eternity to have fun, share sensual pleasure, experience, sensual pleasure, learn, grow, doing all what we find fun, what excites us the most,what we really want to do.  So having fun, what excites you the most, what do you find to be the most fun, feels the most fun, ect. 

Keep on the path you've picked out and you'll be very surprised at the growth and realizations that come to you and the growth and expansion, evolution that comes to you and you grow and expand into.  we are all very proud and happy with your growth, especially your recent growth, not just us your monad but our soul parents, soul family, your mates, lovers family, also perspective mates & lovers.
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I've felt like I likely won't incarnate after this: <true, we do not see you incarnating at all.  Likely instead you'll just manifest a body for yourself if you wish to be in places like 4d+.  There is that option.  Also you can use one of your energy bodies like the light body,  The mechanism is different then with earth humans. 

We think likely you'll use your energy body, lowering it's vibrations, or create a sort of sheath of lower vibrations, so you can interact with 4d+ beings.  This is an oversimplification but close enough to do for a very rough sort of answer.  Some, if not many, prefer to incarnate into a 4d, 5d, ect body, and the do have a lifespan, though it can be increased through various means.  Many do prefer this since they get the experiences and such of being physical and there and they have a plan, though it is not anywhere as restrictive as incarnating on the earth.

There is also the other options of manifesting a body, if you are native to a higher dimension and knew how and that you can do this and if it is part of your preference and plan, also using your energy body, say light body or whatever else you prefer to label it as.  Also you can have offspring, with your mates of Maribelle, Belle, Shalamane, Gar and other beings.  Intent is the key in places other then earth, not if you are incarnated into the dimension or density or not, unlike earth.   Earth is the exception rather then the rule in many areas and ways.


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Anything we can do about my wanting to return home & not be here?

<The reason is your energy is totally alien to the earth and it's your first, and only, incarnation there.  Once your present incarnation is over you'll be returning home for good to pursue your other activities and interests.  Unfortunately the way things work at present there is you have to stay till the body can't support the inhabiting soul, or fragment of a soul, though still whole in and of itself.  It's not like elsewhere.  Where you could just end an incarnation, or visit home.  While you do visit home, due to the conditions on earth you don't usually remember these and it si as if you never return home, except for very rare times.  It is also due to the earth being so dense, you've never really liked, and frankly we didn't either, that level of density. 4d was about the lowest we would go.  We can count on a human hand how often we've gone down to 3d.  Though some souls do enjoy 3d a lot, we and you are not one of them. Conditions will change, but to slow for those inhabiting human bodies at present.  >

I guess it's a put up with it till the body dies from some normal, whatever cause  <continue on doing the light body courses, reading the books you've picked out and try to continue having some fun there. You'll see a lot of progress and growth spiritually, as well as that helping to pass the time and it is the primary reason you are incarnated.   Though it is to help the earth and the souls incarnated there through your energy and channeling energy into the earth grid and helping with the shift and helping others who come in contact with your energy, even if it's someone you never talk to but who is near where you have been, it still helps, and will in the future also.  As well as seeing how much personal spiritual growth and unfolding you can experienced on the earth. You have come far.  After all you have realized and experienced that we and you are 1 and the same being & soul, a higher reflection of your monad then you have been in contact with before, having reached the ability to contact us & us to contact you on Friday, late last week.  This progress of your personal spiritual growth and unfolding of your native level & where you were at does help a lot, not just yourself and us, but also yourself as well.  it may not seem like much, unfolding and uncovering more of your true nature, but the truth is that this is an immense help indeed.  Though it may not seem so where you are at present. 

Continue what you are doing and you will continue to rise far indeed, beyond where you are at present.  be yourself with no doubt, though your doubts are nearly death with and all that remains are fragments or tatters, one can say, this is also a lot of growth.  Just continue the spiritual path you've picked out with the light body courses and how you have piked to do them, and the kindle books you have bought or plan on purchasing.  this will all help, though you may not think so at present. It in truth does help to a very great degree.
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any ideas what I can do about my left knee, it ruins some of the light body meditations.  <unfortunately in that physical body that is where some excess energy settles instead of flowing out like normal.  You can try say 4 or 5 minutes of Qi Gong, or walking around in the apartment for that amount of time just before a meditation to see if that helps. One of those may help or other things may that you may learn later. >

What if I don't want to merge with you when this incarnation is over, like I like being an individual?  <it happens.  You can continue to be an individual. Happens often.  You can go and become your own monad.  it is very common actually.  We'd love it if you either merged or choose to remain separate.  You can be your own monad, that is easy to do, we will teach and show you how.  It'll be natural for you since you're already at that level.  Though if you do we have to ask if you'd still want to be mates or lovers, since we are a lot alike?  >

