Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Tuesday [3-31]
I did ask a question as I lay down to take my nap, asking what exactly am I, an extension, aspect, something else?
After a short bit of time I felt like soul was sorta hugging me again, but this time I experienced an intense love/pleasure that went right through me to my core. I foud I couldn't think that feeling was so intense.
Soul talked a bit, saying it isn't developed enough to have any external aspects. pausing to say to me something like, come on it's not that distracting. Not that I could respond or even think since that love/pleasure was to intense for me to even think. I could only experience it, hard to describe.
Soul then went on and said I wasn't an extension either. What he was was the bit of the energy that could not all fit in the physical body. When we were recreated do you think all of the energy could fit in the physical body? I'm the part of the energy that could not fit into the physical body. over time, who knows, more of me may be integrated into the physical body, maybe even all of it one day, though I somewhat think that may be to much for the physical body to contain, even taking time. Though time will tell.
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As for the next opening to channel audio course. part of it I can't do since I have no plant in this apartment anywhere. I do have crystals so I may have to jump around to find the right spot past the plant part. This is typed up before I fully listen to it. I don't have high expectations of this audio. No idea why they have it. I'm not trying to learn to channel a plant or mineral guide.
I did the mineral part. Having no plants in the apartment makes the first part impossible. I did feel a slight difference in the way my energy of my hands and forearms felt when they were interacting with the 2 crystals. they were some amethyst (I think they are) a cluster of slightly purple crystals on some sort of rock, and a rose quartz. I held first the amethyst in one hand for a while, then the rose quarts in the other, then both in different hands at the same time. Each gave the energy around my hands and forearms a slightly different feel, hard to describe. It was a slight change, but I could feel it, even though it as very very slight.
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The orin and daben awaken the light body uses the term sub personality. Which I think is what some call aspects.
Some aspects may in time decide to become souls themselves. And find they have aspects that may in time become souls themselves.
I think the term external aspect and separate soul can be confusing since really external aspects are souls. Just that they are aware of the link or connection, wearas I think a being who has gone independent has the same link but it's dormant. So they have to do more themselves, but don't have the influence of the soul the are part of coming in. Complicated and maybe should not mention it here.
Though I would assume a soul that has gone independent could make the link or connection active or open again.
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I redid the 1st meditation or part 2 of awakening the light body. Went well. Though my mind did wonder at times during the 2nd half, it only did so for a few seconds at most before I was able to bring it back to the guided meditation. It felt like during part of it I went medium or a bit past medium state. maybe briefly deep, not sure.
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Maybe forget I mentioned any of that.
I feel I am an extension so to speak.
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As I lay down to meditate my soul, or the other part of me, not sure what to call it. Came again. We did some kissing and hugging. It was intense the first few seconds, but not as much, then it was toned down. What he wanted me to feel was we are one, and it did work. I could feel we are 1 being. I'm the part in the body and he's the part who's not in the body. For an instant it was almost as if I couldn't tell which one I was. He seemed happy with the result and I think that went well. Even if only for an instant, that is enough for a start. And for several seconds, or longer, I could feel we were 1 being, just, as I said, I'm the bit of the single being in the physical body and he's the bit that is not. If that makes any sense, it does to me.
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I did the 2nd mediation of part 2 and it went very well. I could feel the running of the energy and the mumin. Also I could feel the floating like sensation of me floating like I was floating on energy that was all around me. As Daben said, the energy I had raised as well as the Ranthia (light body heart energy center) generated. I could feel the currents and it was an interesting experience.
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Forgot to mention I did Qi Gong for over 10 minutes today without noticing. A good thing. I read somewhere where some suggest doing it for say 30 minutes 5 times a week. I'm going to try to slowly up the time. Say around mid April I will try to up it to around 15 minutes. My eventual goal being 30 minutes at a time.
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I did have several conversations with soul or higher self, whichever one it is. We were doing some hugging and at times kissing and it was done over hours, with a few minutes here, a minute there.
Basically what it was was was we can merge, I could go independent (which I don't want to do. We can also merge and I could be recreated later, or maybe a better word would be re manifested later. not sure of the right term. But the combined us could re manifest me or we could split. Like if twin and I merged we could split.
another idea I had a few hours later was if we could remain like this sorta. not merged, but neither of us going separate. Soul said <mmhmmm>. Raising an eye brow ridge sorta, that was the mental impression I got. then he said we'd be in a relationship something like twin flames.
I did say I could always change my mind and we could merge. Then unmerge like twin flame mentioned, which soul agreed. I could tell he liked the idea. I rubbed his chest and in a kidding fashion said "you'd like it even if I said I want to merge permanently wouldn't you." to which soul said mmhmmm and we kissed.
I guess I do have plenty of time to decide. and with the path I'm on i'm sure I'll eventually be aware of being him, and we're already 1, that sort of thing. I asked soul that since I feel kinda pulled in 2 directions. I do feel an inner desire to merge with him, but I also like being like this. I'd enjoy it far better if I were not in this physical body .
I find I like the idea of not going separate, but I do feel pulled to both merge, but also remain not merged. I think we can have it both ways, or I mean I can. I think Soul said something like <if we do that we'd not be the first.>
My guess if is do that we'd likely merge and unmerge since after some point the urge to merge may grow but we'd decide to give in, with a sort of promise to unmerge at some point. after all we'd have a special relationship. And our caressing, kissing, hugging and likely sex would be fairly intense. So we can have it both ways it seems. taking turns being merged and unmerged.
I did ask if i choose that, who's mate would be who's mate. For example is Mirabelle your mate or mine. Soul said, <well in that case I'd consider all your mates to be mine and mine to be yours, same with her (meaning twin flame) since we're all the same soul i would consider our mates all the same, shared so to speak,but we can ask them what they think." I'd guess the same goes for lovers, friends, ect.
Interesting idea. Though I do have plenty of time to think it over. Not like I have to decide right now.
I do wonder which one Great mother will want to talk to when this incarnation is over. Me, soul, or both of us?
I guess what makes it possible is free will and intention.
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Monday, March 30, 2015
Monday [3-30]
I guess my awakening was delayed till enough of something had been
cleared from the collective. A certain percentage I think. Maybe full
awakening not mandatory. if I partially awaken that is enough for a
personal soul goal, full awakening would be preferred but not necessary
to reach the personal goal for coming here?
The anchoring the new energy here is partially for the new wave indigos, but also to help raise the vibration of the earth or earth grid and those who live here. It would need fine tuning, maybe increasing the vibration at certain intervals at a safe rate. Think it's this, not sure.
Not sure about the spreading light. Maybe something about my aura, or vibrations or something.
I wonder if I'll get much information from channeling or if they'll keep a lot of information not being said.
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Also some more sorta impressions of or around the previous mentioned 4th option. Though I may be wrong about this also.
I'm not sure. Someone wants me to stay around and or likes having me here. Not sure if it is Gaia, my unicorn mother, other beings, a mix of this. I will still have the 3 options I mentioned before.
The feel I get is maybe if I choose option 1, or if I choose 3 then I change and decide to do 1 after all the next incarnation may be easier then this one. Maybe a normal or good childhood and go to a good school. more of an easier life. 1 or both parents may be fully awake or partially at least who are into the spiritual line of work. I'd be maybe guaranteed to be fully awake by late teens or early 20's maybe. Likely with the parent's helping.
I could also choose maybe option 1 and 2, and I'd be the higher self type being or a guide to an extension of myself that I send down to incarnate. with whatever guide or guides i may have in this life as guides for the next one, with me being either the higher self or the soul. and the previous said thing may happen, but instead of to this me its an extension of me.
one of the incentive could be 1 or more soul family members may incarnate as a sibbling, friend, cousin, parent and or a future husband/wife, or we'd be a same sex couple. maybe with some of the other mentioned incentives mentioned before.
Or if I choose option 2, 1 and 2. I, or the me that'll remain on the other side, will help with the earth project but also something else. This something else I think that maybe my unicorn mother, the great mother, the dragoness, and maybe gaia, not sure if she's involved or not. have in mind. Something to do with, and if i recall the vague sorta impression I got before:
something like go between, adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type. Maybe more then 1 council.
So the vague impression is if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 then I'd be helping out on the earth project, but also this, maybe like having several part time jobs or side jobs that one does. Or if I do 3 but they get me to agree then I may be doing the various side jobs full time. if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 I'd be doing the project idea of theirs full time once the earth project is over?
Just a sorta impression I got this morning as i was doing various things around home. Not sure if I have any of it right. And is great mother the 1st unicorn, the or one of the oldest, or something else?
Though if I do end up choosing 1 or 1 and 2, then I'd demand, if i have an energy sheath thing that I heard about, that prevents karma from sticking that I or my extension has it as well in the next incarnation. Unless karma has totally been removed by then, and or the veil thing also. I feel no real desire to incarnate and really don't want to.
I did the opening to channel audios 5-7. 5 and 6 were just short talks so I listened to them then went straight to 7 and did that as well. I think it went pretty well. Though I could not hold the focus for 5 minutes, I"ll take a lot of practice. 1 problem with what he said was with the practice if one keeps trying without listening to that section and keeps peeking at the clock then 1 is not really holding focus a fully as one can. So I think I"ll listen to that audio and try to memorize where a good spot to jump is. I'll practice several times a day if I can.
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The next door neighbor's kids are very loud after I started listening to the next guided mediation and one hit my front door very loudly. not sure if this is part of why the in my estimation this mediation was largely a failure. i was supposed to go to the temple of the masters and i saw nothing, though the neighbor's kids were not to loud yet. I saw nothing. heard nothing. I could not hear my soul's tone, which the said was being sent to me, not even when they said it was getting louder, I heard nothing at all. Couldn't see my guide, nor hear him/her/it. Nor any such message. just a vague energy feeling as I was sent light, a message from my guide, what my life purpose was. I heard and got nothing but a faint feeling I was being sent energy.
Also despite what orin said I am not a leader, healer, teacher. I'm none of those things. It's not due to my having a bad self image, nor my being depressed. I'm not any of those things, nor anything similar. Not everyone can be. The vast majority like me are not.
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the most I got from the meditation was a headache. If I were a master I'd not be incarnating here. Maybe I'd be one of those beings who gets channeled, but I'd certainly would not be incarnated. if I were a master you'd not catch me anywhere near incarnating. At most I'd be one of those channeled beings, as I mentioned before. I'd also not be mystically blind, be nearly deaf and having barely a sense of touch. and I'd not have amnesia. I'd be fully awakened and aware. No idea why those 2 are lieing. It's a well meaning lieing, but it is still lieing.
I'm not teacher, I can't be around other people for long periods of time. i need to be along a lot. Not a mark of a teacher, nor the mark of a leader either. If I were a healer I'd be able to heal myself. Like being allergic to the earth, and other things I could heal myself of. So nope, I'm no master, no, healer, leader, or a teacher.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. At the end I felt odd, sorta like I was fully integrated into one. I feel better also.
I still say if I were a master I'd not be incarnated here,and if i were incarnated here. and if I were a master incarnated I'd not have this veil, I'd not be blind, almost deaf, with slight sense of touch, and other senses. I'd have fully intact spiritual or mystic senses. I'd also no be as messed up as I am.
Which is further proof I'm not a master, unlike what Orin & Daben say in their audios I'm also not a healer, teacher, nor a leader, as I stated before the reasons why I'll not repeat myself here.
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I can say t the core of me I do not like incarnating here. The veil giving you total amnesia, blocks put on so you wind up totally blind, almost totally deaf, barely with a sense of touch, spiritually and mystically speaking, and all of your other abilities blocked.
I don't understand why anyone comes to this place. I just hope I'm not trapped here due to that karma thing. I do try to take steps every day, everything I can think of and have come across to not accumulate karma, though i'll have no idea if it works until this incarnation is over.
I try to remember to forgive everyone, even those I don't remember,and forgive myself. Also to send love to myself. Take an idea from the dolores cannon video where i visualize contracts in my hands and i say to everyone, let's tear these contracts up and go out separate ways, we'll all/both be happier for it.
Can't fully enjoy myself since I have to try to fully awaken if possible and prevent the accumulation of karma as much as I can so I don't have to return here again. If I were an incarnated master I'd know what I said above, including if I need to be concerned about karma or not.
Pretty stupid system they have here on earth, assuming it's not like this everywhere. It feels like it's not like this everywhere. If I had my choice I'd not have come here. Soul did this while I was a part of it so I had no say. I'm glad it's not my soul anymore. I'd never do that to myself.
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I think I can hold a focus decently. I'll keep practicing but I'll go on to the next audio tomorrow in the opening to channel. I think it's about tuning into crystals and plants. I'm no enthusiastic about my ability to connect to those.
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I had an unusual, but pleasant, experience. I did a meditation based on one I had listened to before, but I made a few changes. Receiving love from your soul.
What I got was a quick glance of my soul, not the one that stan and dan are an external aspect of, but the soul I'm part of. Maybe it was my higher self instead of my soul, but maybe it was my soul, but not the other guy, the one I became an external aspect of.
I only got a quick glance since he and I started to kiss, and caress each other. No sex was involved nor any sex feelings, even soul sex feelings. The quick glace looked like, from what I recall, a mix of an anthro beluga whale and an anhro dolphin. I don't recall the color. Though as we kissed and caressed I could feel like we both had unicorn horns. Not sure how long we kissed and caressed each other. I started the conversation after a while.
to summarize the conversation I asked if I'd have to choose if i wanted to split off from him since unlike previous soul I didn't think like I wanted to split off from him. He promised that before this incarnation was over I'd be aware of being him so when the time came I would have first hand experience before I made my decision of what is like to be him. So I would have knowledge before I made my decision if i wanted to merge with him or not.
He also suggested i get the rest of the awakening the light body course and continue the opening the channel audio course.
I asked why were we not unicorns, since it felt like I had the same appearance he did. Though as I said above I didn't get a good look. He said we could have, but unicorns don't' have hands and don't have mouth structures to kiss very well.
I mentioned I thought you'd want sex or something to him. he smiled saying plenty of time for sex later. Not that I wanted sex. I had no desire for it at the time. I mentioned I thought you'd be the higher self not the soul. He said well you are a multidimensional being.
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I wasn't expecting my soul to appear, not for us both to be kissing and caressing. Even as far as having his tongue in my mouth. I was expecting to just get some energy or the flow of love, not this. Not that I am complaining. It was a pleasant surprise.
It felt diffidently like my soul, not former soul, nor the soul I am, or was, and external aspect of. No idea of my soul went independent or not. Not that it really matters. I wonder why it choose to do that. I wonder if it'll happen again. I do hope so. It was pleasant.
Just now I relaxed and closed my eyes, this time we were both unicorns and touched horns. Felt like love was flowing from each of us into the other.
The anchoring the new energy here is partially for the new wave indigos, but also to help raise the vibration of the earth or earth grid and those who live here. It would need fine tuning, maybe increasing the vibration at certain intervals at a safe rate. Think it's this, not sure.
Not sure about the spreading light. Maybe something about my aura, or vibrations or something.
I wonder if I'll get much information from channeling or if they'll keep a lot of information not being said.
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Also some more sorta impressions of or around the previous mentioned 4th option. Though I may be wrong about this also.
I'm not sure. Someone wants me to stay around and or likes having me here. Not sure if it is Gaia, my unicorn mother, other beings, a mix of this. I will still have the 3 options I mentioned before.
The feel I get is maybe if I choose option 1, or if I choose 3 then I change and decide to do 1 after all the next incarnation may be easier then this one. Maybe a normal or good childhood and go to a good school. more of an easier life. 1 or both parents may be fully awake or partially at least who are into the spiritual line of work. I'd be maybe guaranteed to be fully awake by late teens or early 20's maybe. Likely with the parent's helping.
I could also choose maybe option 1 and 2, and I'd be the higher self type being or a guide to an extension of myself that I send down to incarnate. with whatever guide or guides i may have in this life as guides for the next one, with me being either the higher self or the soul. and the previous said thing may happen, but instead of to this me its an extension of me.
one of the incentive could be 1 or more soul family members may incarnate as a sibbling, friend, cousin, parent and or a future husband/wife, or we'd be a same sex couple. maybe with some of the other mentioned incentives mentioned before.
