Monday, March 23, 2015

Monday [3-23]

Had a brief conversation Mirabelle's mother.  Saw her as the same color, or maybe a blueish color.  maybe.  maybe a red blue type color, or blue with some red in it. 

She did touch her horn to the top of my head a few times, and rested it there for a bit.  She did say she indeed does want to have kids with me the first one may well come before Mirabelle comes since she does agree with the reason, I want to experience being me, and Mirabelle and I want to experience and be together as mates first, as a couple, for a while before we have the first kid, but she (adopted unicorn mom) doesn't want to wait that long and likely won't.  During this time I also felt patience, understanding, love, and also sexual feelings as well. Both in her, coming some from her, and from within myself as well.  I did say I prefer to wait till  I can fully project or till this incarnation is over and she said she agreed with the conditions.

I again asked why me, what is so special about me and she just keeps her horn touching the top of my head laughing in a good naturedly way, saying I'll find out if I don't know already I'll figure it out. 

This seems to be moving fast to me, but they may have known the old me from before this incarnation started for hundreds or thousands of years so it may be it's not really moving fast.

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I purchased the e-book version of opening to channel, written by one of the 2 folks who does the awaken the light body course I'm taking.  The woman, Sanaya, or whatever her name is and Orin who she channels.

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I also had an idea that me, old soul, new soul, the dragoness, may all be aspects of a soul that is say a level above current soul and dragoness.  if current soul and dragoness are twin flames.  Even if they are soul mates they could be soul mates who are aspects of the same soul.

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That could be why it felt a bit confusing like there were 2. If 1 of the dragonesses is a twin flame of current soul then he may have a dragoness who is their parent also, the soul they are part of. Not sure if he as multiple soul parents, if they are aspects of the same soul.

If I had say several soul parents, former soul, current a unicorn aspect of current soul and current soul's twin, that would be possible. I could see some aspects creating another aspect of the same soul. Not sure how many steps back it goes. I'm the aspect of a soul with a twin flame, also a soul parent of mine, who are aspects of multiple aspects of a soul. I did have an idea a month or a few ago that the pod may all be ultimately aspects of either 1 soul, or maybe several souls.

I may be 4-5 steps removed from source maybe, if I have things right or half way right. Soul 1 maybe came from source or is an aspect of a soul. Soul 1 has aspects that are the soul parents of current soul and his twin flame. Say soul 2 and soul 2's tf. I was an extension of an aspect of his, but I was re-created so that aspect is one of my soul parents also. Say soul 3 is former soul I was an extension of. and say I am soul 4. soul 1 is maybe either from source or is an aspect of 1 soul, not the soul child, so to speak, of several aspects or souls.

The unicorn bit I got from an aspect of current soul could be he sent out an aspect to incarnate as a unicorn. It could be he is part unicorn also. Maybe. I'd have to explore that further, exploring my soul origins, what I am at the soul level, ect.

Not sure if that makes sense to anyone reading this.

think I'll put the meditation 5 in the next bit.

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I did 6th mediation of part 2: awaken the light body. It went well. I felt the different energies flowing very well. The healing thing felt like a different type of energy, hard for me to feel. sorta like a warm water type of fluid, but less dense then water, hard to describe. it felt like it did help, temporarily, the spot on my upper lower back and left knee. The knee area felt like some energy there. I also did a general overall body type healing. next time I do this I'll try to pick areas I've had problems with, abdominal and overall general whole body. I'll try to see if I can do this without the mediation during the brony show.

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forgot to put in that when i got up from my nap, and before i the 6th meditation of part 2 of the awaken the light body course i sat in the chair and felt a irritation on my left calf muscle area. Looking down it looks like i had somehow scratched myself just as i was getting out of bed or something.  No idea how that happened.  I've been putting witch hazel on it since then every few hours or so.

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I was wondering if Mirabelle is an aspect of the same soul I am or the soul a step up.  I get the feel not of the soul I'm part of, but I'm not sure beyond that.  She could be another soul, or maybe not. I'm not sure yet.

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I did a free 27 minute mediation from the web site I get the awaken the light body course from called Opening to your true identity.  interesting experience.  First during the early part I felt Mirabelle resting her head on my right shoulder, then a bit after her mother put her head on my left shoulder.  with the light outside shining to reveal more of your true self.  and more pedals of the veil falling away.  I did see that happen in my mind's eye.