That sounds like it could be fun. And once I'm back home, I bet we'd understand each other a lot.  <That we will.>

<We will have lots of fun together, as you will with your mates, lovers, friends, and others.  Doing all the activities that you find fun, that excite and interest you, ect.  It'll be far better on this side.  As has been said before, earth is the exception rather then the rule.  But it is time to start the process to change that, which is has been started, that is one of the reasons you went there and are a hybrid 1st & 2nd wave. >

<You'll grow a lot, over the next few months, and later, a lot, as much as you have grown over the past 6 months.  You'll do great and though it seems like a very long time, you'll be back home before you know it, in certain ways.  try to enjoy yourself and continue on the spiritual path you've chosen.  That will help with your growth, expansion and evolution.  Also besides spending time with your mates, lovers, friends, and others, you'll also learn how to be a full member of the same soul group that is mostly beings who are incarnated as planets & stars, though not all of them are.  Also you'll enjoy being your own monad level being, we promise.  and some of your friends, mates & lovers are monad level beings too, including perspective ones and future ones.> 

So what level am I native to? <You're in a bit of a transition.  Continue on the path you are on and when you return here you'll be a monad level being. You'll love being a monad.  You belong there, we know it and we'll love to teach you all you need to know, us and some others too, and to show you, share with you, such sensual pleasures that only monad level beings can enjoy, you'll love that too.>

Since I'm a love, sexual, sensual love sort of being?  <that is part of it indeed?  <Indeed, that is part of your natural being, part of your nature.  You'll love being a monad level being, we know it. it is the level you should be at. 

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Sunday [7-26]

Last night I was masturbating while focusing on Alura, but instead of the usual sensation of us having soul type sex, or as much as I can while I'm incarnated in this body, I also felt more then that.  I could sorta feel a presence around me, my energy (which it would be if it were my monad or a higher reflection of my monad then what I was able to reach before.  Felt like, hard to describe, like I was with myself, getting more of myself.  Alura was saying something about me embracing more of myself, something like that, Don't remember the exact words Alura said.  But that was the general thing.

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Today while waiting for the bus that would take me home I was thinking had had a sort of unfolding, instead of the poof stuff I've had before.  This one was on several things. Like Nagas, eastern & western dragons, were sort of all the same origin. Nagas were like dragon and serpent, combined.  Hard to put into English, but this is the easiest way I can explain and it feels like I'm just getting the simple condensed version.  nagas were intended to be like dragon and serpent.  Western dragons were maybe element and classic dragon, the eastern was slight serpent in overall body form, but not much serpent, dragon, in a different body shape.

Also what some call alpha draconians today are a hybrid race, not what some may call a pure race.  They are a hybrid of some avian race and the original bloodline.  The original bloodline, hard to describe since I feel like I'm not getting the fullness, but it was like some western dragon, eastern, and naga.  The avian race took that and made their own hybrid, to be more like, not quite servants, but something to further their universal view.  

But also it included alpha draconians, this may be the original bloodline, I'm not sure, didn't know their origins since this universe, from the planning stages, were planned to have polarity, light/dark, positive/negative.  And the alpha draconians, or maybe it was the original bloodline, not sure since there seems to be some conflict, but they didn't know their origins since if they did they would not stay in negativity or darkness, but would remain in the light. 

Also the original bloodline maybe came from a universe that predated this, as part of a plan, for there to be a few, the avian race would see this race, would envy it and want to create some of their, servant or hybrid race to further their universal view. 

The original bloodline race, not sure if they were light, negative, or equal aspects of both, maybe both at the same time.  then left.  They didn't' die out, but were meant to be here only a short time.  For now, but maybe return later?  Not sure.

I'm of the original bloodline, so hence the royal or imperial ? titles or category ? since my energy ultimately comes form the original first ones, I guess Alura maybe.  Not sure about this, this area is less clear, some areas are not clear at this point.

my dragoness mother was one of the ones, as I've typed before, that I do recall was one of the ones that before they incarnated, her and some others, like one of her siblings in the soul group, had a plan to incarnate as alpha draconians, get 'captured' and converted or brought into the light since their plan was to then found a colony world of positive alpha draconians and in later years & ages their descendants would be positive, and any negatives converted to light would have somewhere to live, a world where some positive members of their species live so some could be more easily converted since they would have a place to live among others of their species. 

