Monday [9-21]

I did the 21st Radiance: self exciting, building the light body meditation today. Not many more days and I'll be done with this first pass. 

This meditation went interesting.  I felt my true form or body outside the universe.  It felt at the same time, gigantic, formless and an indistinct form.  Though it had some tentacles or it could have if it wanted I felt also.  Though those could be the symbolic separate selves maybe, the multidimensional me's doing stuff at the same time maybe. 

I felt a pull towards it and embraced it and the closest thing I can say is I melted or dissolved into it and became me.  hard to describe.  the Fullonia cocoon was outside the universe, larger then the universe, but also contained the whole universe including the earth solar system as well as the other frequencies I could feel also.  

The formless form or whatever it was that was maybe the true me or body was in a place where I could see what were like portals, each portal was to a different universe, including this one.  For this meditation I was either a point of consciousness or this immense gigantic formless form being.  or both.  Felt like I could poof have a form, the point of consciousness but I decided nah, I'll remain like this for the rest of this guided meditation.

Overall an interesting experience.

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 I do wonder how humans stand it.  Being in such limited bodies.  Feels like I'm in a suit that is at least several, or more, sizes to small and in a straight jacket that is also at least several sized to small, and forced to live a linear existence in 1 set form and 1 set gender with various other limitations on such a savage world where they kill each other, fight, steal, ect.  though earth does have it's fun points, it is really a limited very dense, savage barbaric world.  I do hope this changes over the next few thousand years to a 4th density world.  I would wonder how the native earth humans can stand it, but I doubt they know what is really out there. Someday they may, but when, who knows, and they may learn more of themselves one day, one day perhaps.

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I did the 2nd meditation for the day.  Most of it was the same as before.  I experienced myself as a somewhat formless immense being.  The tentacles were not tentacles were actually different selves, multidimensional incarnated, or that was my understanding of it.  I had no distance form. hard to describe.  It was like a wall, with lots of small squares and each square was a different time, location, planet.  like time was all laid out in front of me as a wall of squares, so to speak.  I dwelled outside of time.  And some of those were incarnations.  That was the extensions.  Each one that lead into a square was a separate time and location and or world.  For those of me that were incarnated they were embedded inside time, living a linear existence, or as much as each one had to.  I would guess some less dense places were less forced linear existence.  Earth being a firm locked linear one. 

This incarnation is meant to last till the 2nd wave comes into their own and takes up the mantle.  Not for the whole shift nor the whole lifespan.  I was both this being, but also myself.  I did my Fullonia for the entirety of this universe as well as all the frequencies of energies.  The full me also did the Fullonia light/energy and all the frequencies, but he/I did it at the entire wall of images, with the intent of it going to every one of the ones I was incarnated into.