still very angry (to put it mildly. Leading me on with these lies. I asked the dragoness, and I bet she's not really a she and not really a dragoness. I asked her if she would lie to me and she said yes. Still a lier but at least she admitted up front. That is a milder type of lier to me.
No idea why non corporal beings like to toy with us for their amusement and keep us imprisoned here. I guess it's one of those things we here don't understand since I'm imprisoned here.
It'll never stop. Being imprisoned here forever and no way out with those non corporal beings all just toying with us for their jollies. and being liers as part of it. Even leading you on for days, or even decades.
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If those .... really knew me they would not have lied to me since they'd know that once a lier always a lier. once someone lies to you once they never can be trusted again.
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There is no way to widen the space
between thoughts at all. The fact that you can is a lie. If awakening
and enlightenment were really for everyone then there would be paths
that do not entail widening the time and space between thoughts!!!!!!!!!
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what infinite space? Where is this infinite space? I don't understand.
pretty messed up that I have to wait till this physical body dies to find out the truth of how things really are, then likely fight as <censored> to not be forced into another incarnation. Since all those non corporal beings are all liers, love to tease, like and toy with those of us trapped and imprisoned here. and some of them come here to toy, tease and like to those of us here, like that Matt guy, and 1 or 2 others I could name. Though not you Scarlett, I mean others. It just gets me really <censored , censored> and some of them have been lieing for a week, months, decades for 1 of them. That maribelle, stan, dan, former and currentn soul, both hgher selves, the dragoness, green fake, twin fake, that matt guy, 1 on here I can name (not scarlette), another I use to talk to recently. <censored> <censored> <censored> <censored> <censored>
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it still has me very angry, to put it as nicely as i can. the name she gave me is not her real name, and Im nto ready for her real name, what a crock of <censored> that is. very mean lies, also her saying that what I call the & think of the pod race as cetacean because that's easiest for your mind to accept. They do exist, but their true form is not something your mind can see at the moment. when the term pod is not mine, THEY used the term POD and said they were dolphins & orcas, but not of earth origin. so they were lieing the whole time also. bunch of >>>>>>>>>>> liers. to put it as nicely as i can. at least the dragoness did admit when I asked her that if I do ask her anything that she would lie, and I bet she's not really a she and not really a dragon.
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Back to just 1 person I can talk to about spiritual things, those other 2 turned out to be not very nice folks and caused a lot of chaos in my life spiritually. bad folks those 2 are. Though they may prove themselves to be otherwise.
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I did do some Qi Gong today. 13 minutes went by and felt sorta like 4 or 6 minutes. Though I don't have to many movements. It's ok, one does no need to know a lot of movements and always time to add some in later if I want.
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it seems to me that the non spiritual folks I come across are MUCH nicer then the spiritual folks, why is that?
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Wonder if an experience I had is Chad or another aspect, or something else. May have to ask Scarlett since I've no idea or ability to tell.
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I bet I'm totally alone, assuming there is an after life, on the other side, if i have not been trapped here since my creation. here may be a refection of there. So i'm totally alone here, with some acquaintances, like the Thursday rpg group and 1 that I can talk to about spiritual stuff. I bet it's like that over there, assuming again there is an after life and I am not trapped here forever.
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Unicorns, dragons, cetaceans, such don't exist. I've not seen any evince of any angels so I'll doubt they exist. I bet, assuming souls do exist, the only souls are earth human souls only. no others at all.
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Bad after 32 years begin back at square 1. Wonder if I should get the next Awaken the light body course. it is the 2nd course of 6 that is about the heart. one thing I don't' like is I read it has a bit about going to meet some beings of light called Enlighten ones, whoever they are.
From what I found out Thursday night I do feel I don't trust any non corporal beings, and as far as corporal when it comes to spiritual I'd only trust scarlet, dryad and shinshoo, though Scarlette is the only one I talk to.
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can't go to the spiritual chat rooms place, banned for some reason. no biggie. it was my first visit in a month or so. So no big loss.