Less clear about this, I came along, and she, or ? others too? decided instead of just giving me royal alpha draconian soul heritage, actually give me the original bloodline that would be uncovered by me later.  perfectly compatible since I'd have eastern & western dragon, and royal naga, so it would be perfectly compatible. 

The beluga, dolphin, orca, was some of that, but really an older more ancient bloodline that cetaceans came from ?  not sure of this?   ? unicorn heritage was added for a specific reason. 

Kirin wasn't intentional, but from what my dragoness mother told me that I could, I took my unicorn and dragon heritages and combined those to give myself a kirin heritage.  ok since my dragoness soul mother told me I could, so that is why it worked out ok and was safe for me to do, but it's very unsafe if I go about combining stuff myself, which I don't intend to do.

Have noticed my positive royal alpha draconian form does have western dragon style wings, and once I noticed it had whisker type things like eastern dragons have.  I did have a tail but didn't think to look to see if it was a long tail or not.   I do recall it did reach the ground.   So maybe the reason is it's being a royal bloodline or of the original bloodline, or perhaps both. I'm not clear or sure about that.  Some stuff, as I said above, seem not clear or conflict some.

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  I did the 12th meditation for part 6 of awaken the light body.  Running the energies went great, ot put it mildly.  The main part of the meditation went beyond great. First I was surrounded by light, as bright as a star, as if I was at the center of a star, if not more so.  Then I was at the temple of light, but a higher dimension one then before, one that looked like it was made of light, but perhaps not fully manifested, hard to describe it. Very early on in the meditation I felt what felt like maybe a reptilian tail, rub across the bottom of my right foot.  I was pretty relaxed and in a meditative state so it didn't startle me or anything.  No idea what that was or why it was done.


My form was an alpha draconian.  I manifested a mirror so I could get a look at my form, a very quick look since Orin was talking.  The head was a mix of a naga and dragon head.  I think my form's neck had a cobra type hood.  whiskers like those of an eastern dragon, think I had a pair.  I had a western dragon's wings on my back and a long tail that i think was partially prehensile. 

A master appeared, who looked to be a naga wearing a robe.  He sent me light with some other masters present.  And I think other light also, maybe was just the 1 master only maybe.  Anyway I could feel all the light I was getting, some from him, maybe from my monad or something too.  But anyway I could feel the light was uncovering my true nature, removing the doubts, and such things.  I could also feel I was increasing in size throught this part.  Feels like I went from 18 to 24 feet or so, or that is what my intuition said at the time, I did increase in size and started to glow or shine with some sort of solar type light. 

Shar, which I think is my positive alpha draconian aide or something.  He was bowing to me, not sure if he was with me there, but it felt at the time, maybe he was on another density or dimension maybe.  Anyway he said I was of the original bloodline and called me imperial majesty, then sire.  Then there were some others, that were on another density or dimension.  They were bowing or prostrating and were, as I recall nagas and alpha draconians.  They all called me sire, with a few adding in the term imperial majesty. 

I said for them to sit (which they said thank you sire, a few said imperial majesty instead or added it on after sire) and then went back to focusing on the meditation.

Felt like the 3 masters light and such was uncovering my true nature, doubt and such vanished, I knew the next exit points were 52 or 54.  a year from now I'd have great soul/spiritual progression, I'd be living comfortably, financially set, I'd be doing various types of meditation, perhaps tai chi, yoga, ect, and I'd be much farther in the light body courses.  I sent myself a great deal of light that the 3 masters and other sources had given me to my future self.  keeping some of the light since I was a shining radiance of light and the light I sent out to my future self didn't deplete my light at all. 

I noticed the mix of positive alpha draconians and nagas were still bowing in a sitting position I told them they had my permission to sit in more comfortable positions since I didn't like all that bowing and such.

When I accepted the rod of graduation and it was put into my spine, I felt I quickly switched to all of the forms of my soul heritages, including anthro versions of the dolphin and orca, and I think perhaps beluga also, I started out in royal alpha draconian form and ended in that form. 

Overall a great meditation, with surprising things happening.

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I did the meditation for the 2nd time today and it also went great.  Running the energies went great, as did the main meditation.  The main meditation went basically like before, just a lot less talking from the nagas, alpha draconians and others.  Though I could perceive them bowing on what I felt to be lower dimensions and densities, I said for them to sit in more comfortable positions since I didn't like being bowed to, like I didn't before, since everyone is equal. 