I got the feel that Mirabelle is an aspect of a soul that is a close friend or a lover of former soul.  and then that her mother is an aspect of the dragoness that is the twin flame of current soul.  yet Mirabelle's mother doesn't feel like a twin flame. 

Speaking of my twin flame she popped up diring this, keeping her chest & belly pressed against my back, with my kundalini responding to her presence as before.  She said something like do you think I'd miss this or, If you are here I'd be here too, or something like that. 

I don't feel any more illuminated, but i did feel something happen inside me as orin did the bit about the shaft of light coming down through the center of your head down your body and the peddles of the ego folding back like a flower.  I saw that happen as well.  i feel the same, but it may take time to assimilate the process or maybe the mediation needs to be done more times or something.

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Could it be that she's not a twin since current soul's twin flame is one of this me's parents that could be why she doesn't feel like a twin flame? 

My twin felt the same as before.  I forgot that for a moment she switched to being anthro or humanoid and she had a horn (which at first I found slightly surprising) She saying something like, "if you have a horn why wouldn't I have one also."  Guess that means she is a unicorn also.  Hmm, makes me think now.  Does that mean part of the recreation thing, which i don't remember or wasn't conscious for, if this experience did happen, did we recombine or were we combined, re-created then split again? 

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I did the 6th meditation of part 2 of the course.  It went very well.  I diffidently felt all the various energy flowing this time.  I had the healing energy stuff focus on various areas.  My upper left back area, left eye, entire head, throat, chest, abdominal area, left knee and the area where the scratch is.  I also did an entire body and had it focus on whatever emotional areas that needed healing within myself. 

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Hmm, could it be that if Mirabelle's mother is an aspect of current soul's twin flame, which the dragoness is one of my soul parents also? and as such current soul and twin's dragoness parent would be also my soul parent too? 

Could it be that the reason that Mirabelle's mother wants her and me to be lovers and to have kids with me, be that soul at some level wants a develop a deeper relation with itself or parts of itself?  This feels like something soul would want to do, develop or deepen a relationship with itself, and of course in a fun pleasurable way. 

and Mirabelle's and my feelings for each other are true, and also lets the 2 souls we're aspects of or parts of deepen the relationship of love and sharing of pleasure that they share between themselves?

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Think I have the answer.  My soul parents and the parents of my current soul can be traced to 1 soul.  That soul was an aspect of a soul that came direct from source.  It had some experiences, and decided to rejoin source, but an aspect of it didn't wish to so split off.  This former aspect decided it never would rejoin source because of the infinite things to learn, experience, pleasures, ways to experience and explore love.  

The soul it was an aspect of mainly stays with source, but does temporarily leaves source if one of it's friends misses it so it can spend time with them, if it's help is needed, or for other reasons, but it always rejoins source before to long.

Forgot to say, no idea what happened but I felt a sort of click in my head somewhere, and I heard it too. No idea what that was.

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I'm big into spiritual stuff here and I wonder if I will be over there, back at my homes. Assuming I have homes on the other side somewhere. I'd guess I likely do.

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I was thinking that with the soul linage I'm part of It's normal that aspects will become known to me, active, or whatever the term is. over time I think some will choose to become external aspects. Some of those will choose to become independent permanently, some will choose to remain external aspects. Some may choose to go back and forth between being independent or an external aspect of mine. Some will go back and forth between being an external and internal aspect. Over time I may discover new aspects of mine I didn't know before. Not sure if it'll go on forever.

some aspects may choose to be incorporated into me, either for good or for while, maybe a long while.

Also if an external aspect goes independent I may discover some part of it is still internal, maybe. I'd not loose that part of my personality.

I think there may be other soul lineages that incorporate their aspects into themselves.


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I don't think I'd choose to go into source. I'm sure there'll be an infinite of experiences, fun, pleasures, dimensions of love to explore and experience. in infinite of friends to make, lovers to discover or friends who grow into lovers, ect.

maybe hard for the human mind to comprehend but this can go on forever. though I'm sure I'll be still learning, & being a guide, ect. An infinite of things to do.

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