Sunday [3-1]

I do wonder if the dragoness I was in contact with a few times is the twin flame of the current soul I'm an external aspect of, my old soul? Digging around inside myself I think i do feel similar feelings towards her as towards my twin flame, but to a lesser degree. Maybe soul's twin flame, not sure if she's current or old soul's twin. and the other may be the 4th person that higher self or current soul mentioned when they said I have 4 soul parents, 3 i know of currently.

I do wonder whatever process was done to me, to switch me to being an external aspect of the current soul, if a similar process was done with my twin to ensure we'd remain twins, or if was something different. could be while I was asleep during that night where I sleep through the whole night, a rare thing. Maybe she and I merged, or at least the part of me that wasn't in this body merged with her, maybe they did whatever I was ? made ? by 4 souls and became mostly an external aspect of the current soul and then maybe she and I split. Just a wild guess. though when soul pulled me up that time, as I mentioned before, he did say that the time had come to decide. Not sure why the would need to do that preliminary work, if that is what it was, have me agree to not remember the meeting we had then I'd have to be asked (not yet remembering the meeting) and make my decision. Since when I said I accept, after asking a few questions, i did feel something inside me shift or click, hard to describe. and I did feel different, like part of me had changed. I feel the key for the timing was before my kundalini rose, since i guess it would otherwise have nothing to connect to. Unless I have that wrong. and a new higher self took a while to materialize. if that makes sense. maybe due to the current soul I'm an external aspect of and me needing to at least partially assimilate the new experience this is for both of us.

I guess maybe i got the orca from current soul, dolphin from old former soul, dragon from her. Still not sure if she is the twin of current or former soul. and what is the 3rd? serpent, serpent naga, a reptilian, or a mix?

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Also forgot to put down.  I did always find unicorns to be neat.  Something about them.  A slight connection or something.  it wasn't as strong as what I felt for dolphins, dragons, and serpentile nagas. 

Maybe current soul has a unicorn aspect or one of the soul parents may have a fae aspect or be part fae.  maybe dragons are part fae themselves or something.  Not sure about it and Digging around, though i do so slightly.  The connection, attraction or whatever it is, does feel stronger now. Not sure if its due to me beign more aware, having worked through more issues I need to work through so things are more clear, or because I'm a new soul, having switched to becoming the external aspect of current soul. or maybe it's a mix of 2 or more of those.  ? pegasii to a lesser extent, or just that they can fly, dragons can fly so maybe just the connection they can fly, like dragons can fly and look similar to unicorns?

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Did the 9th meditation. I did feel the resonating on all 3 of the first light body energy centers. He talked about emotional flow. I think I understand. How you can experience whatever emotion you want to experience. I did feel the energy body, but less so. Was it more relaxed or something. I'm fairly sure I was maybe medium meditative trance state. And like usual I was warm during it, but not hot, maybe due to the temperatures being cold, as well as being thirsty, which I always am for some reason. Even if i during water before.

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After I lay down I decided to ask for the violet flame to come around me to help with what it could. During the time I lay down I did feel a resonating occurring all around my body and a few inches into the body or the energy body or both. After a bit it felt like the resonating penetrated deep into the body and or energy body, working it's way to the core. The sensation felt not just like a resonating but also pleasure mixed in. It also felt like my kundalini responded to this and was flowing faster, or with more force.

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I did the 9th mediation the 2nd time. I didn't get as much this time. Though i did feel a resonating around the areas of the first 2 light body energy centers. I felt very little around the 3rd one. but I guess I can still assume I did some work in or with that 3rd one, though I didn't feel much. I may be less sensitive or aware of the energy, though maybe it also was all I could do.

Also I felt like there was some pain around where the area of the 3rd light body energy center. I focused on sending that area love and saying I accept it unconditionally. i also asked for the violet flame to help. this time I felt only a warmth. I'll put this up as a successful experience, though I was less aware or sensitive. and as usual I am thirsty.

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