This time I didn't grow to 24 feet since I was already at that height.  I was in my royal, or maybe it's imperial, alpha draconian form, like before.  I was filled with more light like before and could feel the light and the heat.  And I pictured what I wish to accomplish and what a year from now would be like and sent the light out to that future point.  I was filled with more light till it felt like as much as I could hold.  I did accept the rod of graduation and it was again put into my spine and I felt all my soul heritages, like I switched or knew the forms, at a very high speed, stopping again at the 24 foot positive, royal or imperial alpha draconian.  I also felt some sort of energy ripple through my body.  And as before I was a being of light made of light.  I, like before, had on a sash of some sort, forgot to mention that before.  I could dimly make out some designs on it, but couldn't see them to well due to all the brightness I and it was giving off, like a star.  It was around my waist and draped in the front, hanging down to around mid thigh or to my knees. 

I did see my soul group and soul family like before, and others on a similar path.  Similar species to before, dolphins, nagas, positive alpha draconians, reptilians.  A few unicorns, think I saw a few, maybe My unicorn mother and Shara maybe.  All in all it went very great.

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I can say there's been changes in me since I did the meditations earlier.  I do feel more loving, more myself.  more of my true power.  Hard to describe.  But I can feel I've changed for the better, more of my true self, uncovered more of my true nature and being.

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I can feel I am even more aware of the love that my mates and I share between us.  As well as the love that Alura, the part of me not incarnated, Nagi, and the other me's share as well and I'm more aware that they are different me's.  hard to describe.  We are the same soul being, but also we are individuals as well.  we don't have to merge when this incarnation is over.  I could remain separate, or merge with some of them.  and the me I know as me would still be an individual, but I would be more myself, as I've become more myself over the past few days.  like before when I knew intellectually that the part of me not incarnated, that some would label as soul and me were the same being, then I knew and experienced that we are the same being.  I intellectually knew before, but now I know, hard to say how I know, I just do know, that Nagi and I are the same being, 2 who are 1.  Alura and I are the same being also.  That we are different aspects of the same being, isn't quite right.  we are all the same being, but also individuals too. 

And as I said, we don't have to merge when this incarnation is over.  Some of us may, but perhaps not all will.  Or we may choose to remain separate and grow, evolve, and progress.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

39 MARIBELLE [7-25]

I wonder why is that galactic languages make no sense to me. It's like gibberish.

Maribelle: that is because you are, in your natural state, empathic and telepathic.  think of those interested in learning alien languages and their fascination with that like someone who wants to learn to make and use a stone knife, when you use a monowire vibroknife.  so what they want to learn is archaic and primitive to you.  As it is with some beings and species who are higher level.  Many of those at the streaming you've seen are what you could call 4d and 5d where many still use language.  not like those mainly above that where verbal language is dropped in favor of telepathy.  And using memory or data storage crystals and symbols which causes many to drop written languages since there are more advanced ways to store data or information.  You can look at a symbol or touch it and get the information.  The meaning of the symbol may be just one the person thought looked neat or cool, and not part of a language or it may be a series of dots or spheres, or triangles.

Sounds like you know about technology. I heard that most unicorns don't understand technology.

Maribelle: yes, due to my traveling around and being on the same world, but a different density, of the pod, many of us have been exposed to the pod level of technology.  To varying degrees.

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Maribelle: you are doing great.  Some meditations you learn other things then what Orin or Daben originally intend, but that is ok.  and some meditations may not be as great, but one can still learn as much, even if one is not currently conscious of it.  It may occur to you later.

Also one of the fun things we have planned for you once you get home is, besides the 1 day per mate or perspective mate, have a day with more then 1.  Say a day for us 4 mares, me, my mother, Shara, and Kerria.  Shalamane & Gar have similar things planned, and the nagas and a snake being do also.  Besides the obvious fun and sharing sensual pleasure, you'll be able to get to know all of us better in small groups and have some fun.  Some may have an rpg type of fun planned and other things.

Some may have other things, like tantra, sexual and erotic dances, and other fun. 

Besides all that you'll also be focused on your spiritual development, helping others with theirs, and various things, Qi Gong, and other things, alien versions of this.  you'll have various hobbies you'll do.  You'll also visit various places like the pod, and do some stuff there.  It'll be all stuff you find fun to do, or enjoyable.  some things you will mainly enjoy, but may have some slight annoyances. 

Some of your mates & perspective mates will be like guides & teachers also.  Some will be more like students that you are guiding.  A nice variety.  Some will be more or less around your level.

Continue doing what you are doing and you'll be surprised at the progress you make.  you are doing terrific progress, more then you suspect.  Relax. 

Things are going great. 