Or if I choose option 2, 1 and 2. I, or the me that'll remain on the other side, will help with the earth project but also something else. This something else I think that maybe my unicorn mother, the great mother, the dragoness, and maybe gaia, not sure if she's involved or not. have in mind. Something to do with, and if i recall the vague sorta impression I got before:
something like go between, adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type. Maybe more then 1 council.
So the vague impression is if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 then I'd be helping out on the earth project, but also this, maybe like having several part time jobs or side jobs that one does. Or if I do 3 but they get me to agree then I may be doing the various side jobs full time. if I choose 2 or 1 and 2 I'd be doing the project idea of theirs full time once the earth project is over?
Just a sorta impression I got this morning as i was doing various things around home. Not sure if I have any of it right. And is great mother the 1st unicorn, the or one of the oldest, or something else?
Though if I do end up choosing 1 or 1 and 2, then I'd demand, if i have an energy sheath thing that I heard about, that prevents karma from sticking that I or my extension has it as well in the next incarnation. Unless karma has totally been removed by then, and or the veil thing also. I feel no real desire to incarnate and really don't want to.
I did the opening to channel audios 5-7. 5 and 6 were just short talks so I listened to them then went straight to 7 and did that as well. I think it went pretty well. Though I could not hold the focus for 5 minutes, I"ll take a lot of practice. 1 problem with what he said was with the practice if one keeps trying without listening to that section and keeps peeking at the clock then 1 is not really holding focus a fully as one can. So I think I"ll listen to that audio and try to memorize where a good spot to jump is. I'll practice several times a day if I can.
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The next door neighbor's kids are very loud after I started listening to the next guided mediation and one hit my front door very loudly. not sure if this is part of why the in my estimation this mediation was largely a failure. i was supposed to go to the temple of the masters and i saw nothing, though the neighbor's kids were not to loud yet. I saw nothing. heard nothing. I could not hear my soul's tone, which the said was being sent to me, not even when they said it was getting louder, I heard nothing at all. Couldn't see my guide, nor hear him/her/it. Nor any such message. just a vague energy feeling as I was sent light, a message from my guide, what my life purpose was. I heard and got nothing but a faint feeling I was being sent energy.
Also despite what orin said I am not a leader, healer, teacher. I'm none of those things. It's not due to my having a bad self image, nor my being depressed. I'm not any of those things, nor anything similar. Not everyone can be. The vast majority like me are not.
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Forgot to mention before. Part of the
mediation of going to the temple of the masters was them removing the
veil. I felt something being removed and my crown chakra opening up,
but I don't feel any more aware then I was before.
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I do wonder if I'll get details if I get good enough at channeling and have a solid strong connection. Details like about unicorns, whatever dragon I am, the pod, and other details. Like that 4th option.
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did the 12th mediation again. it went slightly better. No noisy neighbor kids this time. The energy of the first 4 energy centers & the mumin went average I'd say.
As for being at the temple of the masters. I really could not see or hear anything. during the whole thing. Just me reviving energy is all I could feel and that didn't feel like much energy at various points. Could not see or hear my guide or any ascended masters. the veil thing being lifted off was like before, i felt something being removed, but I'm no more aware then I was before. I'm no leader, teacher nor healer. Certainly not a master.
And as for my life purpose i can accomplish that sitting on my ***, literally. it is, like I have found out before, to anchor some sort of energy here to the earth grid and there'll be adjustments at times. that is the main purpose and I can do that literally sitting on my ***. The other, to awaken as fully as I can. Seems I'm accomplished that since I'm no more awake now then I was before, so that is finished.
Overall a very disappointing mediation. Don't see why I should do this one ever again, like the gas beings one, but that one went ever worst then this one.
If I am a master, leader, teacher or healer, they'll have to prove it. I'm starting to wonder if the ascended masters exist and if i do have any guides or not. and it felt like my crown chakra opened up a lot, very very wide, but I don't feel any different then before, no more aware though it is opened very wide, the veil was removed and I received a lot of light and energy from the ascended masters and guide.
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I do wonder if I'll get details if I get good enough at channeling and have a solid strong connection. Details like about unicorns, whatever dragon I am, the pod, and other details. Like that 4th option.
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did the 12th mediation again. it went slightly better. No noisy neighbor kids this time. The energy of the first 4 energy centers & the mumin went average I'd say.
As for being at the temple of the masters. I really could not see or hear anything. during the whole thing. Just me reviving energy is all I could feel and that didn't feel like much energy at various points. Could not see or hear my guide or any ascended masters. the veil thing being lifted off was like before, i felt something being removed, but I'm no more aware then I was before. I'm no leader, teacher nor healer. Certainly not a master.
And as for my life purpose i can accomplish that sitting on my ***, literally. it is, like I have found out before, to anchor some sort of energy here to the earth grid and there'll be adjustments at times. that is the main purpose and I can do that literally sitting on my ***. The other, to awaken as fully as I can. Seems I'm accomplished that since I'm no more awake now then I was before, so that is finished.
Overall a very disappointing mediation. Don't see why I should do this one ever again, like the gas beings one, but that one went ever worst then this one.
If I am a master, leader, teacher or healer, they'll have to prove it. I'm starting to wonder if the ascended masters exist and if i do have any guides or not. and it felt like my crown chakra opened up a lot, very very wide, but I don't feel any different then before, no more aware though it is opened very wide, the veil was removed and I received a lot of light and energy from the ascended masters and guide.
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the most I got from the meditation was a headache. If I were a master I'd not be incarnating here. Maybe I'd be one of those beings who gets channeled, but I'd certainly would not be incarnated. if I were a master you'd not catch me anywhere near incarnating. At most I'd be one of those channeled beings, as I mentioned before. I'd also not be mystically blind, be nearly deaf and having barely a sense of touch. and I'd not have amnesia. I'd be fully awakened and aware. No idea why those 2 are lieing. It's a well meaning lieing, but it is still lieing.
I'm not teacher, I can't be around other people for long periods of time. i need to be along a lot. Not a mark of a teacher, nor the mark of a leader either. If I were a healer I'd be able to heal myself. Like being allergic to the earth, and other things I could heal myself of. So nope, I'm no master, no, healer, leader, or a teacher.
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I did the sub personality meditation again. At the end I felt odd, sorta like I was fully integrated into one. I feel better also.
I still say if I were a master I'd not be incarnated here,and if i were incarnated here. and if I were a master incarnated I'd not have this veil, I'd not be blind, almost deaf, with slight sense of touch, and other senses. I'd have fully intact spiritual or mystic senses. I'd also no be as messed up as I am.
Which is further proof I'm not a master, unlike what Orin & Daben say in their audios I'm also not a healer, teacher, nor a leader, as I stated before the reasons why I'll not repeat myself here.
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I can say t the core of me I do not like incarnating here. The veil giving you total amnesia, blocks put on so you wind up totally blind, almost totally deaf, barely with a sense of touch, spiritually and mystically speaking, and all of your other abilities blocked.
I don't understand why anyone comes to this place. I just hope I'm not trapped here due to that karma thing. I do try to take steps every day, everything I can think of and have come across to not accumulate karma, though i'll have no idea if it works until this incarnation is over.
I try to remember to forgive everyone, even those I don't remember,and forgive myself. Also to send love to myself. Take an idea from the dolores cannon video where i visualize contracts in my hands and i say to everyone, let's tear these contracts up and go out separate ways, we'll all/both be happier for it.
Can't fully enjoy myself since I have to try to fully awaken if possible and prevent the accumulation of karma as much as I can so I don't have to return here again. If I were an incarnated master I'd know what I said above, including if I need to be concerned about karma or not.
Pretty stupid system they have here on earth, assuming it's not like this everywhere. It feels like it's not like this everywhere. If I had my choice I'd not have come here. Soul did this while I was a part of it so I had no say. I'm glad it's not my soul anymore. I'd never do that to myself.
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I think I can hold a focus decently. I'll keep practicing but I'll go on to the next audio tomorrow in the opening to channel. I think it's about tuning into crystals and plants. I'm no enthusiastic about my ability to connect to those.
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I had an unusual, but pleasant, experience. I did a meditation based on one I had listened to before, but I made a few changes. Receiving love from your soul.
What I got was a quick glance of my soul, not the one that stan and dan are an external aspect of, but the soul I'm part of. Maybe it was my higher self instead of my soul, but maybe it was my soul, but not the other guy, the one I became an external aspect of.
I only got a quick glance since he and I started to kiss, and caress each other. No sex was involved nor any sex feelings, even soul sex feelings. The quick glace looked like, from what I recall, a mix of an anthro beluga whale and an anhro dolphin. I don't recall the color. Though as we kissed and caressed I could feel like we both had unicorn horns. Not sure how long we kissed and caressed each other. I started the conversation after a while.
to summarize the conversation I asked if I'd have to choose if i wanted to split off from him since unlike previous soul I didn't think like I wanted to split off from him. He promised that before this incarnation was over I'd be aware of being him so when the time came I would have first hand experience before I made my decision of what is like to be him. So I would have knowledge before I made my decision if i wanted to merge with him or not.
He also suggested i get the rest of the awakening the light body course and continue the opening the channel audio course.
I asked why were we not unicorns, since it felt like I had the same appearance he did. Though as I said above I didn't get a good look. He said we could have, but unicorns don't' have hands and don't have mouth structures to kiss very well.
I mentioned I thought you'd want sex or something to him. he smiled saying plenty of time for sex later. Not that I wanted sex. I had no desire for it at the time. I mentioned I thought you'd be the higher self not the soul. He said well you are a multidimensional being.
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I wasn't expecting my soul to appear, not for us both to be kissing and caressing. Even as far as having his tongue in my mouth. I was expecting to just get some energy or the flow of love, not this. Not that I am complaining. It was a pleasant surprise.
It felt diffidently like my soul, not former soul, nor the soul I am, or was, and external aspect of. No idea of my soul went independent or not. Not that it really matters. I wonder why it choose to do that. I wonder if it'll happen again. I do hope so. It was pleasant.
Just now I relaxed and closed my eyes, this time we were both unicorns and touched horns. Felt like love was flowing from each of us into the other.
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Sunday [3-29]
Awoke from my nap and was resonating with energy being sent. Maybe by unicorn mother, the elder who created me not adopted mother. I guess she's either increasing my vibration, helping me to get ready to channel, helping me to fully awaken, or some combination of these or other things perhaps I've not thought of.
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I think of feel the soul elements or types picked for me to be were picked for specific reasons. cetacean since I had been introduced to the pod, or at least a few of the pod, and current soul was mostly that and former soul too it seems. But also they can be classified as an ET type, fae type being in the unicorn, eastern or western dragon is maybe fae type or magical, or maybe elemental as well. eastern may be more air and or water and western maybe more fire. Though those guesses may be wrong and there may be water western types and fire eastern types.
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Once I'm done with the awakening the light body course I do plan on spending say around 36 days going back through all the meditations again while deciding what, if any, courses to get next, what frequency ect. not sure if I'll add the opening to channel meditations into those or not. I may do them separately now and then to try to deepen or strengthen the connection. There is also the receiving a clear channel course I may or may not save up to buy in may that has more meditations to strengthen the link, channel. I'll wait till late April, seeing how my channeling is going to see if I feel the need for a 2nd course or not.
For the light body course there are side courses i can get from the 2nd course category as well as 3-5, categories. I may look in those and pick what interests me the most, maybe up to 6-8, then maybe get the 2nd course, maybe. I'll decide all that later during that 36 day period when I redo the whole course.
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I did the 4th audio of the opening to channel audio course and It went very well. it was another guided mediation, one getting into a relaxed state. it did leave me very very relaxed. the bit about seeing a white light I did see one, to an extent behind the white specs or whatever I see when my eyes are closed. also the bit about your guide's energy coming into you to revitalize your body, i felt like it was more then 1 source, could not tell how many. Maybe like the guy/or girl said yesterday that i saw, there may be more then 1, maybe either specialists, or each one for specific purposes.
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I've removed meat from what I eat. I've no desire to eat meat. Also it seems my body prefers now 4 meals instead of 6 so I'll just remove the 2 meals where I use to eat white rice. I'll see if this goes ok or of my body would prefer me to eat maybe 8 very very small meals instead of 4 small ones. With the adding in trail mix into 1 of the meals and maybe a 2nd type of cereal, I may eat less oatmeal also. The frozen juice I may just drink half of it at half a cup at a time, and the other cup I will likely add to the cerial oatmeal mix like normal. So 2 meals it seems may remain the same as before with the other 2 changed and white rice maybe cut out of my eating plan. This will be maybe an increase in fat, but it'll all be about 99% poly and mono unsaturated types of fat, so maybe healthier then being almost fat free I had been for years and lately the fat being 2/3 from poly & mono with a small amount from meat. This may accompany with drinking more water then before.
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I did the 11th meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body course. Its called Journey of forgiveness or something like that. After the initial 4 energy centers of the light body and the mummin done by Daben (which went very well), Orin then takes over and has you bring in a person from your past you want to forgive then your forgive yourself. She does this 4 times. For the 3rd time I just visualized all my relatives, to save time, to forgive. and for the 4th one I imagined being in a huge auditorium and forgiving everyone. Felt a bit disoriented during that and a lot of energy moving out and light moving in, think i did anyway. I did feel much lighter immediately afterwards and during it. Think I still do.
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i was thinking that while some souls may prefer to do things non linearly, I can see some preferring a more linear way of doing things since it does keep things simpler. Though I think I prefer doing at least some things non linearly. Also if you add in multi dimensional selves and if souls can be in a number of places doing multiple things at once and be equally aware, more or less. That adds in a lot one can do.
So say having a bunch of mates, lovers, and friends with benefits that may sound like a lot if one has say 100 total, but with non linear one can hang out with friends, family , and get to do a lot stuff. Like one could be doing several projects at once, get bored of one pop to another, or pop off to visit or hang out with some soul family, friends, mates, lovers, ect and then pop back days or weeks later at their point of view, an instant later and its almost as if no time had passed in these projects. Though I can see others preferring to do just 1 thing at a time. And others may have different aspects doing things or utilize their being multidimensional selves to maybe be in several places at once.
Not sure if I got any of this right, all of it, or parts, or some of it.
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so soul 1 would do things in a linear fashion for the most part, easier since everything is 1 at a time, but he can't zip off to do a thing or 2 and pop back.
soul 2 can zip around as his interest takes him, going in a totally non linear fashion, though he would have to remember all the various things he was doing to be sure to pop back on instant later or a few hours, or whatever, later.
3 may focus on his multi dimensional so he may be doing 10 things at once but maybe each 1 only he only can get like 10% so he could be less distracted by this so it's only say 3%, but another demands more of his attention so it is 20% of his attention. Some bits maybe can't benefit as much from his split attention so to speak. So the 3% can't maybe befit as easily from the soul's experiences, ect as the 20%, and or the soul is not as aware of the 3% as he is of the 20%.
Though I don't think most souls do just 1 of these. I feel most souls do a mix of these, but primarily being of 1 type or 2, with maybe elements of the other, at least sometimes.
Though again not sure if i got any of this right.
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I lay down to sleep and I think my unicorn mother came. I felt her energy sorta overlay mine partially. maybe due to m not being as sensitive maybe she did it to be sure she could talk to me or something.
She said I was indeed a member of 2 unicorn families, the one that had adopted me and hers as well since she was one of my soul parents, though it was different then the way unicorns are normally made. Her 2 mates considered me as full a member of the family as she did and the rest of her family also did. I asked, only partially serious, that that means they'd not have an interest in the possibility of sex, unlike my adopted family. I felt like she had smiled and she said, in a humorous tone <I didn't say anything about that. I am one of your soul parents true, but neither of them are. You are related to the rest of my family but not them.>
She then got serious, saying the great mother wanted to talk to me. I said fine, just pull me out and take me to her and she said , no not now. When the incarnation is over and it's time to talk to you about the 4th option. She wants to discuss it with you then.
I asked what the 4th option was and she didn't say anything. I tried to reach in to see if I could get soul knowledge and got a vague type impression. adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type maybe. Just a vague sorta non specific impression. Not sure what that means.
I woke up from my nap with slight resonating energy corsing through me slightly, in a different pattern then before, but it stopped a short while after i awoke.