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I do wonder what my first step should be. I've no idea. Maybe that meditation idea that Scarlett gave me via pm. Though I'm not sure if it works or not.
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if those beings knew me they'd know not to lie. A better approach would have been for say Mirabelle to say her name is complicated or a human throat can't say it, with a lot of training. or it is long & the spelling is complicated. So just call me... which would be either the first few letters of her name, or have her say, I'll pick an earth type name, easier for you to say and spell.
those <<<<, should have said, (assuming Mirabelle was telling the truth an dalll this isn't some big lie, which I would nto put it past some.... if they had said, "we don't look like this. this is the closest that we look like as 3d beings. or, we picked this mask since it's easier for your mind to comprehend at this time, being limited as it is to ed perceptions. We'll start gradually altering our appearance as you get use to this and can handle more. So gradually over months or maybe a year or more you'll see more accurately what we are." or something like that, instead of the big <censored> lies that the did. I want nothing to do with them since one can't trust a lier.
If some told lies and such during an incarnation, did evil things, that is different. These are non corporal beings so they are their full selves. the fact they lied an did all this shows they don't really know me at all, and were just playing around with me for their own amusement.
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If I could trust some noncorpral beings I could trust, a high order and i'd guess impossible or nearly so due to what happened yesterday.
i do think I'd want to be recreated again. Perhaps be indipendant, since I can't trust being an external aspect of any soul at this point. and i get told before the the recreation that mythical races i can pick from, and what sci-fi types, say like, and I've no idea if any of these exist. I'm thinking only human souls exist and no others. But if they are mystical souls I be shown, told there are (and some information about each) the faries, satyr, nymphs, dryads, unicorns, dragons, ect. and I may pick say 1-3 of those. then taught,shown some of the non mystical races, and told some bout each, say Sirius, ect ect.... Though I'd not trust them since one can't trust any non corporal being. Thursday taught me that.
keep my accumulated wisdom and knowledge, but non memories. so I'd still be a new/old soul, and not hav eto do billions of lives again. I'm bored to death with incarnating, gods i hate it, I'm bored to death with it.
Then after this incarnation is over, I'd have no home, but I'm sure with an eternity I can eventually find a place.
I'd want nothing to do with those liers though.
Though i highly doubt any recreation is an option for me.
other options are if I can be a walk out, with 1 of them, or all of them taking turns, and I never have to incarnate again, no trickery, no force, Never have to again ever.
Or I am free to go as long as i want, days, weeks, months, and one of them has to take this body inhabiting it till I return, I'd have to be fully awake, ascended, whatever the term is, with full memory of what I was doing when I get back, and agin, no more incarnating, no trickery, force ect. Though Id never trust them again. they lied to me. Mirabell the lie going for a <censored> 8 days. those other <censored> for months.
I never can trust them, nor like them even. I'm still imprisoned here while they are laughing it up, those <censored, censored censored>
You can't trust any non corporal being, and very few corporal ones.
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I still have no idea what to do for a step 1. Starting over from scratch. assuming an of this will do any good and I can fully waken and not have to incarnate anymore.
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Think I may be loosing any desire to eat meat. I had been for the past 6 or so months eating pre cooked meat patties. I'd microwave one to that it out, then cut it into quarters and eat 1 quarter a day. SO thus 1 precooked meat patty would last me 4 days. but recently I have maybe loosing the desire at all for meat. I had gone years without eating meat. I may, since it's not doing any bad to me, just eat maybe 1 patty a week like before, but give myself a 3 day break from it. when they are eaten up they'll be the last of them.
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If I do get the other orin and daben awakening the light body course, I would NOT do anything that has you go anywhere like ay temple of masters, or having any master appear to do this or that. Thanks to what happened Thursday I am very very wary of any non corporal. I would go on about that, but I've done enough before so no need to repeat myself yet again.
I may go over 10 of the 12 meditations again. this time instead of doing each meditation twice in 1 day, I think I'll instead do 2 in each day, doing each one once. I would not do the first one, which as a bit bout your future self sending you a message. I don't trust my future self message since that could be a lie and trickery for their amusement.
That gives 10 for the first part I think I may redo, over 5 days roughly. if I do get teh 2nd part of the 6 part course, I'll likely cut out those that deal with going to temples of masters and such, since at this point i don't trust non corporals. Still not sure why those did what they did. but that is the past. makes me wonder if the after life is a horrible place. it may be. I hate being here. maybe the afterlife is worst then being here. That is a horrid thought. but it may be true.
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what infinite space? Where is this infinite space? I don't understand.
pretty messed up that I have to wait till this physical body dies to find out the truth of how things really are, then likely fight as <censored> to not be forced into another incarnation. Since all those non corporal beings are all liers, love to tease, like and toy with those of us trapped and imprisoned here. and some of them come here to toy, tease and like to those of us here, like that Matt guy, and 1 or 2 others I could name. Though not you Scarlett, I mean others. It just gets me really <censored , censored> and some of them have been lieing for a week, months, decades for 1 of them. That maribelle, stan, dan, former and currentn soul, both hgher selves, the dragoness, green fake, twin fake, that matt guy, 1 on here I can name (not scarlette), another I use to talk to recently. <censored> <censored> <censored> <censored> <censored>
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it still has me very angry, to put it as nicely as i can. the name she gave me is not her real name, and Im nto ready for her real name, what a crock of <censored> that is. very mean lies, also her saying that what I call the & think of the pod race as cetacean because that's easiest for your mind to accept. They do exist, but their true form is not something your mind can see at the moment. when the term pod is not mine, THEY used the term POD and said they were dolphins & orcas, but not of earth origin. so they were lieing the whole time also. bunch of >>>>>>>>>>> liers. to put it as nicely as i can. at least the dragoness did admit when I asked her that if I do ask her anything that she would lie, and I bet she's not really a she and not really a dragon.
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Back to just 1 person I can talk to about spiritual things, those other 2 turned out to be not very nice folks and caused a lot of chaos in my life spiritually. bad folks those 2 are. Though they may prove themselves to be otherwise.
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I did do some Qi Gong today. 13 minutes went by and felt sorta like 4 or 6 minutes. Though I don't have to many movements. It's ok, one does no need to know a lot of movements and always time to add some in later if I want.
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it seems to me that the non spiritual folks I come across are MUCH nicer then the spiritual folks, why is that?
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Wonder if an experience I had is Chad or another aspect, or something else. May have to ask Scarlett since I've no idea or ability to tell.
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I bet I'm totally alone, assuming there is an after life, on the other side, if i have not been trapped here since my creation. here may be a refection of there. So i'm totally alone here, with some acquaintances, like the Thursday rpg group and 1 that I can talk to about spiritual stuff. I bet it's like that over there, assuming again there is an after life and I am not trapped here forever.
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Unicorns, dragons, cetaceans, such don't exist. I've not seen any evince of any angels so I'll doubt they exist. I bet, assuming souls do exist, the only souls are earth human souls only. no others at all.
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Bad after 32 years begin back at square 1. Wonder if I should get the next Awaken the light body course. it is the 2nd course of 6 that is about the heart. one thing I don't' like is I read it has a bit about going to meet some beings of light called Enlighten ones, whoever they are.
From what I found out Thursday night I do feel I don't trust any non corporal beings, and as far as corporal when it comes to spiritual I'd only trust scarlet, dryad and shinshoo, though Scarlette is the only one I talk to.
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can't go to the spiritual chat rooms place, banned for some reason. no biggie. it was my first visit in a month or so. So no big loss.
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I do wonder what my first step should be. I've no idea. Maybe that meditation idea that Scarlett gave me via pm. Though I'm not sure if it works or not.
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if those beings knew me they'd know not to lie. A better approach would have been for say Mirabelle to say her name is complicated or a human throat can't say it, with a lot of training. or it is long & the spelling is complicated. So just call me... which would be either the first few letters of her name, or have her say, I'll pick an earth type name, easier for you to say and spell.
those <<<<, should have said, (assuming Mirabelle was telling the truth an dalll this isn't some big lie, which I would nto put it past some.... if they had said, "we don't look like this. this is the closest that we look like as 3d beings. or, we picked this mask since it's easier for your mind to comprehend at this time, being limited as it is to ed perceptions. We'll start gradually altering our appearance as you get use to this and can handle more. So gradually over months or maybe a year or more you'll see more accurately what we are." or something like that, instead of the big <censored> lies that the did. I want nothing to do with them since one can't trust a lier.
If some told lies and such during an incarnation, did evil things, that is different. These are non corporal beings so they are their full selves. the fact they lied an did all this shows they don't really know me at all, and were just playing around with me for their own amusement.
----------------
If I could trust some noncorpral beings I could trust, a high order and i'd guess impossible or nearly so due to what happened yesterday.
i do think I'd want to be recreated again. Perhaps be indipendant, since I can't trust being an external aspect of any soul at this point. and i get told before the the recreation that mythical races i can pick from, and what sci-fi types, say like, and I've no idea if any of these exist. I'm thinking only human souls exist and no others. But if they are mystical souls I be shown, told there are (and some information about each) the faries, satyr, nymphs, dryads, unicorns, dragons, ect. and I may pick say 1-3 of those. then taught,shown some of the non mystical races, and told some bout each, say Sirius, ect ect.... Though I'd not trust them since one can't trust any non corporal being. Thursday taught me that.
keep my accumulated wisdom and knowledge, but non memories. so I'd still be a new/old soul, and not hav eto do billions of lives again. I'm bored to death with incarnating, gods i hate it, I'm bored to death with it.
Then after this incarnation is over, I'd have no home, but I'm sure with an eternity I can eventually find a place.
I'd want nothing to do with those liers though.
Though i highly doubt any recreation is an option for me.
other options are if I can be a walk out, with 1 of them, or all of them taking turns, and I never have to incarnate again, no trickery, no force, Never have to again ever.
Or I am free to go as long as i want, days, weeks, months, and one of them has to take this body inhabiting it till I return, I'd have to be fully awake, ascended, whatever the term is, with full memory of what I was doing when I get back, and agin, no more incarnating, no trickery, force ect. Though Id never trust them again. they lied to me. Mirabell the lie going for a <censored> 8 days. those other <censored> for months.
I never can trust them, nor like them even. I'm still imprisoned here while they are laughing it up, those <censored, censored censored>
You can't trust any non corporal being, and very few corporal ones.
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I still have no idea what to do for a step 1. Starting over from scratch. assuming an of this will do any good and I can fully waken and not have to incarnate anymore.
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Think I may be loosing any desire to eat meat. I had been for the past 6 or so months eating pre cooked meat patties. I'd microwave one to that it out, then cut it into quarters and eat 1 quarter a day. SO thus 1 precooked meat patty would last me 4 days. but recently I have maybe loosing the desire at all for meat. I had gone years without eating meat. I may, since it's not doing any bad to me, just eat maybe 1 patty a week like before, but give myself a 3 day break from it. when they are eaten up they'll be the last of them.
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If I do get the other orin and daben awakening the light body course, I would NOT do anything that has you go anywhere like ay temple of masters, or having any master appear to do this or that. Thanks to what happened Thursday I am very very wary of any non corporal. I would go on about that, but I've done enough before so no need to repeat myself yet again.
I may go over 10 of the 12 meditations again. this time instead of doing each meditation twice in 1 day, I think I'll instead do 2 in each day, doing each one once. I would not do the first one, which as a bit bout your future self sending you a message. I don't trust my future self message since that could be a lie and trickery for their amusement.
That gives 10 for the first part I think I may redo, over 5 days roughly. if I do get teh 2nd part of the 6 part course, I'll likely cut out those that deal with going to temples of masters and such, since at this point i don't trust non corporals. Still not sure why those did what they did. but that is the past. makes me wonder if the after life is a horrible place. it may be. I hate being here. maybe the afterlife is worst then being here. That is a horrid thought. but it may be true.
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