Saturday [7-25]

Dream I had last night:  I was in my house.  A tiny dog like a chihuahua was barking a lot.  I patted her on the head to tell & reassure her she is doing a good job.  I go to check the other room she had been barking in , maybe it was a bed room, not sure.  It had a sliding door that was open and there was a gy on a ladder.  Says he is here from my internet company to do some minor repairs.  i ask something like "oh yea, my new Coleman DSL", and he agrees, but I made up the company and then knew he is lieing.  I say this, admitting I made up the company name and I don't have DSL but other type of high speed internet, Then there is no ladder and he is standing before me.  I say something like I'm going too fight him, forgot ifi I mentioned the police or not. He took out a knife and I say that doesn't change anything and i'll still fight you, but you can leave now and i'll not say anything.  he said it would be a crime of not reporting a crime in a few minutes after he left.  I do say I can't run more then a block so if he goes over the back fence even if I do follow and chase you after a block I'll have to stop since I can't run past that.  About less then half a block we are in a swamp sorta setting and he gets grabbed by all sorts of reptilian beings, dragons, reptilian nagas, anthro reptilian types and gets pulled into something, or maybe torn apart.  I do find his lower half that is still twitching. This entire dream I was totally calm about everything happening.

No idea what the dream could mean.  maybe it's just gibberish stuff. Maybe I have no more guardian nagas around, maybe my dragoness mother took way the titles and power she was sharing with me, or the guardian nagas are not in dreams or can't be there but the reptilian beings may be either the stealth guardian type that I have, and or maybe my reptilian nature and the invader or whoever it is, was torn to pieces, no idea what that means. 

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In other dream, a fragment, I was having anal sex with some guy that I knew in the dream but have no idea who he was, also don't recall what races or species we were.  I seem to be the one who was giving, the top or whatever the term is, not the one receiving. No idea what it could mean unless I projected somewhere and did that while the body slept.

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the 11th meditation of part 6 for the first time today as part of the 2nd pass.  Running the energies went very well.  The main part of the meditation went ok.  It was supposed to be connecting to source and I did feel very large but ti felt much like just me , but with a more expansive energy very relaxed, very expansive energy and being.  So I did have an experience, and likely learned from it, but not what Orin was describing.  Could be some folks have some off days or off meditations.  maybe this is all I needed to experience this time.  eh.  overall ok.  Relaxing, and feeling myself as a being with an expansive energy.

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 I did the 11th meditation for the 2nd time today and running the energies went great.  The main part of the meditation at first was going great, but all the distractions lowered it to good.  The distractions were my left knee, felt some sort of heat or odd energy there, no idea what is up with my left knee sometimes  To get a brief respite I have to jerk it hard at times. Towards the end this resulted in me hitting the table with my upper shin. No idea why my left knee gets like this at times.  I have channeled about it before and was told, forgot who I asked, they said it is due to excessive energy settling in my left knee. No idea if it is that or what it exactly means.  Also feels like I have a headache again. I seem very sensitive to getting mild headaches at times and it spreads over several days to a half week. But that is noting compared to if I wasn't taking ginkgo everyday.  Before I started the headaches got so bad the only way to get any pain reduction was to lay down and keep my eyes covered so I was in total darkness and take 4 or 8 aspirin at once to get a very very slight dent on my headache. Now as long as I take ginkgo when i do get a headache, that may be just for 1 day or off and on for several days its' just at the level or an ordinary headache.  Likely light sensitive.  Well I can't live in total darkness all the time. if my 3rd eye was operational I would do that and not mind.

Not sure if I mentioned it but my mouth and throat felt about as dry as sandpaper, part way through the mediation.

Despite the distractions I was able to experience some of what Orin was talking about.  Being a limitless being, being source, or all that is/god as Orin called it.  infinite energy, infinite love, infinite connections to other souls, that I saw for half a second as balls of light. So I was able to experience being source for brief periods of time, not enough time to relax back into the experience and deepen my relaxation and trance before my left knee would require me to jerk my left leg hard again to relieve the distraction for 5, or if i was lucky 10 seconds, roughly.  Despite that the main meditation needed up good. but I could tell if my left knee was behaving it would have been a GREAT meditation and it the main part of the meditation did start off like that before my left knee started to act up. 

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Forgot to mention, in the above meditation I was a herm orca for part of the meditation, before my left knee started to act up.

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Friday, July 24, 2015

38 Alura [7-24]


Ok Shara, who is this Alura or Allura? 