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I did the 11th meditation, this time not listening to the audio. Decided I'd do it faster without that. I did run the energies of the first 3 light body energy centers and the mumin, but I had to look up the name of the 4th one. They all went well in my opinion. Then I visualized a huge auditorium type place with no walls but support arches lots of seats everywhere and I stood on a stage with a microphone in had and said I had asked them all here, being from the past present and future of this life, all past and parallel lives and any future ones I may have, though I did say i don't plan on incarnating any more, but just in case. Then I said I forgive everyone. We do make mistakes but instead of holding onto the negative emotions, let's let them go and instead allow our selves to feel unconditional love for each other and towards each other. Then I said and in addition I forgive myself as well and sent unconditional love to myself. I stopped it there since I for some reason I gave myself a mild headache. Not sure why. Maybe a coincidence.
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I did a free 3.5 minute mediation. One on receiving clear guidance from your soul. I did see the sun of my soul as in the guided mediation and the light was very bright, I could feel the heat from it too. Funny thing though the ascended
master that appeared to send energy to my 3rd eye, as I asked, as said in the guided mediation looked a lot like that guy from Saturday's meditation. same race anyway. Some part of me knew he was an Arcturian, I'll have to look that race
up. The beam he sent both went down my horn and also to a spot slightly above the middle of my eyebrows and below my horn. No idea why. I heard a comment about my wondering about ascension, embodying my soul self, removing the human condition and programming ect a voice that sounded like me.
Which if it was my soul or higher self, would sound like me. It would be strange if my higher self or soul sounded like someone else totally different. But he said <not as much needs to be cleared away as you think.> it did leave me thirsty for some reason.
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I did the cellular activation one Very positive experience, like a light energy shining into every cell, dna, and molecule. Interesting I may try 2 more for tonight, solar light ones.
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I also tried the living your higher purpose. Very positive I'd say.
? help with the shift by being here, spread light, awaken as fully as I can to my true self.
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Went to the sf chat again. Was having fun. Someone said in private that they thought I was going insane by going into my own mind and I wasn't sharing right. I just said sorry and left. not feeling bad or anything but if someone doesn't' want me somewhere I leave. better all around. I'll stay away from the sf chat from now on. My stuff is likely to far out there . Doubt I'm insane since the stuff I've experienced I've come across similar stuff, scattered around on the net but never in any 1 place. So think I'll stay only in my own yourspace and maybe Scarlette's and perhaps Shinshoo's and no where else on the SF forum at all.
My experiences may be way to far out there for those here. Not that I think I'm surperior to anyone on the forum. It may be due to the fact I'm nt an earth soul and everyone on sf but a very few likely are so there are different types of experiences. Plus whatever soul is when I'm not here may also play into it. it could be soul is use to hanging out with ET's, unicorns, non earth cetaceans, dragons, and who knows what else. But earth souls here on SF may not experience any of that stuff, even if they are awakening.
Just my thoughts.
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I think of feel the soul elements or types picked for me to be were picked for specific reasons. cetacean since I had been introduced to the pod, or at least a few of the pod, and current soul was mostly that and former soul too it seems. But also they can be classified as an ET type, fae type being in the unicorn, eastern or western dragon is maybe fae type or magical, or maybe elemental as well. eastern may be more air and or water and western maybe more fire. Though those guesses may be wrong and there may be water western types and fire eastern types.
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Once I'm done with the awakening the light body course I do plan on spending say around 36 days going back through all the meditations again while deciding what, if any, courses to get next, what frequency ect. not sure if I'll add the opening to channel meditations into those or not. I may do them separately now and then to try to deepen or strengthen the connection. There is also the receiving a clear channel course I may or may not save up to buy in may that has more meditations to strengthen the link, channel. I'll wait till late April, seeing how my channeling is going to see if I feel the need for a 2nd course or not.
For the light body course there are side courses i can get from the 2nd course category as well as 3-5, categories. I may look in those and pick what interests me the most, maybe up to 6-8, then maybe get the 2nd course, maybe. I'll decide all that later during that 36 day period when I redo the whole course.
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I did the 4th audio of the opening to channel audio course and It went very well. it was another guided mediation, one getting into a relaxed state. it did leave me very very relaxed. the bit about seeing a white light I did see one, to an extent behind the white specs or whatever I see when my eyes are closed. also the bit about your guide's energy coming into you to revitalize your body, i felt like it was more then 1 source, could not tell how many. Maybe like the guy/or girl said yesterday that i saw, there may be more then 1, maybe either specialists, or each one for specific purposes.
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I've removed meat from what I eat. I've no desire to eat meat. Also it seems my body prefers now 4 meals instead of 6 so I'll just remove the 2 meals where I use to eat white rice. I'll see if this goes ok or of my body would prefer me to eat maybe 8 very very small meals instead of 4 small ones. With the adding in trail mix into 1 of the meals and maybe a 2nd type of cereal, I may eat less oatmeal also. The frozen juice I may just drink half of it at half a cup at a time, and the other cup I will likely add to the cerial oatmeal mix like normal. So 2 meals it seems may remain the same as before with the other 2 changed and white rice maybe cut out of my eating plan. This will be maybe an increase in fat, but it'll all be about 99% poly and mono unsaturated types of fat, so maybe healthier then being almost fat free I had been for years and lately the fat being 2/3 from poly & mono with a small amount from meat. This may accompany with drinking more water then before.
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I did the 11th meditation of the 2nd part of awaken the light body course. Its called Journey of forgiveness or something like that. After the initial 4 energy centers of the light body and the mummin done by Daben (which went very well), Orin then takes over and has you bring in a person from your past you want to forgive then your forgive yourself. She does this 4 times. For the 3rd time I just visualized all my relatives, to save time, to forgive. and for the 4th one I imagined being in a huge auditorium and forgiving everyone. Felt a bit disoriented during that and a lot of energy moving out and light moving in, think i did anyway. I did feel much lighter immediately afterwards and during it. Think I still do.
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i was thinking that while some souls may prefer to do things non linearly, I can see some preferring a more linear way of doing things since it does keep things simpler. Though I think I prefer doing at least some things non linearly. Also if you add in multi dimensional selves and if souls can be in a number of places doing multiple things at once and be equally aware, more or less. That adds in a lot one can do.
So say having a bunch of mates, lovers, and friends with benefits that may sound like a lot if one has say 100 total, but with non linear one can hang out with friends, family , and get to do a lot stuff. Like one could be doing several projects at once, get bored of one pop to another, or pop off to visit or hang out with some soul family, friends, mates, lovers, ect and then pop back days or weeks later at their point of view, an instant later and its almost as if no time had passed in these projects. Though I can see others preferring to do just 1 thing at a time. And others may have different aspects doing things or utilize their being multidimensional selves to maybe be in several places at once.
Not sure if I got any of this right, all of it, or parts, or some of it.
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so soul 1 would do things in a linear fashion for the most part, easier since everything is 1 at a time, but he can't zip off to do a thing or 2 and pop back.
soul 2 can zip around as his interest takes him, going in a totally non linear fashion, though he would have to remember all the various things he was doing to be sure to pop back on instant later or a few hours, or whatever, later.
3 may focus on his multi dimensional so he may be doing 10 things at once but maybe each 1 only he only can get like 10% so he could be less distracted by this so it's only say 3%, but another demands more of his attention so it is 20% of his attention. Some bits maybe can't benefit as much from his split attention so to speak. So the 3% can't maybe befit as easily from the soul's experiences, ect as the 20%, and or the soul is not as aware of the 3% as he is of the 20%.
Though I don't think most souls do just 1 of these. I feel most souls do a mix of these, but primarily being of 1 type or 2, with maybe elements of the other, at least sometimes.
Though again not sure if i got any of this right.
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I lay down to sleep and I think my unicorn mother came. I felt her energy sorta overlay mine partially. maybe due to m not being as sensitive maybe she did it to be sure she could talk to me or something.
She said I was indeed a member of 2 unicorn families, the one that had adopted me and hers as well since she was one of my soul parents, though it was different then the way unicorns are normally made. Her 2 mates considered me as full a member of the family as she did and the rest of her family also did. I asked, only partially serious, that that means they'd not have an interest in the possibility of sex, unlike my adopted family. I felt like she had smiled and she said, in a humorous tone <I didn't say anything about that. I am one of your soul parents true, but neither of them are. You are related to the rest of my family but not them.>
She then got serious, saying the great mother wanted to talk to me. I said fine, just pull me out and take me to her and she said , no not now. When the incarnation is over and it's time to talk to you about the 4th option. She wants to discuss it with you then.
I asked what the 4th option was and she didn't say anything. I tried to reach in to see if I could get soul knowledge and got a vague type impression. adviser, ambassador, teacher, on a council, guide type maybe. Just a vague sorta non specific impression. Not sure what that means.
I woke up from my nap with slight resonating energy corsing through me slightly, in a different pattern then before, but it stopped a short while after i awoke.
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I did the 11th meditation, this time not listening to the audio. Decided I'd do it faster without that. I did run the energies of the first 3 light body energy centers and the mumin, but I had to look up the name of the 4th one. They all went well in my opinion. Then I visualized a huge auditorium type place with no walls but support arches lots of seats everywhere and I stood on a stage with a microphone in had and said I had asked them all here, being from the past present and future of this life, all past and parallel lives and any future ones I may have, though I did say i don't plan on incarnating any more, but just in case. Then I said I forgive everyone. We do make mistakes but instead of holding onto the negative emotions, let's let them go and instead allow our selves to feel unconditional love for each other and towards each other. Then I said and in addition I forgive myself as well and sent unconditional love to myself. I stopped it there since I for some reason I gave myself a mild headache. Not sure why. Maybe a coincidence.
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I did a free 3.5 minute mediation. One on receiving clear guidance from your soul. I did see the sun of my soul as in the guided mediation and the light was very bright, I could feel the heat from it too. Funny thing though the ascended
master that appeared to send energy to my 3rd eye, as I asked, as said in the guided mediation looked a lot like that guy from Saturday's meditation. same race anyway. Some part of me knew he was an Arcturian, I'll have to look that race
up. The beam he sent both went down my horn and also to a spot slightly above the middle of my eyebrows and below my horn. No idea why. I heard a comment about my wondering about ascension, embodying my soul self, removing the human condition and programming ect a voice that sounded like me.
Which if it was my soul or higher self, would sound like me. It would be strange if my higher self or soul sounded like someone else totally different. But he said <not as much needs to be cleared away as you think.> it did leave me thirsty for some reason.
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I did the cellular activation one Very positive experience, like a light energy shining into every cell, dna, and molecule. Interesting I may try 2 more for tonight, solar light ones.
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I also tried the living your higher purpose. Very positive I'd say.
? help with the shift by being here, spread light, awaken as fully as I can to my true self.
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Went to the sf chat again. Was having fun. Someone said in private that they thought I was going insane by going into my own mind and I wasn't sharing right. I just said sorry and left. not feeling bad or anything but if someone doesn't' want me somewhere I leave. better all around. I'll stay away from the sf chat from now on. My stuff is likely to far out there . Doubt I'm insane since the stuff I've experienced I've come across similar stuff, scattered around on the net but never in any 1 place. So think I'll stay only in my own yourspace and maybe Scarlette's and perhaps Shinshoo's and no where else on the SF forum at all.
My experiences may be way to far out there for those here. Not that I think I'm surperior to anyone on the forum. It may be due to the fact I'm nt an earth soul and everyone on sf but a very few likely are so there are different types of experiences. Plus whatever soul is when I'm not here may also play into it. it could be soul is use to hanging out with ET's, unicorns, non earth cetaceans, dragons, and who knows what else. But earth souls here on SF may not experience any of that stuff, even if they are awakening.
Just my thoughts.
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Saturday [3-28]
Meditated a bit this morning, light meditative at most. no idea if any
of this is true, all untrue, partially true, or distorted.
The method I was created by was a piece of soul in the body was left, most of me was cut off, and former soul separated that part of itself, twin flame and me were recombined the stuff added were added some memories were downloaded/inserted and when after separation we were given the individual memories we had before so we would be basically the same person as before. With changes.
The changes were that the unicorn part was added since former me and Mirabelle were lovers so they thought why not add in unicorn so we could perhaps be mates or something if we choose. I think maybe Gaia, or a part of her had been brought in since it may slightly affect her or maybe she was brought in later. I'm unsure of this.
A unicorn elder was brought in since I'd be created but not born/conceived as a unicorn as most all other unicorns are created, more in a fashion of beings here are created, though not exactly the same since they are not from a density like earth is, more like the way souls are created.
maybe unicorn elder gaia and dragoness who is one of current soul's parents talked and got another idea, another option to add onto my 3 options. The 3 would be still in effect, but there would be a 4th option. There is a reason the dragoness added in the dragon bit, not sure if it is western or eastern. Source oked this stuff adding if the 2, me and Mirabelle did want to be mates the would be, but the choice was up to them and any 4th option could only be offered after the 3 were given to me and I made a choice. Only after that could the 4th option be given. They, the 3, maybe, unicorn elder, dragoness, gaia, maybe had another plan in mind or an ulterior motive with me getting the dragon part, and the elder oking the unicorn part being given.
Not sure about any of this, as I said before since this is just what I have gotten or think I have gotten.
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Was watching a video on youtube. mentioning about ego death. That doesn't seem right. What feels right is expanding ego so it encompasses more then oneself, but maybe encompasses everything, or at least more the oneself ?
expand ego so it encompasses more then just oneself, don't try to kill ego, expand it. For me at least that may be the more correct thing to do.
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The method I was created by was a piece of soul in the body was left, most of me was cut off, and former soul separated that part of itself, twin flame and me were recombined the stuff added were added some memories were downloaded/inserted and when after separation we were given the individual memories we had before so we would be basically the same person as before. With changes.
The changes were that the unicorn part was added since former me and Mirabelle were lovers so they thought why not add in unicorn so we could perhaps be mates or something if we choose. I think maybe Gaia, or a part of her had been brought in since it may slightly affect her or maybe she was brought in later. I'm unsure of this.
A unicorn elder was brought in since I'd be created but not born/conceived as a unicorn as most all other unicorns are created, more in a fashion of beings here are created, though not exactly the same since they are not from a density like earth is, more like the way souls are created.
maybe unicorn elder gaia and dragoness who is one of current soul's parents talked and got another idea, another option to add onto my 3 options. The 3 would be still in effect, but there would be a 4th option. There is a reason the dragoness added in the dragon bit, not sure if it is western or eastern. Source oked this stuff adding if the 2, me and Mirabelle did want to be mates the would be, but the choice was up to them and any 4th option could only be offered after the 3 were given to me and I made a choice. Only after that could the 4th option be given. They, the 3, maybe, unicorn elder, dragoness, gaia, maybe had another plan in mind or an ulterior motive with me getting the dragon part, and the elder oking the unicorn part being given.
Not sure about any of this, as I said before since this is just what I have gotten or think I have gotten.
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Was watching a video on youtube. mentioning about ego death. That doesn't seem right. What feels right is expanding ego so it encompasses more then oneself, but maybe encompasses everything, or at least more the oneself ?
expand ego so it encompasses more then just oneself, don't try to kill ego, expand it. For me at least that may be the more correct thing to do.
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Had interesting experiences on the way
home. I was waiting for the bus and was thinking how everyone was
sparks or sparks of sparks from source and if one could trace that back,
and it seemed for an instant I was source with everything being sparks
of me, or sparks of sparks, ect, of me. then a few seconds later I
tried again to see if I could find out which is correct if Dolores was
were we'd have to return to source to give source our experiences or if
source was getting our experiences as we were so didn't need that and
for an instant I think I felt that all of the experiences from all the
sparks and sparks of sparks were coming into me as they had the
experiences. If what I had was true then source is getting our
experiences as we experiences then, which makes sense to me, if we are
all parts of source so to speak.
on the first bus home I was thinking about my soul origins and if it could be true and for a few seconds I went sorta blind where all I could see was all white, like a bright white light or something, and I heard mentally a female voice that said either, <you have some of my energy> or <you have a part of my energy.>
Not sure what to make of these experiences.
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I continued to lay down after my nap. Got a bit more maybe about my origin, if any of it is accurate. The 3, ? gaia or some other female? dragoness and a female unicorn elder asked for a pause at some sort of meeting that took place before the meeting I was at that I mentioned in a post ages ago. They talked among themselves and got some ideas, including a 4th option. ? source was ok with their ideas but said the original 3 choices were the ones that had to be offered since they were part of the original still binding contract, only after one of these were chosen could this new one be offered and as in all cased (meaning me) had to be given ample time to think over the first 3 choices and if I wanted ask the opinion of others. Once I made the choice then this new choice could be given, with everything it would mean laid plain, including ? incentives? added into the package deal and again I had to be given plenty of time to think it over the choice and if I wished to take it or not and ask others opinions, and such.
