I did the 4th mediation for the first time. it went about average overall. The Dinia I felt decently, better a bit later on. at first the ninia I didn't feel at all any energy going there. The Leow slightly. the dome, have to look up the name, went pretty well. the Ranthia went pretty well also. the kundalini only sent a very slight amount of energy into the dome but I was able to pretty well keep a steady flow of energy from the first 3 energy centers into the dome and into the first ranthia, heart energy center. From there it felt like the first one got full, or maybe it was fully active, not sure which. Felt a slight ache, like something not use to being used being awakened a bit. Later on it felt like the 2nd ranthia either got full or fully active an eventually the 3rd was either mostly full or active, not sure which. not sure if it go full or fully active by the end. I think it may have.
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I'll be going out very soon to meet some group of spiritual type folks. I hope it goes well. The weather is pretty cold and not very nice. Cold, rainy. and I feel like I should go back to bed. That'll have to wait till this afternoon.
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Went to the Illumane Dharma meeting. There were only 5 of us there, and 1
kid. I had fun. They showed videos of various things including some
channeled beings, and played some audio. Though the rainy weather and
it being colder then it had been the past few days made it not pleasant
to go there or head home.
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Did a short meditation while I was laying down after waking up from my
nap. Asked my aspects in general if they had any messages for me and I
got some from 3. In general it was they liked what I was doing and to
continue doing it. I asked my higher self and it just send me a feeling
of love and unasked Mirabelle sent a <I love you.> I told her
that I lover her also and she said something like <I know, you can't
hide that from me even if you were to try. I need to tell you at times
since where you are you are so insensitive.> she said, not meaning it
in a negative way, but that here things are so dense, and separated
that folks here are not as sensitive as they are normally.
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I remembered what one of the folks at the Illumne Dharma meeting said. I
forgot his exact words but he was in the same belief that we come here
to learn since where we are from is like paradise.
That doesn't feel quite right. Partially right, but we can and do
continue to learn once we are back home. Or I may be wrong about that.
Just Some come here for fun, and or to learn certain things. Certain
things are easier and or faster to learn here, but one can still learn
everything back home. And I feel just like certain things may be
learned easier or faster here, certain things are learned faster and
easier there. But we do have forever to learn.
I would guess they have the same, though I may be wrong about this also.
The end goal is not to reach perfection or learn all you can then
graduate by returning to source. We are already source. we can just
open that awareness, link or whatever it was that Mirabelle did when She
activated the 3 heart centers that did that for me temporarily. One
can do that permanently I think if one sets that as their goal.
Since one can say the only real end goal is existing and experiencing. Though there is no real end goal. The human custom, beliefs here make one thing there has to be an end goal to everything, even when there is none.
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I did the 4th mediation for the 2nd time today. It overall went well. Wasn't sure how it would go in the beginning, but I did play around with the energies and angles and such and it went really well. Towards the end I felt a sort of pop, I guess it may have been a blockage in my abdominal area that cleared up. It felt like the Kundalini was also flowing faster, with some energy from that branching off again to go to the mummin, or whatever it's called, to then go to the Ranthia. During part of it I felt a slight ache, that went away after a bit. I think it may be like the energy centers and the dome mimin maybe are not use to being used to much. The slight ache was less and went away fairly quickly . it returned briefly when it felt like the 3rd ranthia was getting filled or activated or whatever. It did feel like I got a very good flow or energy flowing, a lot in fact, to the Dinia through the other 2 into the mummin and to the ranthia. Felt like all 3 got full or fully activated.
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While I was resting and meditating I had an interesting conversation first with Mirabelle, then with mom (unicorn mom) then dad (unicorn dad).
Maribelle basically went into detail on how she would do a certain thing that she had mentioned before, that involving sex we would have.
Then she mentioned that mom does find me as attractive and as a future person she would see as a lover. She said that there is a special relationship between someone adopted into the family and that I am and others in the family like her (meaning mom). I'm still... accept this but I guess it's the human or culture that seems a bit odd, only slightly. Maybe that is something I need to drop, it is pretty close to dropping and I hope it does help since I do want help in getting to become my true self. I did ask Mirabelle if she was sure since I'd guess mom had lovers already. I asked how dad would feel. She said he'd be happy that mom had someone to see to her special needs that was a family member, an adopted one that would allow him (meaning me) to see to her special needs. I guess Mirabelle was meaning some sort of sex, a special type or something, but she'd not go into detail.
Then she came into the conversation to talk a bit. First she touched horns with mine and I can't describe what she did. She then said something like, <having read your essence I can say that I accept you as a future lover>
My adopted unicorn mom that is. She said that there is a special bond between say her and me, a family member who's adopted into the family, but not born or conceived into the family. I asked if she had other lovers for that, she said she had a few, after a brief pause, but the bond we would have as lovers would be a special one. more then as just lovers. She then said, as it felt like she touched her horn to mine, saying she is very subtle in her seduction. She promised that the first few times I'd likely not be aware that I was being seduced till maybe after I had thrust into her, and maybe not even then. I wonder what that'll be like. I guess it's one of those kidding with a touch of being serious.
Then unicorn dad, dad I call him, appeared and touched our horns. then he said he gave his blessing if we should choose to have children together. You meaning me and mom (unicorn mom). I mentioned my surprise to him and is he sure. he said I had given my blessing to Mirabelle to have children with her lovers if she and they choose. I guess this means the same thing. Still a bit surprising. then dad mentioned some dolphins live nearby, and he sent me an image of some dolphins playing in the water. He said, in a joking manner, they'd not be able to keep their phins off of me, especially if once they found out I was a fellow phin, to use a term I had used before. he then said in a joking manner I'd likely have kids with them also. I said let's not rush into things. he said I did have eternity. True. I do. I guess this maybe is them being serious, but also helping me with getting more into my true self and shedding the human personality skin, which I'm grateful. Though I do feel they were being serious also about the stuff like mom and me becoming lovers one day, maybe having kids together, and the dolphins.
As fun as that may be, I'll still do my best to become my true self as much as i can as fast as I can.
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Forgot to put down. On the bus on the way home I was contemplating, maybe the human personality is but a thin tissue. Thinking now as I type this, maybe I need to but to dissolve it. Maybe instead of yanking it off. Dissolve it bit by bit. I think I am already doing that, but I can do more of a focus on that too.
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