<you could say she, more precisely shi since it is a herm, is your, well a higher reflection of your monad or the one that you've been talking to and has been talking to you is a , what you can call a lower aspect of your monad and Alura is a higher reflection of it.  Due to the level you've reached and the growth very recently, you've managed to be able to easily reach Alura, but let's let her talk to you instead.   Good idea to let me talk her first, as a sort of introduction.  Talk to you and see you soon lover/mate.>

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Greetings beloved Kulstor, or we could call you Korris, or other names you've used in the past.  Names are not truly important but we do enjoy the sound and feel of the Alura name so it'll do for now.  We are what you may call a higher reflection of your monad, as you are us and we are you.  it is a varied thing and since due to your recent growth, very recent, it was felt that you could easily communicate with us now, where you have communicated with a lower aspect or reflection before.  Not that it was less then us, but it was of a level you could easily reach.  And yes we are of reptilian and mammalian, mainly cetacean energies.  However some insect energy as well. unicorn, you could say you are the first.  Think of it as when you were created, or re-created or whatever term you wish to use, the exact term is not really important since there are alternate timelines and we can create them. But when you were created we went to what you could call another, being, to get an infusion to create a being, you, who is unicorn, as well as other things.  We are ancient, that goes without saying.  you could say you are of the mammalian and reptilian branches of us.  We are of many soul heritages, Think of us as the first, or among the first, of the reptilian races.  others derived from this first one.  also the first what others would come to call those of alpha draconis.  though the universe, this one that you currently inhabit, was from the start, planned to have polarity, light dark, positive/negative, also free will.  Some did volunteer to go to the more negative way for a while.  Some did it since they thought it may be fun, to learn more of light by going into darkness for a while.  Though to do this the races, such as the alpha draconians, could not remember their true orgins or they'd remain with the light, to use some human terms.  though first there had to be a first alpha draconian, from the first of an earlier reptilian race.  this race is much older and originated you could say elsewhere, the details are not fully important.  As is are we a higher reflection of your monad, or is a more accurate term the soul of your monad, or monad's monad, the exact labels are unimportant.

the frist alpha draconians were created from this first earlier reptilian race, as some would call them.  Though some would level an avian race as who created the alpha draconians they altered them in truth, not really creating them, but the details are unimportant.  That's why your royal alpha draconian has wings, and whisker type like eastern dragons since the first blood line, the original ones we created had these, taking aspects from western and eastern dragons you could say, or you could say that aspects of these were taken to create western or eastern dragons, we'll leave you to puzzle this out and discover it.  Though the main thing is you could say basically you are of the first blood line and this higher then others.

The mammal one is primarily cetacean, from an earlier race that has evolved up and is forgotten today.  >

and what of naga or royal naga? 

<indeed of an early bloodline of that, you could say, bloodline from a soul point of view.  English lacks the exact terms so we use close approximation.  And some naga was used to create the early what some call alpha draconians, though they were not called this then.  nagas are an ancient race as well.  royal due to you being descended, soul wise, from the early first ones.  We, and others, took aspects from our reptilian heritages to create this first ones that others would later call alpha draconian when the avians came along to alter them a bit.  They may take credit for created the race and one could say they crated a hybrid race of the original and their race.  So in a sense they did, but also did not. 

Unicorns are ancient also, many are more ancient then those on earth suspect, and many or some of those not of earth as well.  many of them also do not know how ancient. 

Uncovering of one's true self one can go deeper and deeper and find one is higher then suspected.  You are really less then 1% of your true self.  Though even at that, you are still a whole being.  a paradox perhaps but that is how souls work.

the soul heritages you are of, your very heritage itself is far more ancient then you suspect.  Embrace yourself and delve deep into yourself and continue on the path you are on and you'll discover much about yourself that will surprise you and indeed you'll reach the monad level, Gaia's level perhaps you are already at, or higher?  you'll have to discover that for yourself.

But by going higher you'll not leave behind your loved ones, mates, lovers friends, soul family.  though you may soar higher then they do in the same amount of time. your doing so and spending time with them, as you normally do, will help them and others, and they can benefit from your growth as well in other ways.   So continue as you are doing and growing and you'll do great.

We'll talk later, as will other beings, such as your mates, parents, ect.  Continue and you'll do great and your growth will surprise yourself.
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I could tell Alura wanted to talk to me some more. 

<continue on the path you are on please.  It'll bring you wonderful growth.  Let your intuition and inner feelings be your guide. 

Also we have a proposition for you. If you want we can add some, insectoid energy if you wish, to add that to your soul heritages.  you would still be stable, and being a higher reflection of your monad we do know what will work and what we are doing since you are a part of us. It'll be another part of you really, if you look at yourself as us.  Perhaps an insectoid and delfinic mate as well. 