Then they came back to the others who were ? surprised ? at what the others said like the unicorn female elder saying she would be the one to give me the unicorn soul energy or whatever the proper term is. and the dragoness insisted on her giving some dragon ? as well since they had a specific plan in mind. No idea what the exact plan is, the 4th option, it's either not fully formulated yet, I'll discover it later, or I'll have to wait till this incarnation is over and after any needed recovery.
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I did the 3rd audio on the opening to channel and had an interesting experience. it was a guided meditation and I went to some place that looked like the walls were made of glass or a glass looking substance, one person (who was non human) there who was around my size or maybe a slightly shorter said it was crystal or a type of crystal. I think there were either stone supports in spots or just the design to look like stone supports since they were not really needed or not as much as here? there was a lot of nature visible outside and other similar building not to far off. The building, as much of it as I saw, is shaped sort of like a square with a hollow center where sunlight came through and some sort of maybe garden or part was inside with sunlight streaming down and positioned so it was visible from everywhere. No stairs or elevators were visible. When we went upward, the alien that was there when I went through the door said to just go up when he suggested we go up to the next floor. We seemed to go up through the ceiling/floor. I guess it's an area where things are only as solid as one wants them to be and gravity only effects you if you want. I do recall there were no doors. I looked around a bit after I came through the door and saw various non human races, some looked similar to the one who met me, but were perhaps taller. though I guess they could look however they wanted. I did see a unicorn walk by who said "hello brother" to me.
The non human did say he/she was the first of many, or was it he/she was the first of several. I guess meaning either guides. he said he was to also help with the link. not sure if he'll be one of the first guides or if he'll be one of those to help with the link with my first guide. the other guides will be specialists or for specific purposes. I think he/she said. Have no idea about gender, or maybe it had no gender or was both.
I think its skin was a darker color, maybe blue, not sure since in my mind its very hard to see color. the head was maybe a bit larger in proportion to it's body then a human's is. Maybe longer too, didn't get a good look at the side or back of its head. The eyes were maybe the same size or slightly larger then a human's. Diffidently not a grey. It was at most around my height, maybe shorter, not sure of the exact height. Didn't pay strict attention, and no idea what it's hands looked like.
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I did meditation 10. The first part, where Daben has the listener go over the first 4 light body energy centers and the mummin went about the same as usual. The first one i felt a huge flow. The 2nd and 3rd I felt a very faint weak flow, like usual. the mummin and 4th one went like usual. the 4th I only felt when he was ending energy, nothing I did could send any there.
the mediation to the universe where the gas beings live went very badly. I could see nothing, hear nothing, telepathically get nothing. All I could do was feel energy being exchanged as they blended with me. Couldn't feel of the love or joy she (orin) said was there, none of the music ect. The only time I got sound was when I was to blend with a master from there, sounded like he was humming to himself mentally. and it gave me a bit of a pressure headache. overall a failure I'd say. and I still have a bit of a pressure headache, can't localize it, somewhere in my head. Guess it shows my only really working sense is the feeling one. That is something at least.
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Did the 10th meditation for a 2nd time. The first part, doing the first 4 of the light body energy centers went fantastically, the 2nd and 3rd i felt a lot of energy flowing, the mummin and ranthia were about like usual. not much energy in the ranthia apart form what Daben was sending.
The 2nd part was even worst then before. Still could not see, nor hear anything and no telepathic contact at all. Feeling was very feeble at best. I ended it early with 10 minutes left since it was a waste of my time. I guess it may be due to either I can't project for whatever reason, maybe I'm not sensitive enough to function in another dimension or universe. Maybe I have to wait till I'm master level before i can see, hear, telepathically contact, ect, in another universe or dimension.
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I was thinking and I seem to have lost all desire for meat and in fact feel a slight dislike of eating meat. Not that it's immoral or evil, just like some part of me at some level doesn't want me eating meat. it's ok. I'll not eat anymore. Went to the grocery store though I didn't need to to see if there were some extra food I can find. I found another type of cerial and 2 types of trail mix. that seems healthier. It'll add fat to my diet, but it'll be all poly and monounsaturated. I'll see how i feel in a few weeks. I have been eating a nearly all fat free foods except for the almonds and the 1/4th of a lean meat patty, so only slight meat.
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Also forgot to put in, I reduced one of the meals. I use to eat 6 small meals and today I cut that down to 5 small meals. Tomorrow morning I think the first meal I eat will be reduced down further. This may cut white rice out of my food, except for the rice that is already in the cereal that I eat. Starting tomorrow I'll start eating 4 small meals a day to see how I feel.
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on the first bus home I was thinking about my soul origins and if it could be true and for a few seconds I went sorta blind where all I could see was all white, like a bright white light or something, and I heard mentally a female voice that said either, <you have some of my energy> or <you have a part of my energy.>
Not sure what to make of these experiences.
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I continued to lay down after my nap. Got a bit more maybe about my origin, if any of it is accurate. The 3, ? gaia or some other female? dragoness and a female unicorn elder asked for a pause at some sort of meeting that took place before the meeting I was at that I mentioned in a post ages ago. They talked among themselves and got some ideas, including a 4th option. ? source was ok with their ideas but said the original 3 choices were the ones that had to be offered since they were part of the original still binding contract, only after one of these were chosen could this new one be offered and as in all cased (meaning me) had to be given ample time to think over the first 3 choices and if I wanted ask the opinion of others. Once I made the choice then this new choice could be given, with everything it would mean laid plain, including ? incentives? added into the package deal and again I had to be given plenty of time to think it over the choice and if I wished to take it or not and ask others opinions, and such.
Then they came back to the others who were ? surprised ? at what the others said like the unicorn female elder saying she would be the one to give me the unicorn soul energy or whatever the proper term is. and the dragoness insisted on her giving some dragon ? as well since they had a specific plan in mind. No idea what the exact plan is, the 4th option, it's either not fully formulated yet, I'll discover it later, or I'll have to wait till this incarnation is over and after any needed recovery.
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I did the 3rd audio on the opening to channel and had an interesting experience. it was a guided meditation and I went to some place that looked like the walls were made of glass or a glass looking substance, one person (who was non human) there who was around my size or maybe a slightly shorter said it was crystal or a type of crystal. I think there were either stone supports in spots or just the design to look like stone supports since they were not really needed or not as much as here? there was a lot of nature visible outside and other similar building not to far off. The building, as much of it as I saw, is shaped sort of like a square with a hollow center where sunlight came through and some sort of maybe garden or part was inside with sunlight streaming down and positioned so it was visible from everywhere. No stairs or elevators were visible. When we went upward, the alien that was there when I went through the door said to just go up when he suggested we go up to the next floor. We seemed to go up through the ceiling/floor. I guess it's an area where things are only as solid as one wants them to be and gravity only effects you if you want. I do recall there were no doors. I looked around a bit after I came through the door and saw various non human races, some looked similar to the one who met me, but were perhaps taller. though I guess they could look however they wanted. I did see a unicorn walk by who said "hello brother" to me.
The non human did say he/she was the first of many, or was it he/she was the first of several. I guess meaning either guides. he said he was to also help with the link. not sure if he'll be one of the first guides or if he'll be one of those to help with the link with my first guide. the other guides will be specialists or for specific purposes. I think he/she said. Have no idea about gender, or maybe it had no gender or was both.
I think its skin was a darker color, maybe blue, not sure since in my mind its very hard to see color. the head was maybe a bit larger in proportion to it's body then a human's is. Maybe longer too, didn't get a good look at the side or back of its head. The eyes were maybe the same size or slightly larger then a human's. Diffidently not a grey. It was at most around my height, maybe shorter, not sure of the exact height. Didn't pay strict attention, and no idea what it's hands looked like.
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I did meditation 10. The first part, where Daben has the listener go over the first 4 light body energy centers and the mummin went about the same as usual. The first one i felt a huge flow. The 2nd and 3rd I felt a very faint weak flow, like usual. the mummin and 4th one went like usual. the 4th I only felt when he was ending energy, nothing I did could send any there.
the mediation to the universe where the gas beings live went very badly. I could see nothing, hear nothing, telepathically get nothing. All I could do was feel energy being exchanged as they blended with me. Couldn't feel of the love or joy she (orin) said was there, none of the music ect. The only time I got sound was when I was to blend with a master from there, sounded like he was humming to himself mentally. and it gave me a bit of a pressure headache. overall a failure I'd say. and I still have a bit of a pressure headache, can't localize it, somewhere in my head. Guess it shows my only really working sense is the feeling one. That is something at least.
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Did the 10th meditation for a 2nd time. The first part, doing the first 4 of the light body energy centers went fantastically, the 2nd and 3rd i felt a lot of energy flowing, the mummin and ranthia were about like usual. not much energy in the ranthia apart form what Daben was sending.
The 2nd part was even worst then before. Still could not see, nor hear anything and no telepathic contact at all. Feeling was very feeble at best. I ended it early with 10 minutes left since it was a waste of my time. I guess it may be due to either I can't project for whatever reason, maybe I'm not sensitive enough to function in another dimension or universe. Maybe I have to wait till I'm master level before i can see, hear, telepathically contact, ect, in another universe or dimension.
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I was thinking and I seem to have lost all desire for meat and in fact feel a slight dislike of eating meat. Not that it's immoral or evil, just like some part of me at some level doesn't want me eating meat. it's ok. I'll not eat anymore. Went to the grocery store though I didn't need to to see if there were some extra food I can find. I found another type of cerial and 2 types of trail mix. that seems healthier. It'll add fat to my diet, but it'll be all poly and monounsaturated. I'll see how i feel in a few weeks. I have been eating a nearly all fat free foods except for the almonds and the 1/4th of a lean meat patty, so only slight meat.
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Also forgot to put in, I reduced one of the meals. I use to eat 6 small meals and today I cut that down to 5 small meals. Tomorrow morning I think the first meal I eat will be reduced down further. This may cut white rice out of my food, except for the rice that is already in the cereal that I eat. Starting tomorrow I'll start eating 4 small meals a day to see how I feel.
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Friday, March 27, 2015
Friday [3-27]
Also got a bit more yesterday, no idea where from. I think it was
connected to my wondering about the energy sheath thing to keep karma
from sticking to those who have it, that Dolores Cannon talks about and
my wondering, think it was Wednesday or Tuesday if I'd have to return
here after this incarnation is over. and I heard the mental voice of
something like <no you won't have to.> or something like that.
If I recall it, once this incarnation is over I'll come to a time when a decision has to be made if I'll return here willingly to incarnate, leave this world for good, or help from the other side of things like some do. I diffidently don't want to incarnate here again. a point will come after this incarnation when I'll have 3 choices, come back to incarnate again, help from the other side but not incarnating, or leaving entirely. I don't want to incarnate again. Incarnating here does have some fun aspects to it, but I don't want to incarnate here again. and I feel if I choose to help from the other side I'd be still tied here til the project is over. an inner part of me doesn't like that either, prefers freedom, so I may do the 3rd choice and just leave, so i can go where I wish without being tied to one area or spot for an entire project. not sure if that is me, 1 or more aspects, or some part like the unicorn in me, dragon, cetacean in me. I'll likely figure it out and likely it'll be multiple.
Former soul came here for the mission, but the thing is that was him, not this me typing it. I was an extension of him so not an individual till I incarnated here since he got me to agree to merge with him after a past incarnation instead of going fully independent with my twin flame since that would make certain aspects of this mission easier, though he either didn't know or purposely didn't share all the details since if he had I would not have come here. also I was re-created so both those are reasons I'll have, one day when this incarnation is over, a 3 way choice. I think it'll be after whatever recovery period after an incarnation here is over and a bit of time for me to experience being the soul or full me, since really I've never experienced the soul or the real me as me. Some time after this someone will come and I'll have to make 1 choice from the 3. Return to incarnate here to help the project along, help from the other side, or leave completely.
I get the feel certain mechanisms were in place so the existing karma system would not effect me as well as my taking some steps since I would come across the information (only recently started I think since I'm partially awake/aware) so it would not effect me. They took certain steps to doubly ensure it would not. Since the plan works best if we are not effected by the karma here.
some do see this earth thing as a failure since some adjustments have had to be made, others shrug and say everything needs to be adjusted from time to time. certain adjustments and interference from within had to be done since earth would have headed down a dark path indeed without outsiders coming in. Some (including current soul) had said back when the veil think, karma, being separated was a stupid thing and it would not work. Some of them are pointing that out, even as they come and are here to help.
I further feel that something doesn't want me to go once this incarnation is over, not sure who or what. But the original 3 choices of the original contract are still binding that original soul agreed to before I incarnated here. I get the feeling whoever or whatever it is has to give me the 3 choices, and if I choose choice 3, where I just leave never to return, they, or it, will offer me a 4th choice. maybe they want me to choose now but I refuse to and further say any choice made now is not binding and I tear up any such contract now. The 4th choice I think can't be offered to me right up front since there were only 3 choices in the original contract and they, including former soul, didn't see that I'd need to be re-created so never planned for that and the 4th choice is being formed and put together now. Including what they would say I'll be doing exactly and what the advantages, disadvantages, and I will demand full disclosure, all the information and time to think over a decision and talk to some others. Since with the original plan even if I choose choice 3 and left here original soul would still be here. But my needing to be re-created totally messes up the original plan I think.
I think the partially formed ideas are maybe i'd be away from home like an actor who does movies and appears in tv series. Like I'd be away from home for say months or weeks. Then I can go back and stay for a while, weeks or months. Maybe I could just teleport back and forth or maybe I'd need to use a vehicle to do so, that either would be made available to me whenever I ask, or one given or assigned to me for the duration of the mission. Though like an actor can, to an extent, I could bring along family and or friends maybe, few, so I'd not be as separated from them. Maybe I'd be allowed to keep it after the project is fully over. Maybe I'd have other incentives during the mission if I agree, and maybe other incentives after it's over?
some ideas I maybe would do would be, & I feel it's not formulated fully yet, but maybe going back to the 80's or something of this timeline to each some who are thinking of volunteering what it is like on earth, since I have first hand knowledge, so they'd be not surprised like the first wave, and then teaching or guiding those who do choose to come here after some of us tell them frankly what it's like on earth. To prepare them with more detailed information and or teaching. Maybe an alternate timeline I'd be on one of the councils there since some are feeling since this mission needed adjustments and retooling since they missed up since none of the council incarnated here to get first hand experience what it's like on earth. To explore in maybe an alternate timeline, what if we had that knowledge from the start and the first wave folks were better prepared. what if we had that first hand knowledge ourselves before we fully formed the plan and asked for volunteers to implement the plan. Which some are saying they should have incarnated here first themselves before formulating and asking for volunteers to implement the plan.
just a feel I get like someone or something doesn't want me to just go so they'll offer me this 4th choice. not sure if any of this is true, none of it, bits and pieces, or there is some distortion.
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I did the 9th meditation, you are the master - compassion. Interesting. for the 2 folks in it i picked ,1 to be a friend and the other someone i had some problems with online years ago. i think it went very well. think I may pick some one i had more recent problems with online-wise for the 2nd time I do this today, and maybe for the 2nd do a general everyone I've had problems with in the past. it should be possible to do this instead of picking 1 at a time.
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Once I lay down I had the same thing again, love/pleasure along with resonating energy coursing through my body. No idea why it is happening but it dos feel great. I assume there is some purpose behind this even if whoever is doing it refused to talk. Felt like i went so deep in relaxation I lost consciousness for about 10 or 15 minutes, no idea what happened during that. I guess much the same with lessening effect. Towards the end it felt like this physical body could float, it felt so light.
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I did meditation 9 again. Went well, very well in fact. I got very relaxed. Felt like I went very deep indeed maybe. As i was coming out of the deep meditative state felt like this body stopped breathing and some part of me, and it did feel like me, but not this me. This me was focusing on following along with the guided meditation. It felt like me, but not this me, took a energy thing shaped sort of like a finger and did a sorta hard jab at a certain spot of the brain. don't recall the exact spot, but the body started to breath again.
