I've been watching a Dolores Cannon video someone gave me a link to in
an email unconnected to this site. And it gave me some pieces I was
missing that I seem to better understand. Not sure about the first 2 waves having an energy sheath around them
to ensure that karma doesn't stick to them. Possible, but not sure. If
so then I should have such an energy sheath around me. If there is such
I wonder if I do.
Understand stuff like why I felt like I never wanted to be here, jailers, was tricked into coming here, was forced here.
There was a council or group that responded to the need for help here,
or earth, or earth native souls asked for help, I think maybe a mix of
all these put together. But I think the big mistake was when the
council put together the plan NONE of them, or the vast majority, had
not thought to incarnate on earth to see what the conditions here are
like living here. They saw and observed the earth from a distance so to
speak, but that is different then living here on the earth. So the
souls who came here or like in my case the extensions of the souls here,
were not adequately prepared before they first incarnated here. They
didn't realize the big mistake till after the first and 2nd wave had
been coming here, it taking a while for the information to filter up to
the council and they to take notice and talk about what adjustments need
to be made.
No sure who, but someone, not sure if is current soul or higher up,
thinks that everyone of them should have incarnated here first to see
and experience the conditions firsthand, before any plan or project was
started being talked about and planned. They've had to make adjustments
and such since then, but many, or all, realize the mistake they made
since earth is one of the more unique ????. That could be why say Dan
and Stan were not helping as guides really after a point, so to speak,
thinking I could project when I couldn't. I get the feeling someone
somewhere arranged maybe for former soul to progress a bit faster so
what happened to me would get someone either on the council or closer to
the council to have first hand knowledge of what the conditions on
earth are and what being here is really like and help realize some of
their mistakes. Not that the project was in danger of failing, but it
could have been implemented to be smoother, and perhaps a bit more
efficient or faster.
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I was thinking of one thing I felt that Mirabelle's mother is a
counterpart of mine, My equivalent but from current soul's twin.
i think she was, like me, a soul from another soul, but through current
soul's twin flame. Though perhaps not with the intent of being my twin.
but a mirror so to speak. Hard to describe since I'm not sure I fully
comprehend it yet. It may take more meditating and contemplating.
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Towards the end of my nap/meditation thing I felt energy coming in from the kundalini. It felt like it was coming from my kundalini up my back, along channels, like long fingers, that goes up my back, across my shoulders and chest, to my abdominal. The energy seemed to focus heavily on my abdominal area. This went on for quite some minutes. Then for the last minute or so it went for my whole body. My body was resonating. At first it felt like it was streaming across my body at first. then after a bit some of it would go into my horn, build up then then shoot back out.
Then it felt like energy came in waves across my body.
Not what all this was about.
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I'm not sure of the energy sheath that prevents karma from sticking. Would be nice if I had that. No idea how to tell or check. If I had a choice I'd certainly would want to have such a sheath.
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I was thinking a bit ago. if there is a way to tell if there are certain issues one needs to deal with. if those issues do come from within oneself, or if those feelings are external and to keep oneself from being effected by the issues others need to work on.
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I did the 7th meditation of awakening the heart center. Staying neutral. Overall it felt like it went well. I did feel a neutral, peace, emptiness, stillness, within, hard to describe what it is. It feels like something I've done before without knowing exactly how I did it. Though others would say, like my saying I have the ability to turn my emotions off, if I notice and think of it, that I was suppressing the emotions, though I always thought they were wrong, for me and this and a previous meditation seems to go along with what I was thinking and knew. Early on in the meditation I saw the large snake guy appear again. He just stayed there, a short distance way looking at me, but as he did this I felt my kundalini as if it were flowing faster and with more force, along with a sexual pleasureful feeling. After a short time he want away and it stopped. Not sure what was up with that. I think he apologized for the distraction. This whole experience only lasted a minute or so at most.
The severe depression I felt last week more like another cause though. Maybe an energy shift, vibration shift or something. Since that was something I was experiencing all through my entire being and I could not turn off or find an inner place of emptiness, for more then short periods of time. Could the earth going through shifts, or me going through some sort of shifts, vibrational or otherwise, be the reason for some of the depression and the way it feels like it goes down to the very core of my being. hard to describe but it did feel like after that snap type feeling, hard to describe what I felt other then something like a snap, that I instantly felt better at that time, poof gone. But I've already described that before.
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An aftereffect maybe caused by the snake guy is it feels like parts of my body feel like they are resonating, though it's faded a lot since then. Also it feels like my kundalini channel has more energy in it, or more is flowing through it.
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Towards the end of my nap/meditation thing I felt energy coming in from the kundalini. It felt like it was coming from my kundalini up my back, along channels, like long fingers, that goes up my back, across my shoulders and chest, to my abdominal. The energy seemed to focus heavily on my abdominal area. This went on for quite some minutes. Then for the last minute or so it went for my whole body. My body was resonating. At first it felt like it was streaming across my body at first. then after a bit some of it would go into my horn, build up then then shoot back out.
Then it felt like energy came in waves across my body.
Not what all this was about.
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I'm not sure of the energy sheath that prevents karma from sticking. Would be nice if I had that. No idea how to tell or check. If I had a choice I'd certainly would want to have such a sheath.
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I was thinking a bit ago. if there is a way to tell if there are certain issues one needs to deal with. if those issues do come from within oneself, or if those feelings are external and to keep oneself from being effected by the issues others need to work on.
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Feels like more issues came up. I do wonder if some of this may be in the mental body. they do mention in the text of the pdf manual that some problems may be signs of work needing to be in the mental body that we'll work on later. I guess they mean in the next course that works on the upper 3 light body energy centers.
It feels like the work I've done on sub personality as they call it (aspects I guess is another term) and healing the inner child. This feeling I've done a huge amount of work may be that either I or some aspects have a habbit to think a certain way that I need to work on. or maybe it'll require mental body work. Think till then i'll still work on certain issues regularly
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Think I'll do meditation 7 again tomorrow. Don't think i go the feel of the meditation.
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Think I'll pick out some stuff to work on that I'll work on a few every day. Till I got to working on the mental body stuff since some of this may be stuff I need the mental body work to work on. Since it could be working on the emotional body part of this, healing the inner child and sub personality may be part of what's needed, but not all of it. But it does feel like a huge amount is emotional body.
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In the meditations they say the emotional body, when it is free flowing is outside and surrounding the physical body.
I do hope this isn't stuff I have to work on forever. I think say 5 months from now there may be stuff I need to work on, but it may be more like fine tuning, instead of the huge work I have been doing emotional body stuff and likely when i start on metal body stuff. Makes sense, since I have decades behind me, it may take months to get past this.
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