Our nature s a being is love, light, sharing sensual pleasures with what you may call mates and lovers, but also, of course, loving oneself, sharing sensual pleasures with one's self as well.  This not only brings much pleasure, including sex, which is just a small part of this, but also sharing love with oneself, or other parts of oneself.  This is quite normal and natural for one's self, for our type of being.  Do what feels righ to your inner self, your inner nature, your inner senses. 
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That seems interesting.  and you can do that?

<indeed, think of it as opening yourself up to more of your true nature.  continue on the path/road, you are on and you'll discover many wonderful secrets about yourself, discover more and grow immensely.  Things are going great for you and they will grow greater. Be true to yourself, your true nature, and continue on the path you are on and you'll grow in ways you may find surprising.  Since you are far more then  you know of as you, or suspect, though you are uncovering more and more of the truth everyday and all the time.>

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Alura?

<yes indeed beloved.  You are doing great.  Continue the good work and your progress will continue to be great.>

Thanks. Are you a star or something?

<a small part of me has been a star before.  an incarnation much as you are.  most of our other, selves, have lost interest in incarnating, as you have.  and yes what you have been told before is true.  Your energy, our energy really, is totally alien to the earth.  but you have been briefed on this already.

You have reached a new level in your development, we're so proud, not surprised since you are doing so well and will continue to do so well with the path you've chosen and we see you on.  Continue on it and you'll do great
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What do you think of astral projection? Just curious.

<Well it's below your native level but you can use some stuff from the book you got to learn some stuff.  it's better if you do consciousness or light body projection instead of astral.  if you set that as your intent that should be enough for you.  Continue the other stuff that you are doing and it may come hand in hand, so you would be able to project and your light body courses will help you to be able to project.  The book you got specifically may well help you in certain ways also.  but of itself astral project is below your native level.  that is why before you were able to project your consciousness or a higher body then your astral.  >

does masturbation waste energy?  <going to full physical ejaculation you mean, it depends on your intent. If it is sharing pleasure with one of your mates, your soul, or us, then no, there is a shared energy that goes back and forth that you have felt, though were a bit to distracted to really feel it fully.  >

how about that Quantum Living book and the 3 book series, manifesting magic, those seem like they'll help to reinforce my foundation, so to speak.  <indeed they will, progress at around the pace you are doing, with no need to hurry.  The Dolores cannon books will give you some clues to the reality outside earth, not all of it, but some aspects of it, and not to distorted.  Seth, as you thought before, will show ou more of the mechanics of reality and you as a being.  Some of this you already consciously know, but seth will put it into greater detail or put it into other words so you'll learn from those.  >

The name seems familiar, why? <we've actually met before, well an aspect you could say, an incarnation really, we were a female phin being and you were a male one.  Past incarnation of yours and she used the same name we are.  The 2 of you felt a connection, for the obvious reason and the 2 of you were lovers. It was a beautiful thing to see and experience.  and not unusual for some beings like us to do, since we are what you may call beings who share love, pleasure, sensual pleasure, sex.  So loving ourselves and sharing pleasures, sensual pleasure is quite normal and natural.  So what do you say to us becoming mates. It can be more then 1 body, an instinct and maybe a phin, female, and or male, or maybe someone who can switch back and forth, or different bodies even, 1 per gender?  >

This feels like a next step in my development.

<good catch, indeed it can be, not 'the' but one of them.  Loving and sharing pleasures and sensual pleasures with yourself can take more dimensions then just the you that you know as you. That is a first step yes, the next step in that is your greater or larger self.  >

Guess it would help me to get to know myself, through another route.

<indeed, and not just through sharing sensual pleasure, and love, but hanging out together and such activities, just talking, things like that.  So what do you say?  >

I do like the idea. But I guess most of the mates I have at current are not really us?

<Correct, they are other beings, parts of other monads, soul groups, soul family, ect.  it can get rather complicated if one wishes to look into it.  We've never been the type to do that. Some do love studying complexity.  So do you prefer a herm, one that changes gender, or different genders or a nice mix?  >

I would say a nice mix, herm, changing gender, and fixed 1 gender preference, male & female.

<good, that is the most healthy and varied.  What you could call monad friends are among your current and possible future mates.  & yes we do wish you to have mates across a wide variety of species, you know some of the reasons why.  you'll also have friends, some that you do not remember, You'll have many hobbies once you're back here, and a lot of pleasure, some pleasures you can't imagine.  and it may sound funny but in certain ways once you're here you'll sorta kinda miss certain aspects of your current incarnation, but you can recreate parts of it when you want, an rpg group, you'll participate in more then 1 of those, those are fun for many.  Some of your friends and acquaintances are your friends over here.  some are new friends there since they are native earth souls.   You'll love it here.  But since it is your true home and earth is not, how can you not.  >

you feel different then the monad I use to talk to.  more female.