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after effects of the meditation is I feel very relaxed very light. towards the end i did feel a bit like I could float. Towards the end of the laying down to take a nap or meditate i also felt very light also
If I recall it, once this incarnation is over I'll come to a time when a decision has to be made if I'll return here willingly to incarnate, leave this world for good, or help from the other side of things like some do. I diffidently don't want to incarnate here again. a point will come after this incarnation when I'll have 3 choices, come back to incarnate again, help from the other side but not incarnating, or leaving entirely. I don't want to incarnate again. Incarnating here does have some fun aspects to it, but I don't want to incarnate here again. and I feel if I choose to help from the other side I'd be still tied here til the project is over. an inner part of me doesn't like that either, prefers freedom, so I may do the 3rd choice and just leave, so i can go where I wish without being tied to one area or spot for an entire project. not sure if that is me, 1 or more aspects, or some part like the unicorn in me, dragon, cetacean in me. I'll likely figure it out and likely it'll be multiple.
Former soul came here for the mission, but the thing is that was him, not this me typing it. I was an extension of him so not an individual till I incarnated here since he got me to agree to merge with him after a past incarnation instead of going fully independent with my twin flame since that would make certain aspects of this mission easier, though he either didn't know or purposely didn't share all the details since if he had I would not have come here. also I was re-created so both those are reasons I'll have, one day when this incarnation is over, a 3 way choice. I think it'll be after whatever recovery period after an incarnation here is over and a bit of time for me to experience being the soul or full me, since really I've never experienced the soul or the real me as me. Some time after this someone will come and I'll have to make 1 choice from the 3. Return to incarnate here to help the project along, help from the other side, or leave completely.
I get the feel certain mechanisms were in place so the existing karma system would not effect me as well as my taking some steps since I would come across the information (only recently started I think since I'm partially awake/aware) so it would not effect me. They took certain steps to doubly ensure it would not. Since the plan works best if we are not effected by the karma here.
some do see this earth thing as a failure since some adjustments have had to be made, others shrug and say everything needs to be adjusted from time to time. certain adjustments and interference from within had to be done since earth would have headed down a dark path indeed without outsiders coming in. Some (including current soul) had said back when the veil think, karma, being separated was a stupid thing and it would not work. Some of them are pointing that out, even as they come and are here to help.
I further feel that something doesn't want me to go once this incarnation is over, not sure who or what. But the original 3 choices of the original contract are still binding that original soul agreed to before I incarnated here. I get the feeling whoever or whatever it is has to give me the 3 choices, and if I choose choice 3, where I just leave never to return, they, or it, will offer me a 4th choice. maybe they want me to choose now but I refuse to and further say any choice made now is not binding and I tear up any such contract now. The 4th choice I think can't be offered to me right up front since there were only 3 choices in the original contract and they, including former soul, didn't see that I'd need to be re-created so never planned for that and the 4th choice is being formed and put together now. Including what they would say I'll be doing exactly and what the advantages, disadvantages, and I will demand full disclosure, all the information and time to think over a decision and talk to some others. Since with the original plan even if I choose choice 3 and left here original soul would still be here. But my needing to be re-created totally messes up the original plan I think.
I think the partially formed ideas are maybe i'd be away from home like an actor who does movies and appears in tv series. Like I'd be away from home for say months or weeks. Then I can go back and stay for a while, weeks or months. Maybe I could just teleport back and forth or maybe I'd need to use a vehicle to do so, that either would be made available to me whenever I ask, or one given or assigned to me for the duration of the mission. Though like an actor can, to an extent, I could bring along family and or friends maybe, few, so I'd not be as separated from them. Maybe I'd be allowed to keep it after the project is fully over. Maybe I'd have other incentives during the mission if I agree, and maybe other incentives after it's over?
some ideas I maybe would do would be, & I feel it's not formulated fully yet, but maybe going back to the 80's or something of this timeline to each some who are thinking of volunteering what it is like on earth, since I have first hand knowledge, so they'd be not surprised like the first wave, and then teaching or guiding those who do choose to come here after some of us tell them frankly what it's like on earth. To prepare them with more detailed information and or teaching. Maybe an alternate timeline I'd be on one of the councils there since some are feeling since this mission needed adjustments and retooling since they missed up since none of the council incarnated here to get first hand experience what it's like on earth. To explore in maybe an alternate timeline, what if we had that knowledge from the start and the first wave folks were better prepared. what if we had that first hand knowledge ourselves before we fully formed the plan and asked for volunteers to implement the plan. Which some are saying they should have incarnated here first themselves before formulating and asking for volunteers to implement the plan.
just a feel I get like someone or something doesn't want me to just go so they'll offer me this 4th choice. not sure if any of this is true, none of it, bits and pieces, or there is some distortion.
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I did the 9th meditation, you are the master - compassion. Interesting. for the 2 folks in it i picked ,1 to be a friend and the other someone i had some problems with online years ago. i think it went very well. think I may pick some one i had more recent problems with online-wise for the 2nd time I do this today, and maybe for the 2nd do a general everyone I've had problems with in the past. it should be possible to do this instead of picking 1 at a time.
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Once I lay down I had the same thing again, love/pleasure along with resonating energy coursing through my body. No idea why it is happening but it dos feel great. I assume there is some purpose behind this even if whoever is doing it refused to talk. Felt like i went so deep in relaxation I lost consciousness for about 10 or 15 minutes, no idea what happened during that. I guess much the same with lessening effect. Towards the end it felt like this physical body could float, it felt so light.
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I did meditation 9 again. Went well, very well in fact. I got very relaxed. Felt like I went very deep indeed maybe. As i was coming out of the deep meditative state felt like this body stopped breathing and some part of me, and it did feel like me, but not this me. This me was focusing on following along with the guided meditation. It felt like me, but not this me, took a energy thing shaped sort of like a finger and did a sorta hard jab at a certain spot of the brain. don't recall the exact spot, but the body started to breath again.
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after effects of the meditation is I feel very relaxed very light. towards the end i did feel a bit like I could float. Towards the end of the laying down to take a nap or meditate i also felt very light also
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Thursday [3-26]
Got some names last night, not sure what they relate to. Lavensure, or
Lavenshure. and also Arturus or is it Arcturus? No idea what those
names are of or where they came from.
got another odd idea as I was trying to go to sleep. Et's, Fae or fae (? magical beings ?), me go between of some or all of them and or humans also, since I've incarnated as a human, and I am a unicorn and maybe an et race since I'm a non earth cetacean also? or someone who understands 3. just an odd idea that popped into my head, a sorta vague sorta concept.
I think Dolores Cannon may have gotten a bit wrong. The bit about source telling every spark to go out, experience everything and bring it back to me. She says it means everyone will bring their experiences back to source when they return to source. But the mistake she made is source is getting everyone's experience, no need to return to source to upload it. For example as I am typing this source is getting the experience of me typing this sentence as I am typing it.
Also the feel I get is what I'd call 1st generation souls, those directly from source, are more likely to return to source. But 2nd generation and later ones less likely, but some do. There is an infinity of time to experience everything. Though some souls, at some point, do choose to return to source, some never do. Humans see everthing has to have an end point so that may be where the thing comes from that everyone will return to god, source or whatever you call it. Also I'd guess Dolores's patients may get some distortion to an extent since that which speaks to Dolores likely has to use the vocabulary that is in the person's mind. Like a channeled being can only use words in the hosts mind. Like one time on a video I saw, or maybe read in the first book, of Treb, when the person talking to Treb said a word Rob didn't know Treb said something like, what does that word mean, this host doesn't know that word.
Though I'm not saying I know better then she does. Everyone here who can get info from outside here or the other side, gets some distortion, some more then others.
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Not much to say. had fun at the rp group today. Still wonder if the Lavensure or lavenshure , and Arturus or is it Arcturus are names and why they came to me last night before I went to sleep.
I'm excited to be starting the Opening to Channel audio course tomorrow, I'll doing it at the same time as the awakening the light body course. As best as I can. I should have the time. The awakening the light body I'll keep to doing the 2 meditations a day. The opening to channel I will do 1 a day. Though not sure if i'll have time Thursdays, I'll decide next Thursday.
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Not sure why I had this experience. As I lay down to take a nap after a shower I felt an intense love & pleasure, like it was sitting at the back of my mind. I tried, once I had relaxed if I could pull it to the forepart and accept it and experienced it. I also had the intention of not just me experiencing this but all of my aspects and body. I then felt the intense love & pleasure coursing through my body and a resonating that had a certain pattern to it. After a while the love seemed to go, but I still had the pleasure and the resonating, then after a while just the resonating. The resonating had a certain pattern to it that it stayed with. eventually it got less and less. Pleasurable experience, no idea what it was, but pleasurable it was. It felt like while I was having this that it was affecting not just my physical body but also my energy body and like it extended an inch or a few inches outside my physical body. Sorta like orin & daben say in the manual thing that the energy body extends when it's not tangled or withdrawn into the physical body.
I did the 8th meditation. Things went very well I thought overall. I felt all the energies running or flowing. That includes the 2nd and 3rd light body energy centers. Thought the energy flow was far less then the 1st. Not sure if this is normal or a sign I need to work on the 2nd & 3rd energy centers more. It does seem to be going very well and very easily. I wonder if this is normal for it to go this easy, or a sign former soul, or me, has done something like this before on other worlds. or if it is normally this easy for anyone.
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? Arcturus Command? Did a brief mediation where I relaxed my thoughts & that popped into my mind. I think it did. Forgot to type it earlier so not sure. Or was it arcturus command council? not sure. arcturus council?
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at times it feels like I can feel most of me outside of this universe, with only part here. hard to describe it. or is it my imagination? I'm not sure.
got another odd idea as I was trying to go to sleep. Et's, Fae or fae (? magical beings ?), me go between of some or all of them and or humans also, since I've incarnated as a human, and I am a unicorn and maybe an et race since I'm a non earth cetacean also? or someone who understands 3. just an odd idea that popped into my head, a sorta vague sorta concept.
I think Dolores Cannon may have gotten a bit wrong. The bit about source telling every spark to go out, experience everything and bring it back to me. She says it means everyone will bring their experiences back to source when they return to source. But the mistake she made is source is getting everyone's experience, no need to return to source to upload it. For example as I am typing this source is getting the experience of me typing this sentence as I am typing it.
Also the feel I get is what I'd call 1st generation souls, those directly from source, are more likely to return to source. But 2nd generation and later ones less likely, but some do. There is an infinity of time to experience everything. Though some souls, at some point, do choose to return to source, some never do. Humans see everthing has to have an end point so that may be where the thing comes from that everyone will return to god, source or whatever you call it. Also I'd guess Dolores's patients may get some distortion to an extent since that which speaks to Dolores likely has to use the vocabulary that is in the person's mind. Like a channeled being can only use words in the hosts mind. Like one time on a video I saw, or maybe read in the first book, of Treb, when the person talking to Treb said a word Rob didn't know Treb said something like, what does that word mean, this host doesn't know that word.
Though I'm not saying I know better then she does. Everyone here who can get info from outside here or the other side, gets some distortion, some more then others.
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Not much to say. had fun at the rp group today. Still wonder if the Lavensure or lavenshure , and Arturus or is it Arcturus are names and why they came to me last night before I went to sleep.
I'm excited to be starting the Opening to Channel audio course tomorrow, I'll doing it at the same time as the awakening the light body course. As best as I can. I should have the time. The awakening the light body I'll keep to doing the 2 meditations a day. The opening to channel I will do 1 a day. Though not sure if i'll have time Thursdays, I'll decide next Thursday.
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Not sure why I had this experience. As I lay down to take a nap after a shower I felt an intense love & pleasure, like it was sitting at the back of my mind. I tried, once I had relaxed if I could pull it to the forepart and accept it and experienced it. I also had the intention of not just me experiencing this but all of my aspects and body. I then felt the intense love & pleasure coursing through my body and a resonating that had a certain pattern to it. After a while the love seemed to go, but I still had the pleasure and the resonating, then after a while just the resonating. The resonating had a certain pattern to it that it stayed with. eventually it got less and less. Pleasurable experience, no idea what it was, but pleasurable it was. It felt like while I was having this that it was affecting not just my physical body but also my energy body and like it extended an inch or a few inches outside my physical body. Sorta like orin & daben say in the manual thing that the energy body extends when it's not tangled or withdrawn into the physical body.
I did the 8th meditation. Things went very well I thought overall. I felt all the energies running or flowing. That includes the 2nd and 3rd light body energy centers. Thought the energy flow was far less then the 1st. Not sure if this is normal or a sign I need to work on the 2nd & 3rd energy centers more. It does seem to be going very well and very easily. I wonder if this is normal for it to go this easy, or a sign former soul, or me, has done something like this before on other worlds. or if it is normally this easy for anyone.
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? Arcturus Command? Did a brief mediation where I relaxed my thoughts & that popped into my mind. I think it did. Forgot to type it earlier so not sure. Or was it arcturus command council? not sure. arcturus council?
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at times it feels like I can feel most of me outside of this universe, with only part here. hard to describe it. or is it my imagination? I'm not sure.
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Wedensday [3-25]
I do get the feeling that the council, perhaps, as I mentioned last
night. Think I did post about that. I think watching the dolores
cannon video seemed to give me some missing pieces .
I got the feel that the council skipped over a step when they called for volunteers to help with their project here, with the shift. I get the feeling now that they should have incarnated here so they can have 1st hand knowledge of the earth conditions for those incarnated here instead of looking at things from a distance from the other side like they did. if they looked in the akashic records (assuming they exist and I don't know if they do or not) that is not the same as being here.
I think some or most or all now know or suspect that. That I think is behind why so many don't want to be here since the council could not adequately prepare those coming here. Took a while for the information on this error or mistake. I think some may have been reluctant to say anything since they say think they are wiser so this can't be a mistake, when even they do make mistakes.
I think that is part of most of why so many hate being here and some have gone as far as committing suicide, though there are likely many other reasons also.
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I still wonder about the energy sheath thing she mentioned.
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I know if I have any say I don't want to be here and don't want to come to incarnate again.
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I wonder if one of my soul parents, the dragoness one . I wonder if she is current soul's twin flame, or one of his soul parents. there seems some confusion on my part there.
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I did the 7th meditation. felt like it went better, though about mid way through i went to deep and don't recall anything. I did get the last 9 or so minutes and the beginning few minutes, so have about half. Doing the last half that I was conscious for has left me with feeling of peace through my being. I"ll see if i can re do that later on today.
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I did the 8th meditation. went pretty well. I didn't feel the energy flows of the first 4 energy centers much, though that could be due to the fact I did meditation 7 earlier today. Felt the deep inner peace during most of it and afterwards. went deep again, but felt like I kept most of the experience despite going deep. left me thirsty like it always does.
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Think I may get the opening to channel audio course Friday. It may help along with the awaken the light body course, hand in hand so to speak. Not sure if I'll get the clear channel course which is like a follow up to this one. if I dont' feel the need I likely won't, or I may do it late this year or something. Maybe with the light body side courses, if I do pick any to get. But I'll decide on that later.
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I'm thinking that instead of this stuff that keeps coming up being only stuff I need to work on. It feels fainter. So it may be I've done all the emotional body work. what's left may be some mental body work I need to do. Also it may be that I'm also picking up some bits from the collective consciousness. I've made the intent months ago that I no longer want to clear. Saw that on a matt video, that enough has been cleared from the collective consciousness where we don't need to anymore. it may be that if I am sensitive maybe I'm sensitive to picking up bits from neighbors, folks that walk by on the street, or drive by in their cars. maybe a simple thing to deal with, clearing the aura regularly. or if I get to the course, which i think is the final part, 7 of the 2nd course of the light body series. That one is something about being invisible to negative energy.
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Maybe what the pod and others were doing to me to help didn't work out since maybe they didn't' know the conditions of being incarnated here and how dense it is here, unlike i guess orin and daben and are not as through, so to speak. that may be why I was subtly nudged in the direction of their light body stuff.
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I tried the feel and radiate divine love. I didn't feel much live, just a slight amount when I had a visual image of an anthro female orca and me kissing, with me in an anthro male orca. Not sure if we had unicorn horns too or not. before the image appeared, early in the meditation I did feel that I had a triangular dorsal fin and a unicorn horn.
it could be maybe I'm not sensative enough to feel soul level love, or maybe I have been feeling it and like you can't feel the shirt touching your skin usually I can't feel the soul level love since I"m use to it.
