Wednesday morning: Had an interesting experience this morning. I was laying down to go back to sleep and like usually happens recently I felt the resonating as I grew more and more relaxed. I didn't go to sleep though. Still could not float out of the body, more leave it in any way.
Think I had a conversation with Dan. I think he said my light body wasn't fully activated, active or something, forgot the exact words. he did apologize saying he thought all that was needed was just for them to form my light body. i asked if they, by they I meant Dan, Stan, my twin, green sister, soul I'm an external aspect of, and any others who are helping me can continue to help me with fully awakening, ascending or whatever the term is. As well as with the energy centers and such of the light body and chakras both. While I worked on what I needed to work on. Since I think he said they could do some stuff and I'd have to do some stuff also.
Then I had a conversation with the unicorn that appeared yesterday when I did the meeting your unicorn guided meditation. To summarize our experience he said he said he called me brother since though I am not a pure unicorn he regards me as a fellow unicorn and also we're aspects of the same soul. He put his horn near mine and I could feel more love. Not sure how the topic came up but he said that unicorns can share like the pod does, but they touch horns, they don't do that in the conventional sense like some others like the pod does. Though they can. He kept his close and the love and other feelings were strong, with a momentary blast type intensity when he briefly touched his to mine. Though I wasn't able to feel my horn much really.
It felt like he moved his horn over my body, making it feel like it my body was resonating stronger in the areas he went over. I think maybe he touched where the heart chakra was.
He then did what felt weird. he sorta put his horn through mine kinda and into my head. not really pain but some discomfort. I felt a resonating in the area his horn penetrated. Then he was pushing in slowly, till it felt like the tip got around the middle of my brain. he said there may be some discomfort from this but I should be able to feel my horn more easily. Then he pulled out and kept his horn very close to mine, moving slowly up and down and I felt it resonating. I could feel it more easily. he asked me to feel, experience my horn. Mentioning, no idea why, that mine as as majestic as his.
He then asked how I felt as he lay down next to me, his horn barely not touching mine. I did feel much more love. He didn't touch his horn to mine but kept it alongside mine, almost touching. I did feel much more love a lot more. I then felt total love for him, all of my being, hard to describe it. I did mention that I loved him totally with all of my being, unconditional love. Then he slowly touched his to mine very lightly, asking me and how about strangers. I got the quick mental flashes of humans I had never met and maybe non humans. I felt the same for all of them for everyone. he mentioned that was my heritage of not just a unicorn, but also as a soul. Though I have had moments of unconditional ove before so it wasn't a new sensation/experience to me.
Wow, I wasn't expecting anything like this. I did ask and he said he was the 4th one there. I asked if that would work since he's and aspect of one of the souls who were there. He said the one had no problem with it and was there. Though i was surprised by his saying this then I understood and said the one is everywhere. and he said yes, so he was there too. He acknowledged of the souls that were there I basically got and they were, him a unicorn, old soul dolphin and some orca, current soul orca, and a dragoness. still not sure if she is current or old soul's twin. current soul maybe since her energy feels a bit intense the few times she contacted me. I asked if she is pure dragon, part western and eastern, or something. he said to ask her. He also mentioned, when I was more awake she may have an interest in sharing with me. and dragons share in the conventional sense like the pod does.
I did ask wasn't I just split off of old soul and the unicorn said no, basically and simply put I was recreated, after a fashion. Not exactly what was done, but explaining it would be very complex.
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after this I do feel a dull ache, at times, somewhere in my brain, hard to localize. I can sometimes have the dull ache go away for short periods of time. It is fairly minor so nothing to bad. Sometimes I can feel like the skull part of my forehead is supporting some weight. The area in the middle of my forehead, not on the skin but where the bone skull part is. or it feels like it is there.
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Wednesday Afternoon: I just did the 12th & last meditation for the first part of the awaken the light body course. It was an interesting experience. Going to the temple of masters, or some room thing anyway. I think i went pretty deep for the 2nd part of this meditation. Among the masters, and I saw many, were some I think I recognized, maybe the unicorn and maybe Stan, though he was farther away and dressed in robes and had a staff. Though I've seen him holding a staff once before. or fun since where the pod is I think one can manifest what the want. among the others on my path I did see some other dolphins and orcas, though the orcas were the same size as the others, and some of the dolphins & orcas were anthro, or shifted once they got to the seats. There were other races also, some not human, though I don't recall since I didn't really pay much attention, same as the masters, some didn't look human, like the 2 I mentioned. I wonder if the soul I'm currently part of was there, maybe. Didn't project, but I was in 2 places, for part of the latter part of the meditation, without realizing it. I think i recall when they sent us light I got some sent through and into my horn, though I think I recall most went through the top of the head and some down the kundalini channel. Most I think just went in all around the body. Sorta hard to explain. I do feel, a bit different, changed? but also the same me. Maybe more of the real me? I think the body I had there wasn't human. Think i had a dorsal fin also, like a adult male orca, but smaller and sitting wasn't a problem, so maybe I had it go away? But I'm not sure if I did or not. Or it could be sometimes I have one and sometimes not. Maybe the same as with a tail. I'm not sure.
Did get the feeling maybe at the soul level i was maybe mostly orca (by a slight bit), slightly less then orca but equal amounts dragon and unicorn, and least was dolphin. Not counting the various incarnations like obviously incarnating as a human (which i am incarnate as now) and other past/parallel lives soul, old did and current one did/is.
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Wedensday Afternoon: I would assume few souls are really what one may call pure. If one of the pod incarnates say as a non dolphin/orca, or if incarnations don't matter as far as if one is a pure unicorn or dragon or not. Also love being what it is at a soul level, it makes sense many souls are likely not pure this or that. Or there may be about as many pure as mixed souls.