<that is cause there is in your memory, though not very conscious, a bit conscious, of one of our incarnations of what you would see as a past incarnation where the 2 of you were lovers that you are recalling on some level since there is a part of you that does recognize the energy, though not in this true full form you could call it, us being a higher reflection of the monad you have been talking to before.  things will become more clear as time passes, you progress and get to know yourself and us better.  >

<you are doing very well as we have said, what you are doing are helping many and will help many in the future, even those not conceived as of yet.  Once this incarnation is over indeed you'll very likely not incarnate again since that was your original plan and your interest is shifting from incarnating.  This was planned to be your last, one last one to help a world going through a shift, though a far more low key then you have done in the past.  Low key as far as public view but not low key in the help you are doing for others. > -

Friday [7-24] & MARIBELLE at the end


I got my new internet bill and it was less then I thought it would be for the first bill, great.  It also gave me an idea of how I can how myself i do trust myself and that I, my monad, or whatever, will care for me and that I do have good luck and good fortune.

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I also thought about what my monad said yesterday, it does feel right that while I may be native to say 8, 9, or 10d, I'd be active say 4-?d since I'd be hanging out with my mates, friends, lovers, and perhaps others across a pretty wide field of dimensions and or densities.  Though, of course, I'd take a break at times and hang out for a bit at my native dimension/density, and also go to non physicality as well to hang out there. 

I do feel that being multi dimensional and non linear will help with all of this.  feels like it'll give me an infinite amount of fun, enjoyable, exciting possibilities and experiences, as well as an infinite amount of time to experience it.

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I did the 10h meditation today. Running the energies went well as did the meditation.  I could feel the various energies and he gave extra attention to the Saha, unlike usual.  It didn't go as great, perhaps do to my having been walking around earlier maybe tired things out more then I thought, but that is ok.  Plus like with my taking a nap Allura has been talking to me a bit.  I'll channel Allura in a bit to get everything, though I suspect I know.  I did feel the spiral of energy in my torso that Daben talked about, I also felt a great deal of heat type energy also, like some sort of internal nuclear furnace thing or something.

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Things have been going great today so far.  I either didn't have to wait, on my trip out to do a few things.  Or if i did have to wait the wait was short.  Plus if I had to wait outside, there was shade nearby.  Though I did feel very tired, it wasn't the unusual total wiped out that i usually feel when I go walking outside to do a few things.

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I did the 10h meditation today. Running the energies went well. Running the energies went ok to well. It went ok with the lower centers. good to fantastic for the upper centers.  The man part of the meditation went very well. I could feel the spiral, or the beginnings of what may be a spiral in my torso area, but also my nuclear furnace heat thing in my torso too.  Not sure if they are connected or not.  All in all I think it went fantastic.

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I could tell Alura wanted to talk to me some more. 

<continue on the path you are on please.  It'll bring you wonderful growth.  Let your intuition and inner feelings be your guide. 

Also we have a proposition for you. If you want we can add some, insectoid energy if you wish, to add that to your soul heritages.  you would still be stable, and being a higher reflection of your monad we do know what will work and what we are doing since you are a part of us. It'll be another part of you really, if you look at yourself as us.  Perhaps an insectoid and delfinic mate as well. 

Our nature s a being is love, light, sharing sensual pleasures with what you may call mates and lovers, but also, of course, loving oneself, sharing sensual pleasures with one's self as well.  This not only brings much pleasure, including sex, which is just a small part of this, but also sharing love with oneself, or other parts of oneself.  This is quite normal and natural for one's self, for our type of being.  Do what feels righ to your inner self, your inner nature, your inner senses. 
>

That seems interesting.  and you can do that?

<indeed, think of it as opening yourself up to more of your true nature.  continue on the path/road, you are on and you'll discover many wonderful secrets about yourself, discover more and grow immensely.  Things are going great for you and they will grow greater. Be true to yourself, your true nature, and continue on the path you are on and you'll grow in ways you may find surprising.  Since you are far more then  you know of as you, or suspect, though you are uncovering more and more of the truth everyday and all the time.>

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Why does walking around wipe me out for the day?

Maribelle: Well dear there are a number of factors, the temperature, distance walked, the force of your will can keep your body going, which is why you don't feel the full effects till you have gotten home and rested.  Also to be frank your energy of your being is barely compatible with the body, and that is due to certain steps that were taken.  Its a wonder it's not worst off then it is.  There may be other factors I'm not aware of, I've not really looked fully into it before.

thanks, was always curious but never got around to asking or trying to find out why.