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If I do get a guide, or already have one. I wonder if I'd get 1 or several. Since I'd like a day to day guide to help with the inner emotional stuff I need to work on, mental stuff I need to work on, whatever spiritual stuff I need to work on. Also to fully awaken and be fully aware as a soul. Maybe some energy work so I can heal myself, maybe clear my aura if I am one of the sensitive folks. maye a very high level guide to learn some stuff that wouldn't be possible otherwise.
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Listening to Dolores Cannon has me wondering if I'm here not to just help with the shift, but also to help fix the system. if so then to me that would seem to indicate that the system wasn't really working to well. I recall current soul saying that he thought the system here is a stupid one. he warned the humans back before the system here was implemented that they would not like it, it was a stupid system and he told them why, they didn't listen to him, now they do believe him and want their help. I say him since he has always felt male to me. Though souls have no gender. Some I think can feel more male or more female, due to their basic energy, basic personality or other reasons, like some can be herms, or androgynous.
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I do hope either that energy sheath Dolores Cannon mentioned to keep karma from sticking is on me, or what I was told how karma works since I don't want to come to earth again ever, once this is over.
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I do have to agree with current soul in some things. The system here is pretty stupid. I thought that at 15 when i started to get my flashes and still think so. I do hope I have either that energy sheath or am doing well enough so I'll not need or be forced to return here since I don't want to return to the earth. Many love the system here, not me.
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Did the violet flame meditation. Felt like I went medium or deeper. Not sure all of that was going on but I felt things happening at an energy level. I followed the affirmations. It also felt pleasurable, a soul level pleasurable. Hard to describe. I think I'll do this one regularly, a few times a week or so. Maybe twice on weekends too. I assume it is doing good stuff, since it felt pleasurable, and I want a decent depth and was extremely relaxed at the end. I felt a sort of resonance when it was going on. I feel different, but hard to describe how.
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As a sort of ps. I was fixing a meal and had a stray thought that I do hope I won't have to return to the earth to incarnate again. there are some fun things about the earth but really I don't want to incarnate here again, ever. i heard a very faint mental voice that sounded like it said, <you won't have to.>
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I did the 8th meditation of part 2. It went very well. I felt the energy flows of the first 3 energy centers. The first one the most strongly and the other 2 not so much. The mummin I felt slightly and the Ranthia slightly as well at the beginning, then towards the end I felt it much more strongly.
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I did the 7th meditation again. This time I remained awake for the whole thing. it was interesting. remaining neutral around others if they are experiencing high emotions so the emotions, which are a type of energy, will not effect you in the same way, but you can turn them positive so they do help you. Interesting idea. I'll try to remember to try it if the situation comes up.
I think tomorrow instead of moving on to 9. I'll do 7 and 8 again. moving on to 9 on Friday. I'll finish this course Monday. Then Tuesday I'll start over again with part 2, doubling up and finishing the course a 2nd time in about a week or so. Then I think I'll do parts 1 and 2 at the same time, or I may double up and do all or some of parts 1 and 2. I'll decide when the time comes.
I was watching another Dolores cannon video. She was talking about the new earth, old earth, the 3 waves of indigoes, ect. By her age classification I would be a first wave. Doesn't matter since there are transition & overlap. I do hope i have that energy sheath thing that she mentions that keeps karma from sticking to me.
I got the idea, not sure if it is true. Instead of choosing the new earth, or the old earth, I'd rather pick a 3rd choice and be out of here, not to either earth but to go home, either where the unicorns are, the pod lives, or where everyone looks like ball of color. I get the feel that I could maybe choose that instead of a sorta reward thing of living on the new earth. if there will be a new earth. I feel it is maybe not exactly correct, close but not exact. Not sure if there will be a 2nd earth or not. there may be a 3d aspect of earth where some are left behind. This may be the new earth. hard to explain the feel I get. I guess when I get and do the opening to channel audio series I'll get a better connection since whoever I'm doing this is untrained in this life.
I got the feel that the council skipped over a step when they called for volunteers to help with their project here, with the shift. I get the feeling now that they should have incarnated here so they can have 1st hand knowledge of the earth conditions for those incarnated here instead of looking at things from a distance from the other side like they did. if they looked in the akashic records (assuming they exist and I don't know if they do or not) that is not the same as being here.
I think some or most or all now know or suspect that. That I think is behind why so many don't want to be here since the council could not adequately prepare those coming here. Took a while for the information on this error or mistake. I think some may have been reluctant to say anything since they say think they are wiser so this can't be a mistake, when even they do make mistakes.
I think that is part of most of why so many hate being here and some have gone as far as committing suicide, though there are likely many other reasons also.
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I still wonder about the energy sheath thing she mentioned.
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I know if I have any say I don't want to be here and don't want to come to incarnate again.
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I wonder if one of my soul parents, the dragoness one . I wonder if she is current soul's twin flame, or one of his soul parents. there seems some confusion on my part there.
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I did the 7th meditation. felt like it went better, though about mid way through i went to deep and don't recall anything. I did get the last 9 or so minutes and the beginning few minutes, so have about half. Doing the last half that I was conscious for has left me with feeling of peace through my being. I"ll see if i can re do that later on today.
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I did the 8th meditation. went pretty well. I didn't feel the energy flows of the first 4 energy centers much, though that could be due to the fact I did meditation 7 earlier today. Felt the deep inner peace during most of it and afterwards. went deep again, but felt like I kept most of the experience despite going deep. left me thirsty like it always does.
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Think I may get the opening to channel audio course Friday. It may help along with the awaken the light body course, hand in hand so to speak. Not sure if I'll get the clear channel course which is like a follow up to this one. if I dont' feel the need I likely won't, or I may do it late this year or something. Maybe with the light body side courses, if I do pick any to get. But I'll decide on that later.
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I'm thinking that instead of this stuff that keeps coming up being only stuff I need to work on. It feels fainter. So it may be I've done all the emotional body work. what's left may be some mental body work I need to do. Also it may be that I'm also picking up some bits from the collective consciousness. I've made the intent months ago that I no longer want to clear. Saw that on a matt video, that enough has been cleared from the collective consciousness where we don't need to anymore. it may be that if I am sensitive maybe I'm sensitive to picking up bits from neighbors, folks that walk by on the street, or drive by in their cars. maybe a simple thing to deal with, clearing the aura regularly. or if I get to the course, which i think is the final part, 7 of the 2nd course of the light body series. That one is something about being invisible to negative energy.
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Maybe what the pod and others were doing to me to help didn't work out since maybe they didn't' know the conditions of being incarnated here and how dense it is here, unlike i guess orin and daben and are not as through, so to speak. that may be why I was subtly nudged in the direction of their light body stuff.
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I tried the feel and radiate divine love. I didn't feel much live, just a slight amount when I had a visual image of an anthro female orca and me kissing, with me in an anthro male orca. Not sure if we had unicorn horns too or not. before the image appeared, early in the meditation I did feel that I had a triangular dorsal fin and a unicorn horn.
it could be maybe I'm not sensative enough to feel soul level love, or maybe I have been feeling it and like you can't feel the shirt touching your skin usually I can't feel the soul level love since I"m use to it.
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If I do get a guide, or already have one. I wonder if I'd get 1 or several. Since I'd like a day to day guide to help with the inner emotional stuff I need to work on, mental stuff I need to work on, whatever spiritual stuff I need to work on. Also to fully awaken and be fully aware as a soul. Maybe some energy work so I can heal myself, maybe clear my aura if I am one of the sensitive folks. maye a very high level guide to learn some stuff that wouldn't be possible otherwise.
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Listening to Dolores Cannon has me wondering if I'm here not to just help with the shift, but also to help fix the system. if so then to me that would seem to indicate that the system wasn't really working to well. I recall current soul saying that he thought the system here is a stupid one. he warned the humans back before the system here was implemented that they would not like it, it was a stupid system and he told them why, they didn't listen to him, now they do believe him and want their help. I say him since he has always felt male to me. Though souls have no gender. Some I think can feel more male or more female, due to their basic energy, basic personality or other reasons, like some can be herms, or androgynous.
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I do hope either that energy sheath Dolores Cannon mentioned to keep karma from sticking is on me, or what I was told how karma works since I don't want to come to earth again ever, once this is over.
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I do have to agree with current soul in some things. The system here is pretty stupid. I thought that at 15 when i started to get my flashes and still think so. I do hope I have either that energy sheath or am doing well enough so I'll not need or be forced to return here since I don't want to return to the earth. Many love the system here, not me.
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Did the violet flame meditation. Felt like I went medium or deeper. Not sure all of that was going on but I felt things happening at an energy level. I followed the affirmations. It also felt pleasurable, a soul level pleasurable. Hard to describe. I think I'll do this one regularly, a few times a week or so. Maybe twice on weekends too. I assume it is doing good stuff, since it felt pleasurable, and I want a decent depth and was extremely relaxed at the end. I felt a sort of resonance when it was going on. I feel different, but hard to describe how.
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As a sort of ps. I was fixing a meal and had a stray thought that I do hope I won't have to return to the earth to incarnate again. there are some fun things about the earth but really I don't want to incarnate here again, ever. i heard a very faint mental voice that sounded like it said, <you won't have to.>
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I did the 8th meditation of part 2. It went very well. I felt the energy flows of the first 3 energy centers. The first one the most strongly and the other 2 not so much. The mummin I felt slightly and the Ranthia slightly as well at the beginning, then towards the end I felt it much more strongly.
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I did the 7th meditation again. This time I remained awake for the whole thing. it was interesting. remaining neutral around others if they are experiencing high emotions so the emotions, which are a type of energy, will not effect you in the same way, but you can turn them positive so they do help you. Interesting idea. I'll try to remember to try it if the situation comes up.
I think tomorrow instead of moving on to 9. I'll do 7 and 8 again. moving on to 9 on Friday. I'll finish this course Monday. Then Tuesday I'll start over again with part 2, doubling up and finishing the course a 2nd time in about a week or so. Then I think I'll do parts 1 and 2 at the same time, or I may double up and do all or some of parts 1 and 2. I'll decide when the time comes.
I was watching another Dolores cannon video. She was talking about the new earth, old earth, the 3 waves of indigoes, ect. By her age classification I would be a first wave. Doesn't matter since there are transition & overlap. I do hope i have that energy sheath thing that she mentions that keeps karma from sticking to me.
I got the idea, not sure if it is true. Instead of choosing the new earth, or the old earth, I'd rather pick a 3rd choice and be out of here, not to either earth but to go home, either where the unicorns are, the pod lives, or where everyone looks like ball of color. I get the feel that I could maybe choose that instead of a sorta reward thing of living on the new earth. if there will be a new earth. I feel it is maybe not exactly correct, close but not exact. Not sure if there will be a 2nd earth or not. there may be a 3d aspect of earth where some are left behind. This may be the new earth. hard to explain the feel I get. I guess when I get and do the opening to channel audio series I'll get a better connection since whoever I'm doing this is untrained in this life.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Tuesday [3-24]
I've been watching a Dolores Cannon video someone gave me a link to in
an email unconnected to this site. And it gave me some pieces I was
missing that I seem to better understand. Not sure about the first 2 waves having an energy sheath around them
to ensure that karma doesn't stick to them. Possible, but not sure. If
so then I should have such an energy sheath around me. If there is such
I wonder if I do.
Understand stuff like why I felt like I never wanted to be here, jailers, was tricked into coming here, was forced here.
There was a council or group that responded to the need for help here, or earth, or earth native souls asked for help, I think maybe a mix of all these put together. But I think the big mistake was when the council put together the plan NONE of them, or the vast majority, had not thought to incarnate on earth to see what the conditions here are like living here. They saw and observed the earth from a distance so to speak, but that is different then living here on the earth. So the souls who came here or like in my case the extensions of the souls here, were not adequately prepared before they first incarnated here. They didn't realize the big mistake till after the first and 2nd wave had been coming here, it taking a while for the information to filter up to the council and they to take notice and talk about what adjustments need to be made.
No sure who, but someone, not sure if is current soul or higher up, thinks that everyone of them should have incarnated here first to see and experience the conditions firsthand, before any plan or project was started being talked about and planned. They've had to make adjustments and such since then, but many, or all, realize the mistake they made since earth is one of the more unique ????. That could be why say Dan and Stan were not helping as guides really after a point, so to speak, thinking I could project when I couldn't. I get the feeling someone somewhere arranged maybe for former soul to progress a bit faster so what happened to me would get someone either on the council or closer to the council to have first hand knowledge of what the conditions on earth are and what being here is really like and help realize some of their mistakes. Not that the project was in danger of failing, but it could have been implemented to be smoother, and perhaps a bit more efficient or faster.
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I was thinking of one thing I felt that Mirabelle's mother is a counterpart of mine, My equivalent but from current soul's twin.
i think she was, like me, a soul from another soul, but through current soul's twin flame. Though perhaps not with the intent of being my twin. but a mirror so to speak. Hard to describe since I'm not sure I fully comprehend it yet. It may take more meditating and contemplating.
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Towards the end of my nap/meditation thing I felt energy coming in from the kundalini. It felt like it was coming from my kundalini up my back, along channels, like long fingers, that goes up my back, across my shoulders and chest, to my abdominal. The energy seemed to focus heavily on my abdominal area. This went on for quite some minutes. Then for the last minute or so it went for my whole body. My body was resonating. At first it felt like it was streaming across my body at first. then after a bit some of it would go into my horn, build up then then shoot back out.
Then it felt like energy came in waves across my body.
Not what all this was about.
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I'm not sure of the energy sheath that prevents karma from sticking. Would be nice if I had that. No idea how to tell or check. If I had a choice I'd certainly would want to have such a sheath.
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I was thinking a bit ago. if there is a way to tell if there are certain issues one needs to deal with. if those issues do come from within oneself, or if those feelings are external and to keep oneself from being effected by the issues others need to work on.
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I did the 7th meditation of awakening the heart center. Staying neutral. Overall it felt like it went well. I did feel a neutral, peace, emptiness, stillness, within, hard to describe what it is. It feels like something I've done before without knowing exactly how I did it. Though others would say, like my saying I have the ability to turn my emotions off, if I notice and think of it, that I was suppressing the emotions, though I always thought they were wrong, for me and this and a previous meditation seems to go along with what I was thinking and knew. Early on in the meditation I saw the large snake guy appear again. He just stayed there, a short distance way looking at me, but as he did this I felt my kundalini as if it were flowing faster and with more force, along with a sexual pleasureful feeling. After a short time he want away and it stopped. Not sure what was up with that. I think he apologized for the distraction. This whole experience only lasted a minute or so at most.
The severe depression I felt last week more like another cause though. Maybe an energy shift, vibration shift or something. Since that was something I was experiencing all through my entire being and I could not turn off or find an inner place of emptiness, for more then short periods of time. Could the earth going through shifts, or me going through some sort of shifts, vibrational or otherwise, be the reason for some of the depression and the way it feels like it goes down to the very core of my being. hard to describe but it did feel like after that snap type feeling, hard to describe what I felt other then something like a snap, that I instantly felt better at that time, poof gone. But I've already described that before.
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An aftereffect maybe caused by the snake guy is it feels like parts of my body feel like they are resonating, though it's faded a lot since then. Also it feels like my kundalini channel has more energy in it, or more is flowing through it.
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Towards the end of my nap/meditation thing I felt energy coming in from the kundalini. It felt like it was coming from my kundalini up my back, along channels, like long fingers, that goes up my back, across my shoulders and chest, to my abdominal. The energy seemed to focus heavily on my abdominal area. This went on for quite some minutes. Then for the last minute or so it went for my whole body. My body was resonating. At first it felt like it was streaming across my body at first. then after a bit some of it would go into my horn, build up then then shoot back out.
Then it felt like energy came in waves across my body.
Not what all this was about.
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I'm not sure of the energy sheath that prevents karma from sticking. Would be nice if I had that. No idea how to tell or check. If I had a choice I'd certainly would want to have such a sheath.
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I was thinking a bit ago. if there is a way to tell if there are certain issues one needs to deal with. if those issues do come from within oneself, or if those feelings are external and to keep oneself from being effected by the issues others need to work on.
