Wednesday Morning:
Had an interesting conversation with Maribelle some of it a bit embarrassing, in a fun way.
She seemed to get very happy when I told her she could still see any lovers she may have and have fun with them too, including sex. It felt like she got even happier when I mentioned I'd not mind if she had kids with them also. I get the feeling she may have at least 1 stallion lover maybe they wanted to be mates and the test thing didn't work out since I did feel a bit of sadness below the surface so to speak when I asked if she had a certain stallion in mind, in a sorta joking jovial way. And I choose not to pursue that feeling I felt form her since why peruse that.
I asked if she told many people about our mateship since to me it felt like she was off telling folks. she said she told the entire glory, what a herd of unicorns are told, most or many pod members, some dragons and even a few strangers visiting the world.
I asked and she said, once I'm back home, that she would introduce me to the pleasures only 2 mares can share. and even said if I wanted to get pregnant and have a kid she'd help me to pick out the stallion to do the deed. I did say let's not rush things. she agreed. after all we do have eternity and I'm not sure about even having kids. Though I imagine and feel it's nothing like having kids here on earth. A bit later she even said imagine the fun if we were both pregnant at the same time. I said I assume she meant I get her pregnant then one of her lovers gets me. She said yes, or the same stallion gets us both pregnant at the same time. Not sure if she's serious, kidding, or maybe both. No biggie. It seems unicorns may be as open about sex as the pod, or almost as open.
I did ask if I have other lovers and she said i have a dragon lover, many, or more then 1, pod member, and a naga lover. She said it helps to maintain the peace, but wouldn't go into details. I said if i had a lot what sort of reputation must I have and she said I had one as a very loving individual/person. She even said, half serious and half joking that we, the naga and I, have even done it in snake forms.
Also when we touched horns it felt different. Felt like our Kundalini's linked, flowed into each other before flowing upwards. I felt pleasure, it was a pleasurable experience, as well as feeling love. I asked about it and she said since we are mates, that changes everything.
As I was typing the above about pregnancy and kids I heard a very distinct mental voice say <don't worry.> i'd guess it was a guide or friend or something. Don't think i recognize it. Though it may also be though I can talk to a few mentally, maybe I can't talk to everyone who would like to talk to me. and also maybe I'm not sensitive enough to hear distinct mental voices all the time. They may be a bit distorted, so to speak. hard to explain what I mean. Not that I was really worried. The whole kids thing may not come for a hundred years from now, a century once I'm back, a thousand years.
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Wed Morning:
Forgot to put down that while I was sorta feeling around inside me, maybe at the soul level, hard to describe. It did seem like I do have a desire or urge to have children with Maribelle. Though I do wonder if this is at a soul level type thing, or if its her desire to leaking over into me through some sort of bond, link or something. Felt like it was sorta sleeping, is the best way I'd describe it, and no hurry. If one has eternity then it's not like with humans who have a short span of decades to have kids.
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also , not sure if she is kidding, being serious, joking or all of them, but Maribelle did mention that yes nagas do have 2, meaning the penises, I guess she means a hemipenis, intriguing.
Though it may also be that they have 2 when they want to have 2.
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Not sure if I fully understand it, but i did get some more information form Maribelle. (who is marigold, is that a friend or lover I don't remember?) anyway, I asked her how does my having lovers among the other species like before I was partially a unicorn among the unicorns, dragons and nagas, and who knows. But those species maybe. And she said due to my position. I asked my position in what and she said in the pod. Though she'd not go into further detail.
Though she did say after a bit that we (my various lovers) are true lovers and not forced or assigned.
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I do wonder if Maribelle and I becoming mates may mean 1 or 2 other lovers of mine may want to become mates also. I'm sure it'll be revealed in time. She did mention I have other lovers, A dragon, naga, the pod members, and who knows what, and I'm not consciously aware of most of them. No biggie, I'll find out eventually.
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I would assume that the keeping the peace by my having lovers among the other races, naga, dragon, unicorns (before I was one) and maybe others that she's not mentioned, may be symbolic and not needed. Maybe a custom or culture from the unicorns, dragons, nagas or some other. Maybe an ancient tradition that the modern folks are, why not still do it, it does offer advantages and new opportunities to learn and such.
