I do get the feeling that the council, perhaps, as I mentioned last
night. Think I did post about that. I think watching the dolores
cannon video seemed to give me some missing pieces .
I got the feel that the council skipped over a step when they called for
volunteers to help with their project here, with the shift. I get the
feeling now that they should have incarnated here so they can have 1st
hand knowledge of the earth conditions for those incarnated here instead
of looking at things from a distance from the other side like they did.
if they looked in the akashic records (assuming they exist and I don't
know if they do or not) that is not the same as being here.
I think some or most or all now know or suspect that. That I think is
behind why so many don't want to be here since the council could not
adequately prepare those coming here. Took a while for the information
on this error or mistake. I think some may have been reluctant to say
anything since they say think they are wiser so this can't be a mistake,
when even they do make mistakes.
I think that is part of most of why so many hate being here and some
have gone as far as committing suicide, though there are likely many
other reasons also.
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I still wonder about the energy sheath thing she mentioned.
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I know if I have any say I don't want to be here and don't want to come to incarnate again.
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I wonder if one of my soul parents, the dragoness one . I wonder if she
is current soul's twin flame, or one of his soul parents. there seems
some confusion on my part there.
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I did the 7th meditation. felt like it went better, though about mid
way through i went to deep and don't recall anything. I did get the
last 9 or so minutes and the beginning few minutes, so have about half.
Doing the last half that I was conscious for has left me with feeling
of peace through my being. I"ll see if i can re do that later on today.
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I did the 8th meditation. went pretty well. I didn't feel the energy
flows of the first 4 energy centers much, though that could be due to
the fact I did meditation 7 earlier today. Felt the deep inner peace
during most of it and afterwards. went deep again, but felt like I kept
most of the experience despite going deep. left me thirsty like it
always does.
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Think I may get the opening to channel audio course Friday. It may help
along with the awaken the light body course, hand in hand so to speak.
Not sure if I'll get the clear channel course which is like a follow up
to this one. if I dont' feel the need I likely won't, or I may do it
late this year or something. Maybe with the light body side courses, if
I do pick any to get. But I'll decide on that later.
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I'm thinking that instead of this stuff that keeps coming up being only
stuff I need to work on. It feels fainter. So it may be I've done all
the emotional body work. what's left may be some mental body work I
need to do. Also it may be that I'm also picking up some bits from the
collective consciousness. I've made the intent months ago that I no
longer want to clear. Saw that on a matt video, that enough has been
cleared from the collective consciousness where we don't need to
anymore. it may be that if I am sensitive maybe I'm sensitive to
picking up bits from neighbors, folks that walk by on the street, or
drive by in their cars. maybe a simple thing to deal with, clearing the
aura regularly. or if I get to the course, which i think is the final
part, 7 of the 2nd course of the light body series. That one is
something about being invisible to negative energy.
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Maybe what the pod and others were doing to me to help didn't work out
since maybe they didn't' know the conditions of being incarnated here and
how dense it is here, unlike i guess orin and daben and are not as
through, so to speak. that may be why I was subtly nudged in the
direction of their light body stuff.
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I tried the feel and radiate divine love. I didn't feel much live, just a slight amount when I had a visual image of an anthro female orca and me kissing, with me in an anthro male orca. Not sure if we had unicorn horns too or not. before the image appeared, early in the meditation I did feel that I had a triangular dorsal fin and a unicorn horn.
it could be maybe I'm not sensative enough to feel soul level love, or maybe I have been feeling it and like you can't feel the shirt touching your skin usually I can't feel the soul level love since I"m use to it.
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If I do get a guide, or already have one. I wonder if I'd get 1 or several. Since I'd like a day to day guide to help with the inner emotional stuff I need to work on, mental stuff I need to work on, whatever spiritual stuff I need to work on. Also to fully awaken and be fully aware as a soul. Maybe some energy work so I can heal myself, maybe clear my aura if I am one of the sensitive folks. maye a very high level guide to learn some stuff that wouldn't be possible otherwise.
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Listening to Dolores Cannon has me wondering if I'm here not to just help with the shift, but also to help fix the system. if so then to me that would seem to indicate that the system wasn't really working to well. I recall current soul saying that he thought the system here is a stupid one. he warned the humans back before the system here was implemented that they would not like it, it was a stupid system and he told them why, they didn't listen to him, now they do believe him and want their help. I say him since he has always felt male to me. Though souls have no gender. Some I think can feel more male or more female, due to their basic energy, basic personality or other reasons, like some can be herms, or androgynous.
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I do hope either that energy sheath Dolores Cannon mentioned to keep karma from sticking is on me, or what I was told how karma works since I don't want to come to earth again ever, once this is over.
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I do have to agree with current soul in some things. The system here is pretty stupid. I thought that at 15 when i started to get my flashes and still think so. I do hope I have either that energy sheath or am doing well enough so I'll not need or be forced to return here since I don't want to return to the earth. Many love the system here, not me.
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Did the violet flame meditation. Felt like I went medium or deeper.
Not sure all of that was going on but I felt things happening at an
energy level. I followed the affirmations. It also felt pleasurable, a
soul level pleasurable. Hard to describe. I think I'll do this one
regularly, a few times a week or so. Maybe twice on weekends too. I
assume it is doing good stuff, since it felt pleasurable, and I want a
decent depth and was extremely relaxed at the end. I felt a sort of resonance when it was going on. I feel different, but hard to describe how.
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As a sort of ps. I was fixing a meal and had a stray thought that I do hope I won't have to return to the earth to incarnate again. there are some fun things about the earth but really I don't want to incarnate here again, ever. i heard a very faint mental voice that sounded like it said, <you won't have to.>
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I did the 8th meditation of part 2. It went very well. I felt the energy flows of the first 3 energy centers. The first one the most strongly and the other 2 not so much. The mummin I felt slightly and the Ranthia slightly as well at the beginning, then towards the end I felt it much more strongly.
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I did the 7th meditation again. This time I remained awake for the
whole thing. it was interesting. remaining neutral around others if
they are experiencing high emotions so the emotions, which are a type of
energy, will not effect you in the same way, but you can turn them
positive so they do help you. Interesting idea. I'll try to remember
to try it if the situation comes up.
I think tomorrow instead of moving on to 9. I'll do 7 and 8 again.
moving on to 9 on Friday. I'll finish this course Monday. Then Tuesday
I'll start over again with part 2, doubling up and finishing the course a
2nd time in about a week or so. Then I think I'll do parts 1 and 2 at
the same time, or I may double up and do all or some of parts 1 and 2.
I'll decide when the time comes.
I was watching another Dolores cannon video. She was talking about the
new earth, old earth, the 3 waves of indigoes, ect. By her age
classification I would be a first wave. Doesn't matter since there are
transition & overlap. I do hope i have that energy sheath thing
that she mentions that keeps karma from sticking to me.
I got the idea, not sure if it is true. Instead of choosing the new
earth, or the old earth, I'd rather pick a 3rd choice and be out of
here, not to either earth but to go home, either where the unicorns are,
the pod lives, or where everyone looks like ball of color. I get the
feel that I could maybe choose that instead of a sorta reward thing of
living on the new earth. if there will be a new earth. I feel it is
maybe not exactly correct, close but not exact. Not sure if there will
be a 2nd earth or not. there may be a 3d aspect of earth where some are
left behind. This may be the new earth. hard to explain the feel I
get. I guess when I get and do the opening to channel audio series I'll
get a better connection since whoever I'm doing this is untrained in
this life.
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