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Feels like more issues came up. I do wonder if some of this may be in the mental body. they do mention in the text of the pdf manual that some problems may be signs of work needing to be in the mental body that we'll work on later. I guess they mean in the next course that works on the upper 3 light body energy centers.
It feels like the work I've done on sub personality as they call it (aspects I guess is another term) and healing the inner child. This feeling I've done a huge amount of work may be that either I or some aspects have a habbit to think a certain way that I need to work on. or maybe it'll require mental body work. Think till then i'll still work on certain issues regularly
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Think I'll do meditation 7 again tomorrow. Don't think i go the feel of the meditation.
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Think I'll pick out some stuff to work on that I'll work on a few every day. Till I got to working on the mental body stuff since some of this may be stuff I need the mental body work to work on. Since it could be working on the emotional body part of this, healing the inner child and sub personality may be part of what's needed, but not all of it. But it does feel like a huge amount is emotional body.
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In the meditations they say the emotional body, when it is free flowing is outside and surrounding the physical body.
I do hope this isn't stuff I have to work on forever. I think say 5 months from now there may be stuff I need to work on, but it may be more like fine tuning, instead of the huge work I have been doing emotional body stuff and likely when i start on metal body stuff. Makes sense, since I have decades behind me, it may take months to get past this.
Understand stuff like why I felt like I never wanted to be here, jailers, was tricked into coming here, was forced here.
There was a council or group that responded to the need for help here, or earth, or earth native souls asked for help, I think maybe a mix of all these put together. But I think the big mistake was when the council put together the plan NONE of them, or the vast majority, had not thought to incarnate on earth to see what the conditions here are like living here. They saw and observed the earth from a distance so to speak, but that is different then living here on the earth. So the souls who came here or like in my case the extensions of the souls here, were not adequately prepared before they first incarnated here. They didn't realize the big mistake till after the first and 2nd wave had been coming here, it taking a while for the information to filter up to the council and they to take notice and talk about what adjustments need to be made.
No sure who, but someone, not sure if is current soul or higher up, thinks that everyone of them should have incarnated here first to see and experience the conditions firsthand, before any plan or project was started being talked about and planned. They've had to make adjustments and such since then, but many, or all, realize the mistake they made since earth is one of the more unique ????. That could be why say Dan and Stan were not helping as guides really after a point, so to speak, thinking I could project when I couldn't. I get the feeling someone somewhere arranged maybe for former soul to progress a bit faster so what happened to me would get someone either on the council or closer to the council to have first hand knowledge of what the conditions on earth are and what being here is really like and help realize some of their mistakes. Not that the project was in danger of failing, but it could have been implemented to be smoother, and perhaps a bit more efficient or faster.
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I was thinking of one thing I felt that Mirabelle's mother is a counterpart of mine, My equivalent but from current soul's twin.
i think she was, like me, a soul from another soul, but through current soul's twin flame. Though perhaps not with the intent of being my twin. but a mirror so to speak. Hard to describe since I'm not sure I fully comprehend it yet. It may take more meditating and contemplating.
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Towards the end of my nap/meditation thing I felt energy coming in from the kundalini. It felt like it was coming from my kundalini up my back, along channels, like long fingers, that goes up my back, across my shoulders and chest, to my abdominal. The energy seemed to focus heavily on my abdominal area. This went on for quite some minutes. Then for the last minute or so it went for my whole body. My body was resonating. At first it felt like it was streaming across my body at first. then after a bit some of it would go into my horn, build up then then shoot back out.
Then it felt like energy came in waves across my body.
Not what all this was about.
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I'm not sure of the energy sheath that prevents karma from sticking. Would be nice if I had that. No idea how to tell or check. If I had a choice I'd certainly would want to have such a sheath.
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I was thinking a bit ago. if there is a way to tell if there are certain issues one needs to deal with. if those issues do come from within oneself, or if those feelings are external and to keep oneself from being effected by the issues others need to work on.
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I did the 7th meditation of awakening the heart center. Staying neutral. Overall it felt like it went well. I did feel a neutral, peace, emptiness, stillness, within, hard to describe what it is. It feels like something I've done before without knowing exactly how I did it. Though others would say, like my saying I have the ability to turn my emotions off, if I notice and think of it, that I was suppressing the emotions, though I always thought they were wrong, for me and this and a previous meditation seems to go along with what I was thinking and knew. Early on in the meditation I saw the large snake guy appear again. He just stayed there, a short distance way looking at me, but as he did this I felt my kundalini as if it were flowing faster and with more force, along with a sexual pleasureful feeling. After a short time he want away and it stopped. Not sure what was up with that. I think he apologized for the distraction. This whole experience only lasted a minute or so at most.
The severe depression I felt last week more like another cause though. Maybe an energy shift, vibration shift or something. Since that was something I was experiencing all through my entire being and I could not turn off or find an inner place of emptiness, for more then short periods of time. Could the earth going through shifts, or me going through some sort of shifts, vibrational or otherwise, be the reason for some of the depression and the way it feels like it goes down to the very core of my being. hard to describe but it did feel like after that snap type feeling, hard to describe what I felt other then something like a snap, that I instantly felt better at that time, poof gone. But I've already described that before.
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An aftereffect maybe caused by the snake guy is it feels like parts of my body feel like they are resonating, though it's faded a lot since then. Also it feels like my kundalini channel has more energy in it, or more is flowing through it.
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Towards the end of my nap/meditation thing I felt energy coming in from the kundalini. It felt like it was coming from my kundalini up my back, along channels, like long fingers, that goes up my back, across my shoulders and chest, to my abdominal. The energy seemed to focus heavily on my abdominal area. This went on for quite some minutes. Then for the last minute or so it went for my whole body. My body was resonating. At first it felt like it was streaming across my body at first. then after a bit some of it would go into my horn, build up then then shoot back out.
Then it felt like energy came in waves across my body.
Not what all this was about.
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I'm not sure of the energy sheath that prevents karma from sticking. Would be nice if I had that. No idea how to tell or check. If I had a choice I'd certainly would want to have such a sheath.
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I was thinking a bit ago. if there is a way to tell if there are certain issues one needs to deal with. if those issues do come from within oneself, or if those feelings are external and to keep oneself from being effected by the issues others need to work on.
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Feels like more issues came up. I do wonder if some of this may be in the mental body. they do mention in the text of the pdf manual that some problems may be signs of work needing to be in the mental body that we'll work on later. I guess they mean in the next course that works on the upper 3 light body energy centers.
It feels like the work I've done on sub personality as they call it (aspects I guess is another term) and healing the inner child. This feeling I've done a huge amount of work may be that either I or some aspects have a habbit to think a certain way that I need to work on. or maybe it'll require mental body work. Think till then i'll still work on certain issues regularly
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Think I'll do meditation 7 again tomorrow. Don't think i go the feel of the meditation.
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Think I'll pick out some stuff to work on that I'll work on a few every day. Till I got to working on the mental body stuff since some of this may be stuff I need the mental body work to work on. Since it could be working on the emotional body part of this, healing the inner child and sub personality may be part of what's needed, but not all of it. But it does feel like a huge amount is emotional body.
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In the meditations they say the emotional body, when it is free flowing is outside and surrounding the physical body.
I do hope this isn't stuff I have to work on forever. I think say 5 months from now there may be stuff I need to work on, but it may be more like fine tuning, instead of the huge work I have been doing emotional body stuff and likely when i start on metal body stuff. Makes sense, since I have decades behind me, it may take months to get past this.
Monday, March 23, 2015
Monday [3-23]
Had a brief conversation Mirabelle's mother. Saw her as the same color, or maybe a blueish color. maybe. maybe a red blue type color, or blue with some red in it.
She did touch her horn to the top of my head a few times, and rested it there for a bit. She did say she indeed does want to have kids with me the first one may well come before Mirabelle comes since she does agree with the reason, I want to experience being me, and Mirabelle and I want to experience and be together as mates first, as a couple, for a while before we have the first kid, but she (adopted unicorn mom) doesn't want to wait that long and likely won't. During this time I also felt patience, understanding, love, and also sexual feelings as well. Both in her, coming some from her, and from within myself as well. I did say I prefer to wait till I can fully project or till this incarnation is over and she said she agreed with the conditions.
I again asked why me, what is so special about me and she just keeps her horn touching the top of my head laughing in a good naturedly way, saying I'll find out if I don't know already I'll figure it out.
This seems to be moving fast to me, but they may have known the old me from before this incarnation started for hundreds or thousands of years so it may be it's not really moving fast.
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I purchased the e-book version of opening to channel, written by one of the 2 folks who does the awaken the light body course I'm taking. The woman, Sanaya, or whatever her name is and Orin who she channels.
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I also had an idea that me, old soul, new soul, the dragoness, may all be aspects of a soul that is say a level above current soul and dragoness. if current soul and dragoness are twin flames. Even if they are soul mates they could be soul mates who are aspects of the same soul.
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That could be why it felt a bit confusing like there were 2. If 1 of the dragonesses is a twin flame of current soul then he may have a dragoness who is their parent also, the soul they are part of. Not sure if he as multiple soul parents, if they are aspects of the same soul.
If I had say several soul parents, former soul, current a unicorn aspect of current soul and current soul's twin, that would be possible. I could see some aspects creating another aspect of the same soul. Not sure how many steps back it goes. I'm the aspect of a soul with a twin flame, also a soul parent of mine, who are aspects of multiple aspects of a soul. I did have an idea a month or a few ago that the pod may all be ultimately aspects of either 1 soul, or maybe several souls.
I may be 4-5 steps removed from source maybe, if I have things right or half way right. Soul 1 maybe came from source or is an aspect of a soul. Soul 1 has aspects that are the soul parents of current soul and his twin flame. Say soul 2 and soul 2's tf. I was an extension of an aspect of his, but I was re-created so that aspect is one of my soul parents also. Say soul 3 is former soul I was an extension of. and say I am soul 4. soul 1 is maybe either from source or is an aspect of 1 soul, not the soul child, so to speak, of several aspects or souls.
The unicorn bit I got from an aspect of current soul could be he sent out an aspect to incarnate as a unicorn. It could be he is part unicorn also. Maybe. I'd have to explore that further, exploring my soul origins, what I am at the soul level, ect.
Not sure if that makes sense to anyone reading this.
think I'll put the meditation 5 in the next bit.
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I did 6th mediation of part 2: awaken the light body. It went well. I felt the different energies flowing very well. The healing thing felt like a different type of energy, hard for me to feel. sorta like a warm water type of fluid, but less dense then water, hard to describe. it felt like it did help, temporarily, the spot on my upper lower back and left knee. The knee area felt like some energy there. I also did a general overall body type healing. next time I do this I'll try to pick areas I've had problems with, abdominal and overall general whole body. I'll try to see if I can do this without the mediation during the brony show.
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forgot to put in that when i got up from my nap, and before i the 6th meditation of part 2 of the awaken the light body course i sat in the chair and felt a irritation on my left calf muscle area. Looking down it looks like i had somehow scratched myself just as i was getting out of bed or something. No idea how that happened. I've been putting witch hazel on it since then every few hours or so.
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I was wondering if Mirabelle is an aspect of the same soul I am or the soul a step up. I get the feel not of the soul I'm part of, but I'm not sure beyond that. She could be another soul, or maybe not. I'm not sure yet.
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I did a free 27 minute mediation from the web site I get the awaken the light body course from called Opening to your true identity. interesting experience. First during the early part I felt Mirabelle resting her head on my right shoulder, then a bit after her mother put her head on my left shoulder. with the light outside shining to reveal more of your true self. and more pedals of the veil falling away. I did see that happen in my mind's eye.
I got the feel that Mirabelle is an aspect of a soul that is a close friend or a lover of former soul. and then that her mother is an aspect of the dragoness that is the twin flame of current soul. yet Mirabelle's mother doesn't feel like a twin flame.
Speaking of my twin flame she popped up diring this, keeping her chest & belly pressed against my back, with my kundalini responding to her presence as before. She said something like do you think I'd miss this or, If you are here I'd be here too, or something like that.
I don't feel any more illuminated, but i did feel something happen inside me as orin did the bit about the shaft of light coming down through the center of your head down your body and the peddles of the ego folding back like a flower. I saw that happen as well. i feel the same, but it may take time to assimilate the process or maybe the mediation needs to be done more times or something.
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Could it be that she's not a twin since current soul's twin flame is one of this me's parents that could be why she doesn't feel like a twin flame?
My twin felt the same as before. I forgot that for a moment she switched to being anthro or humanoid and she had a horn (which at first I found slightly surprising) She saying something like, "if you have a horn why wouldn't I have one also." Guess that means she is a unicorn also. Hmm, makes me think now. Does that mean part of the recreation thing, which i don't remember or wasn't conscious for, if this experience did happen, did we recombine or were we combined, re-created then split again?
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I did the 6th meditation of part 2 of the course. It went very well. I diffidently felt all the various energy flowing this time. I had the healing energy stuff focus on various areas. My upper left back area, left eye, entire head, throat, chest, abdominal area, left knee and the area where the scratch is. I also did an entire body and had it focus on whatever emotional areas that needed healing within myself.
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Hmm, could it be that if Mirabelle's mother is an aspect of current soul's twin flame, which the dragoness is one of my soul parents also? and as such current soul and twin's dragoness parent would be also my soul parent too?
Could it be that the reason that Mirabelle's mother wants her and me to be lovers and to have kids with me, be that soul at some level wants a develop a deeper relation with itself or parts of itself? This feels like something soul would want to do, develop or deepen a relationship with itself, and of course in a fun pleasurable way.
and Mirabelle's and my feelings for each other are true, and also lets the 2 souls we're aspects of or parts of deepen the relationship of love and sharing of pleasure that they share between themselves?
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Think I have the answer. My soul parents and the parents of my current soul can be traced to 1 soul. That soul was an aspect of a soul that came direct from source. It had some experiences, and decided to rejoin source, but an aspect of it didn't wish to so split off. This former aspect decided it never would rejoin source because of the infinite things to learn, experience, pleasures, ways to experience and explore love.
The soul it was an aspect of mainly stays with source, but does temporarily leaves source if one of it's friends misses it so it can spend time with them, if it's help is needed, or for other reasons, but it always rejoins source before to long.
Forgot to say, no idea what happened but I felt a sort of click in my head somewhere, and I heard it too. No idea what that was.
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I'm big into spiritual stuff here and I wonder if I will be over there, back at my homes. Assuming I have homes on the other side somewhere. I'd guess I likely do.
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I was thinking that with the soul linage I'm part of It's normal that aspects will become known to me, active, or whatever the term is. over time I think some will choose to become external aspects. Some of those will choose to become independent permanently, some will choose to remain external aspects. Some may choose to go back and forth between being independent or an external aspect of mine. Some will go back and forth between being an external and internal aspect. Over time I may discover new aspects of mine I didn't know before. Not sure if it'll go on forever.
some aspects may choose to be incorporated into me, either for good or for while, maybe a long while.
Also if an external aspect goes independent I may discover some part of it is still internal, maybe. I'd not loose that part of my personality.
I think there may be other soul lineages that incorporate their aspects into themselves.
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I don't think I'd choose to go into source. I'm sure there'll be an infinite of experiences, fun, pleasures, dimensions of love to explore and experience. in infinite of friends to make, lovers to discover or friends who grow into lovers, ect.
maybe hard for the human mind to comprehend but this can go on forever. though I'm sure I'll be still learning, & being a guide, ect. An infinite of things to do.
She did touch her horn to the top of my head a few times, and rested it there for a bit. She did say she indeed does want to have kids with me the first one may well come before Mirabelle comes since she does agree with the reason, I want to experience being me, and Mirabelle and I want to experience and be together as mates first, as a couple, for a while before we have the first kid, but she (adopted unicorn mom) doesn't want to wait that long and likely won't. During this time I also felt patience, understanding, love, and also sexual feelings as well. Both in her, coming some from her, and from within myself as well. I did say I prefer to wait till I can fully project or till this incarnation is over and she said she agreed with the conditions.
I again asked why me, what is so special about me and she just keeps her horn touching the top of my head laughing in a good naturedly way, saying I'll find out if I don't know already I'll figure it out.
This seems to be moving fast to me, but they may have known the old me from before this incarnation started for hundreds or thousands of years so it may be it's not really moving fast.
