Wed 9-23

Didn't get much sleep last night, my sleep's been totally messed up since last night.  also got at most 20 minutes from a nap, likely less. My schedule is all messed up. 

also had an interesting experience that I'll ask Ceta about.

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I did the guided meditation for Radiance: self exciting, building the light body and it didn't go like I thought at the beginning and later on it as meh, though since my sleep is all messed up I'm not surprised.  At the beginning Lugia & Ceta appeared.  They were temporarily merged I think, with Ceta looking like a Cobra type naga. Ceta un-merged and we hugged  and embraced.  Then a bit later another me appeared, in a mix of anthro dolphin and orca, which I was in when Ceta and Lugia appeared earlier.  The other me also hugged and embraced as well and did as close of a kiss as possible.  I felt this wasn't another aspect but the full multi dimensional me using a, I guess, 4th density body to pop over to visit me.  I experienced each of these incidents while also experiencing being in the human body also.

The rest of the meditation went much like the previous ones where I visualized the Fullonia cocoon filing the whole universe, with no set border.  Also feeling my full self was outside the universe, outside time perhaps as well, the form indistinct. Not sure if it is partially formless, the human mind can't fully conceive of what its like, or other reasons. Though it may be a mix of them also.  I also felt a sort of sadness coming from outside myself.  I'll add that to what I'll ask Ceta.

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I did the meditation for the 2nd time today and not a lot to report for this one.  I felt less frequencies like earlier, I expect since I'm not fully awake.  Also my mind wondered a lot compared to usual, again I'm not surprised since I'm still not fully awake.  It want mainly as usual.  felt right for the Fullonia energy/light to fill the whole universe.  with me being aware of my true full self.

I did have a short conversation with Ceta. I asked him 1 question, I'll put that into the channeled post that will follow this one.

he appeared to me during part of this.  He appeared in what looked like a sorta generic anthro cetacean form.  We embraced and I felt the deep love between us.  I'm never aware that I start embracing him since it just feels so natural to do so.  He did start caressing my butt, 1 hand on either side of my tail. The caresses were in both a loving and a very seductive sexual manner.  I could feel our energies touch and mingle together, merging along the edges, diffidently a mix of loving, sensual, sexual. A very wonderful experience.  he also said to me during this, "This is just one of the perks of your going to choose to not merge into me."

I feel his meaning was we'd be very close deep lovers, sexual and otherwise.