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1: the first one i was feeling very depressed when I heard a mental voice while I was eating last night I had not heard before say <don't do it.> i asked who it was and all it did was repeat the message. It may seem odd that I was eating at night. I eat 6 small meals a day, 1 of them I eat at night so i won't wake up so hungry. Experimenting I've figured out this seems to be best for this body. Anyway after I got the message I went back to eating and sometime after i was done the depression went, poof, just like that, like a snap or a light switch was turned on or off, no idea why, or how.
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2: The 2nd one was while I was laying down listening to the same classic music station. I need to listen to something while trying to go to sleep or else my mind will race a mile a minute and I'll never get any sleep.
I was laying down and in my mind I saw what looked like a serpentine naga appeared and approached me. Then he changed to a large snake of about the human size roughly I'd say. I didn't feel any fear or anything. just some mild curiosity of who and what this was, guessing it would delay my getting to sleep and to be sure to remember this so I can type it up.
The snake put his muzzle, or tip of his mouth, jaw, whatever you'd call it to the tip of my nose asking me how I felt? Strange question. It was at this point that I felt like I recognized him but could no remember where or how. The experience was like on the tip of my tongue I think the expression is.
I did feel some vague bit of excitement. maybe since I've never seen or talked to a giant snake, neat idea, especially since he looked, acted and felt like a friendly being. He mentioned that Mirabelle and I are still mates, she is around, but I'll not be seeing her for a while till I get to a certain point. he said I was a new person, I had symbolically been re-created, but not in the way I was thinking since I was thinking (oh bother again, now what will this mean), a symbolic death, I had shed my old skin, so to speak.
Then he did the unexpected. He bit me, though there was no pain. His 2 fangs entered at the center of my spine on my back, into the channel the kundalini travels up. he coiled around me and it felt like from the abdominal area down i was feeling some resonating from my body or energy body or something.
I felt his fangs injecting something into the channel the kundalini travels up, but as I said before there was no pain or fear. Instead it felt like the entire length of the kundalini grew warm, then i felt a faint sexual sort of emotions and pleasure as he said <relax, accept, surrender.> Then I felt a contentment and peace come from somewhere, maybe the bite point, not sure, and go through my whole being. This went on for I'm not sure how many minutes. Then he pulled away saying he'd be back. I'd have more experiences like this in the future, or did he say near future, I'm not sure.
This morning he appeared again, in large snake form I did ask since I wanted to get up if we could delay this till a bit later and he said ok, he'd be back and slithered off. I said that since I did want to get up, not to shoo him away or anything.
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Today I lay down to do a relaxation meditation nap type thing the snake, serpent, shape shifted serpentine naga, sea serpent, or whatever he is came back and loosely coiled around me. Sort of felt like a hug type thing if that makes any sense. It was pleasant.
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I did the sub personalities mediation
today. Felt like it went better then usual, but only time will tell.
This time I picked doubt turning into rational faith and determination.
If that makes any sense. that is the idea I got at the time. Rational
faith I like the idea of better then blind faith. Determination is
good too.
Forgot to add in that during the latter part of it, not sure how long, I felt a presence like it was standing very close to me to my left. Didn't to much of it at the time except to notice it and try to get the feel of it's energy, while doing the guided mediation. I'd guess it were maybe Mirabelle or the serpent (or whatever he is) guy. Maybe a female feel to the energy, but I'm not sure.
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I've purchased part 2 of the awaken the
light body course that deals with the heart energy center of the light
body course. i also got to pick a free album of mp3 music again made by
some guy named Thaddeus. the previous time I picked masters of light
since the title appealed to me. This time I picked one named sirius,
since, again, the name appealed to me. They are only $6 each so I may
eventually buy some albums myself separately. Though that may be only
after I'm sure I'm done buying courses. I'll start the 2nd part
tomorrow or Wednesday.
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I did the healing the inner child, without listening to the audio. I initially was doing negativity, then decided towards the end to also toss in doubt and confidence (which confidence I've worked on before) changing those to positiveness/love rational faith and self determination.
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Not that it matters really, just curious. I wonder if the snake guy the first popped up last night is a new guide, one of the former ones looking like a naga/larger serpent, what some call a power or totem animal?
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The large serpent guy appeared again as I lay down. He lay on me for the post part, his head resting on my chest for most of the time. For a bit he the area again, on the back of my neck where the kundalini channel is, he spent a bit longer, pumping something in that made the kundalini grow warm. It felt like whatever energy kundalini is made of. Towards the end the spots started to feel a bit sore. I mentioned this to him and he apologized, saying he didn't mean for them to be. It felt like the kundalini channel reached about the point it could hold and he stopped putting more into it. I felt more resonating, more relaxed then before. Some pleasure, and other things it's hard to describe. He remained with some coils on my legs and abdominal and his head at times on my chest. not in a possessive way but more of a watchful guarding type way. and it felt again like I know him from somewhere but can't remember.
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I was watching the brony show after party with my head slightly to one side and it felt like someone touched their horn to mine. I immediately felt love. Like our love was connecting and formed a connection. Like some intense energy was traveling back and forth and I could only feel a fraction of it but on some level I was aware of it. I couldn't tell at first who or what it was. I felt a pain in the left side. I assume it's some sort of energy block.
After a bit our horns separated then touched again and i could tell it was a female. and I do believe she felt familiar. After our horns were touching for a while I saw a mental flash of a beautiful white unicorn head with a white mane, and a bit of her neck too. The whitest White I've seen. I felt a strong love for her. Is it Mirabelle? It felt like I could feel her whole body next to mine, where I could reach out and touch her, if we were both physical. I resisted a strong urge to reach out and caress her neck and back, since I knew my hand would just go through her.
I could feel some sort of intense energy flowing between us, we both were giving and receiving at an equal rate. I also felt some pleasure, like it was there but I only became aware of it then. We never spoke any words. It was a wonderful experience. I hope to experience it again.
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