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I purchased the e-book version of opening to channel, written by one of the 2 folks who does the awaken the light body course I'm taking. The woman, Sanaya, or whatever her name is and Orin who she channels.
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I also had an idea that me, old soul, new soul, the dragoness, may all be aspects of a soul that is say a level above current soul and dragoness. if current soul and dragoness are twin flames. Even if they are soul mates they could be soul mates who are aspects of the same soul.
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That could be why it felt a bit confusing like there were 2. If 1 of the dragonesses is a twin flame of current soul then he may have a dragoness who is their parent also, the soul they are part of. Not sure if he as multiple soul parents, if they are aspects of the same soul.
If I had say several soul parents, former soul, current a unicorn aspect of current soul and current soul's twin, that would be possible. I could see some aspects creating another aspect of the same soul. Not sure how many steps back it goes. I'm the aspect of a soul with a twin flame, also a soul parent of mine, who are aspects of multiple aspects of a soul. I did have an idea a month or a few ago that the pod may all be ultimately aspects of either 1 soul, or maybe several souls.
I may be 4-5 steps removed from source maybe, if I have things right or half way right. Soul 1 maybe came from source or is an aspect of a soul. Soul 1 has aspects that are the soul parents of current soul and his twin flame. Say soul 2 and soul 2's tf. I was an extension of an aspect of his, but I was re-created so that aspect is one of my soul parents also. Say soul 3 is former soul I was an extension of. and say I am soul 4. soul 1 is maybe either from source or is an aspect of 1 soul, not the soul child, so to speak, of several aspects or souls.
The unicorn bit I got from an aspect of current soul could be he sent out an aspect to incarnate as a unicorn. It could be he is part unicorn also. Maybe. I'd have to explore that further, exploring my soul origins, what I am at the soul level, ect.
Not sure if that makes sense to anyone reading this.
think I'll put the meditation 5 in the next bit.
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I did 6th mediation of part 2: awaken the light body. It went well. I felt the different energies flowing very well. The healing thing felt like a different type of energy, hard for me to feel. sorta like a warm water type of fluid, but less dense then water, hard to describe. it felt like it did help, temporarily, the spot on my upper lower back and left knee. The knee area felt like some energy there. I also did a general overall body type healing. next time I do this I'll try to pick areas I've had problems with, abdominal and overall general whole body. I'll try to see if I can do this without the mediation during the brony show.
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forgot to put in that when i got up from my nap, and before i the 6th meditation of part 2 of the awaken the light body course i sat in the chair and felt a irritation on my left calf muscle area. Looking down it looks like i had somehow scratched myself just as i was getting out of bed or something. No idea how that happened. I've been putting witch hazel on it since then every few hours or so.
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I was wondering if Mirabelle is an aspect of the same soul I am or the soul a step up. I get the feel not of the soul I'm part of, but I'm not sure beyond that. She could be another soul, or maybe not. I'm not sure yet.
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I did a free 27 minute mediation from the web site I get the awaken the light body course from called Opening to your true identity. interesting experience. First during the early part I felt Mirabelle resting her head on my right shoulder, then a bit after her mother put her head on my left shoulder. with the light outside shining to reveal more of your true self. and more pedals of the veil falling away. I did see that happen in my mind's eye.
I got the feel that Mirabelle is an aspect of a soul that is a close friend or a lover of former soul. and then that her mother is an aspect of the dragoness that is the twin flame of current soul. yet Mirabelle's mother doesn't feel like a twin flame.
Speaking of my twin flame she popped up diring this, keeping her chest & belly pressed against my back, with my kundalini responding to her presence as before. She said something like do you think I'd miss this or, If you are here I'd be here too, or something like that.
I don't feel any more illuminated, but i did feel something happen inside me as orin did the bit about the shaft of light coming down through the center of your head down your body and the peddles of the ego folding back like a flower. I saw that happen as well. i feel the same, but it may take time to assimilate the process or maybe the mediation needs to be done more times or something.
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Could it be that she's not a twin since current soul's twin flame is one of this me's parents that could be why she doesn't feel like a twin flame?
My twin felt the same as before. I forgot that for a moment she switched to being anthro or humanoid and she had a horn (which at first I found slightly surprising) She saying something like, "if you have a horn why wouldn't I have one also." Guess that means she is a unicorn also. Hmm, makes me think now. Does that mean part of the recreation thing, which i don't remember or wasn't conscious for, if this experience did happen, did we recombine or were we combined, re-created then split again?
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I did the 6th meditation of part 2 of the course. It went very well. I diffidently felt all the various energy flowing this time. I had the healing energy stuff focus on various areas. My upper left back area, left eye, entire head, throat, chest, abdominal area, left knee and the area where the scratch is. I also did an entire body and had it focus on whatever emotional areas that needed healing within myself.
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Hmm, could it be that if Mirabelle's mother is an aspect of current soul's twin flame, which the dragoness is one of my soul parents also? and as such current soul and twin's dragoness parent would be also my soul parent too?
Could it be that the reason that Mirabelle's mother wants her and me to be lovers and to have kids with me, be that soul at some level wants a develop a deeper relation with itself or parts of itself? This feels like something soul would want to do, develop or deepen a relationship with itself, and of course in a fun pleasurable way.
and Mirabelle's and my feelings for each other are true, and also lets the 2 souls we're aspects of or parts of deepen the relationship of love and sharing of pleasure that they share between themselves?
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Think I have the answer. My soul parents and the parents of my current soul can be traced to 1 soul. That soul was an aspect of a soul that came direct from source. It had some experiences, and decided to rejoin source, but an aspect of it didn't wish to so split off. This former aspect decided it never would rejoin source because of the infinite things to learn, experience, pleasures, ways to experience and explore love.
The soul it was an aspect of mainly stays with source, but does temporarily leaves source if one of it's friends misses it so it can spend time with them, if it's help is needed, or for other reasons, but it always rejoins source before to long.
Forgot to say, no idea what happened but I felt a sort of click in my head somewhere, and I heard it too. No idea what that was.
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I'm big into spiritual stuff here and I wonder if I will be over there, back at my homes. Assuming I have homes on the other side somewhere. I'd guess I likely do.
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I was thinking that with the soul linage I'm part of It's normal that aspects will become known to me, active, or whatever the term is. over time I think some will choose to become external aspects. Some of those will choose to become independent permanently, some will choose to remain external aspects. Some may choose to go back and forth between being independent or an external aspect of mine. Some will go back and forth between being an external and internal aspect. Over time I may discover new aspects of mine I didn't know before. Not sure if it'll go on forever.
some aspects may choose to be incorporated into me, either for good or for while, maybe a long while.
Also if an external aspect goes independent I may discover some part of it is still internal, maybe. I'd not loose that part of my personality.
I think there may be other soul lineages that incorporate their aspects into themselves.
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I don't think I'd choose to go into source. I'm sure there'll be an infinite of experiences, fun, pleasures, dimensions of love to explore and experience. in infinite of friends to make, lovers to discover or friends who grow into lovers, ect.
maybe hard for the human mind to comprehend but this can go on forever. though I'm sure I'll be still learning, & being a guide, ect. An infinite of things to do.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Sunday [3-22]
Was a bit hesitant to put it here, but decided to since typing this up I may get some more thoughts on it.
Had a conversation with Mirabelle and her mother (my adopted unicorn mother that I call mom). This took place once I woke up but before i got out of bed. I was trying to get back to sleep. managed to after their conversations and me writing down the basics, enough to jog my memory.
First was a discussion with mom. She said let's have a frank discussion. She is willing for me to become one of her lovers. A special one since I was also adopted with in the family (not sure what she means) and also she's willing to have kids with me. But not till after I have had 2 or a few with her daughter (Maribelle). or at least 1. She smiles and says, <though maybe I can't wait that long>. i ask why me? what is special bout me and she only smiles a knowing smile. I got the feel that she is wanting to have another child and is willing to wait a while, but not to long and maybe have one with me before I do with Mirabelle. Not sure why or what is special about me or why me. I also had the feel that mom and discussed this with dad before she talked to me, which them being mates does make sense she would.
Then I had a conversation with Mirabelle. She said about me and mom having a kid would have advantages. She said this while rubbing her horn with mine. She was sending me images of the advantages. As I recall the summary was that as the kid's sire I'd be a part of his life more then just because I'd be an older brother in the family. The kid would have 2 fathers. me the sire and a father, I guess to an extent? and the kid's mother's mate, who would be the one to mainly raise him. Which I can see why since he's an experience father and a unicorn. I've have no idea how to raise a unicorn, though from some of the memory I of stuff I got from source days ago when I had the link opened, as I described before. Unicorn newborns are not like infants here. They are sentient with maybe being like 2-4 year olds, roughly, in human terms. Not sure if they have the choice like a soul to recall some or all of a soul parent's memories. She also said she would be involved more then as an older sister since she's my mate the sire's mate so it would be like practice for us and to get a bit of experience in an easy way. Does feel like she's pushing or suggesting I go through with it.
Then mom came over and started to rub horns with me also. They said I could just say no and that would end the discussion but they mention they think it's significant that I have not said no. I felt their love they were sharing with me and me with them, with some pleasure mixed in. I ask them why me, what is special about me. Its not that thing where everyone is unique is it. I think it was mom who said no it's not that. it's something else. And Mirabelle smiled and said something like <I'm surprised you can't see it.> I can't. I've no idea what they mean.
Their sharing love did help with my heart centers it felt like. And I did feel a desire to have a child with her if she wishes to have one. Not that I think it was their putting it in there. I think part of what they were doing then was helping to bring out more of the natural love that a soul is that is under the human conditioning and programing that parent's and society do, to try to bring out a bit of the true me.
Still have no idea what about me is so special to have this happen and the family to be open about being willing to have or share sex with me, in a loving manner, but a fun one also. Unless they are naturally open to sex. Dad did mention dolphins living nearby. if they are sentient nommo or whatever type, that may be part of the reason. Maybe they influenced the unicorns living nearby.
I wonder if it is just dolphins or other types like orcas, beluga whales ect. I also find it maybe significant that Dad mentioned my being a phin (to use an expression I use I think I mention him saying). so I may be more then just dolphin and orca or maybe he's just lumping those under phin.
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I just did the 5th meditation of part 2 of the 6 part course. Felt like I went pretty deep. It took me a while to come out of the meditation trance. This one was about the inner healer awakening or something the inner healer. Some areas it seemed to work on was my left knee and eye, end lung s as well as upper left back area.
The bit about is there any exercise I should be doing, seems to keep doing what I'm doing in general, and Qi Gong as well.
I do like her, Orin's, and also in the other meditations, Daben's emphasizing playing with the energy, trying this or that, say with the inner healer try the dinia, ninia and the other energy centers worked on so far . I may try that in the future. and her bit about you can live pain free in in vibrant health.
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I just did Qi Gong, doing each movement once, a few twice, and it would up being about 10 minutes. A good amount. I think maybe April I may try upping that to 15, by going back to repeat some of the early movements.
Think I may get the soul love thing, not till I've finished the 2nd part of the awaken the light body. I'll decide that later. I was thinking since souls are love that may help with being my soul more. Or at elast an aspect of it.
As I did the exercises it did feel a bit different, more vibrant? hard to describe. Maybe an aftereffect of that awakening the inner healer mediation I did earlier.
Maybe the opening to channel book, course maybe too. I'll think about that.
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had a thought yesterday. what if each of us is in our own universe that is only us in it and everyone else is just overlapping into our universe. Thus making a shared overlapping universe.
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each major choice could also lead to other universes and or time lines. Leading to various you's that grow very different over time.
Though I do remember reading in a Michael Newton book that what souls do is often they'll take a past life , with some of their soul group friends and will explore that life. like what if they made all the best choices, what if they made alternate choices. So 1 life can give one multiple lessons.
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Had a conversation with Mirabelle and her mother (my adopted unicorn mother that I call mom). This took place once I woke up but before i got out of bed. I was trying to get back to sleep. managed to after their conversations and me writing down the basics, enough to jog my memory.
First was a discussion with mom. She said let's have a frank discussion. She is willing for me to become one of her lovers. A special one since I was also adopted with in the family (not sure what she means) and also she's willing to have kids with me. But not till after I have had 2 or a few with her daughter (Maribelle). or at least 1. She smiles and says, <though maybe I can't wait that long>. i ask why me? what is special bout me and she only smiles a knowing smile. I got the feel that she is wanting to have another child and is willing to wait a while, but not to long and maybe have one with me before I do with Mirabelle. Not sure why or what is special about me or why me. I also had the feel that mom and discussed this with dad before she talked to me, which them being mates does make sense she would.
Then I had a conversation with Mirabelle. She said about me and mom having a kid would have advantages. She said this while rubbing her horn with mine. She was sending me images of the advantages. As I recall the summary was that as the kid's sire I'd be a part of his life more then just because I'd be an older brother in the family. The kid would have 2 fathers. me the sire and a father, I guess to an extent? and the kid's mother's mate, who would be the one to mainly raise him. Which I can see why since he's an experience father and a unicorn. I've have no idea how to raise a unicorn, though from some of the memory I of stuff I got from source days ago when I had the link opened, as I described before. Unicorn newborns are not like infants here. They are sentient with maybe being like 2-4 year olds, roughly, in human terms. Not sure if they have the choice like a soul to recall some or all of a soul parent's memories. She also said she would be involved more then as an older sister since she's my mate the sire's mate so it would be like practice for us and to get a bit of experience in an easy way. Does feel like she's pushing or suggesting I go through with it.
Then mom came over and started to rub horns with me also. They said I could just say no and that would end the discussion but they mention they think it's significant that I have not said no. I felt their love they were sharing with me and me with them, with some pleasure mixed in. I ask them why me, what is special about me. Its not that thing where everyone is unique is it. I think it was mom who said no it's not that. it's something else. And Mirabelle smiled and said something like <I'm surprised you can't see it.> I can't. I've no idea what they mean.
Their sharing love did help with my heart centers it felt like. And I did feel a desire to have a child with her if she wishes to have one. Not that I think it was their putting it in there. I think part of what they were doing then was helping to bring out more of the natural love that a soul is that is under the human conditioning and programing that parent's and society do, to try to bring out a bit of the true me.
Still have no idea what about me is so special to have this happen and the family to be open about being willing to have or share sex with me, in a loving manner, but a fun one also. Unless they are naturally open to sex. Dad did mention dolphins living nearby. if they are sentient nommo or whatever type, that may be part of the reason. Maybe they influenced the unicorns living nearby.
I wonder if it is just dolphins or other types like orcas, beluga whales ect. I also find it maybe significant that Dad mentioned my being a phin (to use an expression I use I think I mention him saying). so I may be more then just dolphin and orca or maybe he's just lumping those under phin.
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I just did the 5th meditation of part 2 of the 6 part course. Felt like I went pretty deep. It took me a while to come out of the meditation trance. This one was about the inner healer awakening or something the inner healer. Some areas it seemed to work on was my left knee and eye, end lung s as well as upper left back area.
The bit about is there any exercise I should be doing, seems to keep doing what I'm doing in general, and Qi Gong as well.
I do like her, Orin's, and also in the other meditations, Daben's emphasizing playing with the energy, trying this or that, say with the inner healer try the dinia, ninia and the other energy centers worked on so far . I may try that in the future. and her bit about you can live pain free in in vibrant health.
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I just did Qi Gong, doing each movement once, a few twice, and it would up being about 10 minutes. A good amount. I think maybe April I may try upping that to 15, by going back to repeat some of the early movements.
Think I may get the soul love thing, not till I've finished the 2nd part of the awaken the light body. I'll decide that later. I was thinking since souls are love that may help with being my soul more. Or at elast an aspect of it.
As I did the exercises it did feel a bit different, more vibrant? hard to describe. Maybe an aftereffect of that awakening the inner healer mediation I did earlier.
Maybe the opening to channel book, course maybe too. I'll think about that.
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had a thought yesterday. what if each of us is in our own universe that is only us in it and everyone else is just overlapping into our universe. Thus making a shared overlapping universe.
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each major choice could also lead to other universes and or time lines. Leading to various you's that grow very different over time.
Though I do remember reading in a Michael Newton book that what souls do is often they'll take a past life , with some of their soul group friends and will explore that life. like what if they made all the best choices, what if they made alternate choices. So 1 life can give one multiple lessons.
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