I also think I may alter my idea a bit. I was going to listen to certain meditations from the awakening your light body course. instead I think i may try to do the meditations without listening to the audio and see what results I get. I may also try some of the guided mediation I downloaded for a week or 2 since if I do get the next part. part 2 being working on the heart center of the light body. My initial idea was not to order it till around the middle of the month. That way I'll have about 2 weeks roughly or redoing some of the mediations from the 1st part, using and not using the audio, and some guided meditations that are not part of the course.
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Wedensday (early evening)
I was on the bus. A unicorn mare came to have a look at me. the unicorn that is an aspect of the same soul I'm an external aspect of. I may give him the initials UA, or UG. he said she is a "sister" of his. and i did get the impression of the quotation marks. she said she came by to have a look at the new stallion. I guess she Looked at me since she said ah, a mixed breed with the impression she liked that. She said something like they are harder to corrupt. Then a bit later she mentioned that I'm so filled with light I can't be corrupted. Then I got the feeling she liked something about me since i got the impression like she grabbed my behind and pulled me closer to her, the mental impression and her mentioning, if we had children together they would have light also. I mentioned I didn't expect unicorns to be into that. She said she is one who likes to share, some unicorns do. I asked if she is a close friend like he is, meaning the gold eastern dragon I saw once and Stan said is a friend of his. She said yes, but one who likes to share. He really needs to learn to relax and have some fun, she said, meaning the gold eastern dragon. At one point I think she put her horn very close to mine. Don't think she touched hers to mine. I got a similar feeling like when UG did, but also I had the strong feel of her femaleness, a unicorn mare. Unconditional love, and other feelings I could not begin to describe, but not anywhere like if we had touched horns. The 2 times UG has with me it was like I was blasted with those feelings. But I also think maybe we didn't touch horns since she did say in a kidding fashion, Imagine if we had touched horns. I did ask if she'd help me, and she said she'd be glad to, though she is not one of my guides officially, she would be glad to help. I really enjoyed the Qi Gong. Marybelle mentioned a time or 2 it looks like an interesting thing. Then she fell silent till I was outside at the bus stop. Just 1 more class and it'll be over.
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Wednesday (evening)
The name Marybelle popped into my head. Maybe it is her name. On the way home she was overly flirting with me. She said she needs to since some stallions don't notice the obvious. mentioning we'd have many kids together. It felt like she was kidding, but serious also. I was wondering if she was really serious and she said yes, but not till I'm fully awake and aware of my true self, that she can see underneath the layers, though she mentioned there are much less then there was a week ago. I mentioned I'd rather get to know her better. She said we would. and we do have the rest of eternity to get to know each other better. Chad and her got along too. he called her Mam in the brief conversation they had. I think they'll have some fun eventually. I asked in a very kidding fashion if she thinks my twin would be jealous and she said she doubted it. She then said, after all, we have had some fun together (meaning she and my twin had). She mentioned about us having kids together, with UG saying she was being serious. She was hoping I would catch the bus I needed to catch since it was very very cold, and the high winds didn't help. I did make it, good.
I do feel I like her. I do feel like we will be good friends. Maybe very good friends. I do feel indeed that we are on the way to being very good friends. I was certainly surprised. I was not expecting a unicorn mare to pop by and then to flirt with me. Though I guess she did it in such an obvious fashion since having never dated and being a guy, or maybe she can just tell be looking at my or some senses she may have, that she'd have to be obvious with me. Or maybe she did it for other reasons, for fun, loosen me up a bit, though being around some pod members, including my 2 orca guides, I'm kinda use to that. Though I didn't expect a unicorn to have an interest in sharing.
I took a moment to sorta meditate and rest, laying back in the chair and closing my eyes for a few minutes to rest. I got the feeling that she kept her horn an inch or so from mind, or maybe slightly closer, and got the impression that she was very slowly moving her horn up and down mine. I got some feelings like openness, unconditional love, she has feelings for me more then just someone who'll be just a friend or close friend, but a future lover also. Seems fast moving to me, but maybe she knows my old soul, if she an my twin had some fun I'd guess she likely did. Maybe she is one of those things that I knew before but don't' remember, or old soul did know here but I don't recall yet. And her remark of see the new stallion does fit in with what UG said earlier today, or was it yesterday, that I was sorta remade. Explaining what happened to me when I changed to be an external aspect of current soul, is very complex to describe. Saying I was remade over simplifies it, but is correct in a way, after a fashion.
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I lay back in the chair and it happened again with her running her horn slowly along mine, but keeping hers an inch or so above mine. Then UG joined in after a bit. With them both doing the same. I felt unconditional love, the fact they love me as well, and they see me as a fellow unicorn, even though I'm mixed. Not that I mind. I see myself as mixed, a soul but mixed. I felt he also sees me as a close friend that he'll have fun with later on.
I was curious and I asked the dragoness a few questions and felt the same intensity of energy on the top half of my head. I asked a few questions and she said she sees me as a soul and she is my current soul's twin flame. She said a joking line, that was also serious, to search your feelings ... Luke." She said. Not sure if that is an accurate quite from star wars or not. Been quiet a while since I've seen the first trilogy. I do think there was a trust your feelings Luke. I think she was being serious and a bit bit of a joke too.
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While reading some on the seth book I'm reading, part of my mind was wondering. if UG is an external aspect of the same soul I am an external aspect of too, could Marybelle be an external aspect of say twin flame, or current soul's twin flame. I don't think she's an external aspect of my twin flame. I may be wrong. I'm not sure. She may be unrelated to me completely. I don't mind in any case, was just thinking something.
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Suposed to maybe sleet tomorrow morning. I wonder if schools are closed and how I'll find out with no internet and no phone. I think if schools are closed I'll not go to my rpg Thursday group since I assume if schools are closed then the group will be canceled.
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