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I assume by us having many kids that Maribelle meant over the long term. Not that she'd be birthing foals like a factory, but say every few hundred, 500 or thousand years we'd have perhaps 1 kid. No idea how long it takes a unicorn to go from an embryo, so to speak, to a full adult living on their own. If it takes say 20 years. Even having 1 kid every 1-200 years, after a thousand years that would still be a lot, 5-10 kids. Or even faster say every 50 years,, they are adults at say 20. That is a lot in 1,000 years.
That doesn't add in if twin flame and I have any kids/create any souls. I think we'll do at least 2, the 2 mentioned above. If i do have other lovers back home no telling about them. The world may be infinite big, maybe it can adjust it's size for the size of the population, or who knows.
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Felt cold earlier, not a bit over warm now that I put on a pull over sweater. I am looking forward to the last Qi Gong class. Though I will miss having the classes with her, I won't miss the having to wait at the bus stop for about 30 minutes and have less then a minute before the other bus I catch to go home leaves and if the first bus is a few minutes late, then having to walk home. That I won't miss. Going to the class is somewhat fun, the class is a lot of fun, coming home is the hassle.
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I wonder if that was Mirabelle's doing, or a guide or something. I felt a very warm spot on my upper left back and it moved across my back to my right side, very much like a caress like someone putting a very warm hand on your back and caressing it.
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Not sure if this will work the way I think it is, but having multiple lovers and maybe mates, and my twin flame may not conflict with my needing to be alone a lot. not sure as a soul if i need to be alone a lot. If I do then if time is really non linear where I live back home then I could for example go to my home or a room in my home, put up a do not disturb sign, stay in there doing whatever alone for say 18 hours. Then I could teleport to the other side of the door 18 hours in the past, and thus be available if needed but also staying alone at the same time when I need to. Not sure if it works like this back home or if I don't need to be alone as much as I do here. Just some thoughts I had.
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As I lay down Mirabelle lay where I was, an unusual, but pleasant sensation. We talked a bit about changing genders to have sex as different gender mixes. Then after a awhile I picked up on her being frustrated since she could touch me after a fashion, to use her term, but she really couldn't touch each other. and we couldn't really have sex. I mentioned maybe we could in a dream, though I'd not remember it likely, if she could control the dream, but she said it's not the same. I then got an idea. Since time is non linear I asked my future self to come here to spend some time with her. She seemed surprised but very happy when apparently my future self popped in. I felt a sort of sense of my future self popped in a unicorn stallion form. She seemed very happy and went off with the future me.
She came back a minute or so later very happy. No idea what they did, but I had ideas, and no idea how long the spent together since time is non linear for souls, it could have been minutes, hours, who knows, before she returned or he returned her.
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I had fun a the last Qi gong class. As a good sign the bus got to the connecting place on time, nice.
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Found out that unicorns and dragons don't do that certain folks having lovers to maintain the peace, not even symbolically like what I thought my soul knowledge said. It was all fantasy stuff. Likely that i have a number, who knows what number, of lovers and such like that. Which fits since how can I have any sort of position in any pod. I never really saw how I could have a high position, even from what Maribelle said, or one of the guides strongly hinted at a month ago, or was it 2 months ago. What makes more sense is I"m just a regular soul, who's not very far along. and that bit bout being re-created, likely also fake fantasy stuff. and former soul being a high rank in the galactic federation of light and me having his rank, and someday going to be on an elder soul council, sure, and me being a guide but I don't' consciously know it, sure. all fantasy stuff. Nothing special about me that would attract anyone to have strong feelings like love, let alone want to be lovers or a mate with me.
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& that fake fantasy soul memory about coming here due to the earth and the native earth souls asking for our help during the upcoming shift. Sure, fake fantasy fake stuff.
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Though I do wish at least some of it was true.
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Think I'll quit watching Matt's videos since first he said the first wave of the ascention would be ascended by a certain date in September, now in his latest video he says it'll take 5 years. I bet in 5 years he'll give another date. I wont even finish his latest one.
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Think I'll watch a monty python episode or 2. Though I may watch an episode or 2 of the Addams family instead.
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hehe, I keep forgetting how funny the Addams family is. Think I'll watch 1 more episode. Then I'll be finished wth this side of this disc. Why did they use those icky double sided single layer discs. ick.
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I've not heard from Maribell in hours. Guess she's to busy having fun, or doing something, to communicate, no biggie. Wherever she is there must be billions of more interesting people then me. Don't even see what she likes about me.
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Seems there will be the regular Thursday rpg tomorrow. I do hope it goes well and is fun like usual. :)
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