Maybe not the best time to do this since I was still very tired from walking around earlier doing something I had to do. Though Im still tired as I type this. Seems whenever I go outside the apartment it takes a lot out of me for some reason.
Doing the meditation was very interesting. I enjoyed it. This time I could feel and could hold the entire Fullonia Cocoon in my awareness. I could feel and in my mind's eye see it, in the usual non color color. I could also feel and hold in my awareness not only the entire Fullonia cocoon but also the different layers.
When he had a guide, higher self or soul come into the experience, he seemed vague on what they were suposed to do, I asked Lugia since as far as I know I have no guides, nor a higher self, and my soul is a vehicle. I asked Lugia and she sent a part of herself. I didn't expect this part of her to fully merge with me, then Karinus and Ceta appeared to flow energy into me that I could feel was helping in some how. I could then feel the Fullonia cocoon was much larger then Daben was saying and had more then 3 layers. not sure how many I was able to hold in my awareness and feel/see, at least 6 I'd say. No idea on the size, but much more then the 30 feet. I was also able to hold all the layers. Very interesting meditation with interesting experiences.
I feel like maybe either I expanded, or more likely I became aware of more of my true being. Like Lugia merging with me helped with that. Also I understand how I can be part of the family, what some may call the collective, and how I can be an individual also. I can feel I'm already merged, at one with them, part of them, but also I'm an individual. hard to explain, but I can feel this, though it also feels like due to the density or something to do with being incarnated here, I can only feel a bit of it, like I can't feel all of what it really is like. But I can feel that I'm a part of them, we're one, but also we are each individuals. Not quite what I mean, but it is hard to explain what I mean in English.
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This, doing it the 2nd time went much as the first. Thought I was able to hold the whole volume, it was for shorter periods of time. I think it was maybe due to my feeling more tired. I once again was able to experience being one with my true family, but also that each of us are individuals at the same time. hard to explain what it feels like, having that experience. This time I was aware there are many members of the family, though I don't know how many. Didn't try to see if I could tell since the exact number is unimportant to me.
During the meditation, during a time Daben was talking I felt a warm, sorta moist touch on my cheek, and in my mind's eye saw a tentacle waving in front of me. I felt it was Fred and it was. He said he thought I may want companionship, which I thanked him for, he said he'd remain silent to not interfere with the meditation.
During the part where you ask for a guide, higher self or soul, I asked if he wanted to help & he said Lugia is far better at this sort of thing. I asked if she wanted to join in and she did, though she seemed a bit reluctant. Fred said he'd assist her. She said she wanted me to rest after this mediation and I said I'd do like I usually do at this time. She seemed a bit reluctant but was ok with that as long as I promised to do that. She and Fred channeled or merged energy into me, though I do feel like I have more energy I can still feel the being very very tired underneath it.
Overall a great meditation, I look forward to doing it more, & am glad Fred popped up, I hope